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i wish i could change my level of reliance on my parents. so like i wish i didn’t live under their roof or have to live by their rules and morals

i want to write and be published and find love and peace and be content with what i have at any given point in time

i hope to complete my homework well and get good grades and do well in school in general. the national honor society induction ceremony is in a week or so and i hope i don’t embarrass myself there

i desire affection. i miss kissing and holding hands and cuddling while watching movies. i want that, but with someone who cares. my emotions are all over the place tbh i’m very overwhelmed and burnt out with all the stress in my life and i can’t seem to focus on anything. i’m holding on by my fingertips

i’m hardly ever at home between habits and friends and my own life. my parents are struggling with it more than i am. i’m the last to go so they’re holding on tighter but in a matter of months, i’ll be an adult living on my own.

i’ve had three poems published in three different magazines and am waiting on word from a chapbook contest. i’m peaceful.

i’m somewhere between 5th and 6th in my class of 60. i’m president of my school’s chapter of national honor society and completely ran this last fall’s induction ceremony. i don’t really care whether or not i embarrassed myself honestly because i’ve already left my legacy: founded my school’s gay straight alliance, established a new fund raiser for my county’s sexual assault prevention agencies, and have hopefully impacted student and staff lives for the better!

i’m swimming in love right now. nothing serious, but i’m kissing, i’m holding hands, i’m cuddling while watching burlesque on the couch with people i absolutely love. i’m still stressed. i still fall into depression that feels insurmountable. but i’m doing better, i have hope, i’ve gotten into every college i applied to so far.

soft songs for gentle humans who won’t admit they’re hurting