need f*ggot to stop meaning gay bc it’s so much more than that. i still don’t know what is has to do with gay men but in my heart i feel like it’s such a sharp word it has to mean something very specific and im still trying to refine the definition but so far it’s like: somebody annoying in an incredibly specific, insufferable way. i think it lowkey needs to be a straight man but a man who hates women just to hate women (again can be a gay man but usually not so it has no real correlation to gayness). or like mr beast soy face thumbnails. something like that. ill update with more refined definitions.

forever struggling between my gender abolitionist side vs my rampant misandrist side. can’t just go off on men who say “dudes being dudes” anymore. can’t eat up the concept that men have no original thoughts and only steal from women in their lives. even though it is true bc of deep rooted patriarchy. i can’t engage in any of that kind of pro women rhetoric. bc the bioessentialism makes me sick and also i need to have hope for the gender abolished future of humanity.

i think all my major childhood best friends were doomed yuri and thinking about them will make me cry

crying bc i found a young fat gay boy on tiktok and his content was wholesome like he wants to be a writer it’s his new hobby and he had a falling out with his crush and he has a bad relationship with his dad we’re literally the same person. imo kids shouldn’t be allowed to have social media like this especially not public accounts but this was so cute bless i hope he never changes seriously bless this baby. and like i found him under a sound about a popular gay creator and just the fact that he has queer influencers (regardless of their potential flaws bc idek them like that) to see online and is confident and comfortable enough post himself makes my heart ache. that being said im glad most his videos had no views and it should stay that way and his account should be privated and hidden from strangers thats the only way i’ll accept children online. i sometimes get youtube shorts of random children with social media accounts just dancing or doing random trends or slice of life stuff or whatever and it feels wrong everytime bc i know yt might push this video to a creeps algorithm and this child shouldnt be allowed to post let alone be pushed randomly onto an algorithm and fed to creeps it makes be so disturbed i have no choice but to report it for child endangerment not all heros wear capes.

just visited the j*rdan p*terson subreddit... absolute cancer from top to bottom. the very first post i see is discussing the differences between the male and female brain... and the way they view the world is so rotten like they genuinely hold so much hate in their heart. gonna try not to become a radfem or kms tonight <3