excuse you

Death 1: Burned. Despite your pleading, she chose to follow you with a trident through herself. You were forced to seal yourself away in a locked memory, the only option left for you and her.

Death 2: Halved, but you found yourself pregame on Sollux's timeline. You knew he would never understand and that when it happened, he would remember that you tried to warn him.

Death 3: A strange alternate timeline. Unknown death cause; Nepeta has just been physically abused by Equius and it evidently has happened in the past. It turns out that she couldn't handle your death on top of this weight. It was truly a stroke of rare chance that at the last moment, she decided not to follow you, as she said she would. But was leaving her, and the world as such, any better? 

Death 4: ...You're not sure what that was. All you could tell before waking was something involving birds, bitterness, betrayal, and excruciating pain.