moonvenusearth

i genuinely really enjoy the art of shopping independent creative designers, Black and Brown preferred. and looking for sustainable and accessible options (and mixxxxxxxxxing them)

it's like i keep thinking about the people who i want to keep safe and i'm like overthinking it like.....i want to forget all the fucked up shit from over this long past period of time. and i want to keep my good memories.

and i want to just forgive and free myself above all for not recognizing certain signs from the past when it came to who i feel safe with and who i don't feel safe with and where i feel safe and where i don't feel safe

like i did all this shit precisely so i don't feel the need to run anymore. not just from unsafe ppl (i can just remove myself) but also from happiness and joy and all of these new loved ones on the horizon

this is the final form of masking i think that's so hard for my audhd and eldest shit...letting go of the feeling that i need to handle it all and push myself until i'm depleted. it inevitably impacts the energy of the ppl in my field. and i'm starting to understand the true range of my impact is...v wide