moon? moon.

love my downward spiral :) #myspiral #descending

it is so annoying being so self aware about all my issues like okay what now girl

forgotten middle child syndrome the number 68 stuck between her funny number siblings 67 and 69. is this anything.

You people are normal right. If I learn how to be a person from you it would be fine right

i imagine being medicated would feel good as fuck. unfortunately i have to rawdog whatever's wrong with me

imagine hating me and im just in my room straight up sobbing

time to feel sick about every decision i’ve ever made in my entire life

sometimes it feels like I should just shut up forever and not do anything at all

i mentally killed myself a hundred times

anxious attachment hiding under 9 layers of avoidance

is this happening because i was born

til my self sabotage do us apart

when its getting bad again but you can‘t talk to anybody about it so you lowkey just sit there and let your thoughts consume you

unfortunately i can’t control everyone’s perception of me down to the smallest detail. unfortunately they have their own lives and brains that inform the filter they see me through when i exist near them. and i could be the greatest possible version of myself and i could people please until the end of time and i could walk a thousand miles through the desert repenting and still it would not change this one fundamental fact

im sorry that was a bad joke. i can kill myself if you want

there's a special place in my heart for people who made an effort to be my friend regardless of how quiet or distant i can get at times

i wish i were rich because that way i could comtinue being Insane & Useless and it would be fine like not even a problem