why does my future depend on me i dont like this

life is unbearable, but death is not so pleasant either

another day in my own personal hell

the memories, repressed are coming back, leave me alone 

im living a lie in a world not made for me, i either lie to the world or lie to myself 

i need you, i miss you

but mostly fuck my existence for making me love a person who doesnt exist

do you ever get mad at yourself because you are you

no human can ever possess my soul

i feel very helpless

some nights you dance with tears in your eyes

i like it when it hurts like hell, theres nothing you can do to me i wouldnt do to myself 

you cant be the hero of someone who doesnt want to be saved

tell me, how do i fix this?

my heart will forever be broken 

one day you make a choice and nothing else matters, its a choice that has no justification, its unforgivable. it takes everything away and leaves nothing behind

im beginning to say my goodbyes, it is almost time to go now