realms of melancholy

time for my final act of love? letting go and saving them from myself?

I have a tummyache but I'm being so brave about it

leave me alone for 2 sec and my life starts flashing before my eyes

amazing how after every natural interaction with people it's like wow im alive

ooh it's raining time to whip out my emotional support father figure album mono.

b-beauty in the mundane [gasping for air] beauty... in the [choking on blood] mundane... [holding back tears] beauty.... beauty in the... mun.. *hic* *sobs* mundane

I'm my best most furious defense attorney like I can do no wrong in my eyes ever

it's okay it's okayy I just have to wake up everyday, brush my teeth, figure out what to eat and go to work it's okay it's just everyday for the rest of my life that's so fine it's so okay haha just every single day

I'm evil but I'm also so sweet and soft but I'm also rotten beyond repair from the inside but I also have so much love to give even after all that has happened but I'm also incredibly full of hatred and dark vile thoughts but I'm also-

how do you cope from the loss of a parent? I feel like I'm constantly falling in an endless pit and I'm always sick to my stomach. I don't think I'll ever be okay again.