moonlight on fresh snow.

you're not the only one, baby.. trust me. I keep clenching my thighs cause I can feel how soaked I am and now I'm squirming in my chair. I'm supposed to be streaming and playing games with the boys but.

tomorrow. I'm gonna bite you, at least. even if we're not still feeling this, I wanna feel my teeth in you as I sit in your lap and hold you.

you're perfect, you're body is perfect. even when you want to have it be a little different, even when you find you want a small change.

i'm so, so excited for it. i can't wait to feel you biting me.

that made me cry. you'd know better than anyone what's wrong with me. i know it hasnt been long enough for you to forget me hurting you.. or every stupid thing i got upset over.

if you can see all of that and not only still love me and want me, but also see me as perfect.. i don't even know what to say. i'll do my best to be what you see me as.

but you're right, it should be me and it only ever should be me. no one should ever get to reach that deep inside you and fill you full like I do, only I should get to make you take it like that.

ugh.. god. i hope you know what you're doing to me right now. i'm so needy and i can tell i'm soaked even without checking..

you can tie my down sometimes but, not always. I do have other people I wanna see, thats true. but I'll always come back to see you. after all, you're one of those people I wanna see too, y'know?

you needed me this week and I was worried about you, I didn't want you to be left alone in a new situation that you're adjusting to still. I wanted to be the comfort you could latch onto in the uncertainty.

i want you to need me cause I need you too, I want you to choke on it. I want to suffocate on it and I want you to suffocate me with it. I want you to miss me so much it hurts, I want you to know I feel the same.

I want you to need me so bad that the moment I'm in your space, your hands reach for me immediately and your body is on mine like a magnet. I want to be wanted. I want you just the same.

but I don't want you to Really suffer.. I wanna give you more to calm down when I can't be there, whatever you want I'll give you.

i know. i know and i love you and it makes me feel so happy knowing you care about me tha tmuch. i know because of how yuo treat me that it's real care. tha t you really mean it when you say that i'm special to you.

i absolultely absolutely do. i miss you so much it hurts and its' only been a few hours. it's patheti c. i'm apthetic for you and id on't think i can be any other way.

i need you . i need you.

to be hones t. i don't think trying to manage it is reall yworking. i think i'm still getting more desperate for you ev ery day.

you've ruined me for anyone else. the way i love anynoe else doesn't compare to what i feel for you at all .