the future doesn't exist yet. everyone around you who seems so certain of who they'll be in ten years is harboring an idea, hoping, but all we have is right now is our current reality inching forward with time. if you don't know who you want to be yet and can't even imagine a future with you in it: it's okay. you aren't supposed to know everything, or have this detailed view of what you want it to be like. but there's no harm in hoping for a future that fits you, and watching it shape itself into a more tangible reality as it comes. most importantly, you don't have to feel guilty for not feeling like you're able to see past tomorrow. you can take it one day at a time.
i was thinking about this today and would just like to add: the future not existing yet also means that everything you’re dreading, everything you’re afraid of, every worst case scenario you’ve conjured up in your mind is not real. you’re not doomed to mess up anything, you’re not facing a set-in-stone future, and whatever you do today can change everything you’re afraid of. so, if it helps, stop scolding yourself for becoming someone or going somewhere that, at the at the end of the day, is just a hypothetical.
