What a long, strange trip it's been

Don't wanna come home late and make a mistake for you. It's easier to let a heart wait than make a heart break for you. I give you pieces of my secrets like religion to believe in. And all the jealous gods can burn me down and start again. 'Cause you belong to somebody else. And I didn't want to but I couldn't help it. And I know it's wrong to call this sweet hell upon myself. You belong to somebody else.

Standing now, in the mirror that I built myself. And I can't remember why the decision wasn't mine, but it seems I'm only clinging to an idea now. Took my heart and sold it out, to a vision that I wrote myself...I only wanna die some days. Someday, someday. When I burst into flames, I'll leave you the dust, my love. Hope a bit of it will be enough to help remember the days when we came to this place. I told you I'd spill my guts. I left you to clean it up. I'm bursting out of the-Seems like now it's impossible to work this out. I'm so committed to an old ghost town. Is it really that strange if I always wanna change? And if only the time and space between us wasn't lonely. I'd disintegrate into a thousand pieces. I think I'm making a mistake, but if I decide to break, who will fill the empty space? So now if I figure this out, apart from my beating heart. It's a muscle, but it's still not strong enough to carry the weight of the choices I've made. I told you I'd ride this out. It's getting harder every day somehow. I'm bursting out of myself.

Please picture me in the trees. I hit my peak at seven feet. In the swing, over the creek. I was too scared to jump in, but I, I was high in the sky. With Pennsylvania under me. Are there still beautiful things? Sweet tea in the summer. Cross your heart, won't tell no other. And though I can't recall your face, I still got love for you. Your braids like a pattern. Love you to the moon and to Saturn. Passed down like folk songs. The love lasts so long. And I've been meaning to tell you, I think your house is haunted. Your dad is always mad and that must be why. And I think you should come live with me and we can be pirates. Then you won't have to cry or hide in the closet. And just like a folk song, our love will be passed on. Please picture me in the weeds. Before I learned civility. I used to scream ferociously any time I wanted...Sweet tea in the summer. Cross my heart, won't tell no other. And though I can't recall your face, I still got love for you. Pack your dolls and a sweater. We'll move to India forever. Passed down like folk songs. Our love lasts so long.

Even on my worst day, did I deserve, babe, all the hell you gave me? 'Cause I loved you, I swear I loved you till my dying day. I didn't have it in myself to go with grace. And you're the hero flying around saving face. And if I'm dead to you why are you at the wake? Cursing my name, wishing I stayed. Look at how my tears ricochet...You know I didn't want to have to haunt you, but what a ghostly scene. You wear the same jewels that I gave you as you bury me. I didn't have it in myself to go with grace. 'Cause when I'd fight, you used to tell me I was brave...And I can go anywhere I want, anywhere I want. Just not home. And you can aim for my heart, go for blood, but you would still miss me in your bones. And I still talk to you when I'm screaming at the sky. And when you can't sleep at night, you hear my stolen lullabies. I didn't have it in myself to go with grace. And so the battleships will sink beneath the waves. You had to kill me, but it killed you just the same. Cursing my name, wishing I stayed. You turned into your worst fears. And you're tossing out blame, drunk on this pain, crossing out the good years. And you're cursing my name, wishing I stayed. Look at how my tears ricochet.

I can see you standin', honey with his arms around your body. Laughin' but the joke's not funny at all. And it took you five whole minutes to pack us up and leave me with it. Holdin' all this love out here in the hall. I think I've seen this film before and I didn't like the ending. You're not my homeland anymore. So what am I defendin' now? You were my town. Now I'm in exile seein' you out...I can see you starin', honey, like he's just your understudy. Like you'd get your knuckles bloody for me. Second, third, and hundredth chances. Balancin' on breaking branches. Those eyes add insult to injury. I think I've seen this film before and I didn't like the ending. I'm not your problem anymore. So who am I offending now? You were my crown. Now I'm in exile seein' you out. I think I've seen this film before so I'm leavin' out the side door. So step right out. There is no amount of cryin' I can do for you. All this time, we always walked a very thin line. You didn't even hear me out (You didn't even hear me out). You never gave a warning sign (I gave so many signs). All this time, I never learned to read your mind (Never learned to read my mind). I couldn't turn things around (You never turned things around). 'Cause you never gave a warning sign (I gave so many signs). So many signs, so many signs (You didn't even see the signs).