baldwin montclair â centuries-old strategist in a modern skin. tailored lines, quiet menace, the kind of authority that doesnât need to speak to be obeyed. philippeâs legacy made flesh, the de clermont who keeps the world in order through precision, power, and immaculate control.
Mun and muse are 35+
21+ muns only, do not interact if you are a minor.
Common triggers that appear in vampiric blogs will appear here too such as : violence, threatening/intimidating behaviour, predatory instincts and blood feeding as well as hunting metaphors, he is a political operator and domineers the global finance market so expect : authority, control, manipulation, emotional manipulation, mentions of generational trauma, emotional wounds and moral ambiguity.
revamped 02/06/2026
// I think I am done with my revamp who wants a starter.
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There was not much revealed in Baldwinâs words to the usual listener, but Amadeo got a fair bit of information out of him. There must be another vampire much stronger and older than Baldwin, and they must be living in some kind of coven? Was that the word? Maybe that was the word; Amadeo never talked about it to Marius, as he thought every vampire lived like Marius. Well, frankly, Amadeo also thought that every vampire is a blonde person, but now he got confirmation that this was not the case by just looking at Baldwin. Whatever, Amadeo got confirmation of his suspicion pretty quickly when Baldwin talked about his father. Maybe coven was the wrong word, it was more of a family clan from what he heard now. But he also noticed that Baldwin used the past tense when talking about his father. Which led Amadeo to the conclusion that he was not around anymore.
âA god among men. Thatâs hard to comprehend to a mortal mind. But considering that you used the word impressive tells me more than other words of description ever could. You donât strike me as a man who uses this word easily. Impressive, a strong word to use when describing another person.â Oh, he knows nothing about Baldwin, and yet here he was pretending to know things after such a short conversation. He had no gifts that could potentially help him to figure the vampire out, and still, Amadeo had the sharp mind he could use. A mind that maybe ended up seeking danger too much.
He was fascinated by the monstrosity and grotesque things. Pretty flowers would never catch his interest when there was a hedge of thorns almost thicker than his pinky. One fall into this piece of flora and scratches were the least of his problems. He lowered his hand as he watched the predator named Baldwin coming closer. His movements were smooth, seemingly unthreatening in their steadiness and slowness, but Amadeo knew better. Baldwinâs coolness radiated from his body and mixed with the hot temperature that surrounded the mortal. Being smaller, Amadeo had to tilt his head up just so slightly to keep their eye contact steady.
The corner of Amadeoâs lips curved up just so slightly. âThe bloom is useless. Beauty is a gift, certainly. A gift that can be used to advantage, but for how long? Autumn and Winter will come, and what will remain of the bloom? Nothing. But the thorns will still be there. Strong. Unwavering. They arenât pretty to look at and yet attention is on them.â And right now, Amadeo talked about himself. He was a bloom. People enjoyed looking at him; they admired him for his beautiful face. But for how long? How much longer until his beauty was no more than a side note? âI touch seemingly dangerous things because they lose the danger when you get acquainted with them. I respect the danger, but that doesnât mean I am scared of it. A thorn can sting and draw blood but only if I push too hard. I am in control of the outcome. Am I not?â
But was he in control when it came to a powerful vampire? No. Not when he makes a wrong move. And yet Amadeoâs steady heartbeat gave it away that he was not unsettled at the moment. He was curious and almost devoured the bit of history tutoring he received from a real Roman who was not afraid of saying how things were. Different times, different morals. Amadeo wasnât judging, and yet it made sense to him why Marius had no qualms kissing a young Amadeo back then. It was normal to an ancient Roman. Maybe he was even too old now for his dearest Master? âGoogle is a disgrace to the human race, my Master would say. If you want to find information, go to the old libraries and read in the old manuscripts, as knowledge is only to be secured on paper. And if you do not know the language in which the paper is written, you shall learn the language,â Amadeo quoted Marius while leaving it open whether he agreed or not. Seventeen and two children already. Amadeo was in his mid-twenties. He was old now. Unappealing to his Master. His Master loved him most at seventeen, maybe at sixteen even. Now it made sense and put the pieces of the puzzle together he tried to put together so desperately.
His dark eyes lingered intensely on the Vampireâs face in front of him. He tried to read something in those seemingly perfect features, but there was nothing for a mortal to read. Baldwin seemed to be exceptionally good at hiding whatever emotion he felt. Was he even facing any emotions right now? He was fascinating. Like a book in a different language he couldnât read yet and had to learn before. Baldwin was this new language that had to be mastered first to understand the knowledge it was bringing.
âWhat would be your reason to keep a disruption around, Sir?â
Something lingered between them, the heaviness of Baldwinâs words. Carefully, almost in slow motion, Amadeo lifted his hand. Lean, long fingers stopped mid-air. âA little leaf, Sir,â he warned before he picked up the stray leaf from the vampireâs shoulder. And yet, Amadeo didnât break eye contact, not even for a single second. He hummed a bit, smiling softly.
âIt does bother me. A waste of potential, donât you think? Or I may overestimate myself as I am sure, you meet a lot of interesting, intellectually pleasing people. Tell me, who was the most interesting mortal you met within the last..hmm..the last decade. And what made them interesting?â
Baldwin did not look away when Amadeo lifted the leaf from his shoulder,he allowed it â which, for Baldwin, is already an answer. His cold discerning gaze followed those lithe fingers from the moment they lifted to the moment the let go of the leaf.
The leaf fell from Amadeoâs fingers. Baldwinâs gaze did not.
The air between them sharpened.
"You think the bloom is useless but you underestimate what beauty does to a battlefield. A bloom distracts. A bloom disarms. A bloom makes men hesitate." His eyes flicked briefly to Amadeoâs mouth, then back to his eyes. "And hesitation wins wars."
"It is not thorns on the banners that made men bleed, The Tudors, the Lancasters, the Yorks...Rose blooms on their flags and a proud country bleeding for which one would win...but I never was fond of roses. Edelweiss on the other hand, I thought spoke of devotion much better. A man had to climb the tallest mountains just for such a small and unassuming blossom surviving where nothing soft should survive, growing in thin air, on cliffs, in cold that killed a hundred men demanding effort altitude and danger to be earned. A bloom that is beautiful because it endures, not because it pleases. Lush and fragile things don't draw my attention, the ones that survived storms do." And what was Marius if not a storm Amadeo was thrown in the middle off, an entire perception of the world and it's order turned topsy-turvy.
A breath of night wind moves through the hedge. Baldwin didnât move with it.He studied Amadeo the way a strategist studies a map â not for decoration, but for weaknesses, routes, hidden terrain.
"Thorns endure, yes but they do not change the course of anything. They simply remain."
"You are not a thorn, Amadeo as much as you would like to be. And you are not a bloom." A recalibration.
"You are the hand that chooses where to place them."He lets that settle â the idea that Amadeo is not the ornament, but the one who wields ornamentation as a weapon.
Then, slowly, Baldwin answered the question Amadeo actually asked.
"The most interesting mortal I met in the last decade was a man who did not realize he was interesting."A pause as deliberate as it was weighted. "He thought himself ornamental, replaceable and temporary."
"He was wrong."
"What made him interesting?He asked questions no one else dared to ask such as... Why keep a disruption..."
His eyes narrow, not in suspicion but in recognition â the way a man acknowledges a creature who has stepped into his line of sight and refused to step back.
"Because disruptions reveal truths that complacency hides because they force the room to shift. Because they make powerful men show their hand."
His gaze drifts briefly toward the mansion, toward the fundraiser, toward the invisible threads of politics and alliances humming behind the walls.
Then back to Amadeo.
"And because some disruptions..." His voice lowered as he bent to conspire near Amadeo's ear. "...are more interesting than the order they disturb."
YOU CAN ADMIT THAT IM YOUR FAVORITE SIBLING, BALDWIN !!
"Typical spoiled princess raised in the lap of luxury to chase status even among elevated peers. I didn't let Freyja or Verin doodle disproportionate sheep on my maps, did I? It is not Hugh or Godfrey I have piggybacks to despite being smelly and needing a bath, was it. Need you hear it and have the obvious affirmed anaticula?"
do you ever see your sibling and just have this overwhelming urge to smack them for no reason? like my brother will walk into the room and iâm like âoh man i guess i have to end youâ
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So this was Rome's answer to the sacking of Paris' coven? A child. A vampire not even a decade old escorted by the mad queen? No, Rome took from them and Baldwin with presession would take from them. A son for a son old poems of vengeance sung, a vampire for a vampire.
Marius was his friend. Did they really think they could kill him and have no one respond? No one to claim revenge? So brazen to send the only thing left of Marius to France? France! To what? Taunt them with Amadeo rising in power on the other of a country?
It happened fast. It was a precise and meticulous strike. Amadeo...Armand whatever the name, deserved a hero of old, someone virtuous and kind but instead...he got a soldier. One that planned this strike to the milometer, fast, disciplined, using terrain familiar to him and his sisters but unfamiliar to those sworn to protect him.
"I was looking forward to enacting the decimation" A brutal punishment from Roman times were cowards and traitors were made to beat their comrade to death to teach them the penalties of gross misconduct. But only one of them survived the assault.
"Take her fangs. Take her fingers. If you survive the walk back to Rome on your broken legs tell Santino I will come for him. He claimed a Roman life, I will see him punished the old way â tied to the stake, beaten until his spine remembers what courage feels like"
The young...so very young vampire curled his hand around his wrist when he went to take a step, it caught him out, the cherubic vampire had not spoken or moved since they ransacked the carriage.There was a moment where he assessed the value of the fledgling, it was not enough for him to be made of Marius, there had to be value as a man...and found him worthy. "I am bringing him to Sept-Tours. To Philippe to ask for sanctuary to be granted, he has seen Rome's coven from the inside, it's members...their weaknesses. Objections-"
Verin shook her head, Freyja did as well. Baldwin lost his friend, what was this if not an extension of his loyalty to Marius, a fellow Roman.
His hand rested on Armand's as he lowered himself to speak so very lowly for the young vampire's ears only. "They took him from me too. And I will answer the loss of him." If Philippe permitted it. If not, Armand would have to answer it for him.
"Answer me as a man, has Rome broken your strength is there a fight left in you. I have no use for a broken vampire...If I cannot take revenge do you have the strength to make Santino answer for his crimes if I teach you how." Eyes of a commander, a man that needed merely to glance at a man and see his worth and measure it dressed him down, had he been broken or merely dented.
If he did not have strength left in him, if he had been entirely broken....then he would do the merciful thing and send Amadeo to the Elysian fields to find his maker. No more suffering, no more enduring....
She deserved the truth, she deserved to know and she deserved to hear it from someone that would let her lash out or collapse in the privacy of Philippe's study. "Hugh is not coming back-by order of the French King he was burned at the stake." He handed her the letters, one after another, death by a million cuts.
"No- there will be time for weeping and mourning. I will give you ten minutes alone to handle this how ever you need to and after that you will go and fetch your weapons and we are going to retrieve his ashes. I will take you if you can handle containing your feelings and do this without seeking revenge on the way. We will bring his ashes home...and then we will gather as a family and decide our answer. Can you do this? Can you pull yourself together and be sharp and focussed or will you be a liability. Speak truth-" Baldwin too was hurt...but there would be time for mourning and it was not now.
It had to be them taking the journey, their parents needed to think and mourn.
"It is the burden you and I must carry for them. Before their minds fall to action we must have returned with his ashes so we can bury him. But I can do this alone if revenge taints your strong mind" It is a warning, she can come and be the one to come with him but only if she did only that. Arm herself so they could defend themselves if they needed to...but no action to be taken until Philippe commanded it.
And as he promised, the privacy of the study for ten minutes. Ten minutes for her to do as she needed to do and then he expected a weapon not a weeping mourner.
â the meaning of life is that it stops. â / ysabeau in the aftermath of philippe dying :3
@unbeleveable // meme
The words hit him like a blade heâs taken beforeâclean, inevitable, merciless.
For a long moment, Baldwin doesnât speak. The surrounding room is too still: Philippeâs study, untouched since the day the world cracked open. Dust motes drift in the late light like ash. The scent of old parchment, old leather, old memory. Ysabeau stands where Philippe once stood, and Baldwin feels the shape of absence like a second presence in the room.
When he finally answers, his voice is low, roughened at the edges, as if dragged up from somewhere he keeps locked behind armour.
"Then what is left of us is what we choose to carry."
He steps closerânot touching her, never presumingâbut close enough that she can feel the steadiness he forces into himself for her sake. His gaze is not the commanderâs now, nor the patriarchâs. It is the sonâs. The orphaned one.
"You speak of endings but Philippe⌠he made us instruments of continuance. Of duty. Of memory. He knew life stops. He built us so that meaning doesnât."A breath. A fracture of something unguarded in his eyes.
"He is gone. Yes. And it should have killed us both."His jaw tightens, a soldierâs attempt to hold back the tide. "But it didnât. And that is the part I cannot forgive him for."
The candle nearest him gutters, throwing his face into a shifting chiaroscuroâhalf shadow, half grief, all discipline. "You say the meaning of life is that it stops" Baldwin says, softer now, almost reverent. "Then the meaning of us is that we do not. We endure. We remember. We avenge. We protect what he loved, even when it breaks us."
He looks at her fully then, the way a son looks at the only other person who understands the shape of the wound they share.
"When we lost Hugh, Philippe felt like the only constant left except from you." There will never be softness to his words to her but to a man of duty, of hierarchy, to a son made heir she is the only one of what is meant to be the twin pillars of their family.
His hand reaches for her left shoulder slow and deliberate enough that she can avoid it if she chooses, if she did not then he would squeeze it gently.
"You survived everything else, you will survive this too." Because she had to.
The corridor is narrow, old stone and older shadows, the kind that swallow sound and make breath feel too loud. A draft moves through it like a warning. He stands with his back halfâturned, profile carved in cold light from a high, barred windowâevery inch the medieval predator he has always been, every inch the commander who has buried more wars than Floribeth has lived years.
When he finally speaks, itâs low. Controlled. Dangerous in its restraint.
"Farther than youâre prepared to see."
He turns fully then, and the air seems to tighten around them. His eyesâancient , unblinkingâsearch her face not for fear, but for resolve. For the steel Matthew saw in her. For the reason Baldwin hasnât already sent her back to her dorm and locked her out of this entirely.
"Youâre asking me about limits,â"he continues, stepping closer, boots silent on the stone. "I donât have them. Not when it comes to my family. Not when it comes to Matthew."
His jaw flexes, the only sign of the fury simmering beneath the armour of discipline, Matthew is missing and Matthew does not disappear leaving Floribeth wondering if she had been abandoned.
"And not when it comes to you." His not quite....niece? Foster whatever? Matthew took her under his wing recently and the lost duckling meant something to his brother.
The torchlight flickers, catching on the sharp line of his cheekbone and the tenseness of his jaw , remnants of a life before immortality, before command, before he learned to bury softness under centuries of duty.
"If someone has taken him," Baldwin says, voice dropping to a quiet that feels like the moment before a blade is drawn, "I will tear apart every coven, every council chamber, every hidden nest from here to the Levant. I will burn down alliances. I will break ancient laws. I will make enemies of old friends."He leans in, just enough that she feels the cold gravity of him.
"What I need to know is how far you are willing to go. Because once we begin, Floribeth⌠there is no path back to the life you had."
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â iâm not sure i wanna fuck them or be them. â
@endless-youth // meme
Baldwin doesnât react immediately. He never does when Dorian throws something wicked and glitterâsharp into the air. He just looks at himâslowly, like heâs turning a jewel to catch the light, or a blade to catch the edge.
The party hums around them, warm and bright. Baldwin feels like the one cold shadow in the room.
Then he steps closer, close enough that Dorian feels the shift in temperature, close enough that the words land for him alone.
"Indecision does not look good on you" he spoke, voice low, almost amused. "But if you canât tell whether you want to fuck someone or become themâŚit usually means theyâre not worth either."
â at this point, the closet is literally made of glass. â (dorian could be talking about himself, could be talking about somebody else... there's lots of choices here LMAO)
@endless-youth // meme
Baldwin doesnât laugh. He never laughs at Dorianâs little barbs, even when they amuse him. What he does instead is lookâa slow, assessing turn of the head, the kind that makes the air around him feel suddenly colder, as though the chandeliers above have dimmed by a fraction.He steps closer, enough that Dorian can smell the faint trace of cedar and old paper on him, enough that the noise of the party blurs into a distant shimmer.
"Glass, is it?" he replied in a low voice. "Then he should be more careful where he stands. People who live in transparent rooms tend to forget how visible their fractures are." His gaze flicks toward the man in questionâbrief, surgical, dismissiveâbefore returning to Dorian with far more interest than he ever grants the rest of the room. He stands next to a peacock but assessed a while ago that it is an armour Dorian wears, much like colour means danger in nature, he advertised with warning.
He does not judge them. Not morally, not personally. Baldwin understood better than most that some truths are dangerous to reveal. He spent centuries hiding parts of himselfâhis grief, his loyalties, his weaknesses, his desires. He knows what it means to survive by silence.
What he cannot stand is hypocrisy.
"His closet is a prison where someone else holds the key." And that was as far as he would go on voicing an opinion, he worked in one of the most conservative and rigid institutions that still stood. The choice of said man's behaviour warranted attention though...why.
// I think I am done with my revamp who wants a starter.
I am familiar with most vampiric fandoms and as Baldwin is an investment banker and the head of a conglomerate you/your muse don't need to know the ins and outs and I can easily kick him into other worlds!
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Baldwinâs loyalty to Ysabeau is one of the most complicated, quiet, and misunderstood loyalties in the entire de Clermont family. It is not the fierce, sacred, identity-defining loyalty he has for Philippe â nothing could be. But it is also not the cold, political loyalty he gives to the Congregation or the Knights.
It sits in a third category entirely:A loyalty born of respect, shared burden, and the strange intimacy of two people who loved the same man in utterly different ways.
Ysabeau is the only person Baldwin treats as an equal
Not in rank â in experience.
Ysabeau is:
older
sharper
more politically seasoned
more emotionally disciplined
more dangerous
Baldwin respects power, and Ysabeau has it in a form he cannot command or control.She is the only one in the family he does not try to dominate, correct, or outmaneuver.
He doesnât defer to her the way he did to Philippe. He doesnât resent her the way he resents Matthew. He doesnât pity her the way he sometimes pities Diana.
He simply⌠respects her.
That is rare for Baldwin.
She is Philippeâs widow â and Baldwin treats that as sacred
This is the heart of it.
Baldwinâs loyalty to Ysabeau is an extension of his loyalty to Philippe.
To Baldwin, Ysabeau is:
the woman Philippe chose
the woman Philippe trusted
the woman Philippe loved
the woman Philippe protected
the woman Philippe would want Baldwin to protect
Baldwinâs Roman mind translates this into:
âShe is under my protection because she was under his.â
It is not sentimental. It is not maternal. It is not familial in the soft sense.
It is duty as devotion.
Ysabeau sees Baldwin clearly â and he knows it
Ysabeau is one of the only people who can:
read him
anticipate him
call out his bullshit
see the man beneath the armour
And Baldwin, who hates being seen, does not hate it from her.
He trusts her judgment because she is not fooled by him. She does not flatter him. She does not fear him. She does not need anything from him.
Ysabeau is the only person who can say:
âYouâre lying to yourself.â
And Baldwin will actually listen.
She is the only one who shares his grief for Philippe (in his eyes don't bite me)
This is the bond that neither of them speaks aloud.
They are the two who:
knew Philippe best
loved him longest
understood him most deeply
carry his legacy in their bones
Matthew loved Philippe emotionally. Ysabeau and Baldwin loved him structurally.
They were Philippeâs:
strategist
partner
general
queen
weapon
heir
They grieve him in the same language: silence, discipline, and duty.
This creates a loyalty that is almost gravitational.Not wanted, not chosen, just inevitable.
Baldwin trusts Ysabeau with the parts of himself he hides from everyone else
Not because he is soft with her. But because she is safe in a way no one else is.
Ysabeau:
cannot be manipulated
cannot be intimidated
cannot be shocked
cannot be disappointed in him
cannot be threatened
cannot be lost (in his mind, she is unkillable)
She is the one person he can stand beside without performing.
This is why, when he tells her:
âI trust you with parts of myself Iâm afraid to show anyone else,â
he means it.
And she knew exactly what he meant.
Baldwinâs loyalty to Ysabeau is protective, but not patronising
He does not treat her like someone who needs guarding. He treats her like someone who deserves guarding.
There is a difference.
He protects her because:
she is Philippeâs
she is family
she is formidable
she is the last pillar of the world he was made for
He protects her the way a soldier protects a queen â not because she is weak, but because she is important.
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Baldwin's loyalty to Philippe, his turning, the Pietas that defines their roles
Baldwinâs loyalty to Philippe isnât loyalty in the ordinary sense. Itâs not affection, not gratitude, not filial devotion. It is something older, harder, and far more binding:Baldwinâs loyalty to Philippe is the axis his entire identity rotates around.
And the tragedy is that Baldwin doesnât even realise how absolute it is â because to him, it simply is. Like gravity.
Philippe is not just Baldwinâs 'maker'â he is Baldwinâs origin story
Baldwinâs mortal life ends in chaos, blood, and failure. Philippe appears at the moment Baldwin is:
dying
defeated
abandoned
stripped of purpose
Philippe doesnât save him. Philippe redefines him.
Baldwinâs second life begins with:
structure
command
belonging
a place in a hierarchy he understands
Philippe becomes the architect of Baldwinâs identity. You donât betray the architect of your soul.
Loyalty as Roman pietas â sacred, unquestioned, instinctive
Because Baldwin was Roman, he interprets Philippe through a Roman lens:
paterfamilias
commander
patron
moral centre
judge and protector
To a Roman, loyalty to the paterfamilias is not emotional. It is cosmic order.
Baldwinâs loyalty is not a choice. It is a duty encoded into his bones.
Philippe gave Baldwin the one thing he values above all: purpose
Baldwin is a creature who needs:
structure
rules
hierarchy
responsibility
a battlefield to command
Philippe gives him:
the Knights of Lazarus
the de Clermont name
a role in the familyâs political machinery
a mission that spans centuries
Baldwinâs loyalty is the loyalty of a soldier who has finally found the right general.
Philippe trusted Baldwin with the things that mattered
This is the part that shapes Baldwinâs entire worldview.
Philippe trusted Baldwin with:
enforcement
diplomacy
the familyâs reputation
the Knights
the dirty work
the decisions no one else wanted to make
Philippe trusted Baldwin to be the one who gets it done.
Baldwin internalises this as:
âI am the one who carries the weight.â
And weight-bearers do not betray the one who entrusted them.
Baldwinâs loyalty is sharpened by grief
Philippeâs death doesnât weaken Baldwinâs loyalty. It calcifies it.
Philippe becomes:
the standard Baldwin measures himself against
the voice he hears when making decisions
the ghost he tries to live up to
the father he still serves, even in death
Baldwinâs grief is not loud. It is a vow.
Baldwinâs loyalty explains his hostility toward Matthew
Because Matthew is:
the sentimental son
the favoured son
the one Philippe loved
the one who breaks rules Philippe valued
the one who gets forgiven for things Baldwin would be punished for
Baldwinâs loyalty to Philippe becomes resentment toward Matthew.
Not because Baldwin hates him. But because Matthew represents everything Baldwin was not allowed to be.
Baldwinâs loyalty is the reason he is so rigid, so harsh, so unyielding
He is not cruel for crueltyâs sake. He is enforcing Philippeâs world.
Every rule Baldwin upholds is a rule Philippe believed in. Every decision Baldwin makes is filtered through:
âWhat would Philippe expect of me?â
He is not trying to be liked. He is trying to be worthy.
The core truth: Baldwinâs loyalty is love, translated into duty
He would never call it love. He doesnât have the emotional vocabulary for that.
But it is love.
A soldierâs love. A Romanâs love. A sonâs love, expressed through obedience, discipline, and sacrifice.
Philippe is the only person Baldwin ever truly, instinctively, unquestioningly loved.
How Baldwin interpreted his turning â the truth beneath the armour.
Baldwin never saw himself as a victim of Philippeâs turning. Not for a single heartbeat but he also didnât experience it as a soft, sentimental coronation. What he felt was something sharper, older, and far more Roman: He believed Philippe had chosen him â judged him worthy â and that this choice bound him to a lifetime of service, excellence, and obedience. A coronation made of iron, not gold.
To Baldwin Philippe was a demi-god come to bestow duty and purpose on him beyond the mortal plane...and in a way it was true.
Not a victim â because victimhood is weakness
Baldwin was a Roman soldier, a man shaped by hierarchy, honour, and the brutal clarity of war. To see himself as a victim would be to admit:
he was powerless
he was acted upon
he was lesser
Baldwinâs entire identity rejects that. He would rather die again than think of himself as someone who was âdone to.â
So he reframes the moment of turning as:
a battlefield rescue
a strategic intervention
a recognition of his worth
Victimhood is something he refuses on instinct.
Not a coronation â because coronations imply affection, celebration, elevation
Philippe didnât crown Baldwin. Philippe claimed him.A coronation is ceremonial. Philippeâs turning was functional.
Philippe saw a soldier with:
discipline
command presence
groomed for senate politics
a mind for strategy
the will to survive
He didnât give Baldwin a throne. He gave him a role.
Baldwin understands this perfectly. He never romanticises it.
What Baldwin actually believes: âI was forged.â
This is the closest to Baldwinâs internal truth.
He sees his turning as:
a forging
a commissioning
a binding oath
a transformation into a weapon worthy of Philippeâs army
Philippe didnât save him out of mercy. He didnât elevate him out of love. He selected him.
And Baldwinâs psychology is built around that selection.
He thinks:
âPhilippe saw what I was. He made me more of it.â
Not victimhood. Not coronation. Consecration.
A soldierâs consecration.
The emotional core he never admits: it was the closest thing to real affection he ever received
This is the part Baldwin would die before saying aloud.
Philippeâs approval was the only form of affection Baldwin understood:
respect
trust
responsibility
expectation
the right to carry the familyâs burdens
Philippeâs turning of him was the moment Baldwin felt:
âI am seen. I am valued. I am chosen.â
But he translates that feeling into duty, not sentiment.
So what does Baldwin call it?
If he had to name it, he would choose something like:
an honour
a commission
a command
a burden worthy of a soldier
Never victimhood. Never coronation.
A pact. A pact sealed in blood, battlefield smoke, and Philippeâs unyielding gaze.