Hit the Reset Button
I've been hitting my reset button lately- For the past few months I have been focusing about 98% of my time on finding a job- which has meant that I have been putting passions of mine, like this blog, on hold. This journey has been hard but educational. I have grown in so many ways in my job searching process and I have been digging deep down in myself to really try to figure out what I want my career to be and where I want to be in the next 10- 15 years. I have been interviewed for a variety of different jobs- a couple that I would describe as my perfect job- only to then be sent the dreaded "Thanks but no thanks" letter, or just to be left hanging with no response at all. This is something we all go through when looking for a new career but quite frankly, I'm getting sick of it and I'm becoming more lost now than ever. Is it me? My personality? Am I weird? Am I stupid? These are questions I find myself asking now and the self doubt is taking over. I am mad at my past self for not doing more, not pushing harder in my career journey. Why didn't I pursue other routes earlier in my life? But I can't turn back time and so I must learn from my mistakes and believe that I am here, right now, in this journey for a reason. I am constantly being told by friends and loved ones that "the right job will come along" "it's their loss for not hiring you", "it's not meant to be"- and while these words are comforting, I am screaming inside. I can't wait for the right job anymore- I needed a job like 3 yrs ago- my family is depending on me- every day that goes by now is another day of a career gap on my resume. I do not regret staying home with my children- I have precious memories that I would not have made if working (especially in retail) but it has made it much harder to get a job and to add the fact that I do not want to do what I was doing before I left my career- working in retail. Sure, I'm good at it, it's what I've done since I can remember- but it's just not where I feel like I should be- So where should I be?














