live it up.

I’m a runner. When anything undesirable happens, I will run away and avoid the situation as a whole. Likewise for my recent relationship. We broke up, but I never had the chance to ever fully express the emotions I was feeling and explain why I was feeling the way I was. So here are my final words:

I can truly accept the fact that we weren’t right for each other, I can also accept the fact that you can date immediately after our break up, and I can also accept the fact that you cheated on me while we were dating.

BUT, I can’t and won’t accept the humiliation that you caused me and how horribly you have treated me after everything. All that I have asked for was respect and all that I have received was the complete opposite. I asked for a friend in return, but not only did you fool me in saying that you would, you decided to embarrass me amongst my colleagues and made me look a lunatic. I left and yet you found me again to do it all over. You think since I left a toxic environment that that will be the end of it. Of course not. You poisoned my new environment and I have to run once again to avoid such a negative environment. 

And let me remind you, while you were doing all that, I was taking care of your dog. And making sure that you’re emotionally ok, because I knew you didn’t like being alone and you apparently didn’t have many friends. 

 After all that you’ve put me through, I still put you first and myself second. I cared more about the aftermath for you. more so for own sanity. All I asked for was respect and all you did was spit in my face. So let me run this one last time, and that will be the end of you and I. I am done, and I hope you are too.