deepthoughtsofnad

Missing you? I thought it was but that was not it either.

It’s grieve - Grieving for the family I wish to have till the day I die.

Grieving for the partner that I wish to have.

Grieving for the husband who I once had.

I can’t love you now for how you have treated me. We can’t be together after the damages that you have done. Our families broke because of your betrayal.

I’m fine.

However, I do not miss your betrayal, your negligence, your dishonesty and your temper tantrums.

In time, I will try to get over this mixed feelings for you.

Funny.

Yesterday, he told me he would wait for me and the kids when I am ready to accept him back.

Well, to hell with that.

When you thought the one who will be by your side will be forever yours, that person betrays you. And yet, you showed compassion and empathy. You forgave them. You gave them chances.

Then they trampled on you again and again till you can no longer stand up for yourself. They broke your spirit and your confidence. They shift their faults towards you.

And the sad thing is, you believe them.