2 failed relationships, 2 dogs, 2 mental health diagnosis, and 1 failed career. That’s 5 years for you, Tumblr. I am back! Still simping for Harry Styles and 2000s punk - I guess some things never change.

Take my body and show me where your existence truly lie.You do not have to utter a single word nor make any sound. All I need to hear is the beating of your heart. Hold me right in my core, never let me go.

Do you ever think about all the lives you could have lived; all the people you could have been; all the souls you could have met; all the poems you could have read. Do you ever feel the weight of all the chances that you could have taken; all the possible outcomes that could have been; and all the perspective you could have seen. Do you ever think about how the sun rise and sun set looks on the other side the planet; how the stars twinkle in the night sky on mountain high. Do you ever wonder about all these things and ask yourself: "why am I here, instead of anywhere else?". I still do not know the answer. Hence, I am writing this poem.

When I lay next to you With our hands intertwined, and our feet tangled into a mess of sheets I always have a hard time deciphering which heartbeat is truly mine. You make my body combust into million of filaments Making me feel a whole spectrum of emotions. Showing me that my troubled soul calms when im with you. I fell inlove with the kindest heart i have ever laid eyes on With a pure vision of beauty and A lustful of passion. You're what I'd hope you'd be I ask you another favor, Maybe the hardest I can ever ask. Do not leave me, nor be distant I cant barely keep you out of my mind, even when you're right beside me.

I am not a blanket I am not designed to warm your naked body while you lay down beside me. I am not designed to be left out in the closet when it's already too hot outside. I am not a blanket yet you treat me like one you fold me neatly in the morning Shower me with compliments that I could never forget so I could wait for you to come back at night You treat me like a blanket I am not a blanket yet I chose to be yours. Use me to warm your night I'll be there to calm you down Wrap my arms around you, I'll tighten my embrace everytime nightmares visit you at night.

Take me as what I am Make me your new addiction Treat me like your new drug Take me, burn every doubt Inhale every molecule Feel the emotion stir you up Make me stay in your system Long enough so you can't forget bliss in the most natural form. Treat me like your drug dont let me slip on the grip of your hands Make my existence your survival