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She is so beautiful. You don’t get tired of looking at her.

You messaged me out of the blue. I wasn’t looking for anyone, In fact I was too busy running from someone else, But I slowed down enough to reply “Hey.” You slowly became my good morning text, My drunken phone call, My tearful FaceTime when work had wrung me out like a dirty tea towel, And you were there, Always. When you visited, you fit into my house like a piece of furniture That had always been there but I hadn’t noticed. Your body left imprints in my mattress, And I couldn’t stand to see them disappear when you travelled back to the other side of the country again, So I asked you to move in after three months. “You’ll regret it.” “It’s too soon.” We would giggle at the messages as we moved your teddies next to mine, And slid your books on my shelves and your posters on my wall. Now you are never away long enough for the dent in the pillow to vanish, Because your head is there every evening, Beside mine, Kissing me goodnight. And all it took was “Hey.”

I’m not the girl your mother warns you about. I won’t kiss your best friend or break your heart. I won’t make you choose between what you love to do & me. I’m not cold. I’m not reckless. I’m the girl your father mentions when your mom’s not around. I’m the girl that gets away. I will love you more than anything. I will kiss you when you cry. I will stand by your side until you decide otherwise. And you’re just like your father, so you will. You’ll let me go & I won’t look back, But you will. I promise you, you will. I’m that girl.