Journal Entry #1 - August 8, 2023
Seven years ago, I portrayed myself as someone who will fulfill my dream, no matter what. I would go through thick and thin, even if I do it alone, just to fulfill this goal. Be a writer.
Since I was in elementary school, I have always wanted to be a writer. Sure, I've also said I wanted to be a teacher, a chef, a scientist, a singer, and even an actress. But writing has been one dream that I didn't give up on. In fact, I loved immersing in myself in the thing that I wrote, I couldn't help but feel like I wouldn't be happy if I didn't become one.
So I pursued it, through high school, and even through college. I took up AB journalism as my course because that is what I've always wanted to be, a writer. But then, I graduated, I took up a job as a company receptionist for half a year, then I got introduced to a media company where I became a writer. The only writer in that company, and I didn't have any superior that can give me experience.
When I left, I was able to apply to a publilshing company but the job offer was taken back before I could sign anything, so I ended up as a Customer Service Agent, also known as a call center agent. A position in the BPO industry that caters to the helpline of companies for retail, media, and other branches.
I currently work now as a Logistics Escalation Specialist in one of the worlds biggest e-commerce company, and I have been there for four years and counting. But because of the demands of the job, I left my dream behind in order to ensure I give my best to this job. So over the years, my dream is slowly being pushed to the back, making up excuses and continously telling myself that I can just start over again when I have the time.
I never got the time, but now…
Now, I'm pushing myself to get back into it, as I found myself lost in the sea of "grinding day in and day out". I can no longer recognize myself and I've resented many things in my life now. But I resent myself more, as I've let go of the one thing that gives me joy.
So I'm writing again, slowly but surely, hoping I can find that happiness I once felt.
So here's to me, giving my dream one more shot!
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