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Acrylic on canvas with mixed media, 42 x 20 x 2 1/2 in.

girl it’s just a 3 day trip, you do not need to bring your terracotta warriors 🙄

i used to say that i hate my phone so much but then i realized that technology is a neutral resource exactly like sugar or money. and the more i think about it the more it makes sense. even the way people talk about a carb detox is the same way people do a dopamine detox from social media. but carbs are not bad! for example if you’re a runner you know how useful sugar is, even some candy before a sprint can have its place. and carbs are not all the same like tumblr is not the same as instagram, and quantity matters! but also money. so many people think money is bad but money is not intrinsically evil it’s a neutral resource. i can use it to help someone in need, or it can bring a sense of safety or be a resource for art-making. but the more one thinks in scarcity the more they overspend, the more one cuts sugar out the more they crave it. i think it’s the same with technology - once i stopped saying that i hated my phone i forgot about it and it started to become a tool for creativity rather than something i was feeding some undefined hunger with. sometimes i still catch myself saying i hate my phone and i take a second to pause.

you know what is missing from modern writing? The spirit of adventure. It’s mostly all neurotic psychoanalysis. Trying too hard to be vague. Not admitting that you just want to write about yourself, which is very dangerous. No care for lyricism in the work. No sense of adventure because all of these MFA holders are over educated and under experienced.

I Sexually Identify as an Attack Helicopter was one of the best works of sci-fi of our generation and one of the best works of transgender fiction ever written, and there are world renowned authors who still have successful careers after they publicly assassinated the nascent woman who wrote it. I don't think they should ever know peace.

Isabel Fall is the patron saint of works unwritten and art unmade by a culture that cannot tolerate trans women

I think this constantly and then I get angry for thinking it, because trans women should not have to be martyrs or saints to animate our politics and our art. that work should have been her debut, not her epitaph. I should be moved by her career, not her absence. I could spit.

read it again

stop thinking with your dick and start thinking with your pussy. ok now stop thinking with your pussy and start thinking with your dick again. meditate on the differences between them. call me back when you get it.