Mia91♏️🌙

i don't know if it's just me here, but i feel like i need so much assistance even if im not small. it's like... it would help me tons if someone was there to guide me through my tasks. not that they have to do everything for me... but just sit with me like a parent would with their kid to do homework... give me gentle reminders and guide me if im too overwhelmed or lost. but at the same time i don't want to be a burden, im a big girl and should be able to do my things alone and without any/much help... and yet, i can't get them done because i get overwhelmed and stuck, but the thought of the task bothers me all day long. :c

supposed to be big girl but i feel so so small still and i don't think that's too good...

anyone else ? :((

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Synastry. Don’t let astrology limit you, you can have the relationship you dream of!

Alone With You.

First, I would like to state that I am not an astrologer. I’m writing this description or whatever you’d like to call this because I created a playlist based on this synastry overlay. My process of creating playlists is like an author writing a book. For this reason I wanted to write this short story (or whatever you’d like to call this) to explain my song choices into my own words based off of the research I did on the Sun being in someone’s twelfth house. If you have any experience with this overlay or if you are an astrologer, let me know your thoughts and experience because I genuinely am interested.

The conscious (Sun) in your unconscious (Twelfth House).

The Sun person lights up the unconscious of the Twelfth House person. This overlay has the potential to create growth, deep intimacy, and the experience of unconditional love. Because the Sun person lights up the unconscious of the Twelfth House person, the Twelfth House person may be very uncomfortable and suspicious of the Sun person. As a result of this, the Twelfth House person may try to keep their distance, yet they still feel a strange pull to the Sun person. These actions by the Twelfth House person may make them appear mysterious to the Sun person and thus a pull to want to know more. Based on my research, it is vital that the Sun person has good intentions and is mindful of the way that they treat the Twelfth House person. It is also vital that the Twelfth House person stops running away from themselves because by them making friends with their own unconscious, this synastry overlay may not be as scary as it seems.

Okay, now to get into the playlist I created and the story it tells based off of this synastry overlay. The playlist (can be found by pressing the link at the bottom of this post) contains 5 songs put all together to create a 17 minute long vibe with the subtitle “Alone With You.”

To kick off this playlist I used the song Santorini Coffee by melvitto. It starts off with the line, “I know what you want baby, I know what need mama.” I felt like this was perfect to start it off because the Sun person has a sort of knowing about the Twelfth House person that can feel as if they’ve been spying on them. So the first song is basically from the Sun persons perspective. Then comes the lines, “Everything you do you got me oh so into you. Me I’m feeling you, me I wonder. How did I find you? Where did I find you? Where did you come from? Can I follow you?” I feel like this is emphasizing the mysterious nature that the Twelfth House person can seem to have to the Sun person and them wanting to know more.

The second song is On the Low by Burna Boy. The first line to stand out to me when it comes to this playlist topic is, “You know I feel a vibe, you feel a vibe.” The reason why is because I feel it can represent the strange, yet powerful pull the Sun and the Twelfth House person feels towards one another. This next line I feel can be a representation of how the Twelfth House person feels, “Why you want to dey question me like an interview.” I feel like because the Sun person in this playlist is genuinely really interested in the Twelfth House person and has good intentions, it can come across as if they’re overbearing in a sense and the Twelfth House person is like uhhh can you leave me alone and like back up lol. Then the chorus of this song is the same as the title and this can represent the hidden nature of the relationship. From the research I did, it was mentioned that this synastry overlay can be cause for a relationship that takes place behind the scenes or in this case “On the Low”. Talk about sneaky link except with all the feels lol.

The third song is in French and I will translate the lines that I describe to English. This song is Doucement by Ronisia and doucement translates to slowly in English. I feel like the title of the song kind of represents the pace that this synastry overlay should probably go at, although it may not. Based off of my research, I personally would take a relationship like this slowly because although it may feel so intimate and maybe even telepathic, a relationship that lights up the unconscious should be handled with care and patience, but that’s just my opinion. The lines, “J'sais qu'c'est dur ouais, j'sais qu'c'est dur. Ah nan c'est pas la peine de penser aux autres.” Translates to “I know it’s hard yeah, I know it’s hard. Ah no it’s not worth thinking of others.” To me, the “I know it’s hard” line speaks for itself, that this synastry overlay can be difficult, but the “it’s not worth thinking of others line” is kind of saying like hey, through the hardships we can get through this so what’s the point in focusing on other people? Let’s just focus on us and overcome these hardships together. The next line is, “Dans ma tête, y a que toi, j'connais pas les autres.” and this translates in English to, “In my head, there’s only you, I don’t know the others.” And this continues on from the last line and my interpretation of it, but I feel like it can also describe another thing that came up during my research which is how the Sun person can appear in the Twelfth House persons dreams and in a way infiltrate their mind. The third line from this song that stood out to me, “Tes défauts, j'ai pas l'temps d’m'y arrêter.” And this translates in English to, “Your flaws, I don’t have time to stop there.” This I feel represents the unconditional love that this synastry overlay has the potential to gain if given the chance. Loving someone for being imperfectly pure, but at the same time maybe also brushing over their insecurities and idealizing one another, which was mentioned during my research.

The fourth song takes us back to the English language and is titled Meet Me in Amsterdam by RINI. The first line that stands out to me is, “There ain’t no sunshine, no sunshine where I was before. But I found the Love, the warmth in your arms.” Although the line “your arms” is mentioned, I kept it in this description because in my opinion without it the, “But I found the Love” line would look odd. But for me, when it comes to this synastry overlay, this line is representing the Twelfth House person and the Sun person lighting up their unconscious mind. And them learning to love the things that they pushed away and ran away from, the things that they once refused to confront about themselves and make friends with. The Sun person helped teach them to love those parts of themselves. Another line from this song is, “When I saw her in my dreams, never thought it meant a thing.” This line kind of continues on from the last song, the Sun person appearing in the Twelfth House persons dreams and basically infiltrating their mind, I feel like the next line I’m about to emphasize will tie into the “never thought it meant a thing” line, that being from the outro, “If there is a next time, Meet me in Amsterdam.” I said this ties in because the twelfth house person as mentioned before can be very suspicious and can throw mixed signals (emphasis on the IF from the line “If there is a next time.”) to the Sun person because this synastry overlay can be scary for them, which is why I recommend taking it slowly/doucement.

And finally the last song, also the namesake of the subtitle of this playlist is Alone With You by Alina Baraz. I believe in Happily Ever Afters so for me, this song was the perfect Happily Ever After to describe my Sun in the twelfth house synastry overlay playlist. For this song I’m not going to emphasize whether it’s the Sun person or the Twelfth House person feeling this way, I’m just going to say this is them now unified. From the first verse of this song, “You’re feelin’ a way, baby, I feel it too. You don’t gotta tell me about it, we could dance around it, we could rendez-vous.” I feel like this is just perrrfect lol, like you’re so connected that you feel how the other person feels and you’re not forcing them to get it off their chest, we’re just going to “rendez-vous”. Next line, “I’m overprotective, baby, we’re connected. Gotta get you out of this mood” this line to me just continues on from the previous and finding ways to cheer the other up to help get them out of the funk. The third line of emphasis from this song for this playlist is, “Breathin’ life into you.” To me, this is breathing life into the unconscious, the unconscious becoming conscious as a result of this synastry overlay. This next line was a big one for me, “I’ve grown with you, Yet our love stays the same.” This to me represents the growth that both individuals encounter as a result of this relationship, yet the unconditional love that they feel for one another never stunted. It’s them growing as individuals, yet still having each other through the thick and the thin. Fifth line of emphasis from this song for this playlist, “Look at you and I see versions of me that I need.” This I feel represents the idealism that this type of relationship can entail. Like you’re so fascinated by one another, that you feel like you need that person in your life so that maybe you can soak up some of their greatness and one day you can be as great as you think they are.

Now let’s end it with “Alone With You.” To me, this is what Sun in the twelfth house synastry overlay is. Being alone with that one person. Nobody else involved, maybe even nobody else knowing that you two are involved with one another. Literally, just, Alone With You, living Happily Ever After…

Added June 11, 2024: I’m listening to H.E.R.’s album and this song comes up that I totally forgot the existence of and this post and playlist came to mind. I thought I’d add it to the playlist because I feel as if it ties together the story told through the original songs mentioned in this post. If you’d like to listen to the playlist in full, the link can be found by clicking the link after the added song. :)

(In this post Venus may sometimes be referred to as she and Pluto as he, this is nothing to do with actual gender it’s simply the masculine and feminine energies that the Planets represent and constantly saying Pluto-Venus got quite redundant.)

Venus Conjunct Pluto 

The Pluto persons hidden desires and fears are awakened by the Venus person. The Pluto’s obsession for the Venus person is intense and often hidden. The Venus senses something deep and powerful lurking within the Pluto person, they are both fascinated and scared of the intensity of the Pluto. Often Venus doesn’t realize that Pluto has set his eyes on her, his desires are primal and passionate, he might watch her like he wants to tear her apart. She is light and carefree, able to chanel the energy of the Sign the conjunction is occupied by in an easy going and charming way, he wants to possess her perhaps even destroy her. A lot of the time these two don’t even come together. Pluto doesn’t want to lose his power, and power games between these two are popular, so he never makes the move. I noticed that Pluto is the one who usually has the upper hand in the relationship. If Venus is fascinated with the depth and passion of the Pluto person and makes her interest known, Pluto will often feel like he already did all that he had to do, he got her. Making the move would mean giving her the upper hand, now one might be rejected and lose the power. The relationship is often extremely passionate, the two cannot get enough of one another, they seem to always be together, obsession is very common in this configuration and Pluto is often very jealous of who Venus is giving their attentions to. Sometimes I find that Pluto can be quite mean to Venus, this is something they do to protect themselves they want to seem like Venus means nothing to them and therefore has no power to hurt them. Pluto is terrified of being hurt or rejected by the Venus person. Sex here can be healing to both parties, Pluto is a great lover that brings a lot of passion and heat into the bedroom, their touch is something Venus can become addicted to. These two love being in close proximity to one another, they seem to always be touching. Pluto loves to touch Venus and Venus melts to that touch. In general sex is quite amazing for the two of them, they are very compatible in this area and once that boundary is crossed sex becomes very important and quite constant. Sometimes Venus may sense something dark beneath the Pluto person and might just choose to stay away, they feel a destruction coming on and if they aren’t the type to like having their world shaken up then they best stay away. This relationship is very transformative, Venus shows Pluto the lighter aspects of life, and Pluto is able to bring Venus below the shallows and into the depths of love. These two tend to always remember one another, even if it was a short relationship, or maybe it never even became anything solid, these two will remember one another forty years down the line because something deep within them was transformed or brough to consciousness during the union. There is often an end to something in both peoples lives that leads to a rebirth. This might denote a secret love affair, a lot of the time other people around the couple have no idea that the two are involved romantically. 

SURVIVAL INSTINCT MEANS...

Survival instinct is a natural response to imminent danger, where your body responds by triggering a fight, flight, or freeze response to keep you safe.

The fight response involves confronting the threat head-on, the flight response involves escaping or avoiding the threat, and the freeze response involves hoping that the threat will pass.

However, being in this state for prolonged periods due to trauma can have damaging effects on our physical and mental health.

HOW STRUGGLES OF CHILDHOOD MANIFEST HERE

When faced with difficult upbringing and authority figures, a child often learns to build a wall to protect him/herself from the world.

This protection mechanism acts as a behaviour of emotional unavailability, anger issues, passive aggression and depression.

Slowly, your body starts keeping count of your trauma which leads to major health issues like high blood pressure, heart illness, diabetes and more.

IN MEN

It can lead to a highly complex ego where you seek external validation through superficial status, short-lived relationships and a running away mentality. Also, an extremist mentality.

IN WOMEN

It can lead to a high inferiority complex where you people please or are hyper-independent, focus too much on external beauty and couldn't assert yourself. Also, a victimhood mentality.

IN YOUR NATAL BLUEPRINT

Your ancestors survived many calamities so that you can break the patterns of the sufferings you are carrying within. These patterns can manifest as...

HOUSE OF ARIES AND MARS

Whichever house Aries and Mars are located in, that house shapes the way you survive the most challenging battles and bullying.

HOUSE OF SCORPIO AND PLUTO

This house shapes the way you transform yourself after going through ego death. Shadow work here brings immense healing to your ancestry.

HOUSE OF CAPRICORN AND SATURN

Whichever house Cap and Saturn are located in, that house shapes the way you learn karmic lessons and channel ancestral gifts to achieve legacy.

SUN-SATURN ASPECT, SUN IN LIBRA/ AQUA

This aspect makes you learn lessons about your identity, soul and heal inner criticism.

MARS-SATURN ASPECT, SAT IN ARIES

This aspect makes you learn lessons about your assertiveness and how you show up. A prominent survival instinct that needs nurturing and stability.

MOON IN SCORPIO, VIRGO, CAP, AQUARIUS

This aspect makes you close your heart space due to difficult childhood. Your healing begins when you prioritise self-care and emotional consciousness.

MOON-SATURN ASPECT, SAT IN 4TH HOUSE

This aspect makes you learn lessons about your emotional boundaries, home life and ancestry. Here, you heal by redefining what home/ family is.

PLUTO-MARS ASPECT, MARS IN 8TH HOUSE

This aspect makes you hyper-aware of the energies around you. Trusting your intuition is needed here.

VENUS-SATURN ASPECT, SAT IN 7TH HOUSE

This aspect makes you isolated from partnerships (business or love). This is also an indication to not repeat parental patterns within your relationship.

VENUS-PLUTO ASPECT, VENUS IN 8TH HOUSE

This aspect asks you to heal patterns around power struggles, abuse, finance, ancestry and intimacy.

VENUS-NEPTUNE ASPECT, VEN IN 12TH HOUSE

This aspect makes you learn about the importance of boundaries and not justifying destructive habits, especially within partnerships.

HOW YOU THRIVE INSTEAD OF SURVIVE

Practice cognitive reframing by challenging negative thoughts and replacing them with more positive and realistic ones. Set realistic goals.

Engage in activities that promote relaxation and stress reduction. This can include deep breathing exercises, therapy or mindfulness techniques.

Be gentle with yourself throughout the healing process. Understand that it takes time to recover from a prolonged state of survival instinct

facts about the 3d

1. its forever a reflection of imagination/self, its a follower

you change self -> the 3d changes too because thats the law (thats how powerful you are). when you change yourself all the 3d can do is follow. it always expresses self. the 3d will always copy and follow self, it will always copy who you are being in imagination (your identity)

2. its forever neutral

the 3d has no original meaning bc you always assign everything meaning based on your state/perspectives

3. its forever changeable

since you are the operant power, you always have full control. the shit you see now is temporary. it always changes bc you are always changing states. dont feel discouraged when you havent seen any 3d change bc you know that it will change once you truly change self. nothing can possibly be permanent in the 3d so worrying about if "circumstances" will be there forever is useless. you have all the control at all times.

4. its forever an illusion, a lie

you experience the 3d via 5 senses which are limited asf. things you see might not be the things that are actually happening. i cant see gravity pulling me down, does that mean theres no gravity?

5. it does not have a mind of its own, its dead

how can the 3d think for itself if its only job is copying imagination? it is a limited version of imagination that is only a mirror. the 3d doesnt hate you, its not your enemy, you are assuming it is. you see how you always assume meaning because you have all the power? the 3d doesnt have that power. its dead means it has no original power. its nothing but presenting self like how a channel is presented on your tv (3d). it is indifferent, it doesnt mean anything, it is only a screen reflecting self.

6. the 3d follows, it never precedes

it cannot do anything without your decision, anything that happens is as a result of your state/your assumptions. it will always follow self (reflection of you). it cannot act out and give you what you dont want unless you change self. so it only follows you around. it has no control to take the first action because you are the first action.

the 3d is always below you because you are always in control of it as the operant power. you decide, you choose, you assume, you become, you embody, whatever word you like to use, you will always be above the 3d. everything is in your control always.

but the 3d never matters bc ur 3d could be an absolute mess but u can still manifest. why? bc its all about self! you can always change self and that, by law, changes the 3d. so the 3d only changes when YOU change. this is why we tell you to just focus on changing self!

i decide i am the version of me who has what i want in imagination (changing self) and its done. i know the 3d is nothing so if i see something i dont want: "its a lie" "its an illusion" whatever words you like, either way its neutral. i just gave it to myself so it rly is done.

"Life does not care whether you call yourself rich or poor; strong or weak. It will eternally reward you with that which you claim as true of yourself." - neville g

the 3d doesnt care about anything except what you assume yourself to be / your state (SELF) bc that is what it copies.

even when you think youre powerless, youre still being powerful…

*you will always be greater than the 3d because you are forever the operant power. it doesnt matter if you think or assume you arent be you always are. if you assume the 3d is more powerful, the 3d will reflect that, BECAUSE you as the OPERANT POWER decided that. so even if things seem bad, you have all the power at every moment and what you see is just the 3d presenting self. it SEEMS like ur not in power but since you continue assuming that, ofc that will reflect which proves you are always the operant power even w a shitty 3d.

the 3d is rly nothing bc the 3d changes under my power every time. once you understand that you are the operant power, everything else turns small. the 3d isnt the big bad wolf. its simply a reflection of you! do not view a REFLECTION of you as greater than YOU.

You aren’t required to love them.

You aren’t required to be around them.

You aren’t required to explain yourself or your feelings.

It's not just dismissing you, it's running away from how horrible the reality of things really is because they're either similarly horrible or they aren't prepared to deal with having or knowing horrible parents/people.

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