i have made this blog out of want for a place to post some ācleaned-upā ramblings of whatever interests me
mostly anime/manga, will also share some thoughts on manhwa. books as well!
what iād like is your engagement! i love debating with others and sharing opinions. if you disagree with me on something, donāt be shy! let me know. my ask box will be open always :)
iām not the best at writing essays. this blog is a way for me to practice
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(i would have liked to draw this out but i canāt even manage a stick figure. so here i am describing instead)
Nanaā Cat-Demon. Abandoned by her own kind when she was just a little imp, she strives to claim souls and tie them to her as her own. In her previous life, her ex-lover Ren was the first to break from one of her contracts. Since then, sheās come to Tokyo to amass a great collection of souls through fame. Her singing ability is now her greatest tool to eradicate her loneliness. Those who listen to her voice immediately become enamoured, and consequently bound to her. This is Nanaās plan coming together at long lastā¦. But, out of the blue, a rival band emerges. On the big screen Nana catches sight of Renās serene expression for the first time in a century. Heās here, just out of reach, basking in the love that should be hersāand now she wants to seize him for herself again, no matter what it takes.
Hachiā Hachi is a princess of the Fairy Kingdom. Fairies are tricksters that thrive in meddling with the romances of humansā memory-loss spells to erase a decade-long union, jealousy-stirring to inspire hatredā¦. Some fairies even take the form of a beautiful human to drive a wedge between couples. Tired of the ruthless customs of her people, she takes on the name āHachiā to throw aside the miserable luck fairies thrust upon humansā āNanaā is an incredibly unlucky number, she thinks. Hachi arrives at Tokyo for a fresh start, hoping to erase her previous identity. There she meets a cat-demon who happens to share her old name! Hachi is fascinated by Nanaās courage to embrace bad luck. Of course, thereās nothing more ominous than having nine livesā¦. But the two become fast friends anyway and rent an apartment together in the cityās centre. Hachiās new life is going well enoughā until she catches the eye of one Demon Lordā the same sheās kept wary of all these yearsā¦.
Nobuā Nobu isnāt anything special. Heās a lowly human hailing from a long line of trained Slayers, but heās never been particularly talented with a sword and the idea of inheriting the family business has only ever made him want to run away. So one day he does just that and comes to, you guessed it, Tokyo. Back at home, his parents used to frown upon his friendships with demons and enemy entities, but here in Tokyo he can strike up a conversation with whoever he pleases and to hell with danger, he hasnāt picked up a stake in ages. He meets up with his old pal Nana, who still occasionally ājokesā about stealing his soul (sheās always had a fun sense of humour) and they start up their old band again, the Black Stones. He knows theyāre going to be big. Their biggest (and currently only) fan, Hachi, seems to think so too. Sheās the prettiest fairy heās ever met, too.
Shinā Shin is the tragic type. He died young after a long battle with illness, and was revived by the cunning vampiress Ryoko. For decades heās depended on Ryoko for fresh blood and never thinks too hard about where she gets it from. In return, he carries out certain jobs for her: he lures mortals to their doom, guards her territory and engages in turf wars with other vampires, and moreā¦. Heāll do anything for her, because heās got no one else. Heās happy for as long as he needs her. But when he makes his first kill on his own and drains his victim dry he wonders if he needs Ryoko. Isnāt he bound for bigger and better things? So he heads for Tokyo, because everyone and their mother thinks itās the place to be, and spots an advertisement for a bassist position in a new band. The Black Stones are hesitant to take him on at first, but he sticks around and they donāt have the heart to boot him. Heās pretty decent with the bass, anyway. Shin is thinking that heās ready to forget Ryoko for good until he meets the lead singer of their rival band. ā¦. Layla? Is that what sheās called?
Yasuā Yasu is the zombie everyone depends on. Heās weirdly intelligent for an undead creature, has had every strand of hair melted from his rotting scalp, and no oneās ever caught him munching on brains, but thereās something about him that instantly commands respect. He doesnāt seem particularly ambitious, though heās got a part-time stint as a defence lawyer for convicted demons going on. He tends to just go with the flow. No oneās ever particularly interested in hearing his opinions, unless theyāre venting to him about some crisis going on in their lives. He feels particularly tied to Nana in this regardā¦. Of course, itās probably her magic at work. But he pities her. He joins her band as the drummer and doesnāt think much of it. He refuses to.
Reiraā Reira is the object of Nanaās intense jealousy. Sheās a siren with the most powerful voice in the business. But her singing doesnāt cause the devastation the legends warn ofā she gives people hope. She gives people peace. Trapnest isnāt the hit that it is just by pure coincidence, after all. Reira has used her voice all her life to make others happy, and the love she receives is effortless; Nana would like to kill her. But thereās one love that Reira canāt have, no matter how hard she tries. The Demon Lordās cold heart must be far too frigid to move, she despairs. The torture of her unrequited love is almost too much to bear. A young vampire named Shin is charmed by her, and for a while his attention is a soothing balm. But even he seems distant. Reira, the beloved, is so very close to dying of lonelinessā¦.
Renā Ren was found alone as a shivering cub outside an old warehouse. Heās escaped each and every orphanage heās been dumped in and has lived wild and free for as long as he can remember. He hates to be tied down by anything. The other werewolves wonāt claim him as one of their own. Without a pack and a means of cure for his lycanthropy, Ren decides to throw it all away and focus only on music. He loves his guitar, and itās the one thing heāll commit to. His talent doesnāt occur to him until half the town is lining up to see BLAST play.Ā To call Nana his girlfriend isnāt enough. Sheās more than that. Not quite his soulmate, but someone he canāt quite cut off if he tried. Thereās something distinctly suffocating about their love. His werewolf blood loathes how trapped he feels. Worse yet, he doesnāt want to leave her. Nana wants to domesticate him, as though heās her puppy-dog. Itās hell. Itās heaven. He departs for Tokyo one snowy night to fill in Trapnestās guitarist position. The Demon Lord accepts his true self least of all. Ren consumes drugs that suppress his urges and avoids the night as much as he can. But itās agony. And he wants to see Nana so badly.Ā
Takumiā Of course, heās the Demon Lord. Heās ruled the roost for so long his sense of order works as a kind of twisted truth. Trapnest is a mere extension of his power. Music has been a weapon for demons since the beginning of time. What draws in mortals better than the sweet sound of music? Wanting to keep up with the times, heās opted for rock lately, and the mortals of the new century sell out every album they put out. He doesnāt exactly care about humans, though; the women bore him and their flighty clinginess is annoying to deal with once theyāve gotten over their awe of his royal status. But the deep emotions he inspires in others are mere displays of his will. And things are almost too perfectā until Takumi notices the cracks in between his control. The harmony heās thought he created is only a mass entrapment of demons sick of the empty pleasures the human world provides them. He thinks Reiraās singing power should be enough to hold his world togetherā but sheās too desperate for his love to function properly anymore. Reiraās charm is ebbing, and Trapnest sales are fallingā¦. Takumi thinks fast. He crosses paths with a fairy defected from home and realises the potential of her magic. By keeping Hachi close, Takumi can study exactly what moves the fickle hearts of humans. Hachi oddly seems to be the one that respects his will the most though, and that somewhat flatters him.Ā
Naokiā For a shape-shifter, Naokiās pretty nondescript. He brags about his great lion and ox forms, but upon demonstration Naoki makes himself a laughingstock by only being able to turn into a mouse. But thereās an endearing quality to his failures, and so he makes a suitable mascot of sorts for Trapnest. The others complain about his food-stealing and nesting a little too often, though. Naoki is a loyal follower of the Demon Lord and has followed him to Tokyo as his most obedient familiar. His pitiful power doesnāt earn him much status, however. Heās frequently kept out of the loop on what goes on around him, though he likes to think that, with his small rodent body, heās more observant than the others realise.Ā
When avid shojosei readers consider what it is exactly that makes Takumi such a despicable character, his maltreatment of Nana āHachiā Komatsu tends to come to mind. Those used to the loyal, single-track mindset of the average manga love interest are appalled to discover Takumiās deceptive nature. Lies come naturally to Takumi; he does not mind who he treads on if he gets to step up to where he wants to be. Readers pity Nana and root for her freedom. But thereās more to things than the standard portrayal of abuse, I think. Iād like to briefly ramble about their dynamic. This may or may not be coherent.Ā Here goes.
Some will have no trouble calling Nana naive, and Takumi is amongst them. Their first āmeetingā is one of convenience. Takumiās looking for a fun pastime, Nana gets to be with her celebrity crush and distract herself from her loneliness. Takumi takes advantage of Nanaās āfreshnessāā most who encounter the lovable Hachi see her as pure and somewhat dim. Nana is a pup loyal to her masters, and her masters often refuse to consider the possibility of sharing her. Nana clings to others and doesnāt let go; her presence is taken for granted by them and accepted as a fixture in their lives. Though a one-night stand is all Takumi is interested in, and though he promptly forgets about her as soon as he drives out of the hotel, when he is reminded of Nanaās existence his first instinct is to go see her right away. Nana is like a belonging of his that heās discarded long agoā he thought he didn't need it anymore, but now that itās in front of him he may as well take it again. Itās his, isnāt it? And Nana doesnāt refute his advances. Maybe itās because her own reasons for being with him are selfish too. She wants to fill in the void of her loneliness. She wants to be held and given attention and Takumi is offering to do those things.
Nana is aware that heās not good person; she knows his words are petty and his attention is fleeting. But Nana doesnāt want to think about the future. She wants to think about the now. Sheās an act first, think later kind of girl, and itās that mindset that causes her half the trouble in her life. Nana wants the present feelings and experiences that make her happy and bubblyā this is not to call her a hedonist, but thereās something sheās constantly searching for, something she believes will make her feel whole. She thinks itās the drug-like sensation of love. Nana has gone through crush after crush until she lands herself with an affair with an older, married man (Takashi Asano) and her distant boyfriend Shoji. What both of these earlier romances have in common is that they serve to fulfill Nanaās desperate fantasies. She craves intimacy. She does her best to believe wholeheartedly that what she and Takashi have is honestā she spots his wedding ring, but ignores it. Sheās a highschooler here, but thereās a mature understanding of just how harmful their affair is. But again, she ignores it because she so badly wants to erase anything that weighs down the high she gets from someone elseās attention.
Nana dances on the border between reality and delusion. Sheās aware of both, but neglects one in favour of the other. She wants to believe that Takashi Asano is his real name. She does not want to believe that her first time was his taking advantage of her. When she crosses paths with him again in Tokyo, there isnāt a trace of resentment. Somehow, it seems that sheās still a little obsessed with him. Shoji is who Nana at first considers to be a fresh start. She wants to have him as a friend and nothing more. But ideas of a fulfilling relationship consume her, and she hopes sheāll find one in him. Things, of course, do not last. Shoji cheats and Nana is crushedā but what exactly was it that Nana was heartbroken about? Shoji complains that Nana didnāt seem to care about him. Nana rushes of to room with a girl sheās just met, Nana flirts with the owner of the furniture store, and her friend Jun is a closer confidant. Maybe what Nana wanted in Shoji was not fidelity, but his unconditional affection. She doesnāt want to take things slow and build up the groundwork for a lasting relationship. She just wants to cash in immediately for that love she craves. Shoji couldnāt measure up, so she doesnāt want him anymore.
When Takumi comes into the picture Nana has given up the pretences. In her mind, she reminds herself repeatedly of the truth; he doesnāt love her. But Nana also tells herself later that she doesnāt really mind if sheās not his number oneā she just needs to be some kind of priority. She chooses Takumi because he was the only one who stuck by her when she discovered sheās pregnant. When it seems as though her closest friends want nothing to do with her, itās Takumi holding her hand and providing solutions. This isnāt exactly the unconditional affection Nana had in mind, but itās the closest sheās gotten to it. Not even Nobu, who she dates before she makes things official with Takumi, measures up to this ideal. Nana feels like itās often her doing the pampering in her and Nobuās relationship. She doesnāt hate it, but his lack of assertiveness isnāt what she wants. She wants her dreams enabled. Takumi gets them a fancy apartment and lets her decorate it however she likes. She gets to name the baby and he accepts her suggestions pretty quickly. Nana is satisfied with this. Sheās getting spoiled like she always wanted to be. Maybe this is the fulfillment of her childhood dream of marriage.
But of course, Takumi is in fact the worst of her boyfriends, and his command of any situation is a clear indication of his manipulative tendencies. He is a serial cheater, he is a liar, he dismisses Nanaās protests during intimacy multiple times, he doesnāt seem to have it in him to tie himself down to one person. As a teenager, he was notorious for his string of girlfriends, many dumped and abandoned the moment they tried to hold onto him.
A girlfriend winds up pregnant; she wants an abortion, he goes along with it. But heās not happy that sheās decided without him. Itās not like he wanted the baby but if anyoneās making the big choices it ought to be him, no? This lack of power bothers him. Perhaps thatās why heās quick to claim Nanaās baby even without being sure if the babyās really his. Itās hard to believe that he did this out of the goodness of his heart. Takumi considers himself a responsible man, but even this noble virtue is twisted by his desire for control. To him, itās whatever he says that goes.
The only thing thatās changed since Takumiās teenagehood is that his want of keeping people close has strengthened. When normally he would have palmed off Nana with abortion clinic fees, he finds himself offering to marry her. Itās Nanaās loyalty that makes him want to keep her. She lets him think of what to do. He tells her to move out and she does. He suggests marriage and she agrees. She listens to him and lets him take charge. Her readiness to stick by him suits him.
This is a call-back to their one-night standā itās all about whatās convenient for the two of them. They are both selfish individuals. Itās all about what they want in a relationship. Nana wants to be taken care of, Takumi wants to take care of someone. The concern is that Takumi wants to own Nana, and Nana has never expressed a want to be ownedā but their life together is enough for the time being. Nana is very aware of Takumiās cheating, and doesnāt really think very highly of him anyway. Itās enough that he gives her what she considers to be enough. What Takumi likes is the home Nana has built for him; coming from a broken family, he has always somewhat desired a place to come back to, a place to relax and be himself. Without happy familial bonds, heĀ wants to feel needed. And Nana needs him.
Now, to answer the title of this post: just how toxic are Takumi and Nana? Throughout this post, I have avoided directly addressing the issues that make their relationship as well as the character of Takumi so deeply despised by the NANA community. Yes, Takumi commits sexual assault and is a serial cheater, but I think even without those incriminating actions there is still something insincere about them. Thatās what I wanted to focus onā the conditional, transactional nature of their relationship. Both Takumi and Nana consider only their own needs; they do not tend to worry much about each other at all. If Nana thinks about Takumi while heās away on tour or band business, itās usually only to entertain the suspicion of his infidelity. If Takumi says he misses her, itās probably only because he actually āmisses (her) boobs,ā as Ren teases.
Takumi and Nana are no lovers. They are certainly not soulmates. They are simplicity and convenience, and thatās where the toxicity lies. The hallmark romances of the shojosei genre are ones that idealise lovesick devotion and forever-togethernessā Takumi and Nana defy those traits in a manner that draws readers in at the same time it repulses. But the toxicity is in line with Ai Yazawaās theme of realism in her manga. She wants to portray the concept of a harmonious yet unhealthy relationship. Two people can get along while being bad for each other (of course, Takumi is the one thatās bad for Nana rather than vice versa). And thatās what makes them so incredibly fascinating to me!Ā