The Merry Bacchus

Cautiously watching the slightly off homeless

As they case the place with a steady eye

Looking for something to steal

Since the previous guy was trying to sell laundry soap possibly from a stolen item from the nearest store

The area used to be less of such things, now its more so than before

Military recruiters in the strip mall does nothing

Always watching you, waiting to strike when you least expect it

How did such things or times become?

I can hear the piss drop with a loud volume

A song plays in the background

It invokes what I really want or need

Regardless of a drinken and stoned mindset

It keeps coming forth, if sober or not

The need to venture and conquer is there.

While taking more hours that a few of us could've taken more than her. Really sucks honestly.

Tired of having to carry someone that should be running circles around me, yet rather just hang tickets and not help at all....fuck you.

I rather be without a job than have to deal with a workplace where you feel alone more than actually going out.

I can't get help, support or a follow long enough to do anything.

I'm sorry for not being more outgoing

I'm sorry for not meeting your expectations

I'm sorry for not being rich or looking rich enough

I'm sorry for not having a good personality, but after many have taken advantage of or taken me for granted, I no longer wish to deal with it.

I'm sorry for not wanting to talk to people after many have used, gaslighted, lied to, or been abusive to me.

I'm sorry for trying to be me when others pay me no attention

I'm sorry for not meeting your "eyeball test" requirement

I'm sorry for not fitting into your version of me

https://www.di.fm/deephouse

My mental health isn't the greatest, since all I seem to be doing is working and sitting on a couch. No working vehicle, or a place of my own, just a couch in a relatives home.

So with the new year coming, I finally have health insurance so I can get therapy that I really need right now.

It seems people are lazy enough to make something up or assume something rather than ask. Are we that afraid of what may be said not true or even somewhat confrontational??

The past few weeks have me overthrowing on things that I shouldn't be stressing over. Yet here I am again having these dark thoughts. Wishing things would get better but it's only one sided and pleas for help goes unnoticed or ignored.

A few tasks to handle before I go

Some harder than others

Will not stop me from pushing it along