Actually Borderline

me: *can’t handle the stress and demands of school* also me: *can’t function properly without the structure school gives my life*

#winter anxiety vs. summer depression

me flirting: okay so how temporary is this?

bpd may be ruining my life, but at least I know I’ll self sabotage myself before I ever have to experience genuine failure

bpd logic: if i’m not at the top of your list i don’t need to be on your list at all :)

me: i need attention validation and affection or ill sink into a debilitating depression neurotypical: haha omg same!!!!!!!!! me: no,,,,,,

concept: i don’t want to get revenge on my ex fp(s) for leaving me because i became “too much” for them. it doesn’t hurt that they would throw away all the years we spent together because my mental health spiraled downwards. it doesn’t hurt that they would leave me when i needed them most. it doesn’t hurt that they don’t seem to give a flying fuck about abandoning me. it doesn’t hurt.

having bpd is so hard because you literally cannot tell if people are really showing you that they don’t care about you or if it’s just your bpd telling you that they don’t care about you

I love how anti self dx’s think my symptoms aren’t valid until I get professionally diagnosed like you think my life altered after I got the diagnosis?????????? No one hands me a piece of paper saying I have PTSD and then I start having nightmares and dissociating

*takes a bunch of quizzes* who am i who am i who am i???