borderline personality disorder

thinking about spending another holiday season single is really sending me into a dark spiral rn

thinking back on the times I built people up who treated me like an option to try and win them over and make them treat me like a priority makes me sick fr

stop listening to me think about you wtf

i fucking miss you

just wanna say... my bitch ass has NEVER been able to delete a text thread in my life. i’m one of those ppl who save texts forever. always have been. but i know you can’t truly delete a number w/o deleting the text thread. so i just deleted both and i feel so free!!! i do not deserve to be sad over someone who doesn’t see my value!!! i am worth so much more!!! 🌸

y’all ever ghost someone because you like them?

the fact that guys can always find another cool, pretty girl (cause 90% of girls are cool AND pretty) and it’s so friggin hard for me to find a guy worth liking (cause only 10% of guys are even cute and then they gotta be halfway decent too like forget it and u can fight me on this idc) really gets to me

my emotionally damaged ass as i begin to like someone: oh no 🚨FEELINGS🚨 gotta go and find someone else

really feels like I’m going to die alone

those who don’t reply to snapchats... explain please

my social media stalking skills are truly fucking up my entire life

i fucking hate feeling this hurt tinge when girls hook up with cute boys i like that i don’t try to hook up with u g h being single is killing me @ this point but i have an insane amount of anxiety when it comes to dating

so weird coming to terms with my life not being one everyone can support on instagram like the rest of my generation. so many behind the scenes things have happened. so many things i can’t even explain. i feel like if i posted my whole life story people would judge me and think i was stupid. but i’m just different

my heart hurts

i’m so sad

thanks for listening to me me freak out every 2 months in personal posts and never post on this blog in between i know u all didn’t sign up for this