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~to the moon that was colored an aqua blue

I know you said not to cry, But God, am I crying. The service was full of brightly colored flowers, songs, and words of praise, which I know you’d like. You still had a smile on your face, and I can almost hear your snippy comments. Your kids were there, struggling to hold it all in. Floarya, I can’t say enough of how much I cared for you. You’ve been my number one inspiration and I know I wouldn’t have been this good of a person if it wasn’t for you. Thank you.

To the flower that wilted away, thank you for being a sight to see. To the mother of garden flowers, thank you for loving me.

It's been such a week. A really close family friend has only days to live, and though we've all seen it coming, you could never really prepare yourself. I only have a month of school left before college and I'm honestly so not ready. I'm really excited for next week, with State and Prom. I remembered today that I wrote myself a letter freshman year and it's suppose to come in on June 1st, apparently I actually wrote myself three of them (I have zero recollection of the other two). I am so behind in AP Literature. Lol, so dead. College is so fucking expensive and the good scholarships take too long to do. I really hate essays. I have mixed feelings about being a director. I love my cast, I just would rather act. And there's just so much more, I need to take a huge break from everything and everyone.

What you got: fuCKING PLOT TWIST BECAUSE SWAPPING BODIES IS APPARENTLY NOT ENOUGH. MOTHERFUCKER KICK IN THE GUTS RIGHT WHERE YOUR FEELS HURT THE MOST. PLOT TWIST AGAIN. THE AGONY™. SOUL EATING SUSPENSE. YOUR HEART RIPPED OUT OF YOUR CHEST. TORTURED FEELS. ARE THEY GONNA MAKE IT? ARE THEY GONNA MISS EACH OTHER AGAIN??? ARE THEY GONNA REMEMBER!!?? I DIDN'T FUCKING SING UP FOR THIS I WAS NOT READY. LOVE STORY OF THE CENTURY. CHEWING YOUR NAILS AND SOBBING INTO A PILLOW UNTIL THE VERY LAST SECOND OF THIS FORSAKEN MOVIE.

I thought it’ll be a good year. Until I watched Sherlock.