The strength that had left him and the grief that swallowed his heart whole were a coffin of dried leaves now. In the midst of black, one thing was clear…he still had hope, a light that was everlasting and was calling for him to come back.
MEMOVIA ⸻ INTROSPECTING: THE DEFINITIONS OF HUMANITY · DESTRUCTION OF SELF IN ORDER FOR 'SALVATION' · NO COMFORT & NO STARS · FALL DOWN SEVEN TIMES, STAND UP EIGHT · YOU ARE ONLY HUMAN · MONSTROUS IMMORTAL · LETTING GO & HOLDING ON · UNMENDED GRIEF · UNCONTROLLABLE RAGE · DARK HEART OF MINE · SIMPLE KINDNESS · SEARCHING FOR SOMETHING LOST · PRESERVATION · HEALING LOVE · WARMTH OF YOU ALWAYS, PVTDOWN.
This is an independent & private roleplay blog for multiple muses of my choice. Mainly OCs and low activity. This journal of memories is penned by R ( she / her, 32, GMT+8 ). revived in 2 JUL 2023. moved on 1 SEP 2025.
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GENERAL.
This is a selective / private / independent RP blog for mainly OCs and multiple muses from different fandoms of my choice.
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i just want to fangirl so hard about this weapon design because black beads??? the copper coins??? the fucking inscription on the cloth??? the YELLOW LUCKY COIN SHAPED JADE??? THE WEATHERED BLADE AS THE OTHER HALF OF THE STRUCTURE WHICH MEANS ITS NOT A FULL COIN SWORD SYMBOLISING HOW HE WALKS BETWEEN THE REALMS?
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MEKA SQUADDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD LMFAO CASINO GETTING FKED OVER IN THEIR SIMULATION BATTLE COS HE KEEPS RELYING ON D.VA TO COVER FOR HIM but D.VA's no longer there... D.VA's in overwatch now...
I've always wanted them to touch on the topic of D.VA leaving MEKA Squad and how it affected the rest of the 4, especially D.MON, who is now the leader. I'm glad they're doing this now because goddamn I've been waiting for fucking years bro
Also, I'm so happy that Casino's primary goal is just as I HC-ed, precise and sharp, for flanking and handling mobs from behind. Allowing D.VA or D.MON to cover.
it had been only a few days since tynaris had elected .... volunteered herself for eontech's experiments. some sweetheart deal that she'd made with a man behind a screen, whose face she'd never seen, but who she invariably trusted. it had burdened him, thinking of how desperate she must have been to agree to such an arrangement: give up her whole life to become a lab rat. again.
maybe he'd been projecting. he had no great memories of being in the lab as a child. in fact, coming back into a laboratory had given him chills in college, sensory-memory nightmares of the dehumanizing humiliations of being experimented on. which is why he needed to be the one to take point on her treatment. the control he needed to feel inside the lab was the only way he could sublimate his nightmares. so he'd do the same for her. protect her as best he could. that was the only way to pay it forward.
yet he found himself outside her quarters, squatting like some modern gargoyle on the balustrade of her balcony, delivering her favorite strawberry ice cream that he'd seen her pick up from the corner store. there were things he knew as her doctor. but there are things he needed to know as her friend. and this was the only way he knew how to look after her.
he laughs softly, biting back an embarrassed smile. ❝ yeah, maybe it's best not to ask, ❞ he agrees, and hops down to lean upon the railing instead. ❝ probably think i'm a creep, but —i just had to know you were safe. that's all. ❞
a midnight breeze blows a few strands of her hair loose, catching upon lips sticky with lip gloss and strawberry ice cream. valko reaches out to brush the hair free, and thumb gently at the residuum of pink at the corner of her mouth. ❝ you can tell me, if you want. don't wanna violate any HIPAA laws or anything by asking, but ... you're alright, aren't you? you're taken care of? you're happy? ❞
his hand drops, but he doesn't move away. maybe he's too close. but he needs to be near her. ❝ as long as it's what you want. just know i'm here if it ever becomes too much ... ❞
♕ . ― The questions that he asks ground her in reality and she is thankful for that. She remembers her first day in— the way her body subconsciously flinched when the apparatus closed in on her skin and also, his deep voice gently reaffirming her. To agree to this dreamy agreement seemed like a rather unwise decision at first, but after several sessions— that perspective of hers has changed.
Chairman Ao Yin, despite his mysterious identity and their unorthodox relationship, has gone above and beyond to make sure that she is secure and well-accommodated.
❝ Yes, I'm safe, alright and also... taken care of— ❞ Tynaris chuckles as she feels Valko brush her hair aside and wipe at the corner of her mouth. She pauses mid-sentence, the eventual answer to his last question makes her heart flutter in her chest. It might come across as too transparent but, it is only right to let him know.
❝ As for the last one, well, you're here now so... I am. ❞
Just as his hand drops, Tynaris follows-up with her own. Reaching out to cup his cheek gently, her thumb rubs at his skin for a moment until she turns to the side. It brings her relief that he wants to know, that he cares enough to want to understand the messiness of her life. Navy eyes look up at the night sky while she spills her truth, her reality.
❝ ...I made a deal with him willingly. Ao Yin, the chairman of Eoncore Tech. In exchange for answers about my heart condition, I'll be his test subject. Which is why I'm here now and not at home. I agreed to stay until the contract is done. ❞
Tynaris exhales after speaking. It took her more courage than she thought to talk about this, but just for him— she would like to be brave.
❝ That's the gist of it anyway. ❞ She takes a bite of her strawberry ice cream before her gaze returns to his, ❝ I'm sorry I never told you where I went before, but you'll... still be with me... right? ❞
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“I don’t know about you, but I’ve had a lovely time.” gencyyyy
DISHONOURED. | always accepting!
武神 ◈ ― The bright, blue flag of Overwatch once hung high with dignity. Its operations have since faded with time, like memories that belonged in a museum— portraying a story to many... of how it once strived for peace amongst men and omnics alike. Though, one could also say, it also serves as a lesson of how something with good intentions can crumble from the inside.
The cause could have been betrayal, but it could have alternatively been the weight of the world on its shoulders. The pressure to help anyone in need, to heal all that is wounded in this world, to succeed no matter the cost.
Genji's experience in the past has always been rather stark. After all, Blackwatch's scope of operations called for... other things. The Hanamura operation, itself, was certainly a rude awakening.
But from his 'revival' till the last day at Gibraltar, observing Angela at work had allowed him an intimate understanding on what the organisation was like on their side. It is not any cleaner from his line of duty.
Yes, Mercy is the one who saved him, but Angela Ziegler is someone who has connected with him in the twilight hours of her office. Personal talks, horrible tasting coffee and the lack of sleep. Those were the times that he treasured the most then, and when he left... he brought them with him.
She is part of why Genji is who he is today.
Now, they sit on the roof of one of the buildings in the same place where it all began. The stars greet them again, as though they have been awaiting for their company. It feels nostalgic and yet, refreshing at the same time.
❝ I have also had a good time with this reunion. The world has changed and we, too, have changed. ❞
His green visor beams gently, as he moves his gaze from the night sky to her.
❝ But, I believe that we have come together for a reason. To bring the lessons we have learnt from every part of the universe and mold it into one. Perhaps then, will Overwatch finds its new purpose. ❞
A metallic hand rests besides her spot when he leans back.
❝ Angela, I want to hear of your stories— in person this time. Not just through letters. Will you... tell me? ❞
I have been waiting to hear everything about you, @pvtdown. Just like how you've been waiting for this sparrow.
❛ I wanna be cool, I don't wanna be pretty. ❜ [ orihime to raphael]
DOES A STORY DIE WITH ITS NARRATOR? | always accepting!
≅ . ― Humans often have thoughts like these, Rafayel supposes that it is their way of finding themselves and what truly resonates with them. It is quite different from what he perceives himself to be— after all, while they have lived within the constructs of the land... he has witnessed the boundless ocean.
Sunset eyes look to her, and he tilts his head. A part of him wonders why she limits herself to one or the other. Why she sets a boundary for herself, instead of releasing it.
❝ Hey, the world is your oyster. ❞
A hand reaches out to tuck a stray strand behind her ear. Her hairpins are a beautiful shade of cool turquoise.
❝ ...So, why not be both? No one's stopping you from being pretty and cool at the same time. ❞
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“The world doesn’t punish wicked people.” to Sylus (teehee)
DISHONOURED. | always accepting.
❖◇ ▪ ― The greater forces of this universe have always been impartial, watching from above while others prevail or simply... eat dirt. Sylus has learnt early that if he wanted things to be set into motion, he would have to do it himself. Even if it hurts, even if blood is spilt— the Onichynus Leader is what he is today simply because of the grit he has endured in the past.
A subtle smirk rests on his expression as a brow is raised, amused by her surprisingly personal statement. Whether or not, it is directed to him, is a different matter.
❝ Ah, but that is where your mistake lies... your dependance on the world to carry out what you want. ❞
A hand comes up to tap his temple, contemplative eyes look to her.
❝ Besides, wickedness is subjective— is it not? Details matter. If you've got something to say, you should finish what you started. ❞
If the world was partial, then it would not be fair— @kisaragisecret.
