The strength that had left him and the grief that swallowed his heart whole were a coffin of dried leaves now. In the midst of black, one thing was clear…he still had hope, a light that was everlasting and was calling for him to come back.
MEMOVIA ⸻ INTROSPECTING: THE DEFINITIONS OF HUMANITY · DESTRUCTION OF SELF IN ORDER FOR 'SALVATION' · NO COMFORT & NO STARS · FALL DOWN SEVEN TIMES, STAND UP EIGHT · YOU ARE ONLY HUMAN · MONSTROUS IMMORTAL · LETTING GO & HOLDING ON · UNMENDED GRIEF · UNCONTROLLABLE RAGE · DARK HEART OF MINE · SIMPLE KINDNESS · SEARCHING FOR SOMETHING LOST · PRESERVATION · HEALING LOVE · WARMTH OF YOU ALWAYS, RVINFALL & PVTDOWN.
This is an independent & private roleplay blog for multiple muses of my choice. Mainly OCs and low activity. This journal of memories is penned by R ( she / her, 31, GMT+8 ). revived in 2 JUL 2023. moved on 1 SEP 2025.
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This is a selective / private / independent RP blog for mainly OCs and multiple muses from different fandoms of my choice.
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Going to take a rest now from writing and maybe try to sneep. Thank you guys for interacting with me whether it be ooc, threads or asks ever since I came back here, I really appreciate it alot.
I hope everyone will have a comfy timezone ahead MWAH
“ calebbbbb ! guess what today is. ” she would giggling softly , sticking her tongue out at him before handed him gift wrapping of photo book of them along with an apple keychain. “ happy birthday ! do you want birthday hugs or birthday kisses? your one time offer. ”
HAPPY BIRTHDAY.
⌬ ⋅ ― A hand reaches out to pinch her cheek, purple eyes curve from how wide he smiles. Caleb remembers what day it is today, of course, it is his birthday. The day when he was born to harness these coordinates, to fly a path towards her. Like a solitary light in the black hole, Jinae is radiant and he understands that the void is ever-consuming of that shine.
He knows what he must do to keep her, to treasure her, to continue to celebrate his birthdays with her. Even if it meant that he would have to suffer, to walk the darkest of roads that mirrored hers. Caleb would do just that in a heartbeat.
The photo book and keychain falls into his palm and he holds onto them tightly. Fingers releasing themselves from her skin to pick up the little apple.
❝ It goes well with my necklace. I like it. ❞ He makes a mental note to attach it to his house keys later, ❝ hmmm... As for the photo album, I know you put some embarrassing photos of me when I was younger, buuut... we should still look at it together. ❞
After all, these are memories that should be fondly remembered— even if some things are different now. Though, after hearing her offer, he raises a brow.
❝ Your one-time offer should be an everyday offer. Also, I want both. ❞
His EVOL activates to pull her into his arms. It seems he is still as cheeky as ever.
In this ever-changing fate of ours, let us always stay the same. Let us always be together, @amorolis.
„Just know that I will eat you up today. You look so delicious, how could I resist? Hehe… happy birthday gege. I love you! And… I‘m gonna take a bite out of you; who said the cake would be the dessert?“
HAPPY BIRTHDAY.
⌬ ⋅ ― Today is a special day, and it seems that Seraphina is never short on surprises. The sunset glow in his purple eyes glimmer with rare mirth when she shows Caleb a plushie of himself. Well, this toy certainly looks... interesting. That little lopsided tuft of hair, paired with a pink toast outfit— he cannot help but to laugh at the sight of it.
Despite its ridiculous appearance, it brings Caleb a form of genuine joy. Having a chuckle like that lifts a weight off his shoulders. The worries and struggles that he had been enduring take the back seat. And he is once again reminded that he can breathe easier with her around.
Just for today.
He can allow this much.
An arm comes up to wrap around the other him, he brings the toasted Caleb closer, so that both of them could look at her.
❝ So you're saying I'm the dessert now, huh? What about breakfast, lunch and dinner? ❞
He 'disguises' his speech by wiggling the plushie playfully, greed seeping through the question.
❝ I better be all of those meals, because being only dessert isn't enough for me. ❞
I love you too, to the stars and back, @crimsontwins.
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Goodest mornings to all! I will try to... work on my roster today in between writing, because it needs some heavy updating. Analyses posts will be categorised separately. Will post the patch notes about that when I'm done! ❤️
I hope everyone is having a comfy timezone so far MWAH!
Don't think about Tynaris and Zarina together watching Caleb talk about how cool it is to be a pilot and how they both just nod along because 'yeah, go ahead, do tell'. But also being like 'aw, he's like an excited puppy' behind the scenes giggling together like 2 sisters.
And don't think about that GIF set with Caleb and Zarina either driving together or flying together. Don't think about how doing that heart with fingers is done with such a smitten and loving expression. Don't think about how they were choosing helmets together with Tynaris so the THREE of them can match like a family, DON'T THINK ABOUT THEM MAKING CUSTOM MADE STICKETS FOR EACH OTHER.
Anyways, Tynaris, Caleb and Zarina live rent free in my head.
Me reading this and crying because damn, each of them have suffered so much but they come together and become happier, more at ease, the worries / fears in their head take the backseat. They do things for each other, no matter how small or big, they appreciate what they have.
Caleb 500% doing the finger heart to Zarina just because he's sooooooooooo in lurve... his heart is so full from the combination of this moment when they're flying but also because of all the lives they have chosen each other which might not be remembered by the mind but by the heart.
Tynaris is going to draw on their helmets with her ugly doodles because she can't draw for shit but hey kKJNFKJAFN the custom made stickers will make up for it...
They are so family coded I cannot breathe fr I LOVE THEM SO BAD
also I need to talk to you about Caleb's 3rd myth because... I FEFELLLLL like you'll like my proposal... kNFKJAnfA
“Careful—keep staring and people might notice what you’re thinking.” (Zayne or Tynaris, teasing from a new emergency room attending physician! [if you're okay with it!])
HEAT OF THE MOMENT. | always accepting!
♕ . ― With each 'death', her head gets fuzzier. Tynaris finds that she does not remember many things, even the details of the Chronorift Catastrophe have faded into a blur.
But unlike the mind, the body never forgets.
As Subject 001, the experiments and tests never stopped until later. All she knew as a child was the sight of the laboratory's walls, the different utensils laid out on a metal tray and how they all dug into her. Some of them hurt so badly she cried, others... not quite so.
Nonetheless, she coaxes herself mentally. It is a mere routine check-up for the Hunter, nothing too devastating.
Just a little draw of blood, right?
The muscles on her arm unknowingly twitch. Navy eyes stare hard as the physician preps the needle for insertion, gaze unfaltering— as though she is in a trance, hoping to bend that thin piece of metal until it is obsolete. But the other's words snaps her out soon enough, Tynaris pulls back slightly, wide-eyed.
❝ Oh, sorry... Not reeeeally a big fan of needles. ❞
She chuckles, an awkward grin plasters her expression. The Hunter bounces back into her warm attitude instantly, giving the other a thumbs-up to signal that she is ready.
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it's something she knows better than to ask, steeling himself for the rejection and watching caleb walk away, preparing herself for the way she would have to talk herself down when he inevitably cited his busy schedule and need to be elsewhere. elinor knows its selfish, but had to brave the request. if only to let him know what she wanted, even if it wasn't something he'd give.
blue eyes focus on his form in the darkness, the way his uniform drank in the shadows, the bedside light catching on the highest point of his cheek. she knew he'd give her some quip, and an apology she believed, and would continue walking. and that would be fine.
so it catches the nurse off-guard when caleb moves again, but closer, and acquiescing to her uncertain request. he can't help the brightness in her eyes, wide and surprised when they met the familiar shade of purple. he shakes his head, refusing to do as caleb tells her, expression almost a little disgruntled as he'd settled into the chair. ellie reaches up, aiming to take his hat off, but ultimately she just knocks it from his head. paying it no more attention than watching as it tumbles, her hand reaches for the one that had just patted her shoulder.
"you've almost got it, caleb. almost." and he shuffled back in the bed, pulling the duvet back to make room for him. "i'd fall asleep faster if you held me." it's the truth, matter of fact, and entirely pushing her luck. too long a moment had passed for ellie to add a gentle, pathetic please, so the demand stands firm.
⌬ ⋅ ― For each step that he takes, @nightingeal takes ten more. Closer and closer, his breath is taken away by the way Elinor's hand brushes against his hair. Caleb's service hat falls to the ground but those wide, purple eyes do not turn away. Feather-light touches and gentle pleas makes him consider her proposal easily.
The identity of the Farspace Fleet Colonel falters... just like that. How dangerous. How so utterly dangerous. After all that is said and done, hidden truths and laced lies planted in their conversations by him— this sense of normalcy takes him by surprise. It is almost like they were back to the past, back when everything was... right.
There was always a sense of longing for their reunion, for him to experience this situation that they were having now. Worry-free, warm and... close.
During his 'death' and on the night he became Colonel, he remembers opening their messages to relive their time together. Last exchanged before his disappearance, the unsent text still laid neatly in his drafts even till today— buried by hesitation and time.
[ Hey, I'm still alive... but things are different now. I'm | __ ]
...Different now, was what he meant to type.
❝ You're seriously not askin' me to do this while I'm in uniform, right? ❞
A chuckle emits from him, gaze tearing itself away for the first time in awhile. A gloved hand picks up the fallen hat, before wiping it down.
❝ Your bed sheets are gonna suffer, I just know it. So... this is me doing you a favour. ❞
The smile persists, he stalls even longer... hoping that Elinor will not push it further. Not for the fear of his boundary being crossed, but rather the fear of him giving in and saying yes.
Goodest mornings to everyone, do you guys ever have the dilemma of wanting to follow-up with your momentum for something but also knowing you should take a break? So now you're just stuck in a limbo of I wanna do it and I don't wanna do it? Me too tbh.
I will try to get some writing done today! I hope everyone is having a good timezone so far MWAH
❖◇ ▪ ― Sylus feels the Aether Core within his skull throbbing. It begs to dig deeper, into the thing that nestles within the other's chest. A fragmented cosmic sensation emits from her, one that traverses space and planes of existence. Red eyes set themselves apart from the dim lights, glowing faintly— they crease from the way he smiles.
People will always have a reason for staying in the N109 Zone. In a place that is so treacherous, so filled with the unknown versus, the everlasting lights of Linkon City. Why return? Unless, it is to hide from someone... or something.
The Onichynus Leader has a hunch about this, of course. But still, he wants to hear the answer from her. Truth or not.
❝ From Linkon City... and back to the N109 Zone— I've seen you come and go. Have you grown to love this place, or... are you merely seeking refuge here? ❞
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