evie

hi it's been a minute. i'm very scared my gf hates me. i think i would die if so.

my kitten died last night. i miss him so much. i feel empty and life doesn't feel worth living anymore.

i feel so sad and so lost and so paranoid and so wanting to isolate today and i'm gonna loose my mind

just revised my safety plan

i have been cleaning my depression room for the past 2 days i'm almost done. when i say clean i mean deeeeep clean, went through my clothes, old items, etc. organized my closet too. i still feel empty and depressed but at least my room is clean

i feel so fucking empty

i'm so tired and i keep going to sleep so early, like 5 year old early. idk if my sleep schedule is ever gonna get fixed but ughhhh. like i either don't sleep bc i don't wanna miss a text from my gf or all i do is sleep to make the time pass, there's no inbetween for me

blah

i feel so hopeless

my zoloft isn't zolofting hard enough right now

my brain feels so fucked up, i don't wanna be this way and i wish there was a way to make all the pain disappear