All the analysis of this video that I've seen has been about Simm which is valid but not what I'm here for. Everybody shush and let me cook really quick. I am going to take this chronologically. This is not the whole clip, but rather the 3 ish most interesting minutes for me to look at.
When he says "You live in my pity" she gets kinda mad about it. Very much a 'how fucking dare you, where did the AUDACITY come from' which is fair. She starts thinking it through, and by the time he starts "Winning, is that what you think it's about?" She looks away like she's started to consider he's right. I'm fine about that thanks.
She's very weird about eye contact in this scene. She only looks at him when he's looking at Simm. The moment he starts looking at her, she looks away. She doesn't want him to see that she's almost hooked on his every word. And she is, whether she wants to be or not. This trend starts around the "Winning" piece of his speech and continues for most of the rest of the video but I thought I'd mention it here.
The moment that made me do this whole analysis: "Because above all, it's kind. Just that. Just kind." And she looks down and away so fast. She takes deeper breaths like she's trying to collect herself. She wants to help him, but does she really? Does she want to be kind? Does she even think she has the capacity for that? Maybe she does want to help him, maybe she does want to be kind, and maybe that scares her. It scares her a lot.
"You will die too." And she looks up immediately. He keeps going and you can see her thinking about it really hard. She will die. Today actually, but she doesn't know that yet. "Because I know you. Very well." She almost seems uncomfortable with that statement. Because he does, he does know her. He knows her more now than he ever has, because they've been in such close proximity for so long. They had movie nights, for fucks sakes. He knows her. That's not something she can ignore anymore. And he tells her how she/Simm will die, and she looks scared. Because he's probably right.
"Who I am is where I stand. And where I stand is where I fall." This is where she starts crying. You can see the tears in her eyes. I'm totally fine about that. Because throughout all of his speech, the idea that upsets her this much is that the Doctor is dying today. No matter what they really do, this is an ending.
Oh my goddd the part where she listens to him talking to Simm. I'm so fine about that. The Doctor isn't really talking to her here, but you can see her react to every single thing he says. He's not truly talking to her but she's listening. She's taking it to heart. Once again you can see the tears. The Doctor is begging Simm to be kind, to stand with him. Missy knows it's hopeless. She knows herself, she knows Simm will never do it. And it breaks her a little bit. She smirks a little bit after Simm says "This is the face that didn't listen to a word you just said" or whatever but mostly she's upset. It's while the Doctor is talking to Simm and his reply that she starts forming her plan to kill him. She knows she's going to. In her eyes, the greatest kindness, that kindness that the Doctor wants from her so bad, would be to literally kill herself. Kind of. Close enough. Do you understand how much pain I'm in right now.
The moment the Doctor starts talking to her and her alone, she stops watching him. She avoids eye contact as much as possible, at first. But by the end of this section she's looking at him, without even blinking, just staring.
Her smirk after "And I know what you are capable of". I don't have anything to say I just thought it was worth mentioning because I loved it.
"Just stand with me. It's all I've ever wanted." "Me too. In a way." OH MY GOD HER LITTLE SMILE SOMEONE PLEASE SEDATE ME. HER TOO. SHE WANTS TO STAND WITH HIM. She wants to stand with him. She wants it. But she knows she's never going to be the person he wants her to be, not exactly. 'In a way' because she knows the way she wants to be with him isn't the way he wants to be with her. And it isn't in the clip I included but we all know her next line, "But no." No, because she doesn't think (knows. she knows.) that it'll never work. They were doomed from the start. From the moment they landed on this ship, from the moment she was put in the vault, from the moment these regenerations met, from the moment Theta killed Torvic for Koschei. "But no," because they can't stand together until she rectifies her past mistakes, until she kills Simm. And she tells Simm later "It's time to stand with the Doctor." and she genuinely was going to. "Just stand with me. It's all I've ever wanted." "Me too." AND SHE MEANT IT!!! AND SHE WAS GOING TO!! RAAAHHHH
I never really understood why everyone loved this scene. Of course, I did too, but not the way some others did. But I get it now. Holy shit. Everyone needs to get more insane about this now.
This is just my interpretation of the characters and everyone is going to have their own thoughts. Feel free to lmk what you think but also please be nice or I can and will start crying :)
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