burnt out & tired

why does it take SO much energy to keep your house only sort of clean

nobody talks about how exhausting it is to live in that space between "things will get better" and "i can't handle this anymore." it's like your emotions are constantly swinging. leaving you both hopeful and defeated in the same day.

Feeling like you're too much is honestly one of the worst feelings to possibly exist. It just feels like you need to stop being yourself and existing all together. It's like you crawl out of your own skin and laugh in disgust at what remains, it's pathetic. And so saddening.

I feel so disconnected from people lately, everything just feels fake and temporary.

Uh oh i think something deep inside me just gave up for good 🤣

Where I spend every waking moment, wishing this would end.

I cannot wait to see these guys again. Seeing them play Pittsburgh in Pittsburgh was awesome. It was also my first time hearing Drag the Lake, somehow I had missed that one. Now it has become one of my favorite songs.

I’m getting so tired of fighting myself all the time

I should just do everyone a favour and kill myself. What's the point anymore. I can't do anything right. I hope I die in my sleep tonight that will be what's best for everyone.

Suicide is feeling less and less like a back up plan and more and more like an inevitability with every day that passes