Meghan Saint

🥇 Congrats, you win the Trauma Olympics.

(Participation was very much not optional.)

One of the exclusive sticker designs from my upcoming book, Through (Dis)Honest Eyes—a dark romantic comedy about masking, meltdown, and finally saying the thing you’re not supposed to say.

If you’ve ever laughed through a breakdown or trauma-dumped with a smile on your face… you’re probably the target audience.

Been on Vyvanse for a week now and honestly? It feels like I got dropped into that Buffy musical episode—Once More, With Feeling—except instead of bursting into song, I’m blurting out truths I’ve spent years learning how to swallow.

I’m clear. I’m focused. I’m me, I think. But everything around me still feels like a dream—like I’m floating a few feet above my life, narrating it while I perform it.

And I’m saying things. Honest things. Things I should’ve said months ago. Things I maybe should never say. Things that burn after they leave my mouth.

And I say them smiling.

Because for the first time in forever, my brain is running without static—but it’s also not filtering for safety. There’s no internal “Should I say this?” alarm anymore. There’s just truth. And I don’t know if that’s healing or self-destruction. Maybe both.

I’ve apologized more this week than I did the entire last year. I’ve also told more truth.

It’s just weird to finally feel like you’re functioning… only to realize everyone preferred you when you were lying.

Through (dis)Honest Eyes is a dark romantic comedy about burnout, betrayal, and the blurred line between being seen and being exposed. If you’ve ever cried in your car, fallen in love with the wrong person, or tried to fix yourself into someone likable—this one’s for you.

I’m self-publishing this fall, and I’m running a Kickstarter to fund the final production (editing, formatting, printing, the works). If you want to read it, support it, or just quietly cheer from the shadows—you can join the Kickstarter notification list here:

👉 Kickstarter Pre-Launch Page

You can also read the first three chapters now:

📖 Read them here

There will be:

📕 Signed & annotated editions

📚 Bookmarks with unhinged quotes

💔 Vinyl stickers full of emotional damage

💌 Your name in the acknowledgements

This book is:

• 40% unresolved family trauma

• 30% kissing someone you maybe shouldn’t

• 20% Midwestern passive-aggression

• and 10% aggressively specific snack references

You’ll like it if you’ve ever:

• apologized for crying by making a joke too dark for the group chat

• emotionally disassociated in a Walgreens

• wanted to set your childhood house on fire for ✨closure✨

• wished your ex-boyfriend would just say the thing already

Robert, the love interest? Emotionally repressed Midwestern man who owns exactly three shirts and would die for you but won’t admit he’s sad.

Bree, the main character? Spiraling in a grocery store. Again.

Jean? Picture if rage had a favorite lipstick.

I made a family tree because keeping track of the Novak-Soot siblings and their collective breakdowns was a full-time job. If that sounds like your kind of chaos, I’m looking for a few alpha readers who are down for emotionally feral vibes and flawed characters who sometimes make the wrong choice on purpose.

Also: it’s not autobiographical. Except for all the parts that are.

No sign-up pressure. Just click if you’re nosy. You know you are.

Up to Chapter 23 on Kindle Vella! I dumped all AI art because 1) it’s generic crap and 2) I created something lovely myself until I can pay an artist to properly capture what I want.

In the meantime, you can read it in a few ways: the first 10 chapters are free on Kindle Vella: https://www.amazon.com/kindle-vella/story/B0D8ND5JCD

You can become an alpha reader! Message me your gmail and I’ll give you access to the Google Doc and you can provide feedback and insight that I need to capture the world of Elderock!

Day 2: Golden for @elucienweekofficial

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Accompanied by her love, the Sorceress Estelle, an unwanted Fae Sentry tag-along, Cilian, and her best friend Frida, the Dwarven tavern owner and fixer, Ava's journey is one of mystery, loyalty, and love. 💖🛡️

Mysteries will be unraveled, loyalties tested, and the very bounds of love questioned. Ava’s journey will redefine her destiny and the fate of Elderock itself. 🌟💫

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