I Just Saw A Shooting Star

When I was in the sixth grade I ran cross country and track. Near the end of track season I started feeling out of breath on my runs and getting exhausted to the point where I couldn’t finish some of our runs at practice. I even had to drop out of a race because I just couldn’t finish it.

At the same time, I began having trouble seeing the board in class. I told my parents and they took me to get my eyes checked for glasses. My teachers, friends at school, and family started asking me if I was okay. I’ve never been one to complain so I always responded with “I’m fine”.

I got my glasses on a Friday and wore them all weekend. By Monday, I wasn’t feeling well and I had barely eaten the day before, so I stayed home from school. I didn’t eat anything that day until my mom came home with watermelon, knowing I couldn’t pass it up. I did eat the watermelon, however, I got sick and could not stop throwing up.

My parents rushed me to the hospital and the people working the emergency room took me back as soon as we got through the doors. I don’t remember much from the emergency room but I do remember that I started feeling a lot better. I spent that first night in icu.

I was at the hospital for a week and kept begging them to let me go back to school. I didn’t understand at the time what diabetes meant and how it would affect my life. The doctor and nurses were in and out checking on me all day and night. They taught me to check my sugar and give myself a shot. The nutritionist came to talk to me about what I could eat and what I could not eat. At the time, I didn’t think it was a big deal. It was a lot harder on my parents than it was on me. It didn’t hit me until the day we left the hospital when we went to buy groceries and I broke down crying in the juice aisle.

THIS MAKE ME SO HAPPY. THAT’S A TV SHOW (body of proof) WITH A MINIMED PUMP, A QUIK-SET, A QUIK-SERTER. 

Right off the bat, when Lacey is diagnosed, she tells her mum “But I’m not fat!” and Megan responds with “Everything you’ve heard about diabetes? Forget it. It’s all misconceptions.”

They’re doing diabetes pretty much right here, and I could cry I’m so happy. My favorite show has released taglines for next season and one episode is about diabetes and I almost want to not watch it because I’m worried they’ll fuck it up like everyone else has done. 

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