megalosomnia

TLDR; good news and bad news. bad news: the money situation has been steadily getting worse, and days ago things suddenly took a steep spike downwards. good news: i'm not homeless again yet, and change IS on the horizon. (more on that below.) bad news again: we don't have enough money to make it to that point of change on our own. so i'm mortified to be doing this, but i need to ask for help.

longer version: my boyfriend has been helping support me and his little brother for some time now; i have a queue that's overly long mostly due to sickness and bad luck regarding my fight for citizenship, and their dad, who was in charge of my bf's brother, vanished some months ago without a trace. (yes, that's a big part of the issue. no, we don't know what happened. yes, we've done everything we can.) i am working on the queue, but i've been struggling to catch up, and his brother is trying to find a job but is struggling to find one willing to accomodate his disabilities. the longer it's taken, the tighter money has gotten. so we're now at a critical point where we can't really afford to not ask, just on the off chance someone can donate anything to help. ($1 USD is about $20 MXN, so even tiny donations always go a really long way for us. like, i got one donation the other day, and because of that one single donation, i could get groceries.)

as for the change: in the wake of realizing i had some skill with 3D, i also realized i might be able to pursue that as a secondary source of income — something i've long needed, since my eggs were all in one basket (stupid, i know, but back then i didn't have many options) — but there are some final things i need to learn before i can offer that service. (mostly just the unity side of things). my boyfriend is trying to expand his egg-to-basket ratio similarly. if we're successful we should see a lot more financial stability, but right now, as neither of us have yet seen the fruits of our efforts, asking for help again is all i can do to lessen the load.

there's not much else i can say — not all the details of what happened are mine to share. things are still fresh and we all feel like shit. and i know i don't have any right to ask for this when i've already recieved so much goodwill, but it's far from just me in the shit right now, so as mortifying as the situation is, i can't afford not to try.

if you can donate even a little, it would help so, so much. you can do that here:

(if not, sharing helps a lot, genuinely.)

i'll try to update again when things are looking less dire. i'm sorry if fanart and asks slow down in the meantime; TAU is a big source of comfort for me so i'll do my best not to disappear completely, but it's looking like none of us are going to have a lot of free time for a while, so idk how "around" i'll be.

surely nothing will go wrong, right?

Second post but this is the plot of megalosomnia right?

had this idea running in my head for a while and saw no one else draw it out so I sought out to doodle it as fast as possible. Without further ado, please enjoy my sense of humor

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This was only meant to be a few sentences, whu happun

This was only meant to be a few sentences, whu happun

Reading Rabble & Rampallians by Whishing_Stones, he probably looks waaaay better in this scene but he's just so grandpa coded to me-

Meanwhile gathering intel from the others in the gang, learning whatever he can about his new boss. Then playing the long game to get close enough that he can finally gain control of Nightmare's soul.

Starting with testing his boundaries, selling his 'helplessness' to make himself seem less of a threat, to finding common ground, getting chummy, flirting when he senses an opportunity, leaning in to that power imbalance... If he can get Nightmare to trust him just enough, if he can get close enough to his true self, that's an opening for his magic.

And Nightmare is not stupid, he can tell that Baggs is scheming, he recognizes his own tactics in Baggs after all, it's what he would have done. How cute. He'll play along, until that moment when Baggs thinks he has a chance to overcome him, and remind him how insignificant he is, how entertaining to break him for his insolence.

So they'll dance, both thinking they've got each other wrapped around their fingers.

Until that moment comes, when Baggs find that in.

And it works.

Because Nightmare really HAS let him in.

And it shocks the both of them to their cores

Because they both fucked up

At some point, it stopped being pretend

And now, for the first time in eons, Nightmare is genuinely afraid, how could he let this happen? He thought himself closed off forever, and now he'll be hurt again, the very reason he shut the world out, to protect himself.

But...

Baggs doesn't want to hurt him anymore.

Sentimental old fool, how could he let himself get this attached? Freedom, justice, incredible power is right at his fingertips, the very multiverse within his grasp.

Yet he cant do it. He can't betray him. Despite it all, despite that technically he is still Nightmare's prisoner.

And now at an impasse, the moment silent and tense, Nightmare could dust him in a second, Baggs could take complete control and never give it back.

...

The moment definitely happens while they're already having 'strategically manipulative' sex

That moment where they realize oh God this isn't hate sex, this is making love?!

Are you kidddinggggg that line goes so hard oh my godddd

Meanwhile gathering intel from the others in the gang, learning whatever he can about his new boss. Then playing the long game to get close enough that he can finally gain control of Nightmare's soul.

Starting with testing his boundaries, selling his 'helplessness' to make himself seem less of a threat, to finding common ground, getting chummy, flirting when he senses an opportunity, leaning in to that power imbalance... If he can get Nightmare to trust him just enough, if he can get close enough to his true self, that's an opening for his magic.

And Nightmare is not stupid, he can tell that Baggs is scheming, he recognizes his own tactics in Baggs after all, it's what he would have done. How cute. He'll play along, until that moment when Baggs thinks he has a chance to overcome him, and remind him how insignificant he is, how entertaining to break him for his insolence.

So they'll dance, both thinking they've got each other wrapped around their fingers.

Until that moment comes, when Baggs find that in.

And it works.

Because Nightmare really HAS let him in.

And it shocks the both of them to their cores

Because they both fucked up

At some point, it stopped being pretend

And now, for the first time in eons, Nightmare is genuinely afraid, how could he let this happen? He thought himself closed off forever, and now he'll be hurt again, the very reason he shut the world out, to protect himself.

But...

Baggs doesn't want to hurt him anymore.

Sentimental old fool, how could he let himself get this attached? Freedom, justice, incredible power is right at his fingertips, the very multiverse within his grasp.

Yet he cant do it. He can't betray him. Despite it all, despite that technically he is still Nightmare's prisoner.

And now at an impasse, the moment silent and tense, Nightmare could dust him in a second, Baggs could take complete control and never give it back.

...

The moment definitely happens while they're already having 'strategically manipulative' sex

That moment where they realize oh God this isn't hate sex, this is making love?!

Meanwhile gathering intel from the others in the gang, learning whatever he can about his new boss. Then playing the long game to get close enough that he can finally gain control of Nightmare's soul.

Starting with testing his boundaries, selling his 'helplessness' to make himself seem less of a threat, to finding common ground, getting chummy, flirting when he senses an opportunity, leaning in to that power imbalance... If he can get Nightmare to trust him just enough, if he can get close enough to his true self, that's an opening for his magic.

And Nightmare is not stupid, he can tell that Baggs is scheming, he recognizes his own tactics in Baggs after all, it's what he would have done. How cute. He'll play along, until that moment when Baggs thinks he has a chance to overcome him, and remind him how insignificant he is, how entertaining to break him for his insolence.

So they'll dance, both thinking they've got each other wrapped around their fingers.

Until that moment comes, when Baggs find that in.

And it works.

Because Nightmare really HAS let him in.

And it shocks the both of them to their cores

Because they both fucked up

At some point, it stopped being pretend

And now, for the first time in eons, Nightmare is genuinely afraid, how could he let this happen? He thought himself closed off forever, and now he'll be hurt again, the very reason he shut the world out, to protect himself.

But...

Baggs doesn't want to hurt him anymore.

Sentimental old fool, how could he let himself get this attached? Freedom, justice, incredible power is right at his fingertips, the very multiverse within his grasp.

Yet he cant do it. He can't betray him. Despite it all, despite that technically he is still Nightmare's prisoner.

And now at an impasse, the moment silent and tense, Nightmare could dust him in a second, Baggs could take complete control and never give it back.

...