MedicineMane's Positive Ponies

I don't even like spaghetti (even if I make it, it turns out... bad texture), so really Italians owe me for fighting just on the principle of it

One, I think it ends up being easier, while I think giving a similar level of clean

If they wouldn't fucking touch me and circle me, they'd be a lot easier to tolerate. There's cat shit in the literbox most days, why are you in my room harassing me instead of eating shit? You're wasting energy to be annoying

I'd be more willing to try and catch and release them if they weren't already difficult to kill. Like even with a swatter they can be tricky, matchbox isn't gonna get most of them. It's mostly the lucky ones chilling on the inside of the window screen where I can overcome my hate for them to think to catch them, and where they're still enough it works

One fly is bad, but if there's two in a space they rile each other up and become unbearable

The second I think I've gotten rid of all the flies in my room... wrong. Either I missed one, or a new one found a way in. Makes me understand the "spontaneous generation" ideas people had (guess what, held the swatter long enough to kill 3 even though it feels so dirty it's almost like burning to me... there's one dive bombing me as I write this)

Like flies are an actual full on literal trigger for me. I mean in the trailer when I was a teen there were so many it was like smoke. I had to cover anything I was drinking with my thumb at all times so flies wouldn't get in. They'd come out of the drain when I used the sink

Like it's such a trigger I've left restaurants before because it's... it's a physical pain response dealing with them. I'm not gonna say they're ontologically evil, they're just animals, but if feels hard to design a more disruptive and unpleasant thing if you tried

I think I'm way better with them now, I almost don't get bothered beyond the normal extent... but truthfully they're real bad for my mental health

I'm not doing great today, and I might be asleep if it wasn't for them landing on me while I'm trying to sleep

There's that Douglas Adams bit about the lorrie driver who hates the rain, but without knowing it he's the raincloud's god so they love him and follow him everywhere... and there's a part of me that fucking fears that's me with flies, that I'm the lord of filth and just attract them

I'm not great right now. I think I gotta go get the fly swatter again to get this fly. The fact that it legit feels almost like it's burning my hand, and hearing about people with bonafide diagnosed OCD talk about stuff... that's one of the ones that makes me think "oh this might be OCD, that might be why I feel like that cause the way you describe touching a window sill feeling just sounds so like how touching the fly swatter feels

Did I mention the part where some company wants an oil/gas lease with me, and obviously I don't want that, but my state has forced pooling, so I might wind up with no choice and I'm just... I'm taking this slow, I'm not committing to anything, and I'm going with the mentality of if I can say no then great, but if I'm backed into a corner at least I want to negotiate the best lease possible for myself to minimize any potential harm

Shit has my stress through the roof (Remember when people just said stress instead of cortisol? I don't mind new terms, I mind pseudoscience being normalized... you know?)

Anyway, found a forum about mineral rights, they know a lot more shit than I do. So I'm asking around for thoughts there. Got a good and friendly basic response

So I want to respond... I've... shit, I wanted to make the first post like a week ago and I've been trying to respond all day, but my brain's fucking locked up with stress, you now?

So yeah, I wish I could just have something else, anything else handle this for me

...I'm not trusting a fucking LLM with my mineral rights. If I was gonna do that I'd just sign the lease no questions asked. It's inherently the worst deal I'll get, in that it's the first offer, but at least it wouldn't risk an LLM making things worse

(I just... I assume they want to probe to see if there's anything to frack under this town, and I assume if they did it would be deep enough to not mess with my house's foundation, but I've got loke 0.14 acres of land, I'm getting jack shit out of this, I fucking hate oil and no offense to the guy I'm dealing with cause he seems nice enough, but I wish their greedy asses would just fuck off... were it not for forced pooling I'd have said "respectfully fuck off" and meant the respectfully part)

Your search function is so bad (it has found me russian softcore minecraft porn when I was trying to find how to do a redstone project) that I'd almost take ai over that because man imagine a world where I could be like "triple piston extender no parts above ground level" and get an actual answer instead of having to dig and dig and dig (though the answer I did got let me run everything off the timing system it used and was the one and only but of complex redstone I've done that didn't have the miserable debug phase and just worked)

So yeah... sounds great... except for one teeny tiny almost inconsequential problem... you're the same imbeciles that made the search

How is your LLM gonna be any better than your search you morons?

So not using youtube's search sounds great till you think for a second that the alternative is also made by them

It's not funny to me, it's sad, cause all I see is someone extremely lonely filling the void in a really unhealthy way

They're the victim and the ai company is the one preying on them. They might be foolish, they might be an ass, but at the core of the situation they're just someone super isolated and alone and I just can't make fun of someone like that no matter the rest of their behavior or how inadvisable it is

I mean I've said similar stuff with a lot of gacha game addiction, that I think the people who are worst about paying ungodly amounts of money are lonely people who develop an emotional connection to a character and are willing to fork over money because that connection is better than no connection

I see lonely hurting people, and I'm not gonna make fun of them. I'm the same, I've just managed to deal with it slightly better, or... less unhealthy anyway. At least I'm not outsourcing my bandaid solutions to companies for cash, not because that makes me superior but because it makes me less exploitable

They dealt with it by shooting giant american dollar bills to glue it down (like one dollar sideways being enough to cover the mech from below the feet to the neck)