Hope for the best, prepare for the worst..

Try to explain to those nearest how you feel fed up, exhausted, guilty, not good enough and sad for no reason.. explain how your chest is constantly filled with heaviness for no reason..

I feel as though I'm losing the one I love. Life deals you a hand which has to be played. Truth is I don't see a way forward. I'm being considerate to others and biting my tongue but what good is it if it's only hurting our relationship. On the outside all you see is a strong headed, opinionated bitch. Some may say I'm selfish or hosting a pity party? But how can people come to that conclusion, their not me and can't read minds or emotions. Inside, well let's just say I feel helpless and drained. A mask hides a lot.

Being told you're not worth fighting for can break someone more than they'll ever know..

People think it's hard faking a smile, it's really not but that may just be me because I'm use to it

Emotionally drained but can't give up, no I won't give up even though it hurts like hell..

Perfect description. If they only knew...