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What Should Six Thousand Leaves;Look Like?All Different,I Hope.My Defiance Of Meiji,Of My Own Country,Of All Nation States,Or Warring States,A La Anarchist.Pacifist –Too Old To Do Much,But Teach.From Molotovs To Napalm –The Fossil Carbon Bodies,Of Dead Scale Trees,Fueling Our Fight For Freedom.True MMP or STV Democracy,That Isn’t False Or Managed.No Idols Or Liars Allowed.Only…

Us Anarchists Know The Plot.Usually First To Be Culled.Fascism Is Here.Mainstream Media Propagandizing It;As Normal & Acceptable,When Anything But:WE FOUGHT A WORLD WAR TO KILL IT!Nuremberg Trials Sloppy.Many Mass Murderers Free.After Paltry Few Years Of Jail.Sighs;& Cookbook Recipes.

Astonishing;What Good Faith Fools,Will Tolerate!Open Crimes & Lies –Fascist Dogma & Dog Whistles.Old Pacifist Anarchist?Watch As Far Right Psychopaths;Kill Innocents With Guns.Rare Any Progressive Enacts Such Murder!Why Aren’t Fascists Being Assassinated Back:& Gunned Down In The Streets?

Lies & Liars.Bad Faith Spin Doctors Or Patsies.Weiss & Her Ilk Are A Virus –A Plague On Humanity & Our Zeitgeist.When Propaganda Is Normalized,Stories Are Killed To Hide Truth,& Lies & Crimes Become Commonplace,We All Lose.Social Contracts Ripped To Shreds.Vigilante Justice Looming.

What?Never Eaten Pig –Roasted In Banana Leaves,Buried With Charcoal?Bear Sausage –Hopefully Got Far Out Enough,No Garbage Bears?Made Sausage?Soaked Clean White Intestines –To String Upon Grinder Tube?THRESH!Great Food Chain Calls.Eat.Then Be Eaten,In Turn.Raggedy Yellow Canines;Grin.

So I Shall Become Oblivion,To Annihilation.Beyond;This Infinite Deconstruction Of The Self.Ever Ongoing.An Old Witch;Bids Void Adieu –MANY NIGHTS.Absence Of Everything,Becoming Empty Space.Karman Line –Withered Husk Encased Inside Wyrm.Cut Me Open,Take Her Out –& Plant Her.Sow,These Killing Fields,With Fruit.Warlord?//Pomegranate?;Knowledge & Self-Awareness?Apple?;Poisoned With Eternal…

Rend Me Apart.Or Ballista Through The Chest.Die In Dreams So Frequently,Remember Most Types –Of Pain.From Agonizing Searing Throbs;Of Arms Severed,At Elbow –To Dozens Of Sharp Teeth;Closing Upon Midsection.Shears Me In Twain.Somehow;Fighting For My Life,Is Easier Than The Waking Real.

Relax?Can’t.Even Meds That Mute My Danger Sense;Hair Trigger Amygdala,Eventually Wear Off.Going Full Send 100% –To Staggered Slowdowns & Losses.Where Did That Time Go?It’s Never Enough.Leaving Hidden Ciphered Wisdoms,In 6000 Poems.Cannot Kill My Ego Hard Enough,To Relax.I Always Try.

Dig Holes Deeper?A Fool’s End.Spirals Downward,Never Stopping.Know Intimately,Feeling Of Mud Against Feet.Pushing Back;All One’s Might,Not To Backslide.Bare Foot To Cleats,Sliding Backwards All The Same.I Signal Ragnarok –With My Symbolisms.Yet, Only Apocalypse I Fortell?My Own.

Why Struggle?Why Resist?Even Friends Hurt Us In Small Ways;Unintentionally.Gift,Assortment,Appreciated.Small Book:“Soft Boy Survival Guide.”A Deep Sigh.“Not A Boy.”A Bearded Old Agender Lady:Aloud To Herself.Heteronormativity.I Know Queerness Is Fucking Me.But How Can I Not Be Myself?

Dread.As Phone Randomly Has Screen Go White.Illegible.Another Hay Straw, Upon Back.Body Riddled With Infection.Rot.Redlined.Out Of Gas.Broke Down;With No Clue What To Do.Some Smart Folks,Told Me I Was Smarter Than Most Others.But I’ve Been Broke,For Ever.Polymath,But Nobody Wants Me.

Societal Contracts So Broken?Honestly Surprised –Aren’t Already,Resistance Cells. First Past The Post Elections?Undemocratic.Might As Well Be Rotating Tyrant Kings! Amazed That Oligarchs?Billionaires?Pedophiles?Evil Monsters?Aren’t Being Gunned Down,In The Streets,Via Assassination!

Kievan Rus –Still Stands.One Ancient Ethnic Homeland,Attacked, Invaded, Subjugated,For Centuries.Mongol & Russian Blood, Flows In Our Veins:Stories Of Rape & War & Pillage.Celts The Same;Romans,Then Anglo-Saxons,Then British.Stolen Homelands, Now?The Same.RESIST:Freedom Must Ring True.

Fool & A Fool & A Fool & A Fool & A Fool.Cognitive Dissonance Blooming –Like Corpse Flowers;Reeking Of Decay.Humans Evolving Enough –To Have Sentient-Level Intelligence.“Rot Means Sick. No Eat. Avoid.”Other Animals Happily Gorging –On Mouldy Carcasses.Then Shitting Themselves Half To Death.

Once Upon Time?Scale Trees Lay Where Fallen.No Microbe Capable;Of Breaking Down Cellulose,Or Such Carbon-Based Wood Fibres.Terrestrial Fungi?Only Evolved;440 MYA,Thus;Making The Difference,Between Coal & Oil Beds:& Vibrant Forests –Capable Of Composting.& Rebirth:Via Fungal Blooms.

THERE IS NO JUSTICE.This I Know.So Intimate & Familiar,With Rain, Mud, & Rock?Treated Like Dirt To Match.Disposable Workers –Paid As Little As Possible A La Profits.Thrown Away,Abuse Of Layoffs In Bad Faith.There Is No Justice.This I Know.Yet Keep Fightin’ For It Regardless,Like A Fool.

Disability Roulette;Jobless,Hurting,Desperate.Bed Rot All Saturday –Sleeping, Few Hours At A Time.Waking up at 11pm,Struggling To Find Sleep Again.World Doesn’t Work For People Like Me;Incredibly Neurodivergent.Can Do Anything!Yet Nobody Wants Me.Can’t Find A Job.& Homelessness Looms.