Blog of a background NPC

He's apparently ok, he's in the hospital.

Little shits who just wanted to fight someone, not even a mugging.

Wrong place, wrong time.

[edit] FINALLY FIGURED IT OUT!

I'm signed of sick but I'm still here.

Recently went to the Night Vale live show dressed as the Glow Cloud again. I don't know if the heart breaker was there but if he was, he would have seen me as the outfit wasn't exactly subtle. But fuck him, I wasn't going to let him ruin Night Vale for me.

Not sure if the pills are working but I've just started a new role so that's def helped the mental health a bit. Turns out I can work on a team where I literally don't speak a word of the language but so long as I have a team, I can do it.

Might have hit pre-menopause, not entirely sure.

Facebook friend messaged me this evening asking if I've heard from the guy who broke my heart recently as she & another friend of his haven't been able to contact him for 6 months and they're worried. She didn't know what had happened between us.

I am not so narcissistic to believe that his absence online is due to me. I strongly suspect that his phone & laptop finally gave up the ghost and he's been unable to afford to replace either because he's broke.

But there is a part of me that actually hopes it is because of me. And I hope he is miserable.

"Don't be reckless with other people′s hearts, don′t put up with people who are reckless with yours."

Survived being at home & having to be in same space as brother: the anti-depressants have absolutely numbed me so felt nothing about it all.

The doctor has written me a referral for a therapist (ha ha, let's see if I can find one!) and just noticed earlier that she's diagnosed me with a depressive episode and PTSD.

Gotta admit, I did not see that one coming. In hindsight, yeah it makes sense but to actually see it in black and white is a bit startling. Aaaaaaand I have nobody I can really talk to about it so I'm posting here.

Former AD girl is back to being AD girl.

It's fine, I just have another maybe 4 weeks of side effects to get through before my brain considers making happy chemicals.