Matthew

I hate being alive

Feel so fucking helpless, I feel like I’m just fucking existing. I feel like somebody’s playing with me. I hate this fucking feeling. I hate to fucking exist. It does not get better. Fuck fuck fuck fuck there’s so much I wanna say to you so much I can’t. I can’t believe you would do me like this. I felt it coming, but I never thought it would happen. I want to sleep for a long time.

I hope you’re happy

I wish I could as unbothered as you.

I’m so tired of feeling so empty. I always used to think these thoughts would go away but I’m so depressed I hate it here and now its been years

I’m so tired of being the bad guy. I need to leave this world.

Why do I feel so alone in a room full of people.

Why do I feel like people treat me like I have no emotion.

Even you treat me like I’m gross. My mind is aimlessly angry at that.

Aimless and endless phone calls, texting, and talking. I miss it more than ever I feel like I’m just floating through space as all my piers fly past me.

I miss my old friends. Like everyone moved on but me :/.