MatildasMind

it’s absolutely okay to not finish a book

like, I found myself really wishing I could just finish a book, so I would start something and get like 10 pages in and just. Be so bored. I couldn’t focus, nothing about it would really pull me along, I would get distracted and put it down and then dread picking it up because it just wasn’t interesting 

But I would keep trying to finish. Because I’d feel bad about “failing” to read it. Even though I’d be stuck and couldn’t get past another page. So I’d see other things I’d want to read, but I’d tell myself “you can read that when you finish XYZ first”, which would just make me feel guilty, so in the end I wouldn’t finish the first book but I also wouldn’t/couldn’t start the next one, meaning I just… never read anything.

But then in the last two months I decided to just say “fuck it, if I can’t finish something then I’m moving on to the next book” because I was tired of wasting time on books I just couldn’t get into

And since then in two months I’ve finished 8 books. That’s 8 more books than I’ve read in YEARS.

But here’s the thing. I started over 20 books.

Yes, you read that right. I started over 20 books (thank you, local library!). And of those 20, only 8 of them kept me interested enough to finish. But that’s 8 more books than I’ve read in like the last 5 years.

Why I didn’t get diagnosed until 28 and was told I’m “too quiet” to have ADHD

Having more Pjs than actual clothes because Comfort

–the Only Mood everyone else knows about: i  wanna do THIS and THIS and THIS and THIS and THIS and–SQUIRREL

–galaxy brain: i was listening to the lecture but the prof said something that reminded me of something else and now i’m not sure how much time i was lost in thought

–the tutorial only comes in video format: i’m sorry, but you’ve thrown off the emperor’s groove *hurls product & its tutorial video into the sun*

–damn you hyperfocus: i went to bed intending to wake up and write but this morning i was possessed by a cleanliness spirit and spent the next 14 hours organizing the apartment

–i dont think u tried at all.jpg: did i seriously spend an entire free day refreshing twitter b/c i didn’t want to spend 10 minutes finishing my hw but wouldn’t let myself do anything else until i finished it???? (yes)

–patrick star: *unlocks phone* time to check the weather. *opens twitter* the weather. *opens messenger* the weather. *opens mobage game* the weather. *opens facebook* the weather. *opens twitter again* THE WEA–

bullying is abuse. full stop. bullying is abuse, bullies are abusers. if you have been bullied, you have been abused.

bullying is not a lesser form of abuse. it is not normal. it is not beneficial. victims do not need to ‘grow up’ or ‘get over it’. you are not childish or immature for being hurt by it.

bullying can cause mental health problems. bullying can cause trauma. mental health problems and trauma caused by abuse are completely valid. bullying is not a lesser form of abuse and the effects of bullying are not lesser forms of pain.

bullying comes in a lot of different forms. essentially, if you were excluded or humiliated or mocked or physically abused or in any other way treated as inferior by your peers, you were bullied.

bullying is never the victim’s fault. never. the abusers will always find an excuse to hurt you but they don’t need an actual reason.

the effects of bullying can last a lifetime. all this is true if you’re being bullied right now, and all this is true if it’s been a year. five years. fifteen years. abuse can have long-term effects and healing is not a question of maturity.