there's a certain number that like i just cannnotttt let myself get to or go above but then i didn't weigh myself for ten days and i just passed right by that number and ended up one kg higher and i wanna fucking end it alllllll I’m so disgusted

would have loved to just not eat solids today but i met up with A and their friend for drinks and we also shared some nachos and now A and I are making dinner (roasted potatoes and veggie chicken tenders) so like it's not lookin good for me today. i fully understand why ppl gain weight in relationships bc wtf we're constantly eating

okay so i finally weighed myself this morning and it was absolutely horrific. truly devastating. so now I’m gonna see how much i can lose in the next week before ill be in a bikini at the lake :/