group thang tomorrow for the first time in months and also. the first ive been out in actual public w people in months besides like going to the store w/ my sister a few times which is like. passive , existence u know vs people actually talking to me and i am so Afraid i am Scared

it was ok but i did so bad socially it was somehow even worse than last time where i think i accidentally answered a question meant for someone else , this lady asked if i wanted to sit with her and i said no out of fear even tho , i should've the point is to get involved and i was like man i hope she asks again but then she asked again and i once again said no impulsively without thinking and she seemed mad she like waved her hand angrily and turned away o(-< and then whenever id go to get something at this one table one of the ladies would say something to me and id think i got this just smile and go haha yeah and i thought i had it down but im realizing i dont . know how long to hold a smile or if i even smile at all i fear i just end up looking like this

One day, this is gonna be my favorite mutuals couple when they meet because they’re so in love and I don’t have a weird para social investment in it. *Now kith*