Yet my soul remains frozen in those bygone days, utterly unable to transform itself the way my actual life has. Intuitively, I can always sense the past lurking all around me.

"I am young, I am twenty years of age; but I know nothing of life except despair, death, fear, and the combination of completely mindless superficiality with an abyss of suffering. I see people being driven against one another, and silently, uncomprehendingly, foolishly, obediently and innocently killing one another. I see the best brains in the world inventing weapons and words to make the whole process that much more sophisticated and long-lasting. And watching this with me are all my contemporaries, here and on the other side, all over the world – my whole generation is experiencing this with me."

𝖁𝖆𝖓𝖊𝖘𝖘𝖆