hi, i’m me!! vv excited you’re here ! before you look or interact though, here is the obiligatory: MINORS DNI. i post and talk about 18+ fandoms that some people may find disturbing.
TW for fictional: noncon/rape, kidnapping, violence, torture, gore, blood, abuse, necrophilia, consensual sexual content or NSFW, yandere or dark romance
i will add to this list as i post more. this is the internet, you control what you see. if something listed here makes you upset or uncomfortable, pretty please block me !! do what is best for you :]
about me . . . ☆
[ masochistically-entertained , 19 , any pronouns ]
- hi, i’m me or masochistically-entertained (literally and figuratively) i’m deffo not interested in sharing my real name on here so you can call me what you like! i noticed my user abbreviated is ME which is what i’m personally going with since i think it’s funny :P
- weird girl who likes gross stuff :3
- i draw fanart + insert/sona/oc stuff for btd1&2, the price of flesh and ykmet
- i will probably also post/reblog headcanons and psychoanalysis of characters from the games mentioned
- i will always tag with credit and trigger warnings when they are due. if i forget, please tell me :>
- i take requests ! tell me what to draw please 🙇 i’ll draw you or your oc with your fave as long as you give references or descriptions
- this is my first big girl blog! i’ve been a tumblr lurker since i was like 13 but i’ve never posted on here before until now
- i’m a filthy mobile user
- i’ve been a fan of these games since mid-2025 i believe ? when i was 18
- i’m friendly, i promise !! please talk to me, i wont bite u (⇀ 3 ↼) ♡
- should be obvious but i do NOT condone any of the things i talk about on here in real life. fiction is fiction and it should stay so.
- a lot of people won’t understand but i am in fact a lesbian !! despite my affinity for fictional men
i will indulge in . . . ☆
- ocs and self inserts
- btd/tpof/ykmet characters
- nsfw
- gore/blood
- noncon (or rape if we wanna use the big boy word)
- cutesy stuff aside from the freaky
- kinks i don’t share unless they’re on the list below
- self harm or suicidal ideation
i will not indulge in . . . ☆
- listen, we’re all furry-adjacent here but i’m not freaking animals that don’t talk
- incest, MAYBE pseudocest ?? but not likely
- scat. promise i’m not kink shaming. look at me. it’s just not for me 🤞 i’m not opposed to a little pee or vomit
- underage sex or romance. characters having kids is fine, just not in that context
- this isn’t like a hard rule or anything but i’m personally just not really interested in EP’s characters so i probably won’t post anything about that unprompted
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saw someone say that Strade could possibly Pavlov player into liking gore. rushed to search that in the game and he could. he absolutely could. he even did that to Ren already, for I doubt that he was into gore before.
I'm terrified of how smart Strade has become in ykmet.
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if you don't know what Pavlov I'm talking about, this article might help. take care!
The previous question may seem strange in how obvious the answer seems, but I ask you to consider it. MC can ask Strade why he tortures and kills, to which he gives an unsatisfying non-answer. A critic might reply, "He tortures and kills to get his rocks off! DUMMY!" Certainly. But this doesn't explain why it gets said rocks off.
It seems doubtful that even Strade knows why he does what he does. but if we examine the games, we get clues that reveal more than one would think.
The very first time we meet him, he seems friendly, personable, and even generous in the way he offers drinks. I believe his charm is completely superficial for reasons we'll get back to. In the meantime, he reveals he is an engineer who came from Europe (presumably Germany). By the time we end up in his basement, these facts have evaporated from our memory. He leaves us be in order to be well rested for the activities of the next day.
If we hide our emotions from him long enough, he gets frustrated and butchers us outright. After enough time of him torturing us passes, he pulls us over to a table saw. He rambles about how machines are all made with a certain intention while asking us how we're feeling.
Despite the desire to know how we're feeling, Strade is a man's man. He drinks beer, builds things, and is handy around the house. He's from Germany: a stereotypically masculine country known for its industry, systems of order, and stoicism.
We realize he's no ordinary sexual sadist. It's been said that Strade views people as machines. I would add onto that: Strade is a living machine. He's trying to collect as many data points as he possibly can. Each scream is a hypothesis confirmed.
Carl Jung would probably describe him as an archetypal masculine figure. He is obsessed with learning how things work, and that extends to people. In other words, he wishes to take what's considered irrational (emotions) and slot them into the rational. He wishes to take what is considered chaotic and put it into something that is measurable. Our guy is a machine man with a machine mind. He wants to take human feeling and dissect it until all mystery is gone. He won't rest until emotions are reduced to a math equation: 🧍♂️➕🔪🟰😱
Strade's machine mind is dedicated to order and systems. When he meets MC in the bar, he's not actually engaging in conversation with us. He is running through a script. Don't believe me? If we are standoffish and rude to him, he won't take the hint. He will plow right ahead with talking about himself in a simulation of an actual convo. He will press us to drink beer even if we refuse him. He probably figured out a long time ago that people are easier to manipulate if someone gives them things, and alcohol impedes their judgment. Even something that is meant to be spontaneous like a random meetup has been broken down to a process.
As he's torturing us, he keeps trying to find new ways to get us to react a certain way. Once we get predictable, he quickly loses interest and uses us for his orgasm to get from point A ➡️ point B. Every person is meant to serve a utility in his perspective.
Consider Strade's main source of income: snuff streaming. As he tortures and kills his victims on camera, donations come flooding in. He is literally transforming human misery into money (if that's not an apt metaphor for capitalism, I don't know what is). It's something he reserves for MC only when our sanity drops to zero and he can no longer restrain us.
Compare this to Ren, who is in most ways irrational and unpredictable. He's a fox beastkin, an unknown to most humans, thus he has an air of mystery to him. He lies constantly. You can rarely predict his next move. It would make sense why Strade grew obsessed with him, as he's always full of surprises.
This headcanon is one that I've been working on for months just so I could post it today of all days. This may not be the best hc you've ever read, but hopefully it's at least number 2:
BTD exists in a world where no one has to poop.
Outlandish, you say? Let's look at the facts.
When Strade kidnaps us in BTD1, he keeps us in the basement overnight. With our MC consumed with fear, it would make sense for them to fill their drawers. Yet, the text doesn't mention any brown notes. Not even a rabbit pellet.
Ren comes to offer us water, but what would have been useful would be a bedpan. Seriously, Ren! Can you just steal a bowl or something from the kitchen and throw it out so I don't have to die with Hershey squirts in my jeans?!
That leads me to BTD2: Fresh Blood (or Fresh Mud, given the circumstances).
All four of the characters kidnap us and hold us for multiple days. Ren leads us to the bedroom but seems unconcerned about us finding the bathroom. He collars us and feeds us out of a dog bowl. He wants my MC to act like a pet? I'll show him how a new pet acts when I leave a nice little surprise in that gamer chair. Perfect opportunity to traumatize him, completely missed.
The lack of human manure (humanure, if you will) makes even less sense in Lawrence's route. I'm sure he would appreciate the fertilizer for his plants, and it can't smell much worse than him, so what's the problem? He actually lets us use the bathroom at one point, but we barely get any time to ourselves. Like, gimme some time, Larry! I've been holding it in for 18 hours, and you've been feeding me all sorts of drugs! My GI tract isn't built for these turbo turds!
By now, you're probably screaming into your screen, "Idiot! There are bathrooms in this world! That clearly proves people can birth a creamy behemoth from their backsides!" I don't mean to poo-poo any criticism of my hc, but it's established multiple times that characters can pee. That doesn't mean they poop.
This is brought up in Vincent's route where the guy asks you to pee your pants (and he can also pee on you). Vincent is arguably the most doglike of all the characters, so wouldn't it make sense for him to drop a fudge rope near the MC to prove his dominance? Just asking questions.
Which brings us to TPOF (The Price of Fudge).
Celia has killed people in the same method she kidnaps MC, so she should know the score. Especially when she fills us with donuts!!! Girl, you forcing these donuts down my throat will make you see my chocolate filling! Especially when you force us to stay in this little room for multiple days! Imagine if instead of a tripwire, we get to lay a mudpie at the entryway. When Celia or Harold step in it, I think it would pause their bloody rage and just leave them with questions.
Mason's route is another where caca mechanics would come in handy. You're out in the woods for up to four nights, and you don't have to pop a squat? What happens when you're dropping the dook and Mason could sneak up behind you with a potential catchphrase: "Uh oh! STINKY!!!"
For the secret route, we once again have the perfect opportunity to slow Ren down with our brown batter. If I'm in serious danger, I'm drawing out my inner chimpanzee. I got a booboo bullet in the chamber ready to fling at any foolish Fox. Sure we're gonna die even more horribly than we would have, but I'm sure his chat would get a kick out of it.
That's to say nothing of when he starts fucking us on stream! Brother! You are asking to meet the smelly Jack-in-the-Box! Say your MC is AMAB. In this case, Ren has one, count 'em, ONE option to go spelunking in: our fecal fjord! When we've had zero prep time! No time to even fire one out before hand! He just barges into our cell and throws us some fishnets. Either no one in this universe needs to poop or he wants to pull out and see a chocolate knot.
There you have it. My definitive proof that the BTD-verse is poopless. I haven't even gotten into YKMET and how Strade keeps us for multiple days, feeds us, and could easily let us use the bathroom in the basement. But if what I wrote above doesn't convince you, nothing will.
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People who are in a low mental state should not play boyfriend to death or any murder games. It's not necessarily bad to be suicidal or feeling sick in the head, but games like this are not gonna help you get better, infact, it also fogged your vision of morality and what is right and wrong. Fetishizing and romanticizing this character's action while you can't separate it from reality can make you make bad decisions and can hurt others while doing so. It is important to take your mental health seriously, even though this is kinda corny ngl.
people getting mad at ao3 for rightfully being firmly against censorship and allowing dark fics that depict taboo subjects in explicit details to be on their platform is so funny to me because ao3 was created specifically to be a fuck you to capitalism and censorship. the point of ao3 is that it’s a place to host and archive any fanwork, which includes fanwork about taboo topics that are not allowed on other platforms like wattpad or fanfiction.net
the whole point of ao3 is that it’s a safe space for all fics, and that includes fics about taboo subjects
ao3 has always been firmly against censorship since the day it was created, that’s why it’s run by fans, for fans, on fans’ donations, why it’s a nonprofit organization, that’s also why it has no ads or algorithms or any of those capitalism bullshit
if you have a problem with that, go to fanfiction.net or wattpad. no one forces you to stay in the house made specifically for the (affectionate) freaks
Anyone who sees this post, please give me some advice on creating the novella. I'm a new game developer, and I've never developed anything in the game industry before, not even a single game, so I decided to create a novella similar to BDT (Boyfriend to Death). Like BDT, there will also be three villains (if I named them correctly), and half the code, as well as the scenes, art, and characters, will be drawn and written (I might attach screenshots). Of course, I haven't finished the first plot line yet, but I'd like to hear advice from those who know their stuff. I'd like to know how to best create endings, whether I should have written the script in advance, and how to compose the music if I don't have any tedious elements.
(Thanks for your attention.)
(And I'll repeat that I'm a newbie both in creating games and in drawing on a tablet.)
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Very mild confession, I audibly cheer when I see someone I follow in this fandom likes one of my posts. Don’t get that excited for likes on posts in any other fandom.
I wanna grip my hands into Rens psyche, I want to understand how his fox brain works.. I want to understand his trauma, why he chose to torture people, why even repeating the horrible cycle of trafficking people.. He still allows other people to control him. How he even managed to survive escaping his clan, how that actually affected him.. Poor thing probably got mugged, trash diving, doing anything just to survive.
Those walls were built since the beginning because they had to be, it was just Strade that broke them in. Thats my shit right there.
Thinking about it the emotional rush of Strade torturing him only to take him in, shelter him, provide him consistency EVEN if Strade tortured him, his life had no consistency, no emotional stability, at least Strades hurt became familiar. Hes been a street rat since the beginning, and he's seen the worst of it.
Why should he have any hope in then? A knife gave him more control than he ever had previously, and when control has been stripped from you, of course your brain is attracted to what it knows. Whats familiar
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Oh my God, I love when I find OCs from the BTD/YKMET community. KEEP FEEDING ME WITH YOUR YUMESHIPS, SELFINSERTS, OC X CANON, I LOVE READING LORES, I LOVE SEEING DESIGNS, I LOVE YOU FAMILY
If anyone wants to tell me their lore, I'm all ears.
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