I feel like no one when I was a kid wanted to actually try to help me, like I wasn’t worth the effort. My parents only took me to doctors and therapists when the schools would not let me attend if I didn’t get help. And when I would be allowed back into school, my parents would return to not taking my medical issues seriously/stop therapy all together. My Grandma would feel so bad for me but she was so sick and too old to do anything, and now she’s gone. My Aunt would say she wished she could do something which soon morphed into “I have to take care of my own family. You’re not my responsibility,” as I got older. Any friends I’ve had over the years either were just as bad off as me so we would get into a cycle of enabling each other, or just didn’t care and thought my problems were my business they didn’t want to get involved in. I can count on one hand the friends who actually wanted to be there for me, but we all just drifted a part.
I’m stressed out and I’m devastated that I’ll have to deal with this forever. I feel so ashamed and embarrassed that my own mind works against me. I feel like I’m the biggest loser in the world and I feel like it’s all my own fault. I really don’t know what it is about me that makes everyone stop believing in me, but I feel like giving up too.
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