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''there is no righteousness in suffering alone and isolating yourself from everything is never the answer because you'll eventually start to lose sense of who you are as you spiral further into depression and suicidal ideation this is why you need to let people help you and allow yourself to believe in a better future even if it feels impossible at times''

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Tom Holland is MY SPIDERMAN!!!!! I have always been a Tom defender and though Andrew Garfield is up there with him, Tom really outdid himself in Spiderman BND. I truly think Stan Lee would be beaming with pride at how the movie came out. I haven't read many comics, but I have devoted myself to Spiderman since watching my very first Spiderman movie, which just so happened to be Tom Holland's first rendition of Spidey. This movie hit me right in the chest and made me so proud to be a Spiderman fan. Peter finally embrace BOTH of his identities — a forgotten young man Peter Parker AND a beloved and glorified hero Spiderman — so that he could save a grieving young girl and a city of innocent bystanders is THE most in character act.

What struck me the most was the scene between Peter and Jean. Peter, who had been so deep in his grief that a telepath couldn't reach into his mind, laying his walls down to her to comfort her. Opening the most vulnerable parts of himself up to her. Using the love Aunt May gave him to reach her. THAT is Spiderman. He is a hero down to the most human parts of him. Letting Jean into his mind was a HUGE self-sacrificial risk. He was putting SO much on the line. But maybe—somehow, someway—if it could reach her? It would be worth the risk. After spending years outrunning his losses, Peter welcomed it, soothed it, and invited another into it. Not to become his grief, but to console another in the midst of it. To bear another's burdens like a TRUE hero. As a MASSIVE Peter Parker enthusiast and kin, this scene grabbed me by my throat and threw me against a wall.

Then, the "monster" Peter was battling was not Jean. It was not damage control. It was not Scorpion. It wasn't even himself. It was his pain. He was battling years of trauma and loss alone in order to be the hero everyone needed. Only when he invited Jean in did he finally save someone. And in saving someone, he saved everyone.

Because when you help someone, you help everyone.

- i bet we were fun.