I don't know

My boyfriend is so thin and scrawny and I'm so fucking obese.

I think I'm gonna start taking my ADD meds again. I'll take them tonight and go to bed early, and try to wake up before noon. I'll clean for a little bit, eat something and then workout. Tomorrow is going to be good. I promise.

My boyfriend is super skinny and pretty and I'm a fat fucking obese pig. I need to be thinner before I see him next year. I just need to.

everything will be okay after Monday.

im such a fucking failure.

I was doing really good on monday. I woke up before noon I walked to and from the post office, walked to my great grandmas with her lunch and then did yard work , consumed 160 cals. via a protein shake, then I mowed the front lawn. I was doing amazing. And then my mom brought home pizza and she pressured me into eating it and also pressured me today into eating leftovers so none of it went to waste. Sigh. Tomorrow I'm going to restart the diet I picked out. If I start tomorrow I'll be able to do all 10 days. Good luck future me.

today I went to alot of garage sales and thrift stores, I bought clothes one size smaller than what I'm currently wearing. i hope this will motivate me to lose more weight so I can wear the clothes I just bought. im slowly gonna get rid of the clothes that currently fit me rn so I have no other choice.

my lovely boyfriend is really skinny and I'm really fat and I feel like it's not fair to him :(