PLAY DEAD! PLAY DEAD!

while working on some of the pages for the next two sequences i realized i'd like to spend more time on them then going without a break would allow, as i do not want to quality of the comic to suffer for the sake of updating for the time being.

honestly one of the top 3 best outcomes of my transition is that no one gives a shit about me anymore. I don’t get leered at in public (outside of clocking obviously), I don’t get sexually harassed by random men, I don’t get followed on the street or through malls by men, I don’t get called an ungrateful bitch for turning down a date, I don’t get sexually harassed at work or school, I don’t get random unsolicited nudes sent to me, I don’t get men being crybabies about me having a higher GPA than they do or making more money than they do, I don’t get disgusting comments about my body, I don’t get called a bitch or cunt or dyke. All the harassment and violence I have faced post-transition has always been because I’m transgender, not because I’m a man. Being invisible in public (RELATIVE TO THE WOMEN IN YOUR OWN DEMOGRAPHIC COHORTS) is an incredible privilege and I didn’t understand the sheer extent of that privilege until I transitioned. Men talk to me like a human being now! They ask for my opinion, they chat with me, they interact with me like a “normal person.” I became invisible in those interactions because I’m just treated like a person and not like a woman. If anything, transitioning made me hate men more, because it revealed to me how capable they are of talking to other people like human beings and not housemaids they can fuck and abuse.

It's talked about like being obsessively neat or repeating pointless tasks is the main part of it, when really those are just potential symptoms.

The main thing behind OCD is not being about to turn off a thought. There's a thing where most people can just stop thinking about something. If it's over, it's not relevant, it doesn't matter anymore, people can turn their attention away. For OCD, that mechanism can get stuck. And some thought that was supposed to just temporarily pass through your head just stays there. An image of an object rotating. An anxiety about something bad happening. A wish that you made on a dandelion. These are all things that have at some point gotten stuck in my head, sometimes for years at a time.

The compulsions, the rituals, are the person trying to address the thought so it can go away. After all, if you're worried about the door not being locked you can check the lock. But for someone with OCD, that doesn't make the stuck thought go away. So they check it again. And again. And they made a ritual, maybe if I check it exactly five times, I'll know that it's locked and I can let this worry go.

It helps a little. It feels like you're doing something. But it doesn't solve the problem. Actual therapy for OCD involves not doing the compulsion. Instead, you ignore the thought, move around it, try not to give it space in your life. Your mind won't let the thought go normally, so instead you fill yourself with other thoughts. Other parts of your life.

“what about the poor little white kids just trying to have fun?” what about the poor little kids of color made to feel unsafe and unwelcome in a space that was supposed to be fun?

“why can’t poc just make their own redesigns and we can keep these ones” why cant you realize that your actions have consequences and that you should maybe try to not enforce racist stereotypes??

like ofc its ideal to have VARIETY among both villains AND protagonists, its when your characters look like this

that the issue arises

In honor of my original meme hitting over 99k notes on tumblr dot com, I’ve made a sequel nearly 4 years later!

(original below)