Still haven’t made enough progress with the house reno, this is exactly what I was worried about. We were supposed to have the bathroom fully ripped out and the kitchen started by now. Stephen said by this weekend he’d be onto the kitchen and we’d be moved into Barbara’s. I believed him so I moved our things across the street and now, we’re still here, with our stuff across the street. There’s no point in going over there until we absolutely have to, which we don’t have to until he finishes ripping out the bathroom and starts the kitchen. I’m really worried I’m about to spend the next 6 months either living in a house with a half torn down bathroom or living at my mother in laws. Which I already have a plan B, if a month goes by with no end in site I am headed straight to South Carolina and I’ll go live in the woods for a month.

Speaking of SC, I was supposed to go on a trip for crystals next week with another rock hunter, but she got engaged yesterday so our trip is unfortunately cancelled. I kind of want to go by myself but with everything going on with the house it’s probably best to stay home. I’m really happy for her but I’m bummed we can’t do our trip, I was really looking forward to it.

I love this job but I can’t do this shit anymore. Do you know how bonkers it is to be the only person hired for a job like this?? 17hrs straight on my feet cutting fruit and prepping non stop the first day. It was just me until I said this wasn’t sustainable and then he over hired and fucked up my tips. I was literally running register AND grill while my boss sat in a chair behind me idk how many days. But he STILL managed to cut my hours substantially, he closed early every night, our neighbors stayed open until 3, we closed at 6 or 7. Do you know ow stupid that is???? He fucking left a day early, what the actual fuck.

And literally just now, I got an insultingly low offer from the hippies I worked for last year. 15$+tips, which is so fucking low for me, slightly higher than the industry standard, but they do way too much, the juice isn’t worth the squeeze. And for a travel gig?? You want me on the road for 6 weeks for less than 4k???? That doesn’t even include gas and supplies, so really it would less than 3k, on a tour that I could easily make 6-7????? These people are crazy.

Just need to vent it all out really quick. It’s a lot.

While Stephen was in Mexico I found mold in the bathroom, yesterday Stephen started taking the base boards off and cut out some of the dry wall, we found out it’s coming from the kitchen. Couldn’t look behind the shower, which is butted up again the kitchen sink, but I’m assuming it’s even worse there. We have to gut the bathroom and the kitchen, which we needed to do anyways, but didn’t plan on it this soon. We might have to move out for a little while since we won’t have a bathroom or a kitchen sink.

Buckle’s cancer surgery was successful, but another unexpected cost. Peppers ears are still a problem, and every night is a battle to give him his drops. Poor Stephen is scratched to hell and poor Pepper has been dealing with this shit his whole life.

My pinched nerve is STILL bothering me, it’s on and off but never 100%, my other side is starting to bother me too. I feel like I’m falling apart with my knee still bothering me, dealing with constant sinus and ear issues, and now dealing with a fucked up foot from pots that didn’t get put on the shelf properly. I’m tired of having to stop and not do what needs to get done because I’m hurting.

With all of this going on, I have to go back to work. I don’t really want to, even though I’m excited to be back on the road and camping, but we need money and I can make some big amounts fast. If I can get hired for Electric I might keep going after roo, if not I’ll try to find some gigs in state or maybe go back up north, maybe head west, idk.

It all depends on how my car is doing, which right now isn’t great. I’ve been having so many issues, plus the wheel is fucked up from the accident last month. Just something else to worry about.

I’m bummed I have to put the studio on the back burner again. I’m bummed I couldn’t juggle the studio and taking care of the house and the fam with more grace. I’m just feeling down about myself and how everything has gone and is currently going.

Plus the studio is trashed, I started doing a major reorganization and made an even bigger mess since I thought I was going to be able to get new work benches but the mold takes priority. I’ve been avoiding that room and haven’t made anything since Stephens trip. Which bums me out even more but every time I open the door it jsut stresses me out.