Nobody's life

I also boomed on twitter, with all those fanarts. And, despite my warning, people have mass subscibed to my shitty account there. }XD They don't care much for anything than YB fanart, but then again - I don't care much for high number of subscribers.

And I didn't even do anything to deserve being fucked over like that. I was like a bystander near the road, when the shit-truck drove by and splashed me with its content.

Can't think straight and my throat is scratchy. Runny nose, some fuzz in my head, all that good stuff you get when you catch a cold.

On top of that, my art-blog is now broken, the messages there just DO NOT exist. Like, at all. And I'm waiting for an answer from tumblr's support. I hope they won't brush it off, because it will be really problematic for me to work and talk to people about commissions. Good thing I'm on a break at the moment, but soon-ish I'll need to start taking new orders, and people won't be able to message me! That's inconvinient to say the least. Other thing that happened to me recently is that I've given in to a new obsession and started to draw fanarts again. Which, I didn't wanted to do. Because, you know, fuck, fanarts have much more traction and interest than original work and that just pissess me off in a way... I don't mind, that people like my fanart, but in the end of the day - it's not MY WORK they like, it's the characters I drew they like. Which are not mine.

I've posted this fanart on my twitter and before that I have wrote like a warning message in description of my account and as a pinned tweet. I wrote a warning for people liking the fanarts, so they SHOULD NOT subscribe to me because of the fanart I drew. Because, my obsessions come and go and I'll stop drawing the fanart pretty fast. They'll be dissappointed.

Buuut, apparently no one checks the descriptions or pinned tweets, cuz, after a second fanart posted there, I've got bombarded with people subscribing to my stupid account. Which I mostly use to talk to a couple of friends and to post literal life garbage.

So, you're telling me, that some shitheads use this "shoelace code" as the way of showing their hyerarchy\affiliation to a violent and rasist group and it's a "fact well known wideworld" (which, surprise-surprise it is not)? And THAT is not stupid? Wouldn't that be an idiot move, to let everyone know that that's who you are? That you've hurt people and that you should be apprehended on sight? Or beaten up and have your head shoved in the toilet? Like, isn't that stupid, that normal people, that are not involved in your shitty group - know about those "ooooh secret signals"? Seriously? Another thing. Isn't that weird, that YOU know about the meaning of this supposedly secret signal, a dogwhistle, like that annoying anonimus low-brain referred to it? Doesn't that compromise YOU as a person that may be involved in that shit? Like, a normal person should not know about this stuff. And it seems to me, that this is like a (haaaahaaaa) red herring. Because, THAT seems logical. Like, let this false info spread among the normies, let them belive this stupid thing, and instead use something else to let members know who\where\how to find like-minded people. That's what a smart person would've done. But, yeah, like I've said - people are fucking dumb. So, here's what - people who keeps spreading this "knowledge" about lace codes are as stupid as those who actually use it. Of course, let more people know! Because that's a helpful info, eh? Especially to those who are yet not involved BUT WOULD LIKE TO BE. MMMMHHHM. (I hope you can feel the sarcasm, because I'm oosing with it and it's so putrid it would melt your fucking eyes out). For fucks sake. Get a life. Like, really. Instead of looking for those signs everywhere (which, apparently are not for you? and are NOT THERE in the first place), go outside and get in a quarrel with a real skinhead. Like, go to a protest, help someone in need, do something SIGNIFICANT, than to look for a sign in a fucking PICTURE of a fictional character and try to "educate" the author about some stupid lace code...

Fuck off. "But oooh, that's a bad thing, that may signal to certain people!!" Signal to them what? What would they read it as? As that the character is as them? Well, then what? People already associate themself with whatever shit they want, so... Whatever??? As far as I know it doesn't signal about anything but "rank"? And that is just stupid. Is there like a secret message to make people kill others? Written in pantaloon codes?

Here's the conclusion. People are fucking stupid. Everyone is a moron, including me, for enganing in this mess. So therefore I'll stop. And I suggest everyone else to look for more important things in their life... And more importantly...

There’s this discouraging feeling, whenever you work on something and feel enthusiastic about it, and then when you share it with people, it’s like - ech... No one cares about it. It doesn’t get any kind of attention or interest you thought it would. So you just feel empty... This happens to me lately very often and I just don’t feel like I need to do anything, or share anything, because in the end - it won’t be interesting, people won’t care about it. So, why should I spend my time on making something that won’t bring me even the satisfaction of someone elses interest? I can just imagine it in my head and that’s it. I’m okay with that. Like... if that’s something that doesn’t worth anything, I’d rather work on paid stuff? At least I’d have money? Right?..

Sadly, I can’t draw only someone else’s ideas, it’s tiring. Nothing against it, but it’s exausting to cater to someone else’s interests, ideas and likes.

What can I say about the remaster?

Good things:

Every texture is a high res now. Everything looks sharp and clean, and pretty. All of the menus and texts, icons and stuff now has sharp edges, it’s detailed and clear.

Everything in the environment looks nice, textures of the buildings and stuff. The grass, ground and trees are much more detailed now. The light effects, shines and reflections are beautiful. Weather effects are good too, like the rain and the fog. The skybox is pretty neat. Sunsets and sunrises now really cool, the fact that you can see the sun and the moon AND they emanate light - is awesome. I think the light effects are the really big thing they’ve upgraded, and there’s like, realistic light effects.

The models of the citizens and the background characters in the cutscenes are now looking good. Like, that dude who hands Monica Hughes her scissors, are now looking cute af, and not like he has a sack of potato spuds instead of a head. I was genuenely happy for him. I was like, look at that helpful little cutie, you take the scissors from him, lady, don’t upset my little dude! I also think they may have added some animations for those pedestrians and people around you, but I may be wrong...

The models of main characters are now looking a bit different, they’re more real-like looking, and have detailed textures and stuff. Some characters look completely different from the original. Like Сyrus Temple or Phillipe Loren, for example. They’ve been improved drastically.

Cars. The cars in the game are now looking very cool. Like, I was amazed at the way they look now in the modification menu, and I spent a lot of time just modifying cars, because I liked the way they look and I’m a sucker for some muscle cars...

Now to the bad things...

Bad Things:

Some things were still pixelated af. Like, for instance, comic pages in the cutscene with Pierce in the store. They were so bad looking compared to everything else, it was upsetting.

There were some instances when I’ve encountered “floating” structures. Like, boxes, some S.T.A.G. crates, ladders or borders that float like 4-5 inches above the ground. I don’t know if that was like it was in the original, but... Yeah.

There’s a lot of grass. AN INSANE amount of grass sometimes. And it’s placement MAKES ZERO SENSE. Like, I was driving on a bridge, on a highway, and in the spot where the bridge road connects to the street - grass. There was like a huge spot of tall grass bushes poking through asphalt. Like, it wasnt a place, where the asphalt is old and cracked, and weared down, where weeds and plants can take over and sprout. It was a MIDDLE of the road. There’s also has been a spot, same thing, paved area infront of the house which was flooded with ferns. Why? Who the heck knows. FERNS.

Some characters now do not look like themselves. And I’d exuse it if their facial animation was good, but they look kind of dead. Sometimes their eyebrows don’t move at all, and the eyebrows is the most expressive part of our face. Like, really. Shaundi now has this constant resting bitch face and I know, she kind of had this expression in the original. But I think all the main characters were more expressive and animated there, than in the remaster. It seems like, new models don’t move their faces the same way. Even the Boss had kind of a dead expression in some of the cutscenes, though I confess they were animated more than the others. (there was something wrong with their eyes though. Light was hiting them a wrong way or something like that. My dude had some sharp lines around his eyes, and I couldn’t figure out if those were eyelashes or what??) Now, because of this lack of animation, the voice acting did not match the movement of the mouth. Sometimes characters looked like fishes flapping their mouths. No articulation whatsoever. Sadly this was not consistant through the game, some cutscenes looked good and the characters’s faces in them were animated well, in others - no. Also, some remade characters looked good. Like I said Cyrus and Loren now look improved. Kinzie looks nice. (I was about to talk about Killbane, but I, like an idiot did not unmask him, by a stupid mistake! So I have no idea how his freaking face looks like. But I will unmask this son of a gun, and I’ll see...). They also kind of re-made Oleg, he now has much softer look to him, but man, his eyes look weird, like his eyelids and shape of the eye looks odd, like, triangular. Do not like that. Do not like how Shaundi’s face looks now. Pierce’s face would be fine, IF he had more emotions to him, he has none. Gat looks okay, but like, he “dies” in the first ten minutes, so what does that matter? Lol. I can talk about others faces even more, but, yeah, the main complaint - lack of facial animation.

The colours of the cars are much darker now, so I can’t re-create my banana-mobile now }: ( The banana-yellow now looks like muddy mustard, baby poop and shit... That upsets me deeply.

All in all, I was okay playing the game and I still like it nontheless. I was happy to play through it again with my Boss Ion and to see all the characters, hear the lines and stuff. BUT, it seemed to me, that whenever there was something good and the things were improved, a part of them was raw and incomplete. Like, they made this part better, but forgot to fix this part, they upgraded this, but forgot to upgrade the following thing. It felt like some parts were missing. And that this remaster needed to be polished more. I mean, at the first glance it looks cool. It really does. But then you start to look closer and you notice these imperfections and they kind of ruin everything good that was made.