intrusive thoughts are created because they’re what you fear the most. they’re not what you’re going to do. they’re what you hate most of all.
they’re not an indication of how evil you are. the only thing they indicate is what you’re most against.
lots of people are expressing surprise at this, but it’s true! intrusive thoughts are the product of an anxiety disorder (such as ocd). the reason you fixate on them is due not to your inner depravity or whatever, it’s because you’re really, really anxious about acting on them.
that’s why facing them (in a safe environment) rather than avoiding the things that cause them is the best treatment for them. you treat them by reassuring yourself you won’t act on them despite repeated exposure to their cause.
you’re not evil. you are, in fact, so moral that it’s consuming your every thought.
