sunrise, parabellum.

sending someone a business email that says hello i’ve been writing a story about a guy getting abused and assaulted and humiliated and degraded and i was thinking about you the whole time. and the recipient of that email being like awesome. i want you to do it with your bare hands

You wrote about murder?? Murder is illegal?? You wrote about this dude killing someone and you didn't even say 'murder is bad' at the start of the book, wht wtf, wtf is wrong with you? I can't believe you condone murder, I can't believe you're pro murber, oh my fucking God don'ttalk to me when ou literally kill people, freak. I'm calling the cops, what the fuck, I'm shaking and crying.

i feel really sad about it but i'm massively burnt out and i've been missing just reading fics and not worrying about numbers and engaging with my other hobbies and just living a normal life offline so i'm gonna be sensible and take a step back. and it's sad bcus once you stop posting you lose traction and i'll come back in a couple of weeks and no one will even remember me or my fic but it is what it is.

apparently i only posted this on thursday but i gotta say..... as much as i love this site sometimes......... i have been having such a great time not being on here. i've finished two books (about to finish a third and the motivation is stickingggg), been reading fics again which i have missed sooooo baaaaad, i've even played some games!!! i've been feeling great, and i'm sure i'll be back one day, but i think this is probably gonna be one of those long break i take every few months. i might dip back in when i'm craving some gifs or fanart but it's just been too nice not being weirdly anxious about everything on here or from writing my fic. and that's sad but it's just the way i'm wired i guess. hopefully the motivation to finish it will hit me someday bcus i don't wanna let anyone down but...... it's gonna be a while. and that's fine.