Thinking about how actress!reader was a nervous wreck from the moment the phone call ended. Pacing around the hotel suite as you droomscrolled on twitter instead of getting ready for the day. Prompting Miguel to take your phone away, telling you heโs keeping it for the rest of the day (or until you calm down).
Bodyguard!Miguel that had barely enough time to properly prepare himself for the flood of European (and American who had traveled) paparazzi that rushed towards you the second you stepped out of the hotel lobby. A surprise yelp leaves your lips at the sensation of Miguelโs large hands pulling you against him, one arm quickly wrapping around your waist as the other pushes away the buzzing swarm around you. Your mind goes into fight or flight mode from all the commotion, unfortunately your body chooses the third, unspoken option: freeze.
Panicked hands go to cover your eyes from the flashing lights, not even thinking about going to grab the sunglasses from your purse. Pupils constricting, your eyes not trained yet to the constant flashing as you attempt to blindly walk through the crowd, your only sense of direction to the car was Miguel. Heart jumping to your throat when you almost miss a step on the hotel stairs.
You couldnโt even hear yourself think over all the noise, people calling your name in an attempt to ask you questions about the rumors, about you and your costar, the constant shuttering of cameras, Miguel shouting at people to stay clear. It was too much.
You knew what you were signing yourself up, the second you signed that dotted line on your managerโs contract. That eventually, youโd activate the stardom youโve always dreamed of. Your face plastered on big screens, movie posters, you had almost forgotten how quickly those aspirations could turn into something else. Even as a young teen, you watched those TMZ videos of celebrities who had gotten into a scandal being harassed and followed by paparazzi. You always told yourself that if you ever got to that level youโd never do anything to end up in that position.
You didnโt realize that something as simple as gelato could end up so messy.
Bodyguard!Miguel that was finally able to pull you into the car, silence flooding the vehicle as he pulled away from the hotel. Too focused on driving to notice the way your hands trembled in your lap, knuckles turning to white around the hem of your shirt.
Bodyguard!Miguel who was too focused on driving to notice the way your eyes were watering, lashes blinking rapidly in an attempt to keep the tears at bay, thanking the lord you wore waterproof mascara today.
Bodyguard!Miguel who was too focused on driving to notice the way your teeth bite your bottom lip to keep yourself from breathing erratically.
Bodyguard!Miguel who finally noticed, when you couldnโt hold it in anymore and let out a shaky sob.
โ
Without much thought he pulled into an empty parking space. They were probably going to be a bit late to the meeting your manager had scheduled but they could wait, you werenโt in any condition to leave the car if he didnโt get you to calm down.
โHey, heyโฆโ His usual deep voice, now soft as he turned to you and pushed the hair out from your face before gently sliding them down. Rough calloused hands enveloping your softer one. โWhatโs going on? Tell me whatโs going on?โ
Another sob escaped your throat as you shook your head, not having the strength to speak yet. Miguel tried his best not to release an annoyed sigh, he wasnโt one to comfort others, it wasnโt in his job description, if he wanted to hear about peopleโs feelings, he would have been a therapist. But something about the way your pretty doe eyes refuse to meet his, and the sight of your usual sweet smile was replaced with trembling lips and distressed sobs. He couldnโt handle the heartache it gave him.
โOkay, just- breatheโฆ take a deep breath.โ He muttered gently, treating you almost like a frightened deer, afraid if he came across as too harsh (despite knowing you were used to his usual cold behavior) that youโd close yourself off more. His hands holding yours as he took his own in example, releasing it involuntarily when you took your own.
If you werenโt in the throes of a panic attack, you would have been a bit weirded by his sudden gentle behavior. Or the way that when you went to take your hand away from his to wipe away some tears that he was already on the job, the warmth of his hand making you lean into his touch for a split second.
โIโm-Iโm sorryโฆโ You finally spat out as you sniffed, not noticing the way Miguelโs eyebrows furrowed slightly before you continued. Reddening eyes finally open to his concerned gaze. โI-I know that Iโd eventually be swarmed by paparazzi in my career. I just wasnโt expecting it to be so soon.โ You explained, keeping yourself from hiccuping as much as you can in between words. โI wasnโt prepared for itโฆ embarrassing I knowโฆโ You ended your words with a weak chuckle in an attempt to lighten the mood, but by the way Miguelโs eyes softened ever so slightly, it was obvious he didnโt find it amusing.
โItโs not.โ He shook his head slightly as he brought his hand back up to wipe away a few more lingering tears that released from when you chuckled. โI havenโt been doing this job for that long, but Iโve been doing it long enough to tell you that a lot of celebrities donโt react well to that.โ His words made you warm with reassurance, his touch made you feel grounded. โNo one would in that position, youโre human. Donโt get embarrassed about your emotions.โ For one who usually doesnโt do as much speaking in your dynamic, he sure was good with words.
โ
Bodyguard!Miguel who wouldnโt start the car again until the teary-eye expression left your face.
Bodyguard!Miguel who excused your flushed cheeks to the Italian summer weather.
Bodyguard!Miguel who pretended like he didnโt notice the way you looked at him during the rest of the car ride, as if he had suddenly hung the stars and moon. Excusing it on just being a tired-like gaze, emotionally draining from the past hour.
Bodyguard!Miguel who didnโt want to feed on any delusions about his feelings towards you.
Bodyguard!Miguel who made sure you were alright one more time before shutting the car off in the set's parking lotโฆand one more time before you were in front of the trailer that some of the higher producers used as a makeshift office.
โ
โSorry weโre late.โ You said as soon as you entered, eyes immediately falling on the group that was sitting around a table with some coffees. โIt was hard to get here with the paparazzi.โ Not a complete lie.
โItโs fine.โ Your manager said as he motioned for you to join the group, sounding more calm then he did on the phone, motioning for you to sit in the chair next to him which you quickly did. Miguel stayed at the corner of the room (as always) as you sat to your managerโs right, and to Peterโs left. Next to Peter was his manager, then the head of Marketing, the director and the lead of both of yours and Peterโs Pr teams. (That you had no Idea where even in the country.)
โSo we all were talking about how to tackle this situation before you both came here.โ The director started as he looked between you and Peter. โUsually, we would just have you both release a statement saying that there aren't any romantic feelings between you both.โ The sentence almost sounded like a question but he continued before you could dwell on his tone too much. โButโฆbecause this is a romance movieโฆ it wouldnโt help give the movie more publicity-โ
โIn fact, itโll do the opposite.โ The marketing director butted in as he slid over a sheet towards you and Peter. โWe looked at what some were saying online, and overall it would be worse for us if we came out with such a statement.โ
โPeople love it when costars on romance movies actually get involved in real life, it gives them more motivation for them to see the movie. It makes the whole thing more authentic to them, meaning theyโll come watch, meaning more sales.โ The director spoke again, making you and Peter share a look. They werenโt thinking what you were thinkingโฆ right? โSo we were thinkingโฆโ
Oh god.
โThat you and Peter couldโฆpretend to have a relationship.โ
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bsf Nerd! Toru fks you in the ass after Frat! Kuna breaks up with you
I always see Mr steal your girl Sukuna but I wanna see nerdy, whimpering, Digimon wearing Gojo wrecking our holes ๐ cracked out smut lmao - he studies this extensively for you!
How did you end up here, with Satoru Gojo - the biggest nerd in college and your childhood best friend - squirting a generous amount of lube on your ass, all down his thick cock, pressing inside and stretching you out? muttering your name like a mantra, his fingers pressed into your hips, glasses about to fall off his face?
Well, for starters - your ex boyfriend Sukuna broke your heart.
He ended up with some other girl over you, purely because she was the snow dealer, so it was quick he just brushed you aside- all of this when the night before he'd been fucking you with your back arched. Sukuna was always mean with it, pounding his thick length in your cunt, finger slipped in your other hole.
All that threatening to fuck you in the ass but he never did. He was just kind of awkward looking for a six foot five jock - when you caught him snorting lines with his new girl, at least he had the tact to break up with you before he let her sink to her knees and suck him, while you were walking back in to grab your keys.
So you go and have a good cry with your best friend, Satoru Gojo. The two of you were mathletes after all, until Sukuna you had it bad for him, but he never crossed that line. Forever in the friend zone you long gave up that crush - but he was right there for you when you knocked on his door tonight.
He has your favorite movie on, bought you your favorite wine, kissing your head so sweetly as you snuggle against him. His glasses are just a little askew when he pulls back, so you gently fix them on the straight bridge of his nose, sipping your glass and trying to just forget everything.
"You are so sweet to me Satoru," you murmur ever so softly, brushing your hand across his cheek. "I missed you lately."
Sukuna was jealous and possessive so you barely saw Satoru- especially since Sukuna was convinced the boy was in love with you.
Well he was.
So in love in fact - Satoru made sure that he still saw you every morning, even though you didn't see him. He'd sneak over where you got coffee every morning just to look at your beautiful face, to get a glimpse of you looking all cute, only to lose it when Sukuna had his hands all over you.
The endless nights of jerking it to you religiously, of knowing everything about you, of being your 'best friend' were torture. Now with you in his arms on the loveseat, your pretty eyes swimming with tears still, he can't help but want to tell you it all.
That he'd die just to sink to his knees and have your cunt in his face. That he'd love to breed your holes, all three of them, until you're pumped so full of his cum you'll never think of that asshole fratboy Sukuna again.
So of course when you needed a friend, Satoru was there. And when your back was aching from sleeping in a weird position last night, rubbing your neck just a bit and gasping in pain? He was more than ready to offer you a massage.
"Toru, are you sure," you're blushing a bit when you slip off your top, laying down on his bed, feeling pretty blue eyes study you behind thick glasses. Your tits are just in a little bra, the material so thin he can likely see everything. "You don't have to rub my back."
"Studied massage sweetheart," he slips his fingers down your spine. "I know all the pressure points."
Being oiled down and massaged by Satoru Gojo felt a little too good, you may be arching into it more than a friend should. Your hands grip his soft blankets, you feel his cock pressed against your ass when he straddles you, running his fingers down your spine, unknotting those tight muscles.
"Feels s'good, mnh," you're whining out so fucking sexy Satoru leaks pre in his Digimon boxers. He bites back a moan, moving his hands lower, until be eases down your shorts just a bit.
"This okay? You have a lot of tension in your lower back."
"Mm, yes it's fine, oh... nghh..." Satoru pauses, his fingers are brushing over the dimples right over the curve of your ass.
You're moaning, fuck. His cock is twitching now, that pretty pink tip spurting so much it's leaking onto his pants. His hands brush lower again, pressing into the curve of your ass, each cheek gripped by his hands.
"Hmm," the wine hits now, you're soaking wet and that warmth is spreading from your body. "Y'know what's funny, Toru?"
"What sweetheart," he murmurs, easing your shorts down more. "This okay?"
"S'perfect," you sigh, reaching down to slip your shorts even further, Satoruโs pulse jumps just like his cock when you're only in a thong, pretty ass on display. "Sukuna always said he was gonna fuck me there."
"Fuck you... oh..." Satoru runs his fingers down your slit, pressing against the fabric. "In your pretty pussy?"
"No," you giggle and look back at him, seeing his cheeks dusted with a pretty pink. "The other hole."
"Your ass huh," he laughs softly, furious he ever touched you. "He didn't?"
"No, guess he's fucking his new girls ass but... I'd be down to try? Is that super-"
Satoru darts off of you.
"Toru?" You lean up and blink. But Satoru's back with five different bottles of lube, holding them out and grinning at you.
"I have warming, cooling, this one is flavored, this is silicon based -" he pauses, seeing your flustered state, before sitting down, tilting your chin up and kissing you. "I should kiss you first, before I talk about lube huh?"
You bury your face in his chest, eyes shutting as he rubs your back gently. "Are you sure you wanna try this with me?"
Oh he's dreamed of fucking all your holes forever.
So that's how Satoru Gojo - your best friend - ends up with you arched in front of him, lapping at least two stripes from your clit to your ass first - he's a gentleman after all - and then pulling your cheeks apart. He bares your cute holes to him, watching them clench so adorably, before he spits right in you, watching the bubble clear mess trickle out and down to your pretty cunt.
"Oh y-you... ah!" He spreads his spit around, up on his knees now, when you feel a cold squirt right on it.
"I'll take such good care of you pretty," his fingers slip right inside your hole. Stretching it with their thickness, you whine out at the sensation, Satoru rests over you, a hand gripping your hair at the base of your neck. "Can you arch that pretty ass a little more for me?"
Fuck.
Satoru Gojo - your nerdy best friend - is curling those fingers with a mean precision, the pressure is so intense you almost pull back from it.
"Ah ah, don't tighten up, you're already doing such a good job," he leans over you, swiping your hair off one shoulder to place soothing little kisses. "You're taking them so well."
"Toru..." He grins when you relax, when it starts to feel so good, ass gripping his fingers so tight he can't imagine how good it'll be when it's strangling his cock. "Feels good... so... ah..."
"That's it," he chuckles then, pulling back and squirting more lube on your hole, you hear the sounds of his zipper and look back, blushing when you see just how huge his cock is, leaking streams of white that drip down the bed. "Good girl."
The first press of Satoru's pretty pink tip burns your unused hole, he's squirting even more and pulling your ass cheeks apart with the other hand, exhaling. And that's when it starts to feel so good. you may or may not have completely forgotten Sukuna when he's shoving his thick length in you deeper, easing so you feel every fucking inch.
Satoru has studied extensively for this very moment - and wastes no time in burying his cock to the hilt, his heavy balls ready to breed you smacking your empty cunt. He leans over you, reaching around to rub your clit, feeling you clamp down on him, the spurts of lube dripping down his inner thighs.
"Ah! S-so deep I... s'much, Toru..." Your head falls back against his hard chest, hands clinging to the blankets as he sits there buried, pelvis flush against your ass, letting you adjust.
"Takin' all of me, god I can't wait to breed all your holes," your eyes roll back when he begins to move, fucking you so deep - the burn so intense you're close with a few strokes and rolls of his fingertips.
"Breed me?"
"Mhm," he grins against your neck, fucking your ass harder, pulling back off your clit to take your fingers and put them right there so you feel it twitching. "There you go, touch yourself for me."
Sukuna who?
It's hard to remember that man when Satoru Gojo's cock was pummeling your ass, with messy smacks, all while your phone keeps going off. You're screaming into the blanket when your cunt drools and spasms around nothing, orgasm smacking you so hard, the squelches and slaps of skin echoing in Satoru's room.
"Hmm, wanna get that sweetheart?" he leans over, shoving his cock deep and bottoming out, you scream out then, as he grabs your phone, chuckling again.
Was he a nerd really or a psycho?
Maybe both.
"Ah, seems his coke dealer isn't good at head, tsk," he hands you the phone, as if your fucked out self can function or see, leaning over you with his blue eyes focused on the messages. How Satoru unlocked your phone you'll have to figure out later. "Should tell him who's fucking your ass, huh? Should we answer the facetime?"
"You're ins-sane..." But you look back, smiling and nodding.
Sukuna is furious when he sees Satoru fucking you from the back, but nothing makes him madder than when you moan out -
"Oh f-fuck, Toru! Be easy, you know I've n-never been fucked there!"
"The fuck!?" Sukuna is furious, but also you look sexy, he's still high off coke so he can't help but feel his cock twitch.
"You really fucked up, God she's taking me so well," he shoves in deep and Sukuna has to watch your eyes roll back. "Don't worry, I'll take real good care of her."
Feeling Satoru's cum flooding your hole has you gasping, his fingers pumping in your cunt and curling, having your ass just milk him for all he's worth. His balls contracting as he floods you with all that cum he's waited so long to, watching it pour out in milky streams down your needy cunt was just too perfect.
Sukuna may call you over and over, he may jerk off and snort so much coke he passes out - but Satoru is wide awake. After washing you up carefully in the shower, he makes sure to let you feel his cock in your cunt, fucking you on the shower wall, pouring even more cum, he's just kept so much for his best friend.
So much he doesn't stop when you're in bed with him, and when you're just too sore, you decide to give Gojo his first blow job. <3
You're married to Satoru Gojo - an arrangement since your childhood, one you're so excited for. You soon find out - he wants nothing to do with you. Any one is preferable, from the waitress at your engagement party, to his secretary. Torn apart by insecurities and devastated by the fact that you can't make this one sided affection work, you decide to find something to keep you going until Gojo finds a way to end the marriage. That's what lands you right in the notorious boxing ring in town - led by Ryomen Sukuna, who finally sees you.
pairings - Boxer! Sukuna x Reader x Nepo baby! Gojo
warnings!!! - Heavy angst, cheating, Satoru is cruel and mean, reader starts off very shy/insecure, yandere Sukuna. This chap - oh boy please read the warnings because there is abuse In this chapter (reader's parents) physical and mental, emotions like a mf, jealous Gojo, insane obsessed ass Sukuna, p in v sex, loss of virginity, breed kink, concerning levels of obsession, cream pie, multi rounds, possessive Sukuna
This WILL have multiple endings (I get asked this so often ugh lol) a Sukuna, Gojo and a Poly. All three are gonna be messy. Told from Reader, Gojo and Kuna's POV and split up by each!- WC - 11.2k god lol
<<<part three - masterlist - part five
part four
Satoru
Does Satoru Gojo really know his wife at all?
He wonders that as the two of you walk hand in hand โ a pretense to get your clearly irritated parents to leave you alone. Youโre stiff next to him, and he can still remember that kiss last night, remember the way his heart almost pounded out of his fucking chest, the desire to lift you and fuck you right against any and every surface, in every room.
The way he wanted to bury himself to the hilt in a woman he so easily could have, who now doesnโt want a fucking thing to do with him. When he kissed you there was this brief moment where he thought you wanted him back, this sigh he drank up, your hands gripping his shirt for just a moment, lips parting.
Then you pulled back, furious, running off and leaving him all alone โ and fuck he was alone. Jennifer was a body, Chloe was a body, he felt nothing for either of them, just distractions, helping him cum so he doesnโt desperately jerk his cock to you every day, even though it didnโt completely stop him.
Your scent always in his fucking senses, your teary eyes he imagines being that way from overstimulation instead. Never has he wanted to just bury his face in between someoneโs thighs like he does you โ so desperate heโd do damn near anything to taste you, to see more of that body.
What if he did that, what then? Trap you in a marriage forever when you didnโt want this either. You thought you did, but he knows itโs just whatโs programmed.
The moment youโre in your parents mansion though? All that feistiness you had started was gone โ suddenly youโre utterly docile, head lowered, hands clasped together as they start to rip you to shreds verbally. Small little jabs at first that start spreading, and yet you say nothing back. No slap like you do him, no nasty words in response.
This is who he met โ this girl. But was it you?
โYou finally look presentable,โ your father says, downing that glass of wine in one gulp. โAt least you did something right for once.โ
โIโm sorry fatherโฆโ Is all you say, Satoru watches in a mix of horror and curiosity, trying to deviate the topic.
โSo, how is business?โ Satoru asks, hoping theyโd back off somewhat, but every few moments they pick you apart all over again.
โSo, whoโs going to talk about that Sukuna heir?โ Your mom suddenly says, you blush furiously, looking at your untouched plate. Satoruโs fists clench at his sides, the mere mention of Sukuna makes him sick.
โI umโฆ just like to boxโฆโ
โYouโre not allowed,โ she says, scowling at you over her glass. โNo daughter of ours is hanging out with Sukuna.โ
โHeโs very nice though โโ
โNo,โ your father cuts in now. โLook what theyโre saying, already suggesting that youโre together with him? A picture of his hand on your back? Did we raise you to be a common whore?โ
โOkay,โ Satoru cuts in now, clearing his throat. โLetโs all just talk it out, sheโll surely watch being seenโโ
โYouโre a disappointment, after years of polishing,โ your mom says again, cutting Satoru off. โAll you have to do is be a subservient wife, why are you failing? Do you know how important being a Gojo is?โ
Tears slip from your cheeks, gripping your dress tightly. โCan I please be excused for the night?โ
โNo,โ your dadโs words are sharp. โYou can continue this privately so you donโt further embarrass your husband though.โ
โSheโs not embarrassing me,โ he cuts in, you look at him with wide eyes, shock written on your pretty, forlorn features. Of course youโre shocked โ he has been nothing but cruel to you on purpose. Seeing your shock from the smallest bit of his defense makes him feelโฆ
Like a piece of shit human.
Isnโt that what heโs been? Cruel like your parents? He thought it all for your own good โ who would want to be with him, he was saving a girl like you, giving you the chance to do your own things. Yet now he lives to already regret it, knowing marks on your neck are hidden, and underneath were hickies, bites from a man he canโt stand.
If they were right about anything, it was ending up with a man like Sukuna โ fucking unhinged, in and out of jail for just fighting everyone who pissed him off while in college. Sukuna was notorious for being a dick, for not giving a single fuck about anybody or anything.
Satoruโs unsure what game Sukuna is playing with you that you see anything different.
โJust allow us a moment with her,โ your mom stands and he watches you tense up, eyes in horror as you look at the woman in the elegant dress, smiling so sweetly, eyes cold. โWe will just have a chat then we can get dessert.โ
โWeโll have drinks,โ your dad pats his back, smiling at Satoru all friendly. โWeโll not make it too long.โ
โI think we are leaving soon,โ Satoru says, standing now, feeling apprehensive with the way they each take one of your arms in theirs, like theyโre having a fun little pow wow with you. โRight, sweetheart?โ
โUm yeah, we haveโฆ a movie to seeโฆโ You mumble faintly, but theyโre already tugging at you.
โWeโll be fast, donโt worry!โ Satoru canโt erase the look on your face from his head after that night.
*****
You
Itโs quick that their demeanor drops โ their fake kindness and saccharine words out of the window, throwing you down on the floor the moment the heavy wood clicks shut โ and you know youโre all alone. Satoru surprised you somewhat being kind, but there was no escaping this.
Flashbacks race through your mind as you shrink into yourself, pulling your knees to your chest, tears steadily falling down your cheeks as they stand over you. Itโs a conditioned response youโve had since childhood โ shrink down to take up less space, make yourself harder to hit. Itโs the girl they raised, the one who submits, who says sorry for every little mistake.
The girl who is never going to be perfect enough, who tries so hard.
Tired.
Youโre tired.
"We raised you better than to let rumors fly about you and Ryomen Sukuna,โ your father says, words cutting you. Perhaps his cruelty was worse than hers โ something about your dad hurting you felt more painful. โLook me in the eyes and show respect.โ
โYou have me on the floor,โ you whisper then, staring at him, his lips pressed in a cruel, terse line. โAnd speak on having respect?โ
โWeโre your parents, we did everything for you, have you wanted for anything!?โ Your momโs voice raises ever so slightly, as if she realizes that she lowers it, coming to kneel in front of you. "A common criminal? Are you trying to destroy the alliance we built?โ
โSukuna has his own business,โ they laugh at that. โI am an adult, and I can have the friends I want.โ
โSome friend, lying to my face,โ she grips your hair so hard it pricks you with pain, tugging your hair at the roots. โI raised you not to lie.โ
โIโm notโโ
โSatoru is the most powerful man in the country, and youโre out whoring around with a jailbird?" Your fatherโs words burn more than the hair pulling, you look up at his angry face, a mask of feigned disinterest gone. โYouโre making our family look bad because you canโt keep your legs closed.โ
โI havenโt opened them โ ah!โ She tugs again, popping you on the mouth and making you wince at the sting.
โKeep it down, since you seem to have even Satoru Gojo falling for your pathetic little tricks.โ
โDonโt hurt me,โ you whisper, tugging at her wrists, brows lowering. โGet off of me.โ
โIโll do much worse if you donโt go and beg your husbandโs forgiveness.โ She lets go of you then stands, you get to your knees, just for your father to shove you back down.
Sukunaโs voice rings in your ears โ defend yourself, do something, anything. Tell them to get fucked.
Why canโt you do it?
You disappoint your parents, Satoru and now Sukuna. You are an utter disappointment, the realization of disappointing him however hits the hardest, the way he seemed to believe in you when you donโt find yourself truly worthy of it. You take a shaky breath and stand up, hands shaking at your sides.
Could you stand up to them? Satoru was one thing โ his cruelty was new, they had done it since you can remember. A trembling fear fills your body as you swallow down spit that threatens to turn into bile, acid already burning your throat, your heart is thudding even faster with every moment as they look at you with cold eyes.
โYou both have no right to tell me what to do, especially when he does anything he wants.โ
โHeโs allowed to,โ your father cuts you off once more, stepping closer, and you canโt stop shrinking back. His hits are rare but they always hurt the most. โHeโs your husband, heโs a Gojo, you learn your place.โ
โMy place,โ you laugh then, without humor, shaking your head and swiping at your eyes. โWhat do you mean โmy placeโ. I tried with him, do you not realize itโs him who doesnโt want it?โ
โThen become more desirable,โ your mom cooes those words, touching your chin, making you jerk back.
โIf you were fulfilling your duties he wouldnโt be as prone to be with other women, that fault lies on you. Now tell me what exactly youโre doing, running around like a slut and giving us a bad name.โ
"Answer him," your mother says, sneering at you as you stay silent, your jaw clenched together so hard it hurts. It clicks when you finally loosen it, sucking a slow breath through your lips.
"I wasn't... we're just friends." Your voice trembles, barely a whisper.ย
"Friends? You donโt get to have friends." You shake your head once more, your mom grips your wrist tightly. The fear of the past when sheโd beat you and lock you away all spill over the edge again.
Tell them to fuck off.
How, Sukuna? How can I?
"If you ever embarrass us in front of the Gojo clan again, I swear to god youโll live to regret it.โ Your mother is talking, pulling you out of that dreamy fog, the one where you think you could be happy for precious few moments. โYou will fix this, will you not?โ
You donโt answer fast enough.
"Answer your mother," your dad is looming over you, as you donโt speak, too hurt, too frightened, trying to fight that little girl that wants to cower in a corner, to think of something to say. To be strong.
Are you strong?
You look up, tears still swimming in your eyes, feeling the defeat crushing and overwhelming, suffocating you. "I just donโt understand-"
Crack.
The backhand comes out of nowhere, stunning you completely, heavy and brutal against your skin. His huge gold ring catches your cheekbone, and the force of it snaps your head to the side so quickly youโre dizzy. Tasting copper flooding your mouth with the warmth of the blossoming blood, your lip splitting open against your teeth.
You barely get a moment to process whatโs happened when he hits you again, this time harder, and you cry out, falling right back down to your hands and knees youโre so dizzy from the sudden pain. Your blood pressure rises through the roof, the room spinning violently with the sudden pain, a loud thud hitting when you collide with the ground.
All you see are his polished dress shoes and her Monolo Blahniks.
Thatโs all you would see when they forced you to kneel for hours after getting a B instead of an A. All you would see when theyโd tell you to show your respect, all the memories of that scared little girl forming with the woman trying her best to gain any sense of confidence, happiness, identity.
Just that girl all over again.ย
"Don't you dare talk back," he snaps as he looks down at you, shaking his hand out as if hitting you hurt him more than it did you. "Ungrateful little bitch. We gave you everything, and you act like a cheap slut in the papers."
What hurts worse, their words, or the hit?
"Get up," your mother says, her voice cold, staring at your bleeding lip with mild annoyance rather than concern. "Fix your face.
How can you stand? How can you do anything when this is your life? You feel tears mixing with the blood on your lips.
โCrying, all the fucking time, canโt ever-โ
โThe fuck is going on?โ The door swings open.
Great, here comes your other bully, to humiliate you, to relish in the pathetic girl who canโt stand up for shit, right?
Satoruโs blue eyes widen when he sees you, and for the first time since youโve known your โhusbandโ his face isโฆ softer. Itโs forlorn, the way his mouth drops open, before he shuts it and scowls at your parents, who immediately act innocent, your dad holds up a hand that has droplets of your blood on it.
โWhat the fuck?โ
โSatoru we were helping you-โ
โHelping me by hitting your daughter?โ He rushes over to you, you donโt even look at him at first, until he tenderly touches your cheek, exhaling. โHey.โ
You look up, bursting into more tears when you see his expression, seeing the boy you met years ago buried inside whoever this guy was. The little glimpse that had you thinking heโd be your prince and sweep you away from this life โ only to cause you more pain than your parents ever could.
Trapped between the three people who hurt you, crying.
Why canโt you do more, be more, say more?
โSay something to me, tell me to fuck off,โ he whispers, assessing you to clearly check if youโre all right.
โFuck off.โ You whisper, he smirks sadly, helping you up gently, before stomping over to your father.
โYou hit girls? Thatโs what you like to do?โ He shoves him now, pressing your dad against the wall.
โYou should discipline her so we donโt have to,โ Satoru laughs at that, shaking his head, fist clenching at his side. โWe are merely trying to teach her manners.โ
โYou both will be ruined forever if you touch her again.โ
โBut-โ
โNo,โ he turns and shuts your mom up now, his eyes furious. โYou donโt get to speak. Iโll make sure your entire family is run into the fucking ground, have you all filing bankruptcy when I expose all the shady shit you do.โ
Theyโre suddenly quiet.
You clutch your dress, eyes taking in something that must be some fever dream โ why would Gojo care if you got hit? He doesnโt care you exist. Confusion mixes with the relief and gratitude, and a deeper pain โ the memory of your longing, the way you craved Satoru, the way you thought yourself in love with him.
It hurts deeper, him.
โLetโs go,โ he says then, letting your dad stumble out of his hold, taking your hand in his. โSheโs not yours to beat.โ
โGojo come talk-โ
He stomps out of the house now, shaky breaths puffing condensation in the air of the night sky, when you pull your hand out. He looks down at you for just a moment โ a painfully long moment that steals your breath away.
โTh-thanksโฆโ You whisper, he sighs.
โThanking me? For what?โ
โForโฆ Iโฆโ You turn then, picking up your dress, gaining as much distance as you can from him, from this house โ suffocating you.
โWhat the fuck, come back,โ you rush off, itโs so dark and you canโt see shit, but you canโt be here.
Gojo canโt comfort you.
What a joke, really, even if youโre thankful, itโs just ludicrous to take comfort in the arms of a man who helped make it worse, even as his blue eyes are filled with concern, and his hands are warm on your shoulders. It scares you then, the way he looks at you, like he could ever understand.
โJust, let meโฆโ he brushes your cheek, you wince a bit at it, he swallows โ adamโs apple bobbing. โHe hit you.โ
โYeah well, heโs done it before,โ you mumble, looking down, avoiding his gaze. โJust not in a while.โ
โYou never told meโฆโ
โHave you ever tried to find anything out about me?โ Your words land, his hand falls then, your cheek is stinging, on fire, burning from your dadโs ring splitting your skin open. โEven if it was some act or something, thanks for stopping him.โ
โIt was justโฆ fucked up,โ he shakes his head, jaw setting then. โMy dad hit me too, but youโre justโฆ a girl. Andโฆโ He trails off, leaving the two of you standing there in the night, in the darkness, you barely hold yourself together, hugging your own body, feeling his gaze drift.
โYou shouldnโt have been hit either,โ you say softly, sighing and shutting your eyes. โI may hate you but you donโt deserve it any more than I do.โ
He says nothing, itโs almost pitch black aside from the stars illuminating the sky and the distant porch lights of your parents mansion, a cold place you thought once Gojo would save you from. Idiotic, idealistic thoughts that somewhat came to fruition in a sense.
In another sense, you got punished because of him.
The silence hangs heavy between you both, his eyes looking right through you, yours avoiding him, tears falling down your cheeks.
You miss Sukuna.
Sukuna would have probably punched your damn dad in the face though, fuck he may have smacked your mom too, and that would have been a debacle. Gojo handled it well and got you out of there without further word โ but it all made you realize just how terrible itโll be when you both do divorce.
Youโll always be a failure.
โIf I knew Iโฆโ
โWhat, wouldnโt have been evil? I doubt it,โ you swipe your tears now, shaking your head. โDid you think my parents were good people?โ
โI didnโt know they hit their grown daughter in the fucking face, that your dad would call you that shitโฆโ He turns a bit, disgusted. โGod what he said to you, and you took it.โ
โItโs true, I did fail,โ Satoruโs lips part, then close. โI failed at being good enough for Satoru Gojo, the only job I ever had to do. And I failed it, utterly, completely. Heโs not wrong.โ
โHe is wrong.โ
โHeโs not, I did, and I am a โwhoreโ like he said. I am with another man, and I couldnโt keep you interested. God I donโt think you even looked at me until I came home with marks, then only out of spite,โ Satoru grabs your shoulders then.
โLook at me.โ
โNo.โ
โFucking just do it,โ you do, and his tears are in his eyes, making you gasp out in shock. โI am sorry that I caused him to hit you. Iโm so, so fucking sorry I caused them to hit you.โ
โYou didnโtโโ
โYes I fucking did,โ you shake your head.
โTheyโd do it anyway for something, okay?โ
โHas it ever been that bad?โ You swallow nervously, eyes closing, tears falling and dripping down your chin. โAnswer me.โ
โNo, never that bad, heโs never hit me that hard in the face,โ you touch it gingerly. โUsually he kept it in places no one saw.โ
โWhat?โ
โWeโre more alike than we thought,โ you admit, sad for the boy Gojo was then. โIs that why you became so cruel?โ
He says nothing.
โItโs how we were raised, who we become to an extent, but Satoru I didnโt choose cruelty, you did,โ you turn away then, looking out in the distance a bit, wind whipping your hair around. โYou didnโt have to be that cruel to me, just because they hurt you. You chose that.โ
You go to walk and he tugs you against him, your back against his chest, arms wrapping your body, tears hot on your neck. โIโm sorry, fuck I am sorry they hurt you like that.โ
โPlease, donโt,โ you pull off, turning to look up at him, barely able to keep his tears in, and your own wonโt stop. โYou donโt get to comfort me, not after what youโve done.โ
โThen who will right now?โ He gently cups your face, swiping the stinging tears. โLet me do one right fucking thing for you, before you never have to see me again.โ
โYou did, you took me out of there,โ you take a breath, shaking, lips trembling so hard you bite them to stop. โI do thank you for that, Satoru.โ
Fuck.
Youโve never said that โ his name. It feels odd on your lips.
โSorry I know you told me never to call you that.โ You whisper, lips trembling, wishing you could get yourself together, even as your cheek burns and your stomach feels so twisted in knots. You watch his jaw clench, the stars and moon bright and as silvery as that hair thatโs usually perfect falling over a brow.
โThanking me when I caused it?โ He laughs without humor, studying you ever so carefully. โDonโt thank me. Heโd have not hit your face if I didnโt do what I did.โ
โI donโt know the answer to that, but whatโs it matter? Itโll all be done soon, and you can go live your life, Iโll live mine.โ You grip his wrists now. โBut donโt act like you care suddenly, donโt play that game. Thatโs an even crueler one.โ
He leans down too low then, kissing your cheek, both of you sobbing as you stand there together. โYouโre just a girl, and you were just a kid, okay? Donโt deserve that shit.โ
โI didnโt deserve you being cruel either,โ he sniffles as he tries to hold back his own upset, and your eyes are swimming, barely able to see. โI donโt deserve any of this. Iโve done nothing but try, God I tried so hard just to make you like me. Even when I watched you fucking her, I still tried, I did. I wanted to be good, to not fail everyone.โ
โYou didnโt fail shit,โ is all he says, and he holds you, letting you sob, even as you smack at his chest. โJust let me hold you for a minute, fuckโฆ you need it.โ
โNot you, not you,โ you whisper, trembling, sobbing so much youโre limp, until you do snuggle to him, sighing sadly, feeling him trying, that comfort.
The longing.
The yearning for the Gojo you thought was your prince, rescuing you from a tower. Yet Gojo is damaged just like you, just like Sukuna, but he clearly couldn't handle it.
You had become the perfect, subservient girl. Sukuna apparently had a rough patch and left it all. Satoru let his vengeance and hatred for it all change him.
You're sad for that boy, but the man that's been so fucking cruel? You're still scared.
โIt doesnโt change anything, but I do thank youโฆ for stopping it.โ
โYeah,โ he has no words now, he just picks you up suddenly in his arms, ignoring your protests, cradling you too delicately, like a man would on his wedding night.
Never yours though.
โDonโt carry me, I can walk.โ
โJust let me.โ Youโre too tired to argue, when he sets you in the limo, and he keeps holding you.
Youโre too exhausted and weak to stop him from putting an ice pack on your cheek once you're home, from cleaning the cut carefully. You both say nothing for a while, an odd silence falling over two people that hate each other โ two people who lived the same lives, and ended up so different.
One, too cruel. One, too kind.
One, too strong. One, too weak.
Yet here you both were โ mirror images of the same life, the same abusive streak, quietly not hating each other for a few moments. When he takes you to bed, he still hasnโt said a word, and you should let him go to bed, not try to reach out, to know better than forgive what heโs done.
You donโt forgive it, but for a moment you get him just a bit, and maybe Satoru gets you.
โSatoru,โ he turns, looking to you with sad blue eyes, as you fiddle a bit with the big sweater he through on you. โThank you.โ
โDonโt thank me for shit.โ His words are harsh, the pain in them prevalent, the two of you quiet.
โI will, because you didnโt have to interfere,โ your eyes meet his, and your heart breaks for who he could be โ a man righting wrongs, maybe with a heart in there.
Are you foolish? Do you just want to see good in someone, or do you see those parts of yourself buried within him.
โI wish I could know the Satoru Gojo that stood up for me tonight, but I wonโt get to. So I just hope you show that to the next girl, the one who has your heart. Donโt hide it with whatever narcissistic bullshit you did with me.โ
He says nothing again, sighing, fingers tapping at the sides on his thighs. โYouโre too nice,โ he says, gripping your door handle tightly, not looking at you. โI'll make sure they never hit you again. Even after we separate.โ
You blink a bit. โYou can't promise that.โ
โI'll ruin their reputations and make sure they never do that shit again, that's what they care about anyway.โ You just look down at your lap, at the ribbons and lace on the edge of the sweater. โThink I don't wanna take them down with my own family?โ
โWell I guess I wish you some luck in that,โ you admit, laying down, feeling his gaze on you. โIt was nice having a night where you weren'tโฆโ
โFucking terrible?โ
โYeah,โ you yawn a bit, eyes suddenly heavy. โYou didn't deserve it either. Being a boy doesn't make you somehow tougher.โ
Satoru's footsteps fade, the door shuts, leaving you alone, when your phone rings.
Sukuna.
You barely are able to answer it then without sobbing all over.
โSukuna?โ
โI felt something went wrong, you never wrote to me, I sound like a simpy little bitch. Andโฆ are youโฆ what happened!?โ
โI'll tell you when I see you okay?โ You swallow nervously, gingerly touching your own cheek with cool fingers. โBut letโs just say it was a bad night.โ
Thereโs a long pause. โDid he fucking do something?โ
โHe was oddly kind, it was myโฆ dadโฆโ
It's quiet then, you suck in a breath, eyes shut, waiting for him to speak.
โI'm coming the fuck over.โ You blink.
โYou can't! You're out of town and I'm okay.โ
His sigh hurts your heart and soul, longing for a person you donโt know well yet filling you. You want him to hold you, kiss you, tell you the world is just gone and itโs you two. โThen you're coming over tomorrow.โ
โI think I can do thatโฆ we just have to be careful.โ Your voice is ever so soft, barely over a whisper through the phone.
โMaybe I just want to hold you, think of that?โ
โYeah? Just hold me?โ You yawn then, eyes fluttering shut. โWonโt you kiss me too?โ
โYou're sleepy,โ you nod, knowing he can't see, snuggling up. โThen justโฆ fucking keep me on until you crash. Will you just do that?โ
โMhm,โ you fade, listening to him, your body hurting, your heart torn, tummy still aching with the nausea from what happened. โNight Kuna.โ
You think he says it back.ย
The dreams are haunting, Sukuna tugging you against him, Satoru on his knees crying. And for once you don't hate Satoru, you feel bad for the boy he is, his head in your lap, Sukuna's buried against your neck.ย
It's blissful.
Then they tug.
Tug, tug, tug at you, Satoru dragging you down, Sukuna pulling you up.
Can you not break apart?
*****
Sukuna
It takes almost nothing to find your home.
First off, Satoru was basically public knowledge โ second off, the ostentatious mansion was utterly ridiculous. His fists bang on the door rather than pressing the little ring system, heโd rushed to get home as soon as he heard your voice last night. It had him sick to his stomach just wondering what the fuck Gojo was doing โ but to know your fuck ass parents were near you too?
Itโs more and more tempting to kidnap you, steal you away from him and everyone, hide you from whoever the fuck thought they had some claim on you. Especially toxic ideas swim in his mind, keeping you where no one would find you, making sure youโre nice and occupied.
Sukuna never even thought of kids until he pictured how pretty youโd be knocked up with his babies, give you so many you can make your own little family and forget what the fuck you know. His fist bangs on the door once more, finally getting opened up by a butler raising a brow.
Of course Satoru would have a butler.
Sukuna was almost as rich, but he canโt even imagine that shit, though it sort of fits with โpretty boy satoruโ as they all used to call him. He enjoyed the finer things a little too much for someone trying to fight so hard not to do what his parents said. Itโs not even the fact that he doesnโt wanna be with you, thatโs to Sukunaโs benefit โ itโs the way heโs dragging you down.
If he wanted to, he could just let you go.
Sukuna knows heโs obsessed, psychotic for a girl he barely knows, but even now all he can think of is decking Satoru in the face, throwing you over his shoulder and making you live with him instead. He knows what he likes and he knows itโs you, since the moment he saw you in the door of his gym.
โWhereโs your Nepo baby boss?โ Sukuna asks, smirking all mean when Satoru stomps over, glaring. โHey best buddy.โ
โThe fuck are you doing here?โ He demands, Sukuna side steps the butler, grinning right at him, just an inch taller than Gojo, but it was enough to make him happy.
โChecking in on our girl,โ Satoru scoffs, gripping Sukunaโs wrist when he goes to pat his cheek. โOurs for now, that is. Hope youโve got your lawyers on it, yeah? Or that all talk?โ
โYou have no right to be in my fucking house, or talking to my wife.โ
โYour wife?โ Sukuna laughs now, smacking his thigh, when a girl walks right up to the porch behind him. He looks at her curiously, Satoru sighs.
โWhat are you doing here, Jennifer? I said not today.โ
โBut Satoru,โ she runs up to him now, Sukuna snorts as he sees her hugging on Satoru, a slutty mess with a dumb fucking secretary costume. Surely she canโt be actually wearing that shit to work? โI missed you!โ
โNot now,โ he says tersely, shoving her wrists off him. Sukuna's red eyes narrow, lips curved up in a smirk.
โThis is your mistress, right?โ
โSukuna get the fuck out,โ Satoru steps past the pouty girl. โSeriously.โ
โOver her,โ his words smack Satoru clearly, he watches his blue eyes lower just a bit. โYouโre fuckinโ serious? Over her?โ
โYou donโt know shit,โ he opens his mouth just as you walk out, and when Sukuna sees your face, his heart fucking pounds, anger swelling up at the sight of bruising on your cheek, darkness under an eye. Satoru looks right at you too, as you pause, taking the three of them in, before landing on him.
โSukuna?โ Your words are soft, fiddling with your hands just a bit in front of yourself, blinking glassy eyes. โYouโre here?โ
He ignores whatever protest Satoru was saying, ignores that average ass secretary thatโs almost laughable as a preference over you, all he sees is your bruised face. He cups it gently, glaring across your features, your little hands grip his wrists, shaky and trembling, tears slipping on your cheek.
โThe fuck did they do?โ He demands, teeth clenched now. โWhatโs their goddamn address?โ
โYou canโt! Sukunaโฆโ
โWhatโs their address? I just wanna talk,โ you sigh, shaking your head, earning his glare. โIโm serious. Iโll look it up.โ
โYou canโt make things worse, please,โ youโre already shaking even more, your breaths coming quicker and quicker. โPlease donโt do anything. I know theyโre already so mad at me.โ
โCanโt be mad if theyโre buried.โ
โSukuna!โ
He raises his brows. โYouโd miss those fucks, really?โ
โYou need to go,โ Satoru says then, stepping between you both, pushing Sukuna back. โI took care of her just fine.โ
โOh did you!? Then why the fuck does she have a black eye?โ Sukuna shoves Satoru, who shoves him right back, until the two of them damn near kill each other.
โPlease donโt fight,โ you murmur softly, They freeze at your quiet words, turning to look at you. The sight of you all bruised, emotional and pleading making them both quiet for just a moment, the tension and hatred radiating in the air. โGojo did help, I promise.โ
โDoesnโt change shit about him,โ Sukuna shoves Satoru one last time, sending him stumbling into the counter with a clatter of dishes, Jennifer is panicking, annoying as fuck in Sukunaโs ear. โDonโt you deserve your face rearranged?โ
โYouโll make it worse for her, you donโt understand them.โ
โDonโt I?โ Satoru runs a hand through his hair, looking at you.
Thatโs when Sukuna sees it.
In no world does Satoru not want you โ written all over his dumb fucking face. For you not to know clearly just showed how deep your insecurities ran, because thereโs no denying the love struck, down bad, wanna be pussy drunk off you โ expression ย Satoru Gojo wears. Sukuna knew it was bullshit anyway, but to actively see proof of his longing makes him furious.
He gets it, he barely knows you but to think of another manโs hands on your pretty body, especially this arrogant, cocky little shit? It makes him nauseous. Furious. Sick.
โI will handle them, not like itโs any of your business,โ Satoru says, his focus still locked on you, but your own gaze had shifted, landing on the woman now framed in the kitchen doorway.
โCouldnโt last a day without her?โ You ask, your voice suddenly cold, just the sound of the strength in it makes Sukuna ache โ even as Satoru tenses up from it. โEven right now? After everything I went through I have to see that?โ
โI didnโt ask her โโ
โBaby what happened to your face?โ She runs up, gasping and cupping her face. โMrs. Gojo, are you okay?โ
Sukuna contemplates hitting a woman, he wouldnโt feel bad but heโd definitely do jail time โ jail time meant less of you.
โCome home with me for the night,โ you blush furiously, head down now, biting on your lip. โYou donโt need to see them tonight.โ
โJennifer isnโt staying โโ
โBut SATORU I just really need you!โ Sheโs clinging to him again, Sukuna would almost feel sorry if it wasnโt perfect, for him to have a dumb psycho clinger whoโs half as attractive as his own wife.
A wife Sukuna plans on taking.
Giving you his name so he never has to hear โMrs. Gojoโ again.
Psychotic thoughts, but there they are, swirling in his mind, images flitting of fucking you on the way to your honeymoon, taking you against a wall at the reception. No way he doesnโt just constantly fuck your pretty cunt once he finally gets a chance.
โYouโre not going with him,โ Satoru takes your wrist now, Sukuna flings it off, glaring at the blue eyed freak. โSukuna get the fuck out.โ
โHow can you tell me not to?โ You ask then, raising a brow. โWith all you do, what right do you have?โ
โYou donโt know him,โ he leans low, words quiet, Sukuna watches you step back, losing that nerve heโs worked hard for you to build up. โYou donโt know shit about Sukuna. You canโt go with him.โ
โI will,โ you murmur then, looking back up to meet his eyes. Sukuna smiles, pride filling his eyes as he watches your fists clench. โIโll be careful so I donโtโฆ piss them off more.โ
โCareful? Theyโre all the fuck over this place,โ he shakes his head now.
โIโll get her out without being seen,โ Satoru scowls over at him, his hands on your shoulders, The sight made Sukuna want to rip those arms the fuck off and beat him with them. โIโll take good care of her, better than you have. What kind of man sees this happen and just whatโฆ gives them a good talking to?โ
โYou think I didnโt wanna beat him?โ
โHim,โ Sukuna frowns, then looks at you, realization dawning all over his face. โYour dad did that shit?โ
โYes, um,โ you take Sukunaโs hand now, so small compared to one of his massive ones it swallows it. โIโm going with him for tonight Okay?โ
Satoru says nothing.
โNot okay I meanโฆ I am. I am going. I appreciate last night, but that doesnโt mean weโre suddenly good, and it certainly doesnโt mean Iโm going to have you locking me up and making me listen to you two fuck all night.โ
Sukuna snorts.
Jennifer gasps, her hand flying to her mouth in feigned horror. โSatoru, youโll let her talk to you like that?โ
โShut up god,โ he grumbles, earning her lips trembling, dramatic crying ensues without a single tear. Sukuna grimaces in disgust.
โEven you could probably do better, fuckboy,โ you tug at his hand, shaking your head. โWhat?โ
โDonโt be mean to her,โ you murmur, looking down then. โWonโt make anything better.โ
โOh it will, let me just get a couple jokes in and maybe punch-โ
โSukuna,โ you cut him off now, stepping closer. His heart breaks at your pretty face beat the fuck up like that, your tears that are always in your pretty eyes.
Do you ever get a fucking break?
โIโll go with you,โ you say softly, looking at Gojo then. โIโm going.โ
โYeah,โ he laughs without humor, hands in his pockets, eyeing Sukuna levelly, hatred just radiating. Sukuna grins right back at him, deepening Satoruโs scowl. โHave her back tonight.โ
โNah, the morning though,โ you blush even under your bruises, burying your face against his shoulder. โIf she wants to come back. If not? I donโt give a fuck what you threaten, I wonโt bring her.โ
โYou really think you know her, that you have some claim on her?โ Satoru demands, blue eyes narrowing in on him.
โAnd what, you do? Donโt you want โanyone but herโ?โ
Itโs quiet, Satoruโs mouth shuts, you tense against him, he feels how tightly youโre holding his arm. โYou donโt know shit, Sukuna.โ
โYouโre dumb as shit, Satoru,โ he hugs you against him tightly. โLetting her go? Should thank you for being a fucking idiot.โ
โSheโs still my wife.โ
*****
You
โFor now, sheโll come back when she wants, not gonna control her any fucking more, any of you. Dumb ass parents, I donโt care. They can come for me, too.โ Satoru says nothing, but you feel the weight of his stare, when you look behind your shoulder, and his eyes are devastated.
Was there more to Gojo?
Did you really want to know, anymore? Could you handle that, when he has Jennifer running up to him, the woman he said โ wait, let me cum first โ and you had to listen to it? You canโt just forgive him โ thatโs what the old you would do. Give up, forgive, try to please, all the things you did as a daughter.
Not anymore. You turn away, ignoring the burning gaze against your back, breathing the air when Sukuna sneaks you in his car quickly, and tugs you in for a kiss, brutal at first, before you suck in a breath of pain. He pauses, pulling back, his thumb touching your lip carefully.
โDonโt stop,โ you whisper. โI want you.โ
โDonโt say that shit,โ he kisses you again, hungry and mean, hand tugging your body against his chest. โIโll fuck you right in front of the Gojo mansion, huh? See his dumb, creepy ass blue eyes cry.โ
โInsane,โ you giggle though, brightening your face, Sukunaโs expression softens at it, swallowing. His adamโs apple bobs up and down when he brushes your hair back. โYou came for me.โ
โOf course I did, brat wouldnโt tell me what happened, tskโฆโ Youโre met with another kiss, before he pulls back and starts the car. โI want you to let me know who I have to beat to death.โ
Sukuna Ryomen was just a little insane. But youโre pretty sure you love that.
โCan I sleep on your shoulder?โ You ask softly, he just nods, and you rest your uninjured cheek, eyes fluttering shut. โIโm so exhausted.โ
โYou can sleep the whole time youโre there.โ
โI didnโt uhโฆ bring clothes to stay all night.โ
โThen youโll just have to be naked.โ
โSukuna!โ He chuckles, before sighing, an arm tugging you closer, his lips brushing your temple.
โWhat do you do to me, huh?โ Youโre too comfortable to respond.
*****
When you come to, youโre being carried into Sukunaโs penthouse, you cling tightly to his neck and yawn, stirring a bit, he curses then when he sees Yuuji, with a bag slung over his shoulder.
โKid, what are you doing here?โ
โJust needed some things Iโฆ oh shitโฆโ Sukuna eases you down, Yuuji frowns and runs toward you, sweet brown eyes shimmering with tears. โWhat happened?โ
โA long story,โ his fingers hover over your face.
โLet me put this down, Iโll get some ice?โ
โNo, no, Iโm okay,โ you take his hand in yours, smiling sadly. โDonโt worry for me, promise itโs fine.โ
Yuuji looks over your head at Sukuna, you can all but feel the way they communicate ever so quietly, his fingers wrapping yours now. โIf something happens and Sukuna isnโt in town, I will get you.โ
โYou donโt need to-โ
โI will.โ He says it more firm now. โSukuna can give you my number, right? If you ever need me.โ
โYuuji youโre too sweet for this world,โ Sukuna is quiet when you kiss Yuujiโs cheek, emotions making your throat close up. โI really appreciate you.โ
Youโre crying before you can stop it.
Someone caring like this, for you? Itโs almost too much, youโre such a wreck Yuuji gives you a little hug, patting your back. โItโs nothing, really. Now donโt hug me too long heโll get mad at me.โ
You manage a shaky smile, when Yuji murmurs to Sukuna, you canโt hear, instead turning and waving to him when he leaves. โI feel so bad, to worry him.โ
โThe kid just cares,โ his voice is gruff now. He reaches out, cupping your uninjured cheek in one of his big hands. His touch impossibly gentle as he strokes the skin there, trying his best not to hurt you. His eyes drop to the angry bruise marring the other side of your face, red eyes darkening as they study you.
โHeโs dead,โ Sukuna watches your eyelashes tremble, little tears forming droplets on them. โYour dad, I'll fucking kill him. Then beat your dumb fucking husband.โ
You suck in a breath. โSukuna, donโt say that. I'm okay.โ
โYou're not,โ he cuts you off, hands slipping down your shoulders, feeling you shivering, rage fucking filling him. โI am tired of you getting abused and I just met you.โ
โAbusedโฆโ
โThatโs the goddamn term, yโknow that right?โ You shake your head, earning his sigh. โAren't you tired of it?โ
That question.
Aren't you tired of it?
You nod just a bit, feeling him tug you closer, dragging your body against his, a hand on the small of your back. You feel everything bubbling over the surface, the memories of the cruelty of Satoru, the cruelty of your parents.
โI am tired, fuck I'm tired,โ You're barely holding it back, breaths coming faster, hands gripping his shirt. โI'm so tired of it. Of trying to be perfect and failing. All I do is fail.โ
โNo, they failed,โ he tilts your chin up. โFailed fuck ass parents, shitty failed husband. You didn't fail shit.โ
โBut here I am, with you, I'm not there being perfect. I'm being selfish, wanting you, wanting this. To be consumed by you,โ he eases back, lips parted. โThis isn't just fun to me and I don't do it lightly. I know the position I'm putting you in and I feel horrible.โ
โDon't,โ he whispers, voice hoarse, breath dancing along your lips. โNo one touches you.โ
You lick your lips, drawing his gaze to them. โSukunaโฆโ
โNo one, ever again.โ He leans in closer, his face now just an inch from yours, stealing your very breath from your lungs. โJust let me take care of them.โ
โTake care of them,โ your heart hammers in your chest at the insinuation, your hands slipping slowly up his chest. โI donโt want you having to do that, get involved in this mess thatโs my life more than you already are.โ
โToo late,โ you laugh, breathless then.
โToo late? Youโre insane, Ryomen Sukuna. You know that?โ You brush your lips on his, tentatively, but itโs over for him once you do, walking you back against the wall, lifting you in his arms like itโs nothing. You exhale into his mouth, letting his huge hands take you over. โMnhโฆโ
โThe sounds you fuckinโ make,โ he kisses down your neck, teeth sinking in, earning your gasp in his ear. โFuck I want to mark every inch of you. Have him see what he fucked up on.โ
โHe doesnโt โโ
โOh, he does,โ he pulls back, smirking at you, his face is dangerous then, a deadly look in his eyes that ruins you. โHe wants you so goddamn bad itโs pathetic, I looked right at him today.โ
You blink in confusion. โIf he does at all, itโs because you want me, not because of anything else.โ
โYeah I wish that were true,โ he sighs, kissing you again, careful not to hurt you, the effort making him shake. โItโs written all over his face, but for whatever dumb fucking reason he has, Iโm glad he doesnโt touch you. I couldnโt fucking handle it.โ
โHe kissed meโฆโ Sukunaโs hold tightens, you squeak damn near. โI havenโt had a chance to tell you. It was likeโฆ some power play.โ
โThen Iโll fuck away the memory of it,โ youโre blushing when he carries you to his room, laying you right on his bed, spreading your thighs and sinking his heavy weight over you. โIf you donโt tell me to stop right nowโฆโ
Your mind is reeling, still so dizzy and conflicted from the past couple of days โ was it a toxic part of you that felt bad for Satoru? After all heโd done, and likely what he still was doing, but knowing all heโd been through, some part of you still feels guilty underneath Sukuna.
Another part of you feels so fucking good underneath this man. The way he looks at you โ like thereโs nothing else, utterly consumed, his kisses igniting your entire body on fire, sucking your breath with the intensity of them. It feels right like this, it feels like you canโt get enough of each other, itโs as if Sukuna just knows you.
No one knows you โ even yourself โ but he does. He sees you, the tired heiress trying to be perfect and hurting, sees more than what everyone has always perceived you to be. Itโs insanity when youโre rolling your hips, feeling his cock pressing right over your clothed cunt, dripping through the thin cotton until itโs sticky, aching and throbbing for more.
โMmm, stop me,โ he says again, leaned up on his hands now, you cup his face, tracing the tattoo running down his neck, watching his pink lashes flutter. โDonโt be all cute and shit, Iโll throw your ass in a mating press.โ
โSukuna what?โ You giggle at him, heโs very serious though.
โA full nelson, after your first time,โ youโre laughing against his lips, arching up for more of him. โFirst time should be missionary, yeah?โ
โI donโt even know what youโre talking about, isnโt full nelsonโฆ mmmโฆ like a wrestling move?โ He chuckles, kissing your nose for just a moment, leaning up to slide a thigh between yours, pressure having your eyes flutter shut.
โYouโre too fucking cute, Iโll corrupt you if you donโt stop me,โ his voice darkens then, eyes almost black with lust, you suck in a breath as your cunt drools down his well muscled thigh. โI will not feel bad about it, either, fucking your cunt and pumping it so full.โ
Your answer is a soft, desperate whine, one of his hands tilting your chin up with two fingers, breath ghosting your lips.
ย โIโll burn everything to the ground for you,โ his words are insanity โ met with his face, furious, possessive eyes that steal your breath.
โBurn everything?โ You whisper, lost in his eyes โ that red ring around pitch obsidian, his devious, insane fucking grin.
โIโll kill anyone who ever made you cry. Iโll kill anyone who even looks at you the wrong way, once youโre all mine, think I care if theyโre your parents?โ
โYou c-canโt mean all that,โ you shake your head, clutching even tighter. โYou donโt hardly know me, what if Iโฆ what if Iโฆโ You suck in a breath, tears swimming and blurring your vision. โWhat if I disappoint you?โ
โYou couldnโt,โ his voice is softer, his expression growing serious. โYou could not disappoint me.โ
โYou donโt know it, I feel itโs all I do.โ
โThatโs them,โ Sukunaโs hands slip up your sides, easing your top off over your head carefully, moaning at the sight of your tits bouncing right out. โIโll fuck any memory of it out, fuck you so hard all you can do is babble, drool. Not think a single thing in your pretty head.โ
Fuck.
โYou want it?โ He asks then, voice a low rumble, his hair falling ever so slightly over his brow, huge frame hovering on top of you. โDo you want me to make it all go away for you?โ
โYes,โ your answer is clearly enough for him, he slips off his shirt, showing those tensed muscles, the tattoos curving right with his body. You run your fingers down them, but he grabs your hand.
โTouch yourself,โ you blush even now, even half naked with him, as he slips down your pants, tugging them off and leaving you in just your panties, hair splayed out all over the silk pillows that smell like him. โShow me what you learned.โ
You slip your fingers over the ruined material of soaked panties, ever so softly pressing up in the fabric, soft whine drank from his lips. The pain from your lip makes you hiss, he pulls off and runs a thumb across the mark.
โIโll kill them,โ he says again โ and you believe him. You believe him when he positions himself lower, sucking one of your nipples into his hot, eager mouth, making your back arch. โShould fill you with me, all of me, until you donโt want to leave.โ
โAh!โ Heโs kissing lower, hands bruising in their grip of your waist, tongue licking a filthy trail down your stomach.
โHow can you leave if you canโt walk, huh? Pretty little brat,โ he whispers, your hand still running circles when heโs even lower, pressing them more firmly where they need to be. โGood girl.โ
"Sukuna, please," you whimper, your fingers leaving your soppy cunt and tangling in his hair, pulling at the pink strands. โPlease, I need you.โ
With a slow, deliberate tug, he removes the barrier of your panties, the fabric tearing away easily, the cool air hits your wet heat for a split second before his fingers are there, so warm and rough, sliding through your slick folds.
"So fucking wet for me," he groans out those words, his gaze fixed on where his fingers are playing with you, sliding up and making your clit twitch in response. He circles your clit with a precision that steals your breath, your hips bucking up to chase the sensation. "Look at you, dripping. All for me."
โAll you, ngh!โ Heโs nudging your thighs apart with broad shoulders, the heat of his skin seeping through your inner thighs, his tongue licking from your ass all the way to your clit. โSukuna, want more. Want you inside.โ
โFuck,โ you can see him rutting his cock on the matress, glaring up at you even with your slick on his mouth. โDonโt test my patience, brat. Iโll fucking break you if I put it in like this.โ
โI want it,โ he shakes his head, dragging you by your ass to his mouth, tongue slipping in your hole, feeling it quiver around his wet muscle. โKunaโฆโ
โMmph,โ he lifts his head again, running two fingers and sinking them in, watching your swollen folds suck them greedy. โYour first time, and youโre all slutty like this?โ
โShh,โ you touch his lips, he nips your finger, looking at you as he curls his thick digits in your hole โ moving up and down at a maddening pace, the pressure so much you feel dizzy. โDonโt be mean.โ
โTo you? Hah,โ he flicks his tongue, groaning as you gush down his face. โThis is sweet for me. Only for you.โ
His words and his tongue fucking end you too quick, you barely have time to arch your hips and he hits your spot, making you gush syrupy arousal all down him. โLemme suck you please.โ
โYour lip hurts,โ his words are surprisingly gentle, when he sucks your clit in his mouth and hums, drawing every bit of pleasure from your body. โNot tonight.โ
โSee? Mean,โ he chuckles, standing and removing his pants, you blush when you look at him fully, heโs massive, his cock so thick and heavy, veins wrapping around the length of it. โOhโฆโ
โOh,โ he chuckles at your cute little expression, kneeling back over you, dragging you by your thighs down to the center of your bed, the way he handles you is addictive, but the way he looks at you is life ruining. โSure you can take it, tiny little cunt, never been fucked.โ
โI wanna try,โ you whisper, whining out when his fat leaky cockhead brushes down your slit, pressing into your hole and making you gasp out. โAh!โ
โLast chance,โ he says it through gritted teeth, hovering over you, his weight heavy on your body. โI wonโt go easy on you once you get used to my shape. Iโll fuck you every position, fuck my loads of cum right back inside.โ
Youโre spasming just around his tip, he pauses and hovers over you, even now wanting you to make the decision. As dominant as he is, you are the initiator in all of your encounters. Sukuna clearly wants you to show that side of yourself.
You reach a hand down, wrapping a fist around his cock and pressing in, whining out in pleasure and pain as he slips further. โThat's it, taking what you want. Good girl.โ
He lifts a thigh, your nails press into his biceps, gasping when there is a prick of pain. He pauses again, looking at your face, brows lowering, cock pulsing already.
โTouch yourself again,โ he orders softly, you reach down and rub your clit as he eases back out, then presses in once more. You're so full of him, you feel him everywhere. โBreathe, you can take me.โ
You exhale, eyes locking with his, cunt struggling to fit his massive cock, but every little circle of your clit and his kisses, his touches, have you taking more. โSo big youโreโฆ s'big I j-justโฆ feelโฆโ
Sukuna shoves his cock in half way, your hips buck up, finger slipping with how wet you are, gasping as his cock stretches your walls. He barely moves at first, breaths coming in heavy, kissing down your neck, your cheek, pulling out and making you feel so empty before shoving his cock inside you fully.
โKuna! Ngh!โ You're drunk off the first few strokes, achingly slow, pumping your cunt so full, stretching her out. Sukuna groans and leans back, eyeing your cunt now, moaning and sinking his fingers into your hips.
โLook at that, hah,โ his eyes are so black they're insane, his grin psychotic as he sees the way his cock moves in your pelvis. โFilling you up like this, hitting that cervix. Didn't I promise toโฆ hah, bruise it?โ
You can only nod and roll your eyes back when he does just that, pressing into your cervix and just rolling his hips. โAh!โ
โFuck you're so tight,โ he pauses now, exhaling. โFit so perfect though, she's taking me so well. Like it's made for it.โ
The praise and the way he looks at you is overwhelming, tears slipping from your eyes a mix of pleasure and so much more you can't even describe. He thumbs your clit now, eyes watching where he's splitting you open on his cock, you blush when you see just a hint of blood.
โI'm umโฆ it'sโฆ mnh!โ Sukuna thrusts hard, taking the bit of blood on his thumb and just lapping it up, it makes his lips crimson, you suck in a breath when he leans back down. His long pink tongue laps the remnants of your long gone innocence off his lower lip. โKunaโฆโ
โCan you take more?โ He whispers, husky and hoarse, you nod eagerly. "Gonna ruin you for anyone else." That's when Sukuna loses the gentleness, the ease. Once he can feel your cunt has accommodated his shape, he moves.
He grips the plush of your thighs, pushing your knees up toward your chest to angle himself deeper, and bottoms out as much as he can in your snug little hole. The wet slap of his heavy balls against your ass where all the wetness is pooling echoes obscenely in the room, mixed with your desperate little cries, his gutteral moans.
The angle pushes him right on your cervix, and when he presses you can already feel yourself getting close. Youโre so full, never having had more than his fingers, to have his girthy nine inches just buried inside your puffy cunt was almost too much. The stretch burns, an intoxicating mix of pain and pleasure that leaves you dizzy, your walls fluttering helplessly around him, pushing him to thicken more.
"Fuck, Iโve got you, Iโve got you,โ you blink back emotions when he leans down, pressing your knees parallel with your head, folding you right in half. โCum, pretty little brat, cum fโme yeah? Let go."
Let go.
The words mean more than his cock breaking you, the way he cups your face even as he slams his cock so deep you see stars, and you shatter for him, cumming so hard youโre blinded, dizzy and almost faint from it. It hits so hard you canโt think, he lets your thighs down just a bit, driving into you harder, gripping your hand tight and lacing your fingers together.
He pauses for a moment, to get a breath, youโre pinned against the mattress under his weight, maybe the only thing keeping you tethered to earth while he fucks every thought right out of your head.
โKiss me again, please,โ you whisper, but heโs already lowering his mouth for you, so intimate when he slows his pace, getting close. His mouth is swallowing your gasps, kissing you messy and deep.
โMโgonna fill your cunt up, can you take it all?โ You nod and he pulls back, leaned up on a hand, the other gripping one of your tits, littered with marks from his mouth. โFill you up so full of me, drip me all out in his dumb fuckinโ mansion, huh?โ
Sukuna is insane.
Sukunaโs cumming inside you, throbbing and pouring white ropes and flooding you, tongues messy and slipping together over and over. Youโre flooded with his warmth, pushing you to shatter again, a lighter, softer orgasm that leaves you a sweaty, desperate little mess. Heโs lapping the salty slick of that sheen of sweat off the crook of your neck, slowing down his movements.
The reality of what youโve done should hit, right? That you lost your virginity to Sukuna, that his cum is inside you, that youโre married. Yet you canโt find it in your heart to feel bad, not when he looks at you like that, when he whispers your name with filthy little declarations of affection.
Your first time is with Ryomen Sukuna.
*****
Sukuna
Youโre trembling underneath his heavy weight, breaths coming in shallow pants as he eases out his cock thatโs coated in your slick, tinges of red and swirls of white. He parts your thighs and moans at the sight of how much of his cum you took, oozing from your wrecked hole, so much that floods out. He exhales, fingers trailing across puffy lips, making your hips jolt up.
โAh!โ He pauses, concern all over his features.
โDid I hurt you? Tiny little cunt, she took too much, huh?โ He murmurs, struggling not to be too vulnerable with you, but how can he not be, when youโre like this? Trusting him to be your first.
He hasnโt even been someoneโs first, has he already fucked it up, went too hard on you? Has he -
You drag him down for a kiss, leaning up on your elbow now, hair falling off your shoulders. Your lips still coated in just a hint of blood, he swipes it off with his tongue, making them glossy, brushing a lock of hair behind your ear. Lost in your eyes, hating the fact that youโd be back with him tomorrow.
Sukuna couldnโt handle not knowing what happens when youโre there, what heโs filling your head with, what they are filling your head with. When all he wants is you to be fucked out, full of cum, giggling and punching at him with your cute little pink gloves. Is that really so much to ask for? To crave?
You, he craves you, all of you.
โIโm good,โ you say softly, as if reading his mind just a bit. Youโd be scared if you knew all he wanted. โI thought it would hurt so bad the first time from what all my friends said, and my mother. I thought it was likeโฆ lay there and deal with it.โ
Sukuna frowns at that, seeing your lip quiver just a bit, before you catch it with your teeth.
โIt was amazing,โ you whisper, kissing him once more. โYou didnโt hurt me, even if I am a little sore.โ
โGood, you took it perfect,โ you blush now, the color mixing with that slight purple bruising that still makes him furious, his hands cupping your breasts, making you shift your thighs just a bit. โYou sure youโre all right?โ
โI just want to focus on this,โ you whisper, hand on his chest, feeling his heart against your palm. โJust this. Have you take it all away.โ
Sukuna kisses you again, this time itโs even more desperate, his entire body shaking with his attempt to be just a little โgentleโ with you, when he wants to put you in every position he can. This feeling of not knowing how long he has with you, how long heโll get this, see you in this way, filling him with an even more desperate need, youโre reaching down to stroke his cock now, ending him.
โI'm not done with you tonight brat,โ Sukuna flips you over on all fours suddenly his fingers shoved in your messy cunt, moaning when he feels her clamping down on his digits. โNot close to done.โ
Your answer is to arch for more, reaching a hand back for him to pin your wrist down. You're quivering around his cock when he eases it back in, watching the white cum leaking from your abused hole, reddened tip collecting it like nectar and pushing it back in.
โGonna plug up all this cum so it can't leave,โ he tightens his grip, heavy weight over you, lips against the shell of your ear. โDo you want that, pretty little brat? Me to fill you again?โ
โYes,โ your eyes meet his, dazed and fucked out. โI want it.โ
โSo fucking beautiful, what did you do to me,โ he still doesn't know what you do when you look at him like that. All you can answer is a soft cry, a kiss where your lip busts back open, and he licks the copper blood like he did your innocence.ย
When he pulls back your lips are swollen, crimson staining them, eyes all glossy as you clamp down. At that moment Sukuna knows he can never let you go.
When he fills your cunt from the back and his heavy balls smack your clit, when he pumps more cum inside your hole, he doesn't think he can ever let you go. How can he even let you go back?
You're not his yet.
That's unacceptable.ย
So he makes sure to fill you again, more cum flooding you, until you're getting cleaned up. Until he makes sure you eat even though you're dazed and fucked out. Until you're in one of his shirts that swallows you, and he's taking you to his bed, holding you against him.
Sukuna stays up just to watch you sleep, brushing your hair back and scowling at your phone that keeps going off.
Texts from Gojo.ย
He places your finger gently to unlock it โ he doesn't feel bad about it. Not when you're meant to be his.
Just let me know you're okay, fuckโฆ
I know that you hate me but I need to know if you're all right.
Please just answer me, I thought weโฆ I thought maybeโฆ never mind.
Sukuna is dangerous, okay? Could you just answer.
Jennifer isn't here if you want to come home tonight.
Fuck it, he can come too, just let me see you.
I meanโฆ I mean fuck him, fuck this. Just ignore that shit. Good night.
Sukuna frowns at them, contemplating deleting them all for a brief moment, before stopping himself. He studies your face carefully in your sleep.
Was there something between you and Satoru?Sukuna can't say it will stop him โ no, he'd do anything for you. Including getting your parents info and sending it to himself, smirking just a little bit. He wasn't a pro boxer for nothing โ he can't wait to beat your dad unconscious.
You may be mad about it, but he knows what's best for you.
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ย โI donโt like paparazzi, I tend to tell them to fuck off.โ
โI saw that,โ you tease, leaning over to set your things next to him, tugging your hair up in a ponytail, pausing when you feel his fingers slip across the back of your thighs. You suck in a breath, your heart hammering in your chest, stepping closer until youโre between his thighs. โThank you for getting them away.โ
โWasnโt for you, I hate them,โ he says gruffly, hands slipping over your hips now, thumbs pressing against your pelvis, you canโt bite back the little moan that escapes your throat then. Sukunaโs ruby eyes lock with yours, lips an inch from your collarbone, but he doesnโt cross that line, waiting for you.
You look around nervously, before stepping even closer, hands resting on his broad shoulders, tugged against him to where you feel his length against your thighs, body humming in response. You shouldnโt do this, no matter what Satoru does, you know you shouldnโt be actively seeking Sukuna out. Terrified youโd both get hurt, worried you canโt just be physical.
How, when Sukuna makes you feel this good, do you stop it? How when he looks at you like youโre so pretty, like he desires you so much? Your breaths quicken, gathering courage then.
โGuess what?โ You ask, he smirks a bit, breath ghosting over your chest, leaving goosebumps in its wake.
โWhat is it, brat? Got something to tell me?โ Heโs grinning, teeth glinting under bright fluorescent lights, you gather more courage but youโre trembling, leaning close and slipping your hands down his tattooed biceps.
โI made myself cum last night,โ Sukunaโs grip is bruising, pupils blown out, before he stands up suddenly, pressing you against the lockers, a thigh between yours, making you cry out before he puts a hand on your mouth. You grip his wrist, his other hand dragging you down on his thigh, leaning close and moving his hand, exhaling. โSorry that was too much, I shouldnโt have-โ
โShut up,โ you gasp, glaring and earning his smirk. โYouโre so sexy when you scowl like that.โ
โTelling me to shut upโฆ Iโฆโ
Your whole life youโve been silent, youโve been quiet, pushed around with no sense of self. Yet Sukuna is teasing, heโs challenging you, heโs making you want to talk back, because you feel safe enough to. Your eyes look back up into his, swallowing nervously, his thumb brushing over your lips.
โYou shut up.โ
He chuckles softly then, tilting your chin up, raising his thigh even higher. โOh yeah, ya talkinโ shit?โ
โY-yes? I mean โ yes.โ You scowl all cutely again, pulse fluttering when he comes near, youโve never felt this way, the thrill of it, talking shit to a six-foot-five grown ass man whoโs got you soaking wet, drooling over that material.
โI like it,โ he murmurs, easing his thigh back to run his fingers down your tummy, trembling underneath, hooking into the waistband of your shorts. โYou made yourself cum for the first time?โ
โY-yes, I did โ mnh!โ You cover your own mouth when the backs of his fingers slip over your clit, she eagerly twitches in response, his thick digit slipping inside your hole, not teasingly with the tip like last time, no he slides it in to the knuckle. Your eyes roll back from just that, cunt spasming around the invasion.
โFuck,โ he loses his bravado for a moment, yanking your hand down and curling his finger up before pulling it back, making you gasp out at the loss. โIโll give you that reward later, for being a good girl.โ
โL-later?โ You hear the chatter and realize you both wonโt be alone until later, looking to the side only to look back and see him sucking you off his fingers, moaning, lips wrapped around it. You drag him down for a quick kiss, heโs eagerly swapping your taste, tugging you hard against him.
God, to be kissed like this and not have it again?
You donโt know how youโd feel, to never have strong hands yanking you so close, to have his teeth clicking on yours, his tongue taking your mouth over. Youโre lost in it, so lost you could forget who you are, where you are, but Sukuna is thankfully self aware, breath heavy and hot when he pulls back.
He glares at you, hardly able to drag himself back. โFuck are you doing to me?โ
this is a reward for being patienttt - keep being patient and you'll get this out sooner my pookies lol <3 it's gonna be MESSY don't let this cute part fool you - also I've seen talk about this story not ending with Sukuna - I'll reiterate AGAIN it will be a multi ending so you'll have a Kuna path :)
You're married to Satoru Gojo - an arrangement since your childhood, one you're so excited for. You soon find out - he wants nothing to do with you. Any one is preferable, from the waitress at your engagement party, to his secretary. Torn apart by insecurities and devastated by the fact that you can't make this one sided affection work, you decide to find something to keep you going until Gojo finds a way to end the marriage. That's what lands you right in the notorious boxing ring in town - led by Ryomen Sukuna, who finally sees you.
pairings - Arranged! Gojo x Reader x Boxer! Sukuna
warnings!! - Heavy angst, cheating, Satoru is cruel and mean, reader starts off very shy/insecure, Soft Sukuna but he still don't mind being buried inside married reader, a fuck ton of feelings, eventual smut, explicit, mentions of insecurities. This chap - sexual tension like a MF, reader growing as a character, obsessed Sukuna, Gojo is still horrible, kissing, fingering, guided masturbation. Mostly Sukuna/reader this chap and their relationship - also MORE angst.
This WILL have multiple endings, all of these three are gonna be messy. Told from Reader, Gojo and Kuna's POV based on this drabble - WC - 11k
<<<part one
part two
You
You wish that you could turn off your feelings.
Easier said than done, right? To make yourself stop wanting Satoru Gojo, to act like him walking around shirtless didnโt make you ache, that seeing him pleasuring that girl in the office hadnโt made you wonder. Him tumbling into the door with her and kissing her on the wall when he didnโt know you were home, lifting her and grabbing her thighs as she clung to him.
You wonder what it would be like to be desired in that way, staring at the two of them and earning a little look from that womanโs face, a mean, nasty little look that damn near makes you sick. Satoru pauses, looking back with lipstick all over his mouth smeared, but he doesnโt smirk like he did in the office, he pauses just a bit, eyeing you in the little crop top and yoga pants youโre wearing.
His blue gaze slips across your body calculatingly, before he eases her down, turning over to you. โI thought you were โboxingโ?โ
โI am going soon,โ you manage to mumble, hugging yourself suddenly insecure, seeing her in her pretty dress as if sheโd been on some date with your husband. โIโm sorry.โ
Youโre apologizing again, for existing in Satoru Gojoโs proximity.
Always a very soft and obedient girl, last night was the first time you stood up to him in any way, and you were met with immediate regret, wondering why you couldnโt be enough for him to at least try. Why werenโt you perfect enough, pretty enough, worth enough for even a kiss, a look, anything?
You had laid in bed thinking of Sukuna and then realizing how dumb and foolish those thoughts were, how pathetic you are for this man who has given you nothing. What, a brief moment where he asked you to eat? Did that make up for making sure his Secretary came before he was able to speak to you?
Youโre not sure you hate him yet.
You hate yourself though.
โIโll be gone in like twenty,โ you mumble a bit, Satoru leans down, lips a glossy red like she wears, pressing together.
โYouโre apologizing again, for living here?โ You nod then, looking down and hearing him sigh. โYouโre not gonna make me like you.โ
โIโm not trying to,โ you wring your hands together, blinking back tears as she sighs and walks right over to the fridge like she fucking lives here. Your jaw sets, breaths coming in short little pants, he grips your chin, tilting your gaze to focus on him. โIโm not.โ
โYouโre exactly who they programmed you as,โ he laughs without humor. โI almost feel sorry for you.โ
โDonโt.โ Your voice steels just a bit, hating how good his fingertips feel grazing against your skin. โIโll get my things.โ
โSatoruโฆโ
Heโs not listening to her as he casually follows you, raising a brow at the pink gloves you bought, slipping his hands in his pockets and leaning in the doorway. โYou boxing, huh?โ
He laughs softly.
Your teeth clench together.
โYou can go fuck her, donโt let me interrupt,โ you say then, struggling to gather yourself, chest rising and falling as you snatch up your ear buds, the little water bottle you bought, a few things in a bright pink bag you brought with you from home. You hastily snatch it up, throwing it over your shoulder and seeing heโs still in the doorway studying you.
Itโs quiet when you stand in front of him, his fingertips brushing your cheek in a way they shouldnโt, you detest yourself more when you tremble from it. He shakes his head, letting his hand fall, eyes glinting cruelly.ย
โYouโd sink to your knees if I called you pretty, wouldnโt you?โ You gasp, stepping back for a moment, as his fucked ass words sink in.
โGo to her,โ you murmur. โWhy even talk to me, Iโm nothing to you.โ
โI see how you look at me even now,โ he scoffs, brushing his fingertips down your shoulder, tilting his head curiously. โDo you touch yourself when you hear me?โ
He draws out those words, leaving goosebumps along your skin, your breaths come quicker. โWhat?โ
โDo you touch yourself,โ he leans down, that mean smirk quirking up even more, as he clearly thrives in embarrassing you. โListening to me fuck her?โ
โNo!? Iโve never evenโฆโ You blush furiously and trail off, you canโt just say that to him, give him more ammo to hurt you.
He raises a brow. โNever?โ
โWhy do you care, we wonโt do that,โ you mumble, blood pressure rising so much you feel dizzy, like you canโt catch a breath. โBut no. I havenโt, so I donโt touch myself.โ
โYouโre that much of a good girl for mommy and daddy, huh? Staying all pure for me of all people,โ a tear slips from your eye, his gaze watches it trail down without bothering to swipe it away. โWhat a waste.โ
โA waste?โ Itโs not like you ever even wanted to have sex with someone before. Your jaw sets now, eyes shutting for a moment, another tear traitorous in its escape. โNot all of us love to whore around.โ
โWhore around huh,โ he crosses his arms now, watching your eyes flicker open. โAdmit it.โ
โAdmit what!?โ
โThat youโd do anything if I asked,โ you swallow down the pain, biting down on your lower lip as his voice drops an octave, a mean caress that sends shivers down your spine. โIf you asked pretty enough maybe Iโd let you suck me at least.โ
Your pause earns his smirk.
โHoly fuck, you would? Hmm,โ his cruel gaze gets darker, snowy lashes flickering just a bit. โI guess Iโd consider that, but I wouldnโt touch you.โ
โI donโt want to,โ you finally breathe out. โI wouldnโtโฆ do that with someone who hates me, who doesnโt even want me to exist.โ Satoru blinks a bit when you slip your bag higher on your shoulder. โIโm glad that you didnโt.โ
Itโs utterly quiet.
โPlease move.โ
He steps aside and you pass by his dumb fucking secretary sitting right at the chair you do, her blouse unbuttoned, just smiling at you, the anger rising like bile in your throat. Youโre humiliated again, and you almost said you would โ youโd do damn near anything if the man youโd been infatuated with โ promised to at that, gave you a tiny bit of attention.
It was all a game to him.
โHave fun boxing,โ she has the audacity to say, laughing just a bit at you in the fucking place you live in, in the chair you cry in. You feel so much rage it doesnโt even feel like you โ itโs like it belongs to someone else. โYour gloves are so cute!โ
โJennifer,โ ah, thatโs her fucking name, coming from Satoruโs lips. โCome over here.โ
She hops up obediently and you turn to gaze at Satoru by his bedroom door, eyes unreadable, smirk off his face, you donโt even want to know whatโs in his mind, even if itโs something half way decent for you. You donโt want to live like this, to have someone so blatantly disregarding your feelings.
โCould you all please keep it in the room?โ You ask then, she giggles and Satoru raises a brow. โI live here too, for now.โ
โYou think the maids wouldnโt clean up all the cum from every surface?โ you canโt believe him at that moment. โBut yes, we can while youโre still in my home.โ
His home.
He makes it dead ass fucking clear, as if you didnโt already know he hates you here, that none of this is going to last because he canโt wait to fucking have you out. You shut your eyes for a moment, hands pressing into the wood of the door before you rush out of the opulent, ostentatious home.
It was once a dream, to drive by Gojoโs home and imagine yourself as his wife, so enamored with the man you thought he was and the kindness you remembered as a child that it felt like a dream come true. Yet it was anything but that, it was all just a cruel joke, much like your life.
Satoru was right on one thing, you did everything to live up to your parents expectations, and that included remaining โpureโ. If they even knew that you were headed in your car to go boxing of all places and things to do, theyโd likely be appalled at you.
Ladies donโt do that โ Satoruโs wife doesnโt do that.
Just the small thing for yourself makes you smile a bit, hands gripping the wheel tightly, you swear you see Satoruโs curtain flutter, who knows maybe heโs got her pressed up on the window, pleasuring her and making sure the world knows how he wants anyone but you.
It shouldnโt hurt this bad, you were trained to be the perfect wife even if Gojo did cheat, and you could handle it, as taught.
Yet he didnโt even touch you, his words echoing in your ears and making you so ill you almost throw up remembering. Proving his point โ you had so desperately been eager to sink to your knees right for him, if heโd just look at you with anything other than hatred, if heโd brush your hair back and give that look he had when he was with other women.
You canโt be everything your parents want if he divorces you anyway, itโll bring so much shame on your family and thereโs nothing you can do to salvage it, so you have to try to find who you are. You donโt even know โ itโs so sad, if someone asked you what you liked you wouldnโt know what to say.
Who are you?
The thoughts keep coming as you sit in front of the boxing gym, so nervous now, not to do something new completely.
Sukuna makes you nervous.
Youโve not felt whatever it was when those ruby eyes hit you, whatever that gaze was on his handsome face. Youโve been hit on plenty, youโve had boys have crushes on you, yet you had to remain โall intactโ and โproperโ so you never explored that. Even so, Sukuna looked at you differently, and it felt like a physical touch.
Satoru, it felt like an assessment โ Sukuna, it felt like appreciation.
He saw things in you that youโre not sure are there from one meeting โ that you werenโt eating, that youโre a mess, things you keep so hidden from even yourself, the perception terrified you. You donโt know what to think about it, how to interpret it, maybe youโre over thinking it too.
The dream last night didnโt help, him kissing up your throat, hand gripping your hair at the nape of your neck. To get him involved in any capacity was dangerous for your familyโs reputation, and youโre โmarriedโ so surely he wouldnโt want that. Yet those images make you blush.
Even as you walk in now and see a boy standing next to him that looks almost identical, just a shorter, younger version, you smile nervously and wave.
You feel Sukunaโs gaze assessing you, and just that alone is more than Satoru has given you in your marriage. The way he looks at you makes you feelโฆ
Goodโฆ Was good the word?
Nervous, apprehensive, tummy fluttering. You swallow nervously, trying not to overthink it โ Youโre here to get stress out, and maybe to learn who you were, to find an existence away from being โSatoruโs wifeโ.
******
Sukuna
"Sukuna seriously," his annoying little nephew Yuuji is up at the gym with him today. The kid has a hell of a right hook and a hell of an annoying way about him.
Sukuna couldn't help but let him stay with him when he also wanted to get away from all the pressure that came with their family. But now the kid stays over far too much, bringing his friends over and soon dragging them all to the gym too. Sukuna has a bunch of teenagers constantly annoying the shit out of him.
Yet he can't complain, it's good for the business, and it keeps Yuuji and the other kids out of trouble. Yuuji is only eighteen after all, Sukuna is twenty-four โ thus the 'mentor'.
Hah, what a mentor he must be.
"She's married!?" Sukuna glares now at the blurted out fucking statement, and Yuuji quickly hushes. "I mean... I know you're all โanti the familyโ this and that but really?"
"Will you shut your trap kid," Yuuji glares right up at Sukuna, he's damn near a smaller version of his cousin, just with brown eyes instead of red. "I haven't done anything, she's just..."
You walk in then, as if on cue, holding your hands together in front of you nervously, some cute pink pair of boxing gloves that are ridiculous, pink duffel bag slung over one of your shoulders. He can't help but smirk a bit at howโฆ cute, youโre fucking cute. Shy and adorable.
Yuuji eyes you as well, then him, curiously.
"Shit," Yuuji never cusses, so Sukuna raises a brow at him, seeing him run a hand through identical pastel locks. "That's her?"
"Don't say shit in front of her, if you do I'll make sure not to take you to Cabo this summer," Sukuna threatens, but Yuuji frowns, looking intently as you come closer. "Get it out now. Your moral high ground on my thoughts."
"She is very pretty," he murmurs, frowning. "And she does look... she looks so sad."
Sukuna pauses then. You give your best effort with a tremulous little smile, walking up to both of them, taking a breath and holding a hand out to Yuuji.
A forced smile, but itโs as pretty as you. Whatโs a real one look like?
"Hey there!" You say, Yuuji takes your hand in his, smiling sweetly at you.
"Hey there, welcome to the gym," He's friendly, sweet even. "We have lockers over there if you need!"
"Perfect I'll be right back," your eyes catch Sukuna's and his breath falters. He's never felt anything like wanting to fuck the sadness right out of your body. He knows it's already obsession, already fucking ridiculous. It doesn't stop him. "Sukuna, it's good to see you again."
"You're late," he teases gruffly, you sigh and glare a bit all cute, a look he didn't think he'd see, it does something to him. "Just a few minutes though. Go get ready."
You rush off and Yuuji puts a hand on his chest over his dark blue hoodie, wincing a bit. "Her pain, like I feel it?"
"Yeah," Sukuna mutters, the kid has always been... fuck, what's the word? Empath or some shit. "I know."
"Just... be careful Sukuna. You don't know who she's with."
"I'm not afraid of anyone, have you seen me?" Yuuji rolls his eyes.
"Yeah I saw you, and you couldn't even stop the drool from coming out of your mouth." Sukuna scowls, fists clenched at his sides, one step making Yuuji back up. "I've um... gotta go!"
"Nice to meet you!" You wave at Yuuji as you come out, in a little sports bra and shorts, as if to fucking torture him. Yuuji waves and smiles sweetly at you, leaving Sukuna alone with you in the quiet of the gym. "He looks just like you! Your little brother?"
"Annoying nephew," you laugh a little, the sound doing something to him again, fuck he doesnโt know what it is. Yuuji is right, he has to be careful, to try to hold back.
But holding back really isn't Sukuna's thing.
"So," he draws on the words, seeing how you hug yourself a bit around your waist, as if you're nervous to have it bare.
It takes a lot of effort not to just touch your body, make you feel as pretty as you are, see how those eyes could light up if you came all over his mouth, if he drank you. He knows he can't say that shit, so he instead teases you, tugging at the little ponytail you're wearing.
"Tell me where you got these dumb gloves, and you better tell me you've fucking eaten something too."
โTheyโre so cute, excuse me!โ You cover your mouth then, eyes lowering. โSorry that came out so rude-โ
โI like it, see if thereโs something feisty underneath all this,โ he gestures to all of you then. โPerfect little girl, time to mess you up. Get you all sweaty and wrecked.โ
He watches a blush dance on your cheeks underneath the bright lights overhead, you shift just a bit, nodding. โI want to see if there is, too.โ
โYou donโt know?โ He asks, and you sigh, blinking back tears again.
Fuck whatโs happened to you to make you constantly on the verge of them? Sukuna wasnโt some โmr fix itโ especially when it came to women. He liked things simple, fun, unattached, never has he been so obsessed with whatโs going on in a mind like he is yours.
Be careful. Could he be?
โI want to learn who I am, I know Iโm like twenty four and donโt know,โ you shake your head a bit and sigh. โQuarter life crisis?โ
He snorts at that. โYou make jokes?โ
โI donโt know,โ you answer softly. โIโm trying?โ
โMeh it wasnโt that funny,โ he shoves playfully but youโre so damn weak you stumble, he grabs you quickly, holding you too closely. โYou said you ate.โ
โI did, I swear, just still feeling it I think?โ Your hand rests on one of his biceps, he sees that blush up close, spreading down your neck. โI really ate dinner and breakfast!โ
โCanโt box if youโre falling over and shit,โ he sighs, his hands still on your waist, shaking his head a bit. โIโll show you some basics, you just pay attention for now. Iโm grabbing you a protein bar.โ
โIโm okay!โ Sukuna ignores you, coming back with a bar and shoving it unceremoniously in your hand. โThank you.โ
โYeah, yeah,โ he rubs the back of his neck, your eyes are too pretty looking up at him like that, and he needs to make you comfortable. Not do every filthy thing he keeps thinking of โ fuck that sadness right out of you. How can he fucking think that? โCome with me, and you better finish it.โ
โYouโre bossy,โ you tease, he snorts and rolls his eyes, feeling the warmth of your skin with your close proximity. โItโs good!โ
โHmm, youโre just starving, those suck,โ you sigh, chewing thoughtfully, when he shows you to the training area. โYou need some muscle so I suggest doing some light weights first, then next time maybe Iโll let you hit a bag.โ
โGot it,โ you murmur, mouth just a little full, the wrapper crinkles a bit as you down it. โMaybe I was hungry? Iโve not had an appetite.โ
โYeah, sounds likeโฆโ He trails off now. โYou have stress at home.โ
You laugh a little without humor. โYou could say that.โ
Sukunaโs jaw tightens just a bit, feeling his teeth press together in irritation at the thought of whatever has you like this. Yet in just a good twenty minutes you relax your shoulders just a bit, you smile a little more real and not forced, he watches as you ease just a bit with every movement.
โThese are tiny weights, I can do more,โ you pout as he puts ten on each arm. Sukuna shakes his head. โI can!โ
โYeah champ okay,โ he grabs twenties and watches your arms drop down, stabilizing you and smirking. โYouโre a regular Arnold.โ
โOh hush!โ He takes them and tugs and your pony tail again, you dab just a little sweat off your brow.
โYou are bratty, see?โ
โI am so not,โ you get a little quiet at his hands on your wrists then, clearing your throat and looking down so shy and cute.
Sukuna would just corrupt you.
Youโre clearly an innocent little thing and his thoughts are about as far from that as they could be, itโs hard to pull back and act casual โ as if this is normal and he just grips on his clientsโ fucking biceps. Youโre so fragile then as he studies you for a heartbeat too long, you donโt move away, just staring up at him. Your pupils dilate and make your eyes too damn pretty.
โYou good?โ He manages to ask, rubbing the back of his neck, annoyed by whatever the fuck effect this is.
โI am, thank you Sukuna,โ if your lips would stop moving like that, if your voice would stop sounding that way, maybe he would be all right and not throbbing just inhaling your scent. โYouโre very sweet.โ
โMe? Tch, mโnot sweet,โ he rolls his eyes as you giggle again, turning away so you donโt see the dopey grin on his face before he gets rid of it, turning back and raising a brow. โIโll show you some movements and you can come hit the bag tomorrow.โ
โSounds good to me,โ Sukuna wraps his knuckles as you look around a bit. โYou are seeing me after the gym closes, you donโt have to.โ
โI usually stay after anyway,โ he just wants to fucking be alone with you. โNot a problem.โ
โIโll come a little earlier tomorrow, if thatโs okay?โ Your brows draw together.
โI donโt care, whenever, come hold this for me. I wonโt accidentally punch you, don't worry.โ
โI didnโt think so,โ you go over and hold it, gasping when you feel the impact, looking at him curiously. โYou think Iโll really be able to hit this thing?โ
โMmhmm, of course you will,โ he takes it easy, even if youโre behind the bag he doesnโt want to scare you. He typically doesnโt have girls in the gym.
He shows you a few of the basics, and you study him carefully, he doesnโt realize heโs getting distracted until he stops punching and focuses on you, youโre watching him intently, your eyes flickering down his body, then to his lips before shooting back up to his eyes quickly.
Sukuna smirks a bit at you, walking around the bag to stand in front of you. โWhat is it?โ
โN-nothing,โ you squeak out, lashes trembling. โYou look โ I mean you are very good.โ
He snorts at that, youโre too fucking cute. โYeah?โ
โYes.โ
He leans against the bag now, stepping closer and looking down at you โYouโre were staring.โ
โI didnโt mean to,โ you whisper, eyes lowering. โI am sorry.โ
โDonโt be, I donโt mind,โ he murmurs back, his eyes lowering to your lips, watching them part just slightly. He leans in a fraction, your breath catches โ he hears it, a sharp little inhale. โIโm just teasinโ ya, okay?โ
Sukunaโs voice is soft to his own ears, he almost feels the need to be gentle when it comes to you, youโre so delicate and afraid. You nod and wring your hands a little bit in front of your lap. โI couldnโt help it.โ
โI look that good?โ Heโs chuckling as you cover your face all cute. โItโs okay, I already know I do.โ
โYouโre teasing me!โ He eases your hands down, sighing at the contrast of his huge hands around your wrists.
โYeah, I was, donโt take me serious, yeah?โ You nod and just stand there, when he drops his hands and clears his throat. โFinish up, then Iโll walk you out.โ
You just stand there for a moment, breathing softly as he watches you bite your lip now, staring at him nervously. He wonders what youโd do if he just kissed you? He wonders how youโd taste, if youโd melt into him, if he could kiss you on every inch of your body.
He canโt be this way.
โOkay,โ you whisper, turning away to grab your stuff quickly. He walks you out silently to the back exit, the cool air whipping your hair around โ this time of year, it was chilly and dark early. โTime went quick.โ
โYeah,โ he looks at you carefully then. โWhat had you almost in tears this morning, or can you not tell me?โ
You tug your bag closer, sighing. โThe other woman was justโฆ in my fridge and on my couch and it threw me off.โ
โOther woman?โ You nod. โIn your house?โ
โYeah, I could handle it if maybe he could keep it to his room,โ Sukunaโs brows raise now and you hesitate. โIt had me upset more than usual.โ
โYou justโฆ are okay with it?โ You look down at his lips once more, if you donโt stop doing that heโs gonna lose his tentative control. โWhy?โ
โItโs arranged, that sounds archaicโโ
โNah,โ Sukuna sighs now. โLet me guess, rich family?โ
โYeah, are you?โ He smirks. โThe name sounded familiar? I donโt know how I didnโt put it together.โ
โYep,โ he drags out that word with a pop of his lips. โIโm from that shitty ass line of family, I just decided to tell them all to fuck off. You should try it, itโs fun.โ
โSaying โfuck offโ huh?โ You giggle again, shaking your head as he smirks down at you. โThatโs impressive to not bow under pressure.โ
โI just wasnโt one for rules, decorum, I just donโt give a shit,โ he shrugs a broad shoulder. โArranged shit was in my parentsโ plans but in that I also told them to fuck off. But thatโs enough therapy.โ He flicks your forehead, you rub it and glare.
โAh, stay all mysterious,โ you tease just a bit, hesitating and then turning. โIโll see you tomorrow.โ
โMhmm,โ you turn to look at him one more time, suddenly stepping forward and tip-toeing, pressing a gentle kiss to his cheek.
Fuck.
You should not do that.
โThank you again,โ you murmur shyly, stepping back quickly and rushing to your car like youโre embarrassed by the little action.
Sukuna jerks off that night to a kiss on the cheek from a shy, sweet little woman who is married, and wishes he felt worse about imagining decorating you in ropes of cum, but he really doesnโt. Moreso heโs irritated youโve made him so pathetic in the span of a couple days.
He was fucked.
*****
You
Youโre wolfing down eggs and bacon when Satoru walks out the next morning, eyeing you curiously at the array of food on the counter. You should tell him to fuck off really, just like Sukuna said you should tell everyone but some part of you would like to not hate Satoru Gojo, some part would like some sort of peace or even an understanding, for him to stop his cruelty to some extent.
So you smile, and he pauses, shirtless and just in his boxers, but your smile freezes on your face when you observe the dark hickies littering him right over his pelvis. Itโs his turn to smirk as he walks closer to you, putting a coffee pod in casually, as if itโs normal to have hickies on your v cuts by your happy trail.
Why are you hurt, you knew he was with her?
โGood morning,โ you manage to try to be cordial. โI made a big breakfast if youโre hungry.โ
โYou know I have cooks,โ he says, nibbling a muffin then moaning, his snowy lashes fluttering shut. โOh fuck.โ
โI like to bake,โ you say with a little shrug, he pauses as he watches you nibble your own. โIt gives me something to do. I think I mayโฆ get a job or something.โ
โWhy, you have enough money you never need to even without me.โย
โWhy, to give meโฆ something?โ You say, shrugging a bit. โIโve never been able to work other than at charity functions, so I guess my resume would be kind of shitty though.โ
โYou donโt need to work while youโre here, it would just look bad,โ you blink again. โMaybe work with me butโฆโ
โYeah, no,โ he chuckles, as if itโs funny. โBad enough the secretary is over at myโฆ your house, now.โ You correct yourself, tension between you both rising as you stand in the kitchen, his eyes sweep over you.
โGoing to box again?โ
โI am,โ youโre wearing a sweater over your top this time, hanging just a bit off your shoulder, his gaze drifts down to it. โI think I like it.โ
โAh,โ he steps closer, leaning down. โYou ever figure out how to touch yourself?โ
โIf I did I wouldnโt do it thinking of you,โ he glares and you smile now. โYouโd be the last guy in my mind.โ
โSure, sweetheart, keep tellinโ yourself that, I see how you look at me,โ you scoff, tensing when he brushes his fingers on your shoulder. โI can tell by every reaction you want me.โ
You smack his hand off and he smirks. โYou told me weโd never do anything, be anything, so stop trying.โ
โAh, you gave up on your little goal? Donโt wanna leave better marks on me than Jennifer?โ
You feel sick.
โYou know what, Gojo?โ He raises a brow. โYouโre not just mean, not just cruel, youโre sadistic, like you donโt just want me gone, you want to torture me.โ
Itโs quiet now, you blink back tears of frustration, of pain, feeling your heart pound in your chest.
โI said Iโll not try again, and I mean it,โ you look away. โWhether I want you or not, I never will.โ
He continues his silence, when your gaze meets his itโs softer, blue eyes unreadable, as if thereโs a hint of humanity in him. What a joke, what a delusion to think heโd have even the most basic empathy for you.
โI didnโt do anything to deserve how you act,โ your whisper breaks in the middle, traitorous tears leaking. โAll I did was try. Now I give up, you get what you want.โ
Satoruโs fists clench at the sides, taking a breath now. โYouโll thank me.โ
โIโll what!?โ
โYouโll thank me,โ he murmurs again, slipping your sweater up over your shoulder, fingertips brushing. โFor not letting you be with me, for letting you have your own choice.โ
โActing like youโre being such a great fucking guy,โ you never cuss but it spills out, when out of frustration you shove at his chest, not like heโll move, glaring up into his eyes. โMr. โhold on let me cumโ really? Thereโs no world where Iโll thank you for what youโve put me through these past few weeks.โ
You rush out past him and hear him murmur your name, you ignore it completely, gathering your things and rushing out, tears swimming even as you drive over to the gym. How can Satoru continue to hurt you like this and then have the audacity to act like heโs being kind!?
You barely get yourself together, peering in the mirror to fix yourself up, dabbing concealer to hide your sleepless night. It was hard to sleep when your husband was loudly moaning across the house, and when you kept thinking about Sukuna and the little kiss on his cheek.
Was it too far? Would it be weird?
Why do you want his lips so bad? Sure, heโs handsome, but the pull is more than that, as if you know heโd be able to kiss you the way you always dreamt โ as much as youโre trying to hold back, itโs there. The feeling when you step into the busy gym, seeing Sukuna training in the ring with his nephew, he tackles him down and laughs so loud it echoes off the walls.
โHey! Off me!โ Yuuji shoves at him, but heโs way bigger, you blush as you think just how huge Sukuna is, heโs even taller than Satoru and you thought that pretty impossible. โYou cheated!โ
โDidnโt cheat, kid, you just werenโt paying attention,โ his gaze hits you then, and he falters, only to get slammed down by Yuuji quickly.
โHah! Got you,โ Sukuna smacks his hand away as he grins, heโs literally adorable, the sunshine to Sukunaโs grumpy nature. Your heart tugs just a bit with affection at the sight, when Yuuji sees you and waves. โHey, did you see me stomp his ass?โ
โI did,โ Sukuna snorts and stands on his own, brushing off his gym shorts, leaning a bit against the ropes and taking you in. โHey Sukuna.โ
โYouโre actually on time,โ he peeks at his watch. โEarly.โ
โBreakfast too,โ you grin and he chuckles, suddenly itโs like that gym is just white noise and itโs all him, hopping over the ropes and down the platform, the sounds of sneakers squeaking on hardwood and punches drowned by your beating heart. He comes to stand and cross his arms, ruby eyes assessing you. โProtein, it was all protein filled.โ
โGood,โ he ruffles your hair like youโre Yuuji, you huff a bit, but part of how touch starved you are? You want him to keep patting your head, almost leaning into the quick little touch.
Whatโs wrong with you?
Heโs friendly, kinder than you are used to โ your own parents were not much better than Satoru, yet their cruelty was more in dismissing you, in the strict nature they raised you, the coldness. You grew up privileged and know you shouldnโt feel sorry for yourself, but the pain was there, only having been made better by the dream of Satoru taking you far away.
Some dream, a cinderella tale, youโre not sure what the fuck you were thinking, were you enamored with his pretty eyes, his kindness? With Sukuna you had those butterflies like you did that night Satoru unzipped your dress, but it was without that sinking feeling in your stomach.
The next couple days you spend at the gym โ sometimes watching him, sometimes training a bit, the people there are all so friendly it feels nice. You find yourself there longer than usual, a little stronger, you keep waiting for Sukuna to let you spar or something cool, but he eases you into a few different things.
You enjoy him so much you find yourself staying after and wiping down equipment, seeing him raise a brow and laugh at you, telling you to go. But whatโs waiting at home? Satoru and whoever he decides to bring home for the evening? Itโs not just the secretary, you wish that it was only her in fact, she at least pretended to be a little nice to you.
Youโre not sure if Satoru even works or if he just gets his dick wet.
You pass him in the morning and see one of them knocked out in his bed with the door cracked open, and thatโs when you feel a deeper pain, eyeing him sleeping next to her. Theyโre not cuddling, but sheโs sleeping in his bed. Alone in the room that was made for the two of you, staring up at the ceiling and touching your lips, thinking of kissing Sukuna then.
You canโt.
You shouldnโt.
Two wrongs donโt make a right, but something about that sends you over the edge โ pushes you to where you donโt feel so terrible thinking of what you want to do. Itโs just a step further even for him, your interactions get even shorter, he doesnโt taunt you as much since you got upset in that kitchen, but now itโs like living in a home where youโre unwanted.
You canโt wait to leave, for whatever he needs to figure out to cause the least scandal, youโre tired of smiling on his arm for the get togethers, only to sit on opposite sides of the backseat of that limo in the quiet. Youโre lonely until you go to that gym, but you know itโs nonsense, Sukuna has not tried to kiss you or cross that line, even when his touches linger.
Heโs a good man, a good uncle clearly, maybe a good friend โ and all you can think half the time is those tattooed hands touching you longer, in places you know you shouldnโt want them. Trailing your hands up his biceps and feeling the strength in them, falling into his kisses until youโre dizzy.
Itโs hard not to think of it when you watch his body move.
Heโs shirtless today as if to distract you more, the way heโs built is enough to make you miss your punch, earning his chuckle, teasing glint in his ruby eyes. โDistracted?โ
โNo,โ youโre such a liar. This morning threw you off seeing that girl in his damn bed, and now you canโt stop staring at your trainerโs body. โJust a bit.โ
โWhatโs on that mind of yours?โ Everyone has left for the day, you and him are all alone in the enormous gym, your pink gloves on your hands.
โA lot,โ you murmur, punching the bag again and again, remembering to cross as he showed you, then wincing a bit as your wrist twists. โOuch!โ
โBad angle, lemme see,โ he carefully slips it off, thumb brushing your inner wrist, you suck in a breath. โI think you just kinked it a bit. Does it hurt to move?โ
You shake your head, but you donโt move your hand, you keep it in his grip, biting down on your lip so hard it hurts. Heโs too close, too fucking big all over โ you shouldnโt think of everywhere. Not like youโve even seen one aside from Satoru after heโd been inside that โjenniferโ whatever the fuck her name was, and that didnโt make you โexcitedโ.
Youโre curious at times, at how wet you get around Sukuna, but as a sheltered girl who was hardly allowed friends โ and theyโre all trad wives โ there hasnโt been much talk. โLet your husband do anything and just live that wayโ was damn near their advice โ though that did land you here, after all.
โYouโre real distracted,โ you sigh, nodding. โLemme guess, your husband has a new girl over?โ
โShe slept in his bed,โ you blink back emotion, shaking your head, Sukuna just quietly checks your wrist, moving it a bit. โYouโd think I couldnโt hurt anymore, couldnโt feel anymore pain about it.โ
โI think youโre surprisingly calm about it,โ he says then. โArranged or not, how would anyone not want you?โ
Your world shifts on its axis at his gruff little confession, youโre blushing furiously now, stepping a little closer, feeling his warmth near you sink in. โSukuna, that's sweet.โ
โYou keep trying to call me that,โ he shakes his head โ thumb slipping across the delicate veins raised on your inner wrist. โIโm not sweet.โ
โYou are to me,โ he scoffs. โYou make me feel better, that is sweet.โ
โThe things Iโm thinking are as far from fucking โsweetโ as they can be,โ you gasp then, when his hand slips up your arm, before he stops himself, pulling back when you wish he wouldnโt. โHow innocent are you?โ
โVery,โ you admit. โBut you could tell me what youโre thinking.โ
โHah,โ he has one arm on either side of you when you press against the bag youโd just been hitting, heโs right behind you, cupping your face with a calloused, rough hand so big it takes you over. โYouโd run out the door if I told you half of it.โ
He backs off then, leaving you trembling, hand on your chest, going to open your mouth when he hops down as if to rush away from you. Terrified youโve fucked it all up you hop down too, rushing to get your bag, Sukuna comes back with a little brace for your wrist and glares.
โYou running off?โ
โI made it weird,โ you mumble, suddenly so insecure. If your own husband could fuck anything but you, what made you think Sukuna would want you being married, complicated, messy.
โI was just getting a wrap, get over here,โ he tugs you over to him, sitting you on one of the cool metal benches. โYour wrists will toughen up in time.โ
โOkay,โ every time he touches you it sends waves of desire, your teeth clamp down on your lower lip, trying to focus. โThank you, Iโm sorry.โ
โYouโre sorry you hurt your wrist?โ You nod, making Sukuna sigh now, shaking his head. โStop apologizing for the dumbest shit. Youโre fine.โ
Itโs awkward when you leave this time, too much between you both, your doubts raging even as you come home. For once, Satoru has no girl there, dressed in a suit and gazing over at you, gaze rushing across your body. He has no business looking that pretty and being that cruel.
โYouโve been training a lot,โ he mentions, tilting his head curiously. โEvery day seems excessive.โ
โI like it,โ you slip off your sweater, a little warm with the heat blasting, and then you feel his eyes hit your breasts. โSorry itโs warm.โ
Youโre apologizing again.
For โdumb shitโ. Is that just what you do, what youโve always done?
โWe have an event in an hour.โ You nod and rush off to get ready, struggling into your dress so you donโt have to ask him for help again, he stands by the bathroom, the door open, crossing his arms. โWhat happened to your wrist?โ
โOh, I twisted it,โ you take off the little velcro now. โIt probably would look bad with the outfit.โ He just shrugs, eyeing the marks left from the brace. โDo I look all right? I donโt think I have time to do makeup.โ
โI guess,โ thatโs his answer.
โI guess.โ
You suppose itโs better than him telling you heโs unattracted again, you already know that now, looking at yourself in the mirror and hastily trying to do something with your hair. โWhatโs the event?โ
โSome dumb fucking charity auction,โ he eyes his phone now. โI thought that Jennifer told you.โ
โNo, she did not,โ you scoff then, looking at him. โYou ask your mistress to send me your itinerary?โ
โSheโs my secretary so yes, thatโs what sheโs for,โ you canโt with him, especially his mean little smile. โThat make you mad?โ
You say nothing, youโre not taking his obvious bait โ pushing past him quickly and grabbing your clutch, seeing a pair of black lace panties underneath the little glass side table then. Your jaw sets, glaring over at him.
โI asked you to keep the fucking to your room,โ he frowns, looking down now, sighing. โWhat the fuck, Gojo?โ
โI didnโt fuck her out here,โ he answers with a shrug. โJust fingered her.โ
You blush and he laughs softly, walking up to you, tilting your chin so that youโre forced to meet his gaze.
โHavenโt been fingered even?โ You refuse to answer, jaw setting, not wanting to give him the satisfaction, his fingers drifting down your dress, achingly slow, blue eyes dilating just a bit. โYouโre all heated thinking of it, huh?โ
The backs of his knuckles drag against your puffy folds over your dress, you bite down on your lip, hating what his eyes do, when they look for a moment like maybe he would want you. You grip his wrist firmly though, shocking him for a moment when you shove his hand off.
โArenโt we late?โ
*****
Gojoย
โSatoru,โ his best friend frowns at him, seeing you across the room sitting alone, avoiding everyone and everything. โShe looks miserable, the fuck are you doing?โ
โSheโll be free soon enough,โ Suguru narrows his eyes, Satoruโs mind goes to earlier when you gripped him so damn strong out of nowhere.
What sort of working out were you doing, and with who? The thought of someone touching you makes him unreasonably jealous, considering any time he did you froze like you did. He almost felt your heat, imagining the slick, perfect little cunt you must have that he actively turned down.
Now itโs driving him insane, you are gone all the time, not even bothering to look at him. Isnโt this what he wanted, you to hate him, to get over your dumb crush and realize heโs not worth it? Satoru will never love anyone, he knows that he's not capable of it any more than his parents were capable of loving him.
He supposes Suguru was as close as he got to โlovingโ someone, though even his best friend was done with his shit clearly.
โShe seems really sweet,โ Satoru sighs.
โShe is annoyingly sweet. And perfect. And pure.โ He says it with disdain.
โSo you need an average, slutty ass secretary?โ Satoru rolls his eyes, sipping on his whiskey. โIโm sorry everyone knows.โ
โGood, give the Gojo name a scandal,โ his lips quirk up. โShe is too sweet for someone like me anyway.โ
โI donโt understand why youโre going that far,โ Suguru says, shaking his head. โHave you even looked at her? If you had to be arranged, wouldnโt you want it to be someone like her?โ
โYou like how she looks so much, you go fuck her,โ Suguru glares at him, and Satoru tenses when he realizes youโre walking past right behind Suguru, looking up at him with devastated eyes.
Those eyes.
He didnโt love to hurt you, despite what you thought, he just needed you to give up, to not have any feelings, and you still seem to. Still seem to respond to him, still try for whatever reason. Heโs given you no possible sign that he feels what he feels, that he does want you, he does think youโre beautiful, he couldnโt say that shit when heโs finally got you shoved far enough away.
Yet he hates himself for it, loathes himself for the tears in your eyes as Suguru turns and sees you, flush on his cheeks, scowling back at his own friend. Satoru opens his mouth then closes it, seeing that youโre about to break apart hearing it โ that he told his best friend to go fuck his wife because he wonโt.
โLetโs dance, hmm?โ Suguru asks you, and Satoru watches you take his hand and nod, swiping a tear with a tremulous smile.
โYes please,โ Satoru watches you both, leaning back against the wall, studying how his hand takes over your waist, how you seemโฆ
Happy at that moment.
โSatoru Gojo,โ his motherโs voice is in his ear, right next to your parents, he blinks just a bit. โWeโd like to know whatโs going on.โ
โIs she not doing good enough?โ Your mother asks, Satoru frowns then, blinking just a bit.
โWe tried our best to make sure she was perfect for you,โ thatโs your dad, sighing and pinching the bridge of his nose. โIs she giving you trouble?โ
โIs she giving me trouble?โ Heโs dumbfounded at their question, looking back at you on the floor.
โYou could stand to keep your affairs discreet,โ his mother chides. โYou donโt need to flaunt them around even if sheโs not adequate.โ
Not adequate โ you.
This is why he fucking hates this.
โWe can keep her for a bit, if she needs more polishing.โ
โSheโs not a fucking golden retriever who needs training,โ he says then, earning their surprised looks. โSheโs polished to a tee, I assure you.โ
โThen surely thereโs more we can do, she does look disheveled," your mom says, Satoru swallows down guilt now.
This would only look bad on you. Heโs a Gojo, he can do whatever the fuck he wants, heโs a man and youโreโฆ
โIโll dance with her, yeah?โ He gets them to shut up for now, heโs still got too much going on, trying to find the best way to annul the marriage without you getting hurt in the process.
Well, more hurt.
When he cuts in, youโre stiff in his arms, he tugs you against him, remembering the first dance he had, where he had the maidโs cunt all over his fingers. You tried even then, pathetically trying when you look like that, and it all starts to make sense why you are so desperate, meeting them.
โAct like you enjoy it, theyโre on my ass,โ he says gruffly. He doesnโt want to hear more shit about you โtrainingโ or getting โpolishedโ but he doesnโt tell you that, his hand on the small of your back. โSmile like you did at Suguru.โ
โI like Suguru,โ you say softly, a mean smile on a usually shy, soft face, stabbing Gojo in the heart. โI donโt like you.โ
He chuckles now, leaning low and murmuring your ear. โThatโs perfect.โ
*****
You
Youโre extra aggressive after that night, after hearing him so casually not just dismiss you as a woman but tell his friend to โhave at itโ.
Youโre imagining his dumb pretty face as you punch the bag over and over, Sukuna is quiet, itโs early before he even opens the gym but when you asked to come he had no problem, he was there early anyway. You couldnโt stand one more moment not hitting something, all of the energy youโve spent crying over Gojo, over your fucking parents.
Coming to you all โdisappointedโ when youโve done NOTHING but try, whatโs it got you, whatโs anything get you? Perfect, perfect, perfect โ for what. It keeps racing in your mind until you feel sick to your stomach, breaths coming in short little pants, hitting it so hard you almost tweak your sore wrist, but you welcome the pain, until Sukuna steps back.
โHey,โ Sukuna is dabbing a little washcloth on your brow, you're shaky and overheated from punching that bag so damn hard. The cool cloth feels good against your clammy skin, you sigh, eyes fluttering shut. "Feel better?"
"Actually yes," you look up into those ruby eyes that hold so much in them, lost for a moment. He grabs you a water and twists it open, you drink from it โ a little drop slipping across your chin, he swipes it with ease, making you tremble.
Fuck you want him, you want to feel what itโs like, whatever he thinks youโre โtoo sweet and innocentโ to hear. You want to know whatโs behind those eyes, so fucking guarded, but you donโt know how to say it when you stand in that ring with him. Itโd be so selfish to drag him into your fucked life, but for some reason he deals with you, he spends the time.
Your friend, heโs your friend right?
Yet when Sukunaโs sooty pink lashes lower, and his hands gently fix one of your bobby pins up, you catch his wrist without thinking. He pauses, teeth glinting with his little grin. "Practicing self defense against big ass pink haired men who touch your hair, huh woman?"
You know he's joking with you, but you step closer, breath catching when you inhale his scent in your nostrils. Not that obnoxious cologne Satoru wears, it's real and male and musky โ sweat mixed with something inherently him. It shoots straight to your core, the need for him in every single way, drawing you in like a moth to a flame, like his gravity is pulling you.
Sukuna exhales, letting you put his hand on your cheek, so big and tall over you, shadows casting across the boxing ring.
โTreading in dangerous territory, brat,โ he murmurs, but he doesnโt move your hand, letting you slip your fingers across the jut of his jaw, feeling his pulse fluttering when it slips across his neck.ย
"I don't want to get you involved in my mess, Sukuna," you say then, catching his attention, pulling back ever so slightly.
"Maybe I don't mind a mess," you sigh, looking at his plump lips, his tattooed hand tugging you closer by the waist until youโre almost against him. "Messes are my specialty. Wanna know why?"
You swallow nervously, trembling in front of him, sweat making you shiver just a bit as the AC kicks on overhead, cooling sweat soaked skin. "Why?"
"Because, I'm damaged too, I just hide it better than you," you shut your eyes for a moment.
"I've only kissed once," he blinks a bit, frowning. "So maybe I'll suck at this."
"What now-"
That's when you - Mrs. Gojo - tiptoe and kiss Ryomen Sukuna on his lips.
And that's when he drags you against him and presses your back on the ropes around the boxing ring, moaning. Hard body, hot and heavy, a thigh pressing where you've never been touched, making you whine out, lifting you like itโs nothing. His tongue slips past the seam of your lips, gripping you so tight you canโt breathe.
You donโt want to though, you want him to take all your breath away.
For the first time maybe ever, you feel so wanted, the way he devours you like he's waited forever for it, moaning against your skin and easing you down then, letting you slip down his body, cupping your face. Huge hands taking it over โ his breath coming in pants, this look in his eyes, his pupils swallowing those irises until theyโre black underneath those pink lashes.
โDonโt do that,โ he huffs, shoulders heaving up and down.ย
โIโm sor-โ
โIโll fucking break you,โ your tummy clenches in response, pussy drooling at his desperation, looking at you like youโre it. โRuin your perfect little cunt, is that really what you want?โ
โRuin myโฆ umโฆ youโฆโ You donโt even really get his terminology, but the way he says it just makes you slip your arms across his neck. โYou didnโt mind the kiss, then?โ
He laughs, shaking his head before a sorrow hits his eyes, brushing your hair back with one hand, the other pulling you close. โDo I mind it?โ
โI havenโt done anything,โ you admit, the insinuation clear as hands drag along the curve of your waist. โI donโt know if-โ
Sukuna cuts you off with another kiss, tongue delving into the recesses of your mouth, holding you up so his thickness presses your needy cunt through the thin layers of your yoga pants and his gym shorts. You taste a hint of that coffee he had earlier โ mixed with the light salt of his sweat dripping from his lips, groaning as he feels your thighs wrap him.
โMmm, if you donโt go Iโll fucking break you,โ youโre too far gone, just rolling your hips, making him suck in a breath while precum leaks and makes him sticky. His breaths mingle with yours, all the tension of this week coming to a head, heโs done holding back yet he still tries to. โMโnot fucking kidding. Should go.โ
โDo you want me to go?โ His answer is somehow gently landing you on the white floor underneath your feet โ now on your back โ and spreading your thighs, pressing up between them so hot and thick. โSukunaโฆโ
โDonโt say my name that way, fuck,โ his lips are all over you, tongues dancing so messy with that saliva dripping you blush. Your fingers trail down his abdomen, over the rippling muscles, feeling them tense and bunch. โWhat the fuck are you doing to me?โ
โI donโt know,โ you answer honestly, finding him then, watching his eyes flutter shut. โI wanna hear the things you wonโt say.โ
โYou donโt.โ His grip is on your wrist, pinning it over your head. Your breasts heave up and down, one of his hands slipping under your top, leaving goosebumps in their wake.
โIโll tell you something I think,โ he raises a slutty eyebrow, two barbells that make it even sluttier, just that look has you writhing under him, as you bite down on your lip. โDeal?โ
โWhatโs your cute little comment, hmm? Wanna hold my hand?โ You glare and he chuckles. โI love when you scowl.โ
โI have never touched myself,โ Sukunaโs face goes into shock, red eyes wide. โNever umโฆ came. And last night, I thought of you andโฆ I tried to. I donโt know what I was doing and it didnโt work, but I thought of you and wasโฆโ
โDonโt say it.โ
You sigh, suddenly feeling bold with him.
โWet.โ
โFuck me,โ Sukunaโs taking back over your mouth, kisses more desperate and hungry by the moment, youโre soaked when he finds your puffy cunt for the first time, tentatively slipping a fingertip inside and hissing, you gasp out. โCunt is way too small, Iโd split you in half.โ
Whatever he means youโre just wetter, gasping when he pulls it back before he gives you what you crave. Slick fingers on your lip, watching your blush for a moment before kissing your cunt off him, a hand now under your head so it doesnโt hurt pressing into the ringโs floor. Your thighs spread for more, arching your hips.
โToo fuckinโ pretty,โ you shake your head, blinking tears and making him halt, scowling. โYou are.โ
โYouโre-โ
โIf you say sweet Iโll bruise your cervix,โ youโre a flustered mess at that, earning his groan of frustration, taking your hand in his, nipping your finger with his teeth, sharp pain pressing in. โIโll make you a deal.โ
โDeal?โ
โIf you can make yourself cum for me tonight, Iโll let you use my fingers tomorrow,โ your fingers slip down your puffy folds guided with his own, before he pushes yours up. โYour clit, rub it.โ
โItโsโฆ ah!โ Sukuna watches you jolt at your own touch, pulling your fingers away as if burned, cheeks flushing.ย
"Twitching I bet," he sighs, amused, hovering over you and putting your fingers back down. โDo you want me to make you cum tomorrow?โ
You nod eagerly but you donโt feel โpatheticโ with Sukuna, he wants you just as desperately. โY-yes.โ
โBe a good girl,โ you whine out, making him smirk just a bit. โTouch it again, little circles."
Those fingers find your clit again, this time obeying him and testing the little movements, shaky breaths overtaking you. Sukuna's eyes darken as he watches, his own fingers guiding your movements. โSukunaโฆ mnh!โ
"Do it slower," he whispers, looking at you in this wayโฆ
Is this what it is, to be desired?
Youโre shaking, wantonly playing with yourself in Sukunaโs boxing ring under his hungry gaze, rubbing circles over the sensitive bundle of nerves, hips jerking. A whimper escapes when you accidentally press too hard, when it jumps and gets so slick your fingers slip off almost.
โToo much!โ
Sukuna's knuckles brush your inner thigh where slick has trailed, moaning and spreading it around until itโs glossy. "Keep going, imagine it's my fingers."
The thought sends heat from your core โ little movements feeling so fucking good that your eyes are rolling back in your skull, his hot lips pressing kisses on your upper breasts, letting them gently bounce from your yoga top. When his tongue flicks over your nipple youโre about to shatter, whimpering in Sukunaโs ear as he keeps guiding your fingers.
Your slick drowns both of you.
โGo ahead,โ he urges, looking down at you. โLemme see how pretty you are when you cum for the first time.โ
Itโs heady and insane, lewd and filthy him watching you fall apart โ you whine out as the first bit of that orgasm fucking destroys you, hips lifting off the cold mat as white stars burst behind your eyelids. The pleasure makes you dizzy, head falling back, back arching up as you ride it out, gushing in spurts in embarrassing amounts.
Your fingers fall weakly, opening your eyes to the blurry vision of Sukuna watching with lidded, dazed eyes.
โYou did such a good job today,โ you almost cry then.
Praise was something youโve never gotten. Your breaths quicken, tits almost slipping up and out where heโd tugged at them, Sukuna gently moves your hand, his crimson gaze locks onto yours as he brings your fingertips to his mouth.ย
โSukuna! Youโreโฆโ His long tongue swipes against your fingers in a circle, before he slips a filthy drag between them, lapping up all of your juices. โTasting me?โ
โMmm, fuck,โ he hums low in his throat, eyes fluttering shut as he sucks each little digit clean, his cheeks hollowing. He looks like heโs cumming โ you think, youโre not sure.
You do know itโs the hottest thing youโve ever seen, the sight of it pulls another broken moan from your throat, the obscene sound echoing in the gym's quiet, until there is no sound but that suctioned pop.
โI wanna bury my face in you,โ his words are insanity, things you never thought youโd hear, hovering over you and pulling your thigh up so you feel him. โThen I wanna bury my cock, wreck you until you wonโt walk out of here, pump you full until you drip me when you get home to your fuck ass husband.โ
โSukunaโฆ Iโฆ you reallyโฆโ He kisses you quiet, pulling back and laughing softly, huge body casting a shadow across you both, eyes dangerous, grin psychotic โ white against his skin.
โThatโs just a bit of my thoughts, you need to go before youโre not a virgin anymore,โ he touches your lips thoughtfully. โIโd fill all your holes though.โ
โAll!? Umโฆโ He pulls up and gently adjusts your clothing with precise fingers, kissing you again and again.
โDonโt let me corrupt you, just run off,โ his words hurt, as if heโs not good enough for you, when thatโs so not the case. โShouldnโt even come back.โ
โNo,โ is your answer. A firm answer you almost apologize for, his sigh loud as he runs a hand shaky through his hair. โI donโt want to run, if you donโt want me to.โ
โDangerous and dumb idea,โ his hand entangles in the nape of your neck, his own breaths erratic. โIf you do good tonight Iโll make sure you have my fingers. Will you cum thinking of them?โ
โIโll try to do it right,โ you blush now, letting him stroke your back, sending shivers as you fall into another kiss.
You donโt want to go home.
When you go to leave, he pauses you, a hand on your shoulder. โHe doesnโt hit you or some shit, yeah? Because I swear-โ
โNever, I smacked him,โ Sukuna sighs in relief. โItโs mental pain, not that. I promise.โ
โStill fucked but,โ he shakes his head. โIf it ever got there I have a champion belt I can throw on.โ
โI bet you do,โ you smile, feeling cared for was new.
โGo.โ
โOne more?โ
โNo, wonโt stop there,โ he shakes his head and you turn, just for him to drag you back, kissing you over and over, as gone in you as you are in him, pulling back to brush your cheeks, sighing. โNow go.โ
You donโt say anything, the intentions were clear, Sukuna wanted you in ways you knew nothing of other that watching Satoru and hearing things here and there, in ways that makes your clit still twitch. Cunt pulsing around nothing, hands shaky as you drive, a mix of pleasure, desire, and more.
Feelings, brand new and blooming, intense.
And guilt.
Why?
You walk up quietly to see Satoru standing in front of the porch, gaze flickering to you, as if he fucking knew somehow, smoking a cigarette. You blink for a moment, you didnโt know him to smoke, but then you donโt really know him, not at all. You walk up and go to open the door as he blows some of it out, leaned back on the railing, crossing his legs at the ankles.
โYour lips are swollen,โ you suck in a breath, freezing and turning to look at him. โYou bite them or get them bitten?โ
โHow would you even notice? You donโt notice me,โ your words are carried by the chilled breeze. โSince when do you smoke?โ
โHah,โ he inhales a drag, stepping near you, exhaling up and away. โI do smoke. I have.โ
โAh,โ you look away then. โItโs shit for you butโฆ I canโt say I care enough to tell you to stop.โ
โOuch,โ his hand brushes your hair back, frowning. โHairโs a mess.โ
โYep,โ you wonโt deny it if he asks, but heโs not owed a fucking explanation either. โYou eat dinner?โ
โYeah thereโs food in the kitchen,โ he flicks his cigarette out, quiet.
โWhereโs Jennifer? Orโฆ Chloe? Is that her name?โ
โI donโt have a woman every night,โ you laugh then, Satoru eyes you. โI donโt.โ
โOkay, itโs โnot my businessโ right, Gojo?โ
He says nothing.
Youโre tired of trying to see something in him, when he presses against you, your front against the door, tilting your chin and eyeing your lips carefully, thumb brushing over them. โYou were kissing or sucking cock?โ
โWouldnโt tell you,โ you lift your chin, looking up at him, feeling his grip tighten on either side of your chin. โIโm gonna eat.โ
โYeah.โ He lets you go, you struggle inside, trying to catch a breath.
That night you think of him โ of Sukunaโs ruby eyes and vermillion lips, of his hungry kisses and the way he looked at you. Even if it was fleeting, even if he was just in the moment, you never knew you could feel that way, feel so wanted, so beautiful.
You canโt stop thinking of the words.
Break you.
Fuck all your holes.
Fuck youโre pretty.
You touch yourself alone for the first time in your life tonight, and Satoru Gojo may have heard you outside your door, he may have stroked his cock right outside your door, head resting on it. He may be regretting things, he may desire you, hearing your sharp gasps as he knows youโre touching yourself, imagining you gripping those sheets and fucking yourself with your fingers.
Itโs a sick thing to do, to jerk his cock to a girl he turned down, a girl heโs made hate him on purpose, one heโs acted like he doesnโt want, one that soon will be long gone and think of him as a traumatic fucking memory. Yet it doesnโt stop him from pumping his cock up and down with his fist, moaning quietly as you reach your peak so loudly.
Yet he doesnโt hear his name.
He hears you mumbling โ Kuna.
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The boy who was your first kiss that night on the roof top observing stars can't be the Satoru Gojo that stands in front of you now. Once a sweet, shy nerd with his head in the clouds, now he's the popular all star football player and frat leader. You hated him for so long when he ran away after that kiss and avoided you, but what you don't know is Satoru always thought of you. Now at the same university, you're scared of falling again. You two couldn't be more different - are you still the same kids on that rooftop, and why did Satoru run away from it?
pairings - fratboy! gojo x art school! reader
warnings - College AU - Gojo was a nerd who broke your middle school heart, light angst, first loves, a ton of smut, lots of banter, sexual tension, drinking, fingering, oral (f and m receiving) p in v sex, talking you through it, choking, spitting, car sex, creampies, enemies to fuck buddies to lovers, he's down bad (reader is described as being taller and lil' curvy as requested! and she pierced hehe) fluffy ending!
art in the center is by @httpgiovann on X!
This was a commission piece for grungy art school reader and all star football player Toru, with childhood love finding each other again, long oneshot at 20.5k wc!!!
You never thought youโd see Satoru Gojo again.
You're tugging at the ripped hem of your fishnets. Junior year of college, finally at university instead of community. You're smart, but procrastination's a bitch โ community college was your only option for a while. Now youโre met with a myriad of familiar faces, friends and acquaintances, but no one like him.
No one who literally was your first fucking kiss, the boy who was nerdy, sweet and shy โ who captured your lips, who faltered and flushed. The one where you thought of him so often, after having your family move so far out of town, you never thought youโd see him again, never dreamt of it.
Satoru Gojo wasnโt just university material, he was ivy league, him even being here was a little bit of a throw off, then again you didnโt really know much about him and his life after you all stopped talking. Youโd heard things about him being very successful, of course everyone knew the Gojo family, but you tried not to perk up your ears too much, to think too much on it.
Yet here he was in the flesh โ nothing like the boy you knew back then. In fact, if it werenโt for the shock of white hair and the unmistakable blue eyes, you might not have even known it was him. Youโre sure he probably doesnโt remember you, running across that football field, those numbers in bright maroon across his white football jersey.
Heโs laughing with that big grin โ no more glasses, no more braces โ heโs even more handsome, sure, but there was something about Satoru Gojo with glasses that had been charming in itself. He high-fives his best friend who you recognize a bit as well โ Suguru Geto. The pretty cheerleaders are throwing up their pom poms, itโs a dance of glitter and maroon outside of the stadium.
Itโs the day of the first big game of the season, youโre just casually watching, more and more curious about him then. It must be him, thereโs no other man that even looks like that. Yet, everything about that nerdy boy who loved to look at the stars was utterly different.
He was different.
When those blue eyes hit yours, you donโt like that fucking feeling, not at allโฆ whatever the fuck he does, his snowy lashes flickering as he drinks the sight of you in curiously. You have curves now, youโre taller, youโre not the same girl you were at thirteen than you are at twenty one. You tremble just a bit on the inside, but on the outside?
Bitch face on.
You just look at him, raising a brow curiously, the preppy football captain staring at the goth girl in the stands, itโs the shit movies make fun of, bright and popular Gojo, and bratty emo you. You look down quickly at the book in your hands, leaning back against the metal bleachers, but you feel them lingering along your skin.
That gaze burns into your skin โ Satoru Gojoโs gaze โ the one that was once behind thick tortoiseshell glasses, the boy who bumped noses with you and apologized. The one who was a blushing mess for you, now instead is surrounded by his teammates, by the cheerleaders, all flocking and complimenting their star player.
Just who was Gojo these days, and did you care?
You hastily go back to your book, earbuds just blaring music at you, trying to keep out the noise, the cheering, the whistles, sketching the scene just a bit. That was the assignment โ draw the football practice, something for โschool spiritโ apparently. Your fingers brush along the parchment, shading and fading the pencil marks a bit, before pausing.
Fuck, youโre drawing Gojo.
Your eyes go back over to him now, to where heโs downing some gatorade, snapping a selfie in front of the team, earning their playful shoves. Itโs hard to take your eyes off that familiar face, god he got even taller? You were a taller girl yourself, but Gojo was towering over even the bigger football players, a good head taller than most of them.
Oh, and heโd gotten buff too. You canโt help but notice that fact, he was still lanky and maybe the shoulder pads from his football jersey were adding to it, but it was just impossible not to notice. The things it did to your tummy, the way that it fluttered just watching him run across that field made no sense.
Werenโt you finally over it?
Youโd moved on from a middle school love, you had a part time job, college, responsibilities out the ass. You had boyfriends and breakups, a whole life since then โ making it feel so distant, so far away from that girl. Yet all it took was just observing him to make you long for something you never really had.
Youโre a realist, cynical, not some day dreamer despite being an art school major, you painted and drew what you could see, of course your interpretations came into play, but your head wasnโt in the clouds.
Or was it?
You soon pause and notice youโre drawing glasses on Satoru โ a very detailed rendition of Satoru โ before you could stop yourself, chuckling a bit diabolically as you make him look more nerdy. You likely look batshit insane to anyone else. You really canโt say that you care much, the opinions of others never really bothered you once you got old enough to practically hate everyone.
So how did you kiss Gojo back then? Nerdy rich-boy Satoru and you, even back then it didnโt make sense, but you could swear your teenage heart fucking felt something. Only for him to blush and avoid you, to practically hide away after it until he moved on, that day heโd given you the first heartbreak, and become someone you avoided like the plague.
Yet still even after those years and all the boys since then, something about him always bothered you, it always got to you, lingering in your mind like the most annoying pest. Just last night youโd dreamt of him so randomly โ not how he looks now, no, the skinny nerdy brat that made you cry, not this popular jock with a blindingly straight white smile in the middle of a bunch of cheerleaders.
Heโs flirting right back with them, earning your eye roll, as you decide to draw braces along his teeth, and a digimon on his football jersey.
Just as he should be.
Youโre laughing and so lost you barely notice Satoru walking up to you, not until heโs blocked your natural sunlight with his huge body, shade covering your notebook. You frown, earbuds still in, lips turning down a little bit at the sudden shade, while Satoru studies your notebook and the drawing, snatching it up and making you gasp.
โWhat the fuck?โ You yank out a earbud, glaring up and standing, fuck heโs even taller than he was before, you donโt usually have to look up at many people, but heโs got a good six inches or so on you.
Heโs smirking at the drawing, taking it in and stepping on a higher bleacher, holding the pad from you. โLook at that, aww!โ
โGive it back, you little brat.โ
He snorts, looking down at you, blue eyes glinting with the way the sun is hitting them. You wonโt admit how fucking pretty they are to yourself, instead glaring up at him. โMe, a little brat? Have you seen yourself?โ
โPsh,โ youโre standing and reaching your arm up as he looks at you, blue eyes running over you with a curious expression. โSeriously go away.โ
โYou drew me?โ He asks, tilting his head to the side and assessing you, youโre not sure if he recognizes you at that moment.
Youโve changed a lot too.
Would he remember some dumb crush he maybe had on you? It was nowhere close to what you felt, clearly. No, thatโs nonsense, as is his effects on your physiology being too close. Your heart is pounding in your chest, youโre so fucking embarrassed at being caught doodling him, but you donโt let it show.
Youโre not that girl anymore, not the one who cried over his little nerdy ass and his perfect, plump lips and his -
Stop that!
No, youโre tougher now.
You snatch your notebook back, but only because he lets you. โYeah, so? Itโs for an assignment, I needed to draw school spirit.โ
He snorts. โSchool spirit, you, yeah I donโt see it.โ
โWell Iโm not peppy like you, no, youโre the big football star, right?โ You say with a shrug, trying to sound nonchalant.
Satoru just chuckles. โYouโre brand new here and assume Iโm the star, I guess I am that amazing,โ he runs a hand through his strands, snowy white and so soft you canโt help but want to reach out and tug at them at the roots.
When did his chuckle get so deep?
When did his fingers get so long?
Fuck stop thinking that!
โI know you,โ he says suddenly, eyes narrowing slightly. โYou used to live down the street from me.โ
โMe? Uh, no way,โ you look down, brushing silky locks behind your ears, doing something to Satoru Gojo then. โDonโt know who that girl is, nope.โ
โNo?โ You shake your head, a pink decorating your cheeks, hair falling just a bit in front of your face, making him want to brush it back โ but you make him feel so nervous, as if heโs just a fucking teenager again. โYa really tryinโ to play it off?โ
He remembers it all, even as heโs trying to play it off, like he hasnโt dreamt of what would have happened if he didnโt get so shy, so nervous around you after you both kissed. How he could have maybe just asked you out, or at least told you he liked the damn kiss โ but Satoru at that age was a nervous little mess, and you were too damn pretty.
Fuck you got hotter, curves filling out in places that drives him to distraction, your slutty little outfit doesnโt help either. He canโt help but notice the hint of piercings where your pierced nipples were clearly puckered up from the cold, making him throb from just that. Satoru isnโt some little nerdy virgin anymore, but precum is leaking from the sight.
If he wasnโt such a conceited little shit heโd immediately simp for you, but he pulls himself together, smiling down at you, snowy lashes lowering. โYouโve not changed that much, and I know you remember me.โ
Your heart skips a beat then โ
He remembers.
You look away quickly, pretending to be busy packing your stuff to suddenly leave, bending over so he gets a nice view of your ass. God, if you were his? He wouldnโt let you bend over in front of fucking anyone at all, nor would he let you out of the damn door like that, not because he was a man to tell a girl how to dress.
No, the reason would be he wouldnโt be able to let you walk out without filling you with so much cum youโd drip him, youโd remember who you belonged to.
Fuck, thinking like that is insane, itโs not even in his nature โ whatever psycho, obsessed ass thoughts that just ran through his head. Your hips are just begging for his hands, your eyes looking up at him like you need to get off, and get off all the time, heโd take care of that for you.
Sinking to his knees on these fucking bleachers runs through his head โ all star football, frat leader, most popular guy in college Gojo, reduced to that, to simp behavior.
It's not like heโs hurting for women, theyโre all over him, but youโreโฆย
Different. He supposes you always were, the stark contrasts to the girls that were just all over him, the ones that have left their cotton candy body spray clinging to his clothes, youโre not smiling all cute and giggling, not flattering him with little complimentsโ nah, youโre fucking scowling.
Itโs so hot on you.
Whatโs wrong with him? A blast from the past and heโs down that bad again? Palms sweaty, stammering Gojo?
โFine, okay โ I am. Justโฆ that was a really long time ago. I didnโt think youโd remember,โ you finally mumble, like the vulnerability itself hurts. Satoru steps closer, watching your lips part, hearing a sharp intake of breath.
You could act normal all you wanted, but he sure the fuck could read that body. Curvier, taller, but still uniquely you, that scent that has been burned into his senses gently filling his nostrils, while the wind of the fall whips your skirt around. It shows far too much of those thighs, which he can vividly imagine being pressed on either side of his head as you press them together.
โSomething got ya excited, sweetheart?โ He taunts with a grin, his voice lowering to a seductive tone that makes you wet.
Fuck him for that.
โHah, me? No, Iโm annoyed andโฆโ You peer down at your nipples cursing internally. โAnd Iโm just like cold, okay you perv!?โ
โTheyโre distracting as fuck,โ he said that out loud, shit, shit, shit. Play it off, Satoru. โHah โ at least they seem to like me.โ
โThey do not!โ Your glare just makes him wanna know how you look with your mouth open and drooling, with your eyes rolled back in your skull. โNeither do I.โ
โWell,โ he draws out that word, laughing softly then. โI remember everything about you.โ
Oh shit.
โEspecially that kiss.โ
You freeze, your cheeks flushing despite yourself, trying to seem unbothered, god heโs gotten cocky, the girls are shouting his name like his own personal fucking cheer. โThey want you,โ you clap your hands and throw em in the air โ โGojo, Gojo, heโs our man!โ
Youโre mocking him, mocking them, earning his eye roll. โAh, so youโre just avoiding the answer? You are herโฆโ
He says your name, and just that almost does you in, though you roll your eyes, scoffing.
โYeah, so what if I am? That kiss it wasโฆโ The best youโve had, and you hate his ass for it, so badly your fingers itch to smack the nerd back into him. โThat kiss was like just a peck, really. You know.โ
โAh, so you do remember?โ
โBarely!?โ
He grins, that cocky jock smile that makes you want to punch him even more. โThen why are you blushing like that?โ
โHah, blushing, me? Nev-โ
Before you can finish your comeback, his coach calls him away and whistles, waving at Gojo to come back. Satoru sighs, then winks at you. โSee you around, sweetheart.โ
Thatโs what he says!?
โHey!โ He turns and raises a brow, smirking. โIโm not your sweetheart!โ You shout out, earning the looks of everyone, but Satoru just fucking grins like heโs won the goddamn lottery.
You watch him jog back to the field and look far too good doing it, your mind racing, seeing him gather up with the team. When did his shoulders get so damn broad โ No.
You better stop thinking that way, looking right at him in the damn open like that, and you can tell heโs loving it, especially when he blows you a little kiss and earns your middle finger. Not like it bothers him, he just raises those white brows, wriggling his stupidly long fingers at you.
What the hell just happened?
And why does your heart feel like itโs about to beat out of your chest?
You sink back onto the bleachers dejectedly, your fingers trembling as you flip open your notebook again. Staring at the sketch of Gojo, you realize youโre in for quite a fucking reunion with him, feelings simmering under the surface that you hoped were long, long gone, but now heโs there โ in the flesh, looking far too fucking good, suddenly back in your life.
Popular, perfect, pretentious.
Heโs nothing like the boy you remember.
*****
Satoru remembers that night vividly โ the night he ran away from you.
It all smacks him in the face as he lays in his bed that night after running into you again. The guys from the team all wanted to go out but he couldnโt bring himself to, instead he laid there and pictured you behind his gaze. He saw you across the hall the other day for a brief moment, but before he could even approach you, you turned a corner and dipped.
Youโre not really what he remembers any more than what you likely remember โ no you were a nerdy little thing just like him in middle school, shy little thing. You were sweet โ shit, you even smiled. Now you just have this bitchy, mean look on your face โ one that makes him throb just looking at if heโs honest.
You look so fucking angry at him, at everything.
Closed off, thatโs the word, your guard up high, leaving him to just wonder exactly what was in your mind, what youโve been through all these years that heโs missed. He had tried to somewhat explain himself in high school to you, but you werenโt having any of it, already becoming closed off, your eyes just didnโt glimmer the same way, and he canโt help but feel responsible.
You say it was nothing, but he remembers all of it.
โSatoru, I really like you, more than a friendโฆโ his heart had hammered in his thirteen year old chest, his palms were sweaty.
Satoru had planned to ask you out that day officially, but last night his parents had found his note heโd written โ immediately recognizing your name. You werenโt from a โprestigious familyโ no, far from it. You werenโt the ideal girl that theyโd eventually want their son with, even this young theyโve damn near planned everything, down to the three other families he would likely marry.
How could he have anything with you knowing theyโd potentially make that choice for him? How could he break your heart like that, even if he knows that he is falling for you, there was too much pressure on him as a Gojo โ you already had enough pressure too. He couldnโt just do that to you, bring you in on this world of his.
You were crying that day, and he didnโt know how to say the truth, no, instead he cupped your face and softly kissed you one more time. A brief press of his lips before he had to pull back. His glasses were fogged from his breath and the chill in the air that morning as you looked up at him.
โIโm sorry,โ was all he managed to say in response before stepping back.
Youโd blinked back tears of confusion, your hands clenched at your sides. โSatoru, I can just be your friend, if this is too much,โ you mumbled, but he was backing away even more from you. He watched as your lips trembled and tears fell from your eyes. โDo you not like me back?โ
No, Satoru loved you.
Enough to not have you anywhere near his family, to fall for a boy who would one day have everything chosen for him.
โI really amโฆ sorry,โ he said again, turning and hearing your little sniffles, it had broken his heart. โI have to go.โ
โGo where? Satoru, come back I didnโt mean it, okay? Satoru!โ
Heโd run off, and heโd never forgotten it.
Now, far from his parents' bullshit, finally having told them heโd make his own path in life and that they couldnโt dictate his every move anymore, heโs thought of the girl he sacrificed all those years ago. The one he let slip away because he was too afraid to stand up to them back then.
In a way, his parents ultimately have some control still, their expectations linger โ but heโs made sure to pave his own way. Got better at telling them to fuck off, decided to make his own path forward, even if it meant doing things the harder way. The guilt about that girl still eats at him sometimes, late at night when he canโt sleep, but at least now heโs living on his own terms.
His eyes drift shut and he pictures you, the way you bent over, the way you looked at him, and fuck if it doesnโt just make him ache. Was there some way to get you to even talk to him again?
*****
Youโre headed to your art class when Satoru Gojo happens to walk by and just slams right into you โ you canโt make this shit up. Your pencils go flying, scattering and clattering to the floor in a mess.
โShit,โ you grumble, snatching up what you can, Satoru bends down to help you, chuckling. โWhat's so funny!?โ
โHow much are you gonna draw me, hmm?โ You curse as a little chibi Satoru lands in his big ass hands. โAww look! I have a tail here in this one, how cute.โ
โItโs not you,โ you snatch it back, crumbling the paper ever so slightly, scowling in his direction. โItโs not!โ
โIโm your muse,โ he flutters his fingers around dramatically, garnering looks in the hall. โI feel so special.โ
โYouโre not,โ he pouts all cutely. โYou're always justโฆ in my way.โ
โYou smacked into me, sweets,โ he tilts your chin up right there in the damn hallway, smirking as people around you whisper. โI'm flattered you find me to be such an inspiration for your art, but you do know you could just ask me to pose for you.โ
โHah. You're not at all,โ you gather everything with haste, slipping them in your book bag. Satoru's grin is as attractive as it is obnoxious, but when two girls come up to him when you walk away, your head feels dizzy.
Why would you care if his arms are around their shoulders, throwing his head back and laughing just a bit. Yet he looks back at you, those eyes slipping over your baggy shirt and sweats, you couldn't be bothered today to dress up.
Not when you spent all damn night dreaming of dumbass Gojo.
โI can't wait to see another drawing, I really am looking forward to the next drawing, maybe Iโll have some ears too.โ He teases you, your damn cheeks burn in embarrassment, before he turns, you flip him off. His damn chuckles echo in the halls, mixing with the little giggles of those cheerleaders.
โHehehehe,โ you mock their laughter to yourself with your fingertips to your lips, echoing in the halls and earning more looks around you.ย
Great, what an amazing first week, you're really living up to the weird art nerd dream so well. You just glare as meanly as you can โ at damn near everyone. โWhat are you looking at?โ
They see, to scatter, youโre trying to shake off the feeling of his damn fingers brushing against yours when you see a sweet girl who's been really nice to you so far, waving your way. You knew her a bit from school and she wasnโt too in your face about making you socialize, just enough to make you leave your room.
โUtahime,โ your dorm is right next to hers, she has been trying to get you to hang out but you're a tad introverted. And Satoru running around being allโฆ hot and shit is just annoying. โHow are you?โ
โGood! Ugh, exams already though,โ she shakes her head and sighs. โListen I know you're not a party girl, but there's a really good one this weekend. You should come!โ
You sigh. โI don't knowโฆโ
โSeriously there's the frat yeah, but they're likeโฆ a nerdy frat? If that makes sense.โ
โIt does not,โ you both walk through the halls and outside, you take a little hint of sunshine, eyes shutting for a moment as you suck that in. โNerdy huh?โ
โVery, the mathletes of the Fratboys,โ you can't help but laugh a bit. โIt's at eight we can go together?โ
โSure,โ she almost squeals, you shake your head. โDon't get too excited, I may go in there then run out.โ
โNo way it'll be fun!โ
*****
Fun.
Fun is not a word you'd use to describe this party, seeing Satoru and all his friends โ many of whom unfortunately recognize you โ with girls all over them, chugging their drinks from their red solo cups. It smells far too much like axe body spray and victoriaโs secret perfume, aside from Satoruโs fancy fucking cologne that permeated the heady atmosphere, straight to your senses.
That cologne thatโs three hundred dollars a spray likely, that intoxicating scent that damn near makes you salivate, seeing his blue eyes over that cup, his lips pressed against the white edge of that cup. Everyone is surrounding him, heโs throwing his head back in that perfect laugh, blindingly white teeth glinting underneath the strobing led lights overhead.
You sip your drink as a guy comes up and tries to hit on you, but your mean little scowl makes him back up, Utahime is laughing as she watches them all run off.
โYou really do hate parties, huh?โ
โJust donโt want some loser touching all up on my ass,โ you mumble, feeling the gaze of Satoru damn near burn you across the room. โBut yeah, I do.โ
โYou should let loose and have some fun,โ she teases, seeing where your gaze is headed, pausing. โOh god, Satoru huh? Heโs so pretentious.โ
โRight?โ You pause then, frowning a bit.
It was one thing for you to think it, to say it, but for some reason hearing anyone else say something bad about Satoru made you irritated, like you should defend the boy he was, not knowing the man heโs become. Would you ever really know, itโs not like he likely wanted more than a hook up judging from what youโve seen and heard.
Yet you remember a different Satoru.
Or is he the same?
โLook, this constellation is called Sagittarrius,โ Satoruโs thirteen-year-old voice echoed in your memory as clearly as if he was standing beside you now. His thick glasses slid down his nose, his Digimon t-shirt swallowed his lanky frame, the two of you sitting up on the roof of the school.
โLike the sign?โ You asked curiously, you loved hearing Satoru talk about the stars โ you just loved hearing him talk about anything.
There was a meteor shower that night, and a lot of students were coming up to join you all, to catch sight of something that you all would likely not see again until you were good and old. Satoru had his telescope set perfectly, looking down to see you sitting on the floor, pausing.
โYouโll get cold,โ he had nervously snatched his sweater up off the railing, then knelt to you and slipped those sleeves up your arms. The warm fleece of the backwards hoodie made you tremble just a bit, your heart had been racing. โThere.โ
โOh, thank you Toru,โ thatโs what you called him all those years ago, when you were hopelessly in puppy love with a boy that had his head in the clouds. Yet you were so sure maybe he saw you, too, especially in moments like that.
You had leaned close, wondering if that was to be your first kiss, only for him to awkwardly brush your hair back like youโre a puppy and heโs petting your damn ears.
โYou look cute like this,โ heโd said, his blue eyes were glowing behind those spectacles, and that was when you knew -
Gojo was it for you.
The dissonance between that boy and the man that was in front of you was hard to explain, Utahime didnโt likely know about the Satoru whoโd cried when his favorite character died in his favorite anime, nor did she likely know that Magic card collection he used to have. How could someone meld the two versions together?
โDefinitely pretentious,โ you murmur thoughtfully, trying to act casual when you canโt take your eyes off him, and you hate that. Utahime snorts in laughter, snapping you back to the frat houseโs chaos, away from your daydream.
โOh god, heโs coming over here,โ she grumbles, your fingers tightening around your plastic cup as he suddenly breaks away from his little fan club, blue eyes so goddamn bright theyโre hard not to look at.
โWhyโs he coming over to us!?โ You panic, heart racing as he walks over, one hand with a cup in it, the other tossing a pong ball up and down.
Why was Gojo doing things with just one hand so damn attractive!? Why was he so attractive?
"Still allergic to fun?" Satoru asks Utahime with a mean little smirk, then looks at you. โThe two most un- fun girls at my party, aw.โ
โUn-fun isnโt a word,โ Utahime says, snorting. โIโm just allergic to you.โ
Satoru laughs at that, tossing the ball up and moving his hand behind himself to catch it, grinning right at you, earning a roll of your pretty eyes. God theyโre pretty, heโs lost in them for a moment even as he puts on his show, plays the role of the frat leader that everyone loves so much.
He was having fun in this role, until you.
โSoโฆโ he tugs at a lock of your hair, you smack his hand. He tries to ignore the overwhelming desire to pull it as he hits it from the back.
Or with your lips wrapped, that dark lip shade he wants to smear with his tip, leaking pre from whatever scent that was youโve always hadโฆ vanilla, sugary, something soโฆ homey. He canโt describe it, but itโs nowhere but on you, heโd smelled that scent across the entire field the first time he locked eyes with you again, wondering if it was in his imagination at first.
โSo what?โ His gaze slips down to your fishnets, imagining the sound of them when he ripped them in half.
โBeer pong competition, are ya up for it?โ He tosses it again, swirling the little ball between fingers too big to make sense, ones fucking you up.
โIโm not gonna stay here long,โ you grumble, eyeing the large table surrounded by drunk college students. โI justโฆ donโt do parties.โ
โA game or two then, hmm? Or are you too scared to lose?โ
You snatch the pong ball from his hand, earning his big grin.
โNot at all. Game on.โ
If thereโs anything you are โ itโs competitive, and Satoru Gojo clearly is competitive from birth. Even when he was a nerdy boy, he had no problem decimating anyone in any subject, whether it was debate team or the mathletes, and beer pong was no different.
Pleased smirk on his face, heโs tossing the ball only for you to smack it out of the way on its bounce, making him fucking glare over at you. Satoruโs jaw sets when you bounce one and he flicks it so hard it smacks into the wall, making you glare right back. He tosses another and lands it right in your front cup with a splash, grinning diabolically in victory.ย
You roll your eyes, leaning forward just a bit, making his eyes dart to those pretty tits in that lacy bustier that fucks with him to distraction. Satoru practically can see those nipples about to bounce out, imagining how perfect one of those peaks would be in his hungry mouth, fingers damn near itching to grip one.
God he hates whatever this effect is you have on him.
He fumbles the next ball because of the sight of them, earning your said tits bouncing, pointing at him and laughing like the little fucking menace you are. Everyone around you both has gathered, starting to place bets, making Satoru even angrier when several men check out that ass.
Itโs not like youโre his, fuck you donโt even like him โ and he knows itโs probably due to back then. But heโs pretty sure his mouth could make you like him, if you just gave him enough of a chance. Satoru clears his throat, shouting your name across the pong table, giving you pause now.
โGuess what?โ He says, walking over to you, holding his hands up to signal a break, you walk to him, crossing your arms, the little open hoodie falling off a shoulder.
He runs his fingertips across the bare skin, making you tremble just a bit, eyes dilating from just that โ thatโs when he knows, despite all your shit talking and avoidance, you want him too. Maybe not as badly as he wants you, but itโs there, goosebumps on your skin, making you tug it up and raise a brow.
โWhat, scared Iโll beat you?โ You demand, he just chuckles, shaking his head and yanking your messy ponytail too hard again. โYouโre such an ass!โ
โA bet, best two out of three wins,โ he challenges, sipping his drink, a little bit dripping on his plump lips, making you ache to swipe it away with your fingers, but you hold yourself back, flushed now. โYa up for it?โ
โIโm up for anything,โ he grins deviously, and you curse. โShit whatโs in that head, lemme guess โ public humiliation?โ
โWell itโs in my head now,โ he sips that drink again, as if to torture you. Why do you have to be ovulating and also buzzed around him!? โBut no, sweets.โ
Your eyes roll. โWhatโs the bet, then?โ
โWellโฆโ His fingers slip across the line of your jaw, your breath catches in your throat at how good they feel. โYou said anything, right?โ
โOut with it.โ You smack his hand off. โYouโre a menace to society, truly.โ
โSays you,โ he steps too close โ why is this fucker so tall by the way!? โ making your head tilt back a bit, but you luckily have on heels, making you a little closer to his height.
Satoru loves that.
He loves that he could bend you over in those heels and stuff you so full of his cock, sure heโd have to bend down a bit, but youโre goddamn near the perfect height for it. Except his thoughts right now arenโt necessarily of him fucking your surely pretty cuntโฆ no.
โIf I lose, Iโll eat your pretty pussy out,โ you gasp now, hating that his husky words in a voice thatโs too sexy to belong to this nerd makes you throb around nothing. โWhat, havenโt you done it yet?โ
โSure I have,โ Satoru scowls. โWhat, you think Iโm a virgin?โ
โNoโฆโ He wishes he could have it first, itโs a fucking batshit thought and nothing heโs ever felt.
He didnโt want a virgin and doesnโt care about a girlโs past, never has, he likes experience. But heโd love to have slipped inside your cunt first โ came inside it, made sure it only knew his shape. Toxic nonsense but how can he not when itโs you, the girl whoโs been in the back of his mind for most of his life?
โThen why are you blushing again?โ He touches your cheek, lips curved up, you just narrow your eyes at him.
โMโnotโฆโ
โYou always do around me,โ his thumb slips down your jaw line. โIโll eat you better than anyone, you wonโt even be able to stand up when Iโm done.โ
โYouโre the most conceited, cocky ass man ever I swearโฆโ You trail off just a bit though, thinking about it, his long fingers inside you?
Fuckโฆ.
โConceited, hmm?โ
โWill you finger me too?โ Satoru blinks in surprise, and you blush more. โCanโt use both at once? Amateur.โ
โYouโre a slutty little thing, arenโt you?โ
He tilts your chin up, your silky locks falling partly out of that ponytail over your pretty face. God heโs leaking too much pre, sticking to his jeans to the point that anyone could see his huge dick print at this point.
โYou want my fingers?โ
โTheyโreโฆ well, long, okay?โ His laugh is deep ass, seductive ass way that isnโt even fair to your fucking ovaries. โDonโt get too flattered.โ
โAll right, Iโll use them both, since youโre greedy,โ your walls clench just picturing those thick fingers, damn him. โIf I lose, that is.โ
โAnd if I lose?โ You take a sip of your drink, and his face is devious. โOh god, you want a blow job, huh?โ
โYouโll still cum, sweetheart,โ he taps your nose and it scrunches up, making him think how cute you were for an evil succubus. โYouโll get my fingers then too, but not my mouth.โ
โWellโฆโ That sounds like a win either way, itโs not like you donโt want that thick cock in your mouth, looking down at the outline then.
If you can fit it all, that is.
โIf you lose I wonโt get you off,โ you just smile all meanly at him. โYou can jerk it in front of me though.โ
โYouโre so evil,โ he sighs, god he needs you โ mean thing that you are. Heโs shaking his head, snorting โ as if he wasnโt going to jerk his cock eating your pussy. โDeal.โ
โBut just knowโฆ we arenโt cool, justโฆโ
โJust you wanna fuck me?โ
โHah โ no!? Iโm horny and competitive,โ you shove him now. โGo on, youโve got a game to lose.โ
โPsh,โ Satoru thinks heโs still as in love with you as heโs always been, when you were a sweet little thing. God, maybe heโs more in love. โPractice working that jaw, youโll need it.โ
You scoff and shove his big ass again, running back to your side of the table, shaking your head and throwing another ball before he can register, landing another and grinning. โHah! Thatโs three.โ
โLucky shots for an amateur,โ a girl comes up to Satoru, whispering in his ear, making your heart sink.
Why?
He doesnโt even acknowledge her really, bright blue eyes glinting, throwing the ball and landing it, making you have to drink again. โWhat is it, sweets? Kinda busy beating the new girl.โ
โWell, I just thoughtโฆโ She trails her fingertips across Satoruโs abs over that thin white material, he grabs her wrist and stops her, shaking his head. โOh, maybe another time?โ
Not if he gets a taste of you, no โ youโll fucking ruin him โ he can already feel it, but he smiles, she has hooked up with him before and is a sweet girl. He doesnโt know what happened but since the moment he locked eyes with you at the football practice heโs been far too obsessed with you.
Constantly thinking of how and when heโd see you again, obsessive insane thoughts running through his head, how youโd look bent over, those tattoos right on the backs of those thighs begging for his hands. Leave prints all over your bratty ass, littering you with marks โ bites, lip prints, suck the skin on your neck until youโre bruised with him.
โIโm busy for the rest of the evening,โ he says, shrugging at her, seeing the way you look at him from his peripherals. โBut thanks.โ
She frowns and walks away, you smirk like youโre fucking thrilled he sent her off. Satoru tosses the ball and it bounces, you smack it away easily. โAw, ya jealous?โ
โNo!? Why would I be?โ You lie to yourself as much as you lie to him, and he knows it, tossing another ball and landing it in your cup with a little splash.
โDrink,โ he orders, you roll your eyes and pick up that red solo cup, putting your lips to it. โThatโs one.โ
โYouโre such an ass.โ
โI know,โ Satoru blows you a kiss, and you flip him off, earning the whispers and laughter around you both, mingling with the loud thrum of the bass, the music playing. โYouโre losing, aww look how many cups you have!โ
โShut it,โ You toss the ball again, and it lands right in his cup, making him glare. โOkay, itโs on.โ
โDistracted me, just a lucky one.โ
Do you think she can beat Satoru?
No way, heโs always the winner.
Satoru wins at everything!
Do you think they want each other orโฆ hate each other?
Hmm, both.
Both of you are drinking again as each ball lands, and Satoru notices those hips of yours swaying a bit to the music, the slutty pleated skirt riding up just a little when you lean forward. Heโs grabbing a ball thatโs fallen on the floor, far too close to those thighs, imagining ripping those fishnets before he buries his face.
He looks up at you while heโs down there, almost under your skirt, you gasp and shove him. โYou perv!โ
โCanโt get a glimpse before I lose?โ
โSo you admit you are gonna lose,โ youโre snickering, and he canโt help but wonder โ are you wearing a thong or boyshorts? He saw a hint of black lace. โGet back over there, stop staring.โ
He presses a sneaky kiss on your thigh, grinning all boyish and cute, making your heart hammer, thighs pressing together at his proximity. Itโs hard to remember all the differences between you both โ the pretty boy, popular jock and you โ the social outcast. Once, you both werenโt so different, and in that moment he looks like a nerdy little teenager.
Is he still in there, the boy your little pre teen heart fell for?
Satoruโs back on his side, throwing a ball and missing on purpose โ for once he was okay losing if it meant drinking your pussy. He canโt help but imagine pressing his tongue against your wetness through the fabric, eating you over those panties until theyโre a mess. Heโs sure itโs soaked, he just wants to fucking get drunk on you, if he loses or not heโs planning on licking all that angst right out of you.
He tosses the next ball, making another horrible shot, heโs too distracted thinking of your pretty pussy. You laugh and toss yours and he catches it.
โShit!โ
โDrink up,โ he grins, tossing another and landing it. โTwo, sweetheart.โ
โUgh mโnot your sweetheart,โ you drink quickly, tossing it down your throat, feeling dizzy. Youโre fine either way getting Gojoโs fingers, but the way heโs licking his lips makes you crave winning even more. You toss the ball and land it in his cup, making him just grin. โThatโs three.โ
โIโm still winning,โ he says cockily, leaning forward again. โYouโre not gonna win, baby.โ
โYou donโt know that, and Iโm not your baby either,โ you toss the ball, missing and cursing, he lands another one. โNo fair, you were yapping too much!โ
โSuch a sore loser, drink.โ Satoru leans on the table now all casual, just smirking at you all victorious. โThatโs three, youโre about to lose.โ
โNo the fuck Iโm not,โ you toss the ball, missing again, he laughs. โDamn it!โ
You change tactics then.
Leaning forward, breasts almost spilling out of your little cami top, fluttering your lashes with a pretty pout and looking right at him. โSatoruโฆโ
Fuck, when you call him that? His heart hammers, already so warm from the drinks, he canโt stand what your eyes are doing, your lips still somehow swathed with that dark lipstick he wants to kiss off you, wants it dragged across your cheeks and smeared as you drool on him. Heโฆ
โYou littleโฆโ He realizes you distracted him on purpose with your mean little smile, sinking another, now two up. โYour slutty tactics wonโt work on me again, trust.โ
Shit, sheโs winning?
Putting twenty on her.
Iโll put twenty on Satoru!
It is best two out of three, and each of you has won a competition, making it go down to the last couple throws, the beer pong is so fucking serious itโs like it is some damn sports match. People have money exchanged placing bets, youโre surprised when people start chanting his name โ not yours though, they just go โย
New girl!
โDistraction wonโt work this time, sweetheart,โ Satoru puts more emphasis on that word just to fuck with you. You sigh, rolling your eyes, throwing your shot in, sinking it then.
Oh shit.
You sink another, the alcohol making it even easier, laughing maniacally like an evil succubus, which heโs convinced that you are. Youโre throwing those balls over and over, and heโs missing all his damn shots, as the entire frat and most of the sorority โ along with many other students and all their friends, watch Satoru Gojo lose to a damn art student goth.
The Satoru Gojo!
Before you cognitively realize whatโs happening, heโs got you up the flight of stairs in his room at the frat, and heโs kissing you so differently from back then, when he was clumsy and your noses hit, when his braces brushed against your lips. No, heโs messy and filthy with just that kiss, possessing your mouth, tongue fighting yours for dominance.
You both stumble in there, hungry and needy, you almost trip on your heels as you cling to him tighter than you should, cunt already dripping when his thigh presses between your. His hands are slipping down your body, plush lips drinking up moans you wish werenโt that loud, little desperate breaths as his lips trail down your throat.
โFuck this is crazyโฆโ
โIs it?โ He asks, pulling back from sucking on your pulse point thatโs fluttering frantically underneath your skin. โDo you want it?โ
You swallow then, biting down on your lip, lashes lowering.
Fuck, that look almost does him in.
โI wonโt do anything you donโt want,โ your eyes lock up then, seeing the same boy for the briefest moment, even hidden behind the height, the broad shoulders underneath your fingers, the cocky attitude. โBet or not.โ
He was still Satoru somewhere.
Your answer is not in sweet little words, itโs taking those fingers and trailing them down your body, slowly letting his fingertips brush over your outfit, until they touch you underneath your skirt. He moans softly, feeling the soaking mess youโve made them into, sticky as his fingers swirl around it.
โYour answer,โ you manage to say, biting down so hard your lip almost bleeds when his fingers press up between your slit. โMnh!โ
โYouโre not too drunk?โ He asks quietly, you see it again, the care in his bright blue eyes, even when he clearly wants you.
โIโm not,โ you answer softly. โA little buzzed, but in my right mind.โ
โDonโt you hate me though?โ Heโs taunting you even as heโs sinking to his knees, huge hands pressing your skirt up, looking at you in a way that ruins you.
You did say it the last time you saw him.
โI hate you forโฆ breaking my heart!โ youโd run off in tears, not realizing the reason Satoru couldnโt be with you.
It was because he was scared of you being affected by the fact that none of his life โ including love โ would ever be his choice. Yet he stood there holding it all back, unable to say his true feelings, fucking tongue tied.
And the day you ran away he swore one day heโd make it right.
If making it right was done by him sinking to his knees in front of you, Satoru Gojo was ready for it โ looking at the slick glimmering in your inner thigh, toying with the nylon of your stockings and grinning deviously then.
โHmm, how much were these?โ
You blink a bit, trying to act like youโre not trembling from his breath against your skin. โLike five bucks, why? Ah!โ
Rip.
Satoru moans as he slowly rips himself a trail, exposing your overheated cunt underneath those panties, the dark spot there drooling. Youโre shaking with need, head falling back against that door, pretending like youโre anything other than soaking wet and needy for him.
โReally? You could have just asked me to take them off!?โ
โNot as hot that way,โ he murmurs, lapping the slick off your thigh first like heโs thirsty, cursing softly then as your flavor hits. โFuckโฆโ
โMnh!โ Thatโs the only sound youโre able to make, nails pressing into his shoulders, trying to stabilize yourself as his nose nudges you, as if heโs inhaling your essence, and then he opens his lips.
The first flick of Satoru Gojoโs tongue along your panties was torture, the way his pretty blue eyes looked up under those lashes was too much, him on his knees with his hands pressing into the meat of your hips. You gasp out, head falling back, your lashes fluttering shut, desperate little pathetic moan that doesnโt even make sense escaping your throat.
โHah - cute little pussy,โ he cooes those words, just endlessly annoying you even as heโs lapping at the cotton with his tongue, making it soaked. โNeed something?โ
โY-you lost that bet,โ you manage to whisper out. โSo get to work.โ
God, Satoru thinks heโs in love.
He tugs those panties to the side, looking at your perfect cunt, one he dreamed of jerking off so many times over the years it was just embarrassing, but nothing really prepares him for it. Glistening, puffy folds that are drooling for him, glossy and slick, your clit twitching when he lifts that hood and breathes on it ever so teasingly, making your nails press into his shoulders so hard they dig in and leave marks.
โHah, youโre that soaked? I havenโt even started to touch you yet,โ he taunts, swiping just his fingertip through the mess youโve made, exhaling again and making your hips jerk. โBeer pong gets you wet?โ
โBeating you at something did,โ you whisper with a little satisfied smile, earning his glare, snowy lashes lowering. Then Satoru smacks your cunt, a sharp thwap echoing in his room, mingling with your panting breaths. โAh!โ
โYouโre just so messy,โ heโs grinning as you scowl down at him, hooking your thigh high now over a broad shoulder, so his tongue can tease your leaky hole for just a moment, groaning when your flavor soaks into his tastebuds. โYouโre that easy for me, hmm?โ
โF-fuck no mโnot,โ youโre trembling from a few flicks of his long pink tongue, hands enwrapping in those snowy locks. You donโt want to admit how good it feels โ how good Satoru Gojo looks on his knees. โWill you justโฆโ
โJust what? Ask me nice and I-โ
You shove his face right against your cunt before finishing your sentence, and you feel that damn smile against your bare skin before he obliges eagerly, tongue slipping up your messy slit, gathering all that arousal thatโs pooling. He drinks you up, his huge hands pressing on either side of the meat of your hips, picturing how good itโll look when he hits it from the back.
Your eyes roll back in your skull โ Satoruโs mouth had no right to be that talented, that hot and wet, he had no right to look so fucking good down there kneeling before you, his eyes locking so intense you canโt look away. Locked in the intimacy and rolling your hips as he moans from just your taste, your arousal pooling from your hole, already messy.
You struggle to cling to any sort of calm, you donโt want to act like youโre so affected, that long tongue slipping between your lips, flicking your little clit sharply. Fingers press into your flesh, parting your folds to open your hole for his tongue to fuck into, sticking the entirety of that pink muscle, letting those walls just flutter around it.
โOh f-fuckโฆโ Your back vibrates from the base of the music outside the little room the two of you are alone in, your lips still swollen from his kisses, mouth dropped open. โThere, there!โ
Youโre not shy when you drag him where you need, Satoru moans, shifting on his knees and curling his tongue deep, spongy spot pressing and making you gush, so wet heโs missing rivulets, slipping down his pink lips, his chin. Youโre rolling those hips like youโre riding his face, head slamming back hard with a thud, ragged gasps just urging him on more.
Youโve got him covered in your slick, his tongue lapping a filthy stripe with the flat of it, hands digging in and lifting your thigh higher and slipping a finger inside. โOh my g-godโฆโ
โYouโre so tight, fuckโฆโ He moans when he feels your cunt contracting on his fingers, spasming and drooling when he buries it to the knuckle, teeth nipping your clit with a sharp motion, you shove at him, screaming out now.
โD-donโt bite - oh m-myโฆ gonna cum, gonnaโฆ stayโฆโ Youโre done trying to make sense of anything, you canโt remember why you were so hurt by him for so long.
Youโll think of that tomorrow.
Tonight?
You let Satoru swallow you, drink you up, hearing the slurp and the wet, messy noises echoing in your ears, fingers finding purchase in silky white locks and pulling at the roots.
โOh yes,โ he whispers, looking at you with blown out pupils. โFuck my face, sweetheart.โ
Youโre doing just that, gliding your pretty cunt all over Satoru Gojoโs face โ he slips two impossibly thick fingers inside you, buried to the hilt. Youโre lost in it, cunt squelching and mixing with his own moans, his swallowing and gulping, youโre making noises youโve never thought you could, screaming out and trembling as he pushes you over the edge.
โCum for me,โ he whispers, a little smirk on a face thatโs embarrassingly soaked with your cunt, grippinโ his fingers so tight sheโs sucking him in. โThatโs it, lemme fuckinโ feel it, lemme see it sweetheart.โ
You canโt remember exactly why you ever thought you โhatedโ Gojo.
Deep down you know youโll always love him, that he was it for you โ terrified that this is just fun for him, and youโll still go along with it. The way he makes you feel so fucking filthy yet precious, worshipped yet devoured, you lose all your senses but just how fucking good it feels.
Your thighs are shaky, heโs damn near holding you up while wetness drips down them, cumming so hard you canโt think, canโt see anything but white stars that blind you behind your closed eyes. โS-Satoru!โ
Fuck, when you say his name?
Satoru palms his cock, throbbing and insistent, moaning at how fucking good your juices feel in his mouth, gulping them down โ adamโs apple bobbing with every greedy swallow as he watches you come undone. He eases his thrusts of those long fingers, teasing flicks prolonging that orgasm until you lightly just squirt in little spurts down him.
โLook at you all fucked out,โ you barely manage to open your eyes โ Gojo looks positively ruined from drinking you, as fucked out as you are, his white hair sticking to his forehead just a bit, cheeks flushed pink.
How can he look that good?
He chuckles a bit โ that cocky boy is still there โ licking his lips as he pulls back slightly, fingers still buried deep inside you, curling just right, grinning as you jerk your hips.
โToo much, mnh!โ Youโre arching your back, tits bouncing at this angle he canโt help but imagine how youโll ride his cock, which is leaking so much pre heโs sticking to his boxers.
Heโs slipping those fingers out with a suctioned pop, the slick sound. Gojo brings them to his lips and slides the slick on his lips like a gloss, standing slowly, letting your thigh fall gently, you wobble.
โAww, canโt stand? That fucked up from a little kiss?โ
โKiss!? Youโreโฆ so insaneโฆโ
Gojo is not just covered in you, heโs sucking them clean with deliberate slowness, his eyes dark aside from a light blue ring, and theyโre fucking hungry. "So sweet for such a mean little girl.โ
โLittle girl,โ you scoff, but youโre shaking, your own hands sliding up his chest, head falling back while he drinks you up, moaning. โYou canโt call me that, mโnot a little girl.โ
โBet youโll call me daddy,โ he taunts, you shake your head at him while he brushes your hair back gently. "Look at you, made such a mess of me."
You whimper โ yeah you fucking whimper, damn him โ clenching around nothing. "Not calling you that, butโฆโ
He raises a brow, grinning. โBut?โ
You sigh. โYou areโฆ you doโฆโ
โThe best oral youโve had?โ
โFuck you, yes,โ he chuckles, for a moment his fingers brush your cheek, and you canโt help but lean close. You want him. โIn this, you win. Not beer pong.โ
โTch, let you win,โ you giggle โ yeah you, you giggle then, the sound reminding him of a time long ago. He sighs now, studying your face carefully. โSo, Iโll let you decide. You want more?"
Before you can answer, he leans in, kissing you deeply, you lean into it, arms wrapping his neck, sucking in a breath as you continue to pulse around nothing, nodding just a bit.
โAh- ah,โ he whispers, tilting your chin up, swapping your taste between you both. โYou have to tell me.โ
โYes, I want more.โ Satoru carries you over to the bed then with ease like itโs just nothing, the strong muscles underneath his skin bunching as he lays you on it, hovering over you and just looking then. โSatoruโฆโ
โWant my cock to ruin your pretty cunt?โ You didnโt expect that โ the once nerdy, shy Gojo to say that, even now youโre at a loss for words, lips parting. โI have to warn you, no one will be able to hit it like me after.โ
โYouโre so conceited,โ you mumble, but when he slips up your top and your tits bounce out for his view, youโre soaked all over again, still sticky from his spit coating your puffy folds.
Thatโs when Satoru is quiet.
Fuck your tits are so perfect, he canโt help but pause and grip them, feeling their weight in his palm, thumbs brushing them and watching the areolas tighten. โOh just, look at how pretty they are.โ
Heโs not cocky then, no heโs enamored, lashes casting shadows as his mouth descends, sucking a nipple into it hungrily, flicking his tongue on that little piercing. You gasp out at it, his other hand gripping your left tit as he sucks your right, making you so sensitive. He moans, vibrating against your skin, your tummy clenched with hot need all over again.
โSโperfect,โ his mumbled words mean way more than they should, your heart hammering in your chest like you are some little virgin again, all shy almost when he pulls back, kissing the soft mounds and pressing them together.
โJust fuck me, okay? Stop allโฆ that.โ
He chuckles a bit, sucking your other nipple with a messy pop, his fingers slipping over your trembling tummy to toy with your twitchy clit heโd just suck on, fingering the mess. โStop what, the foreplay? Havenโt had much, huh?โ
โShut up - mnh!โ He sinks a finger back inside, lips just an inch from yours, you taste the sweetness of him mixed with the alcohol from tonight, see his cheeks flushed with pink. โNo, not really okay?โ
โIโll make up for it,โ how could anyone get to touch your body, it makes him so angry, so possessive then that itโs nonsense. His hands glide over your curves before he flips you on your stomach, you gasp out. โArch fโme.โ
You do just that without thinking of a bratty retort, youโre not a submissive girl by any means and you still have so much hurt from Gojo, but youโre eagerly arching your ass, waiting for his cock. He unzips his pants eagerly, breath catching at the sight of your hole clenching around nothinโ in little spasms.
โSheโs so needy,โ his words mix with a trail of spit, spreading your cheeks wide, it slips from your puckered ass hole to your milky cunt in a bubbly trail. โTell me what you want, use those words.โ
โI told you, mnh! W-want you in meโฆโ
โNo,โ he teases his fat cockhead through your glistening folds, huge hands gripping each ass cheek and watching them jiggle, mesmerized.
โWhat do you mean, no? Want your dick, okay?โ Your words are slurred, about to cum when he slips his cock teasingly between your swollen folds, gliding with the mix of your slick and his spit.
The sounds are filthy as he fucks your thighs and nudges your cunt, not going in to torture you. โThere, you have my dick.โ
โI swear to โ Gojo! Put it in,โ youโre arching for more but heโs just pressing the fat of your cunt down so he can fuck your slit over and over, tip nudging your clit and making you gasp out. โMmph!โ
โWhat, did you want it inside you?โ
โThatโs what I s-said,โ youโre close to cumming again from just his damn teasing, gripping those sheets underneath you. Your head falls back, Satoru leans on his knees and pulls it, making your spine curve.
โWant me to fuck your cunt raw, then? Cum inside her?โ Satoruโs lost and pussy drunk, heโs never even fucked without a condom but he canโt imagine the barrier when he wants to feel those gummy walls on his cock.
โY-yes,โ you canโt believe youโre saying that shit then, but youโre too far gone, cunt still spasming, your nipples sensitive as they brush the soft fabric. โJust fuck me, godโฆโ
โImpatient little thing,โ his words are loving, his hands devotedly brushing up and down your waist, your hips. โIโll give it to you.โ
You look back at him, hair all falling over your face, Satoru pulls it into a pony tail, seeing the lightness of your irises swallowed by black, your lipstick all smeared off, revealing traces of the pink of your lips. You bite the lower one then, taking a shaky little breath.
โItโs justโฆ mnh, sex?โ You manage to ask, Satoru pauses then.
Of course itโs always just sex with him with any girl, he doesnโt get too attached, he doesnโt reveal all of himself.
Yet, for you? The girl who knew him way before, when he was just nerdy little Gojo playing DnD and a mathlete? You, whose eyes look drunk as you look back at him, your perfect ass arched in the air, fishnets ripped completely at the seams, the leftover material slightly pressing into your thighs.
Youโre different, and he knows that, and itโs fucking terrifying, Satoru takes a breath then, gauging the situation, leaning over you to smack your ass, watching it bounce. He moans, smacking the other cheek, your cunt slips more and more sticky clear arousal out of it. He pulls at your hair, you eagerly arch.
You want him to dominate you โ you, a dominant brat.
โYa want me to make that perfect pussy cum? Over and over?โ He asks softly, you swallow, nodding, hair tugging at the roots. โYou want me to take you over, fuckinโ ruin you hmm?โ
โRuin me,โ you gasp out, far past your usual act of hating Satoru. Maybe you do hate what he does to you, making a strong, dominant woman submit, beg, eagerly obey to his every command. But in that moment, youโd do anything to have that cock that heโs teasing deep inside. โDo it, fuckโฆโ
โSay please,โ you scoff, shaking your head.
โYou say please,โ you pull off and he drags you back, laughing softly, his teeth nipping your shoulder as his cock presses against your entrance. โSay it, โ โplease let me fuck your pussyโ.โ
โHah, no,โ when you clamp down on his tip thatโs just barely popped into your hole, however? โOh my f-fine, please, lemme fuck this pussy.โ
You smile against the pillow he presses your head down on, arching impossible more than. โThen do it, Satoru.โ
Satoru eases in at first, but then he fills you in three strokes, messy, filthy ones until your greedy cunt just sucks him up. โOh myโฆ g-god, sโtight baby fuckโฆโ
โYouโre s-so big Iโฆ mnh!โ You want to be bitchy, you want to clap back, but all you can think of is just how full Satoru Gojo has stuffed you, how each drag of his cock is destroying your pussy, your mind, forgetting anything and everything but how good he feels throbbing inside of you.
โPerfect little cunt,โ he mumbles, done for as he presses you down between your shoulder blades, easing back to watch your ass jiggle with every thrust, to see your greedy cunt suckinโ him up. โLook at you, takinโ me like this? Good girl.โ
You want to laugh butโฆ
Youโre wetter.
Impossibly wet, every glide easier while Satoru Gojo buries his cock inside you to the hilt, hitting your cervix with every mean slap, his heavy balls hitting your clit as his fingers spread your ass cheeks, groaning at the sight. Your slick has coated all of his veiny length, every โ fwap fwap fwap โ sound echoing and mixing with the hum of the music lingering from outside the door.
Fuck any party, itโs just you, all you, surrounding and gripping his cock so good he canโt fucking stand it. He moans your name and it comes out like a whimper, but thereโs no stopping anything from spilling from his lips, not when youโre taking him like that, not when heโs fucking your cunt so good all he can think of is making you his โ all his.
Is it just sex? What a question, as if Satoru Gojo hasnโt been in love with you since he laid eyes on you, as if he didnโt jerk it to you the moment he saw you at that football practice with your slutty clothes, with those fishnets that still rest on your body, pressing into the flesh of your ass at the sides.
Ripped wide open he uses them as leverage, hearing your desperate shaky gasps around him, fucking into you so hard you scream out, head falling back. He moans and tugs at the black nylon, letting it press into your skin in little diamond patterns, cock twitching inside your slick heat.
That cock is so deep you feel him fucking everywhere, especially at this angle โ bottoming out in your cunt finally and groaning in your ear, just the sounds of him alone are enough youโd record it and touch yourself to it. You donโt want to be so desperate, so needy, but you canโt stop it, not when heโs ruining you, not when his tip is pummeling your cervix.
The sounds echoing in the room are lewd, squishing, slapping, squelching, both of your whines high pitched and needy. Satoruโs grabbing your hips on either side now, drunker off you than off anything. He bites back nonsense like โi love youโ because he knows you still hate him, and he doesnโt want to scare you off.
Eventually, youโll be all his.
For now โ he fucks you brutally, but you want it, need it, crave it. Walls clamping down around his thickness like a vise, Satoru groans as you do, rocking his hips and feeling you start to spasm.
โGonna cum again? So easy,โ he whispers, as if heโs not two seconds from busting in your perfect cunt.
โFuck off,โ you respond back hoarsely, as if heโs not right, cocky ass hole that he is with his huge cock curving up deep in your snug channel. โMake me cum.โ
He almost says โyes mommyโ but bites it back.
โMake you cum,โ he grins and lays on top of you prone, his knee on one side of you, resting on an elbow and dragging you down his cock in a mean angle. โThen go ahead, let your slutty little hole squirt on me.โ
โNgh!โ Youโre shattering for him when he fucks you laying on top, cock moving your stomach with every filthy motion. You feel Satoruโs cock twitch inside you as your cunt spasms around him, clenching down so hard he groans โ pressing his forehead to your shoulder, damp with perspiration, groaning softly.
His hand wraps your throat, taking you over completely, your eyes rolling back in your skull just blinded by pleasure, head falling back against his chest. His cock is stretching you beyond your means, but youโre so wet heโs slipping in even easier, squelching wetness dripping down between your thighs and his cock, slipping onto the blanket as he bruises that cervix.
โTakinโ it like youโre made for it,โ he murmurs in your ear, lips brushing that delicate earlobe, you grip that wrist of the hand wrapping your throat, pressing. โAh, want me to choke you? Youโre a slutty, needy girl, arenโt you?โ
โMmhmm,โ you just press and nod, giving Satoru permission, giving him so much trust with his long fingers that now encircle your neck. โD-do it.โ
Long fingers tighten on either side of your windpipe, his length moving in and out of that messy hole, pounding harder, seeing what you can take as he squeezes just a little more. The pleasure is too much, taking over your entire body โ that heady, fuzzy feeling addictive, making you chase that feeling, that release.
When he kisses you?
Thatโs when you lose any control or act you had left โ pretending like this will just be once, like youโre not still hopeless for him, like youโre not about to spill your feelings if he doesnโt choke you more.
โHarder,โ is your weak little command, mascara streaking down your cheeks as he slams his cock bruisingly inside your pretty cunt. โPlease.โ
โSayinโ please, hah โ youโre such a good girl,โ he knows it fucks you up, damn him, you can just tell his conceited self loves making you like this. Youโll let him have an ear full later.
For now you just let his cock reshape your entire cunt to mold to his shape, just like he said, overwhelmed by every sensation that washes through you. You cum so hard again you choke โ his hands gripping so tightly theyโll leave little bruises on your skin, a messy drool line spilling from the corner of your mouth.
โThatโs it, so pretty, just a mess,โ he whispers in your ear, letting go of your throat so you can gasp in greedy gulps, his thumb swipes off that mess and his lips press on yours, drinking your cries.
Those narrow hips of his that were in a perfect rhythm stutter at that kiss, thrusts becoming just a little messy and erratic, your walls quivering and pushing him over the edge. โMnh, fuckโฆโ
โFeel too good,โ heโs so drunk off your messy hole, so fucking close to pumping everything inside of you, lashes fluttering shut when he whimpers.
Fuck, did you make him whimper?
You are too fucked out to notice, the smacking sounds of his pelvis hitting your ass cheeks echo louder now, those big hands sliding down to grip your hips, fingers digging in possessively. He murmurs your name like a devotion, his breath ghosting across a shoulder blade, teeth nipping the sensitive curve of it.
"Feel her," he rasps, voice thick with lust. "Take me sโgood... aw, sweetheart youโre wrecked."
You whimper as he pulls out almost entirely, leaving just the tip inside, teasing your entrance and then pressing back in. "Please," you choke out, arching. "Back in me."ย ย
Heโs so close, taking a breath and pausing, turning your face to him. โYou want all this inside you, or painted on that perfect ass?โ
Thereโs no hesitation, your eyes looking back at his, lidded and dazed, sweat slicked skin brushing against each other. โIn me.โ
Satoruโs done for at your hasty little reply โ slamming back inside so deep it hurts, busting his load so deep against your cervix, balls contracting as they fill you to the brim, leaking down him with how your muscles contract. โOh f-fuckโฆโ
He has no words for how perfect it feels cumming inside your messy little hole, flooding those walls and coating them in white, slowing his strokes and making you feel every inch as it drags on the spots in those spongy walls. Heโs crying out softly, fingers dipping into the crook of your waist, pumping impossibly more inside, until youโre both so sensitive youโre just messes.
โTook me like that?โ He whispers, easing out of you and looking at the mess youโve both made, his chest heaving up and down with his breaths, fingers skimming your pretty ass and brushing over marks blooming. โDid such a good job.โ
You take a moment, just trembling โ Satoru watches his milky seed pool and bubble out of your hole, fingering the sticky mess and slipping it in his lips, moaning out. โDid youโฆ taste us?โ
โMmm, of course I am. You should too,โ he flips you on your back, leaning over you, your hands slip up his shoulders when the intimacy catches you, when he pours his own cum right back in your mouth. โSwallow.โ
You obediently listen, before kissing him again, his still semi hard cock heavy against your inner thigh, even more spurts of white pumping hot and sticky. Youโre shaking, breaths coming quicker and quicker, strings of saliva and white dripping between your lips. You taste his cum off him, the action so filthy, his fingers nudging the mess to shove it right back in your hole.
โAh! Too much, j-jerk,โ you huff, he chuckles then, shaking his head and sighing, lifting your thighs to spread them and eye that pretty sight of an utterly destroyed and puffy cunt. โYouโre justโฆ looking at it!โ
โYes I am, I beat it up,โ he has the audacity to whistle, when there are knocks on the door. He glares back at it as you close your thighs, sucking in a breath at how sore you are. โWhat?โ
โGojo, theyโre all saying youโre a little bitch for losing to a girl,โ you snicker and Satoru scowls deeper. โSukuna is saying heโll stomp your ass at the keg stand record too.โ
โTch, he fucking wishes,โ he sighs, not about to leave you, but youโre already standing, shaky legs having you almost wobbling. โGive me a bit.โ
โYouโre good, promise,โ you murmur, grabbing your top and slipping it over you, he aches when he watches those tits gently bounce. โI should get going, I have a big ass test in the morning.โ
โLeaving already?โ He frowns, standing with his cock just hanging, your tummy clenches at the sight of it, with white and clear strands all around the thick length.
โI should,โ you murmur, stepping back a bit when he comes close, leaning down over you. Your back against the wall, his palm on one side of your head. โYouโre still naked, Satoru.โ
โSure am,โ he nudges his cock again, slipping between your pressed thighs, earning a desperate little whine. โYou donโt have to go.โ
He hates how vulnerable he sounds, him so desperate, but heโs never felt anything like you, like that, the moments you took his breath away not just with sex, but with everything about you. โYou donโt wanna win?โ
โOf course I do,โ you laugh, softly then, knowing if you stay โ youโll fall all over again, for this different Gojo who still has your heart. โDoesnโt mean you canโt stay the night.โ
โI donโt wanna make it weird,โ he opens his lips and you lean up, a hand entangled in his hair. โIโฆ Is this just once?โ
Satoru swallows nervously, looking at you carefully. โI donโt know, is it?โ
You both just stand there, you donโt know how to answer his question โ with so much left unsaid, but you press a quick kiss on his lips before you talk yourself out of it, and then just run out of the room.
He leans his head on that door, fists clenching, trying to think of anything he could say. He could say โ no, itโs not just sex, not with you, how could it be?
But he froze.
Youโre leaning against that door โ heart hammering in your chest, a palm on it to feel it racing, head resting for just a moment until people start running around, too close to you. You try to gather your bearings, try to remember that it was likely a hook up for him, and you couldnโt do it again.
No way, when he almost casually fucked an I love you from his lips.
That night you dream of him, waking up in a cold sweat, staring at the mirror and seeing how fucked up you were off him.
Surely, he went back to playing games.
That night Satoru lays there, sighing and swiping a hand down his face, turning in bed that night, touching the rumpled sheets, inhaling your scent off that pillow.
This canโt be the only fucking time.
Thereโs never really been anyone but you, but especially now he realizes, heโs ruined from you.
*****
โNeed a ride?โ The voice echoes outside, and you know exactly who it is.
Itโs piss pouring rain a week later, youโd avoided Satoru like the plague since then, you didnโt even have a number if you wanted to reach out.
What would you even say โ oh hey, childhood crush of mine, I apparently got fucked so dumb Iโm prety sure Iโm still in love?
No way.
Yet thereโs his voice, thereโs his presence right next to you now, too close โ when you stand under the awning in front of one of the college buildings, the sound of it pounding on the metal makes you almost tired, looking up to see Satoru with an umbrella in his hand.
โIโll wait it out,โ you mumble, the last thing you need is to jump him the way you keep thinking of, to say dumb shit thatโll make him run away again.
Thatโs your biggest fear, really, that heโll just run off like he did that year after your kiss, that heโll move on and this was just fun, a challenge, a fling. A guy like Satoru could just have whoever he wanted, heโs so unserious, youโre sure youโre the one who is concocting it all inside your mind.
โItโll be raining all afternoon,โ he says then, thumb slipping up the screen on his phone, raising a brow at you. โAnd all night.โ
โShitโฆ I mean I donโt have too far to go, maybe you canโฆ be generous and just lend me your umbrella?โ
โOr maybe,โ he leans close now, silky white locks falling over his brow, cupping your face. โYou can stop being so stubborn and take a fucking ride.โ
Your heart is racing, youโre ovulating and you shouldnโt be near Mr. Broke your heart, Mr. Three hundred dollar a spray cologne, especially with the rain enshrouding you both, with his heat too close. You clear your throat and press your hand on a chest thatโs too hard, too muscular, too warm.
โIโm good.โ
Satoruโs eyes narrow at you, a vein pressed up underneath his skin. โJust take a ride, I wonโtโฆ try shit if thatโs your concern. You pretty much made it clear you only wanted it once, I get it okay?โ
You blink then, stepping back. โYou thinkโฆ I donโt ever think youโd try something, okay? Thatโs not it.โ
โItโs not?โ His brows draw together. โYou donโt regret it?โ
โNo,โ you shake your head, sighing then. โI didnโt know you were thinking that way about it.โ
โHow am I supposed to think?โ Thereโs a harshness to his words then, your hands still resting as he steps even closer. โYou havenโt said shit since you darted out of my room, drippinโ my cum.โ
You almost whine out then and there, shaking your head again. You canโt say the truth โ that it scared you, the intensity, the feelings.
โI had fun that night,โ thatโs an understatement. โA lot of fun, yeah? You feltโฆ good in me.โ
He almost moans out loud, looking at your pretty lashes lowering, this long pointed line of eyeliner just a little smudged off each eye. He runs a hand down the small of your back as people rush off to their cars, hidden under umbrellas or jackets over their heads.
โYeah?โ He asks softly, you roll those pretty eyes at him.
โYou already know I liked it, itโs justโฆ do we do it more orโฆ do we just forget it?โ
โForget it?โ His brows lower then, the thunder clapping from the distance. โYou think Iโd forget?โ
โItโs probably not shit to you,โ he glares, his jaw setting now. โYou should go before the storm gets bad.โ
โAnd youโre coming with me.โ
โYou can't just tell me what to do โโ Satoru is already grabbing your hand, pulling you toward the parking lot. His umbrella pops open, a big clear one that you instantly recognize.
It's the same he had the day you met all those years ago.
Affection tears at your chest though you feign the irritation when he's tugging you under it, one of his arms wrapping around your waist to keep you close. The proximity makes you too warm, tugged against his lithe frame while the rain pours, wind picking up.
You weren't dressed for soaking rain clearly, shivering when your boots rushed across forming puddles on the road, cold droplets hitting your bare legs. You're still firmly pressed against his side, feeling the heat of him through his letterman's jacket, smelling that familiar expensive ass cologne mixed with rain. Thunder cracks overhead, making you jump just a bit, and his grip tightens.
โAlmost there,โ He's calming when he speaks, almost soothing actually, you swallow nervously, heart hammering as you remember the last time you saw him.
Underneath him.
His fingers pressing into your throat, cock wrecking you. Fuck you hadn't been able to even walk the next day, you'd taken a day from classes to just soak in the bath. He had every right to be cocky when it came not just to his size but how he worked it.
It makes you blush thinking how he'd been inside you, you hardly can focus on anything but the burning memories in your brain as you get to his pretty silver sports car.
"Shit it's gonna get bad, letโs go," he mutters, fumbling with his keys when you reach the Mercedes, rain pelting the sleek black exterior. His hands are shaking โ from cold or something else, you can't tell. The locks finally beep and he's yanking the passenger door open, you rush inside before you watch him jogging around to the driver's side.
His door slams shut behind him, pushing to start the car and letting the heat start up, shaking off the umbrella into the back seat as the storm worsens around you both. Suddenly it's quiet, just the muffled drumming of rain on the windshield, soft music turns on when he presses the button.
You're both just a little out of breath, a couple little drops of water dripping from your hair down your neck, the heat warming you as you shiver. The windows are already starting to fog just a bit from the condensations and your breaths.
โYou good?โ He asks then, you nod quickly, holding your books close to your lap for a moment. โAny new cool drawings of me?โ
โYou wish,โ he chuckles just a bit, looking back and putting an arm over the back of your seat, looking impossibly attractive as he backs up, the line of his jaw illuminated with a little flash of lightning.
You could draw him right now, too damn attractive to even exist, his blue eyes flickering across your face for a brief moment. โYouโre quiet.โ
โWell, Iโm quiet in general,โ he scoffs, turning to start down the quick little road towards your dorm. โWhat? I am.โ
โYou werenโt quiet underneath me,โ you roll your eyes and glare all cute, his jaw sets a bit, tongue against his cheek. โDid you not wanna do it again?โ
โI just figured it wasโฆ the bet, the drinks, theโฆโ
โYeah, you think all that?โ You donโt know what to fucking think.
โDoesnโt that happen a lot at your parties?โ
โYa callinโ me a slut?โ
โVery much so, Iโve heard of many escapades.โ Satoru snorts and shakes his head, hand turning the wheel with ease. Thereโs something so comfy and homey about being around him again, even with the awkward tension lingering.
You remember so much.
โItโs raining bad, here,โ Satoru held an umbrella up for you, smiling all nervous, his cute little bowtie just askew, glasses fogged up from the rain pouring.
โOh, thanksโฆโ Youโre not a talker, youโre a little shy, and now a boy is talking to you. He brushes the damp strands of your hair back, and you look up at the clear umbrella, watching the rain pummel it, bouncing off in a little halo around you both in the darkness.
โYou should carry one, yโknow.โ
โYeah, I always forget,โ you mumble, youโre so close to him. โYouโre Satoru Gojo, right?โ
โYou know me?โ He blushes and you do just the same, he turns a bit. โYeah, thatโs me. Are you waiting on your parents?โ
You almost laugh.
Itโs not like your parents would ever pick you up, half the time they forget to get anything for you to pack for lunch. โNo.โ
โMy driver will be here soon,โ you blink in confusion, he uses his free hand to rub the back of his neck. โYeah, my parents donโt pick me up either.โ
โSo they suck too.โ
He laughs, a little nervous one, before sobering up. โDo yours suck?โ
โBad,โ you mumble. โIโll be okay if I get a little closer to-โ
โLet me have them drive you, they make plenty of money, not like theyโll mind.โ
โI couldnโt!โ
โSure you can,โ he takes your hand then. โCome on.โ
โYouโre very quiet now,โ his voice breaks your day dream, you realize youโre already in front of your dorm, having been lost in the memory. โWhereโs that pretty head at?โ
Pretty.
Satoru called you pretty.
A lot of people do, itโs not like men donโt shoot their shot at you, itโs moreโฆ youโre uninterested in them all. The men youโve been with have just been out of boredom or craving experience. Yet when he says it, there are two different feelings.ย
One, he means it. Two, he just says that.
You see the girls around him constantly, youโd even snuck into his game to watch him the other day โ not that youโd ever admit it. He was truly amazing, not just โsome jockโ no โ he excelled at it. Everyone cheered his name, girls all around him, men even cheering for him, everyone around the school as you hid behind the standing crowd, hoping he wouldnโt notice.
Satoru probably wouldnโt even consider you now, if he didnโt then.
โJust thinking I guess, of that time we met,โ shit, you hadnโt meant to let it slip like that, but itโs there, lingering in the warmth of his car. โYou had a whole driver.โ
โYeah, I guess I still could, but now I am on my own,โ you blink a bit at that, seeing his knuckles whiten on the steering wheel. โThey wanted to mold me into their perfect CEO and I really make โem mad, not mad enough to fuck my trust fund though.โ
โHence this,โ you brush a finger on his gear shift, he grins. โI kind of told my parents to fuck off too. Art school is not it.โ
โEspecially after they were mad you wanted to do astronomy,โ your lips part. โYeah, I remember.โ
โAnd now youโre doing it.โ
โAstrophysics, yes,โ he sighs, relaxing just a bit. โI kind of think I wanna teach it one day. Is it weird to think, a rich heir of the Gojo corp wanting to teach?โ
โNo, I think that shitโs cool as fuck,โ he turns toward you, lips quirking up. Lips that were all over your body, a mouth that was on your pussy. The memories have your heart pounding in your ribcage like itโs just gonna fall out, hands gripping the papers, seeing the storm still raging. โYou always were meant to study those stars.โ
Satoru canโt take it.
He canโt take knowing he could have had years of this, of a high school sweetheart by his side, but he pushed it off โ he thought for your own good, but now he sees the damage. In every apprehensive movement, in every bite of your lips that are just a little chapped from the chill.
โYou think that?โ
You turn your head, and heโs close โ too close, so much so you taste his breath on yours, something sweet and so Gojo. You nod just a bit, leaning into his touch when he runs the backs of his knuckles across your cheek, the one reacting to his touch by getting so warm,
โI do.โ
You canโt stop yourself from kissing him then and there โ you lean and kiss him this time โ his lips pause just a brief moment, parting in shock, before his arm wraps you, dragging you against him, a soft moan drank into your own mouth. The kiss means more than you can even admit, than you can comprehend in that heady moment, warm and cozy as it is sensual.
Youโre leaning back in the passenger seat of Satoruโs fancy Mercedes benz, ostentatious and annoying sure, yet โ you love it, you love being in there with him. You love the rain bouncing on the windshield and creating a halo around the car, enshrouding the two of you.
You love his lips on yours, love his hand entangling in your hair, his teeth nipping your lower lip hungrily, pushing him to sit as you take over the kiss now. He lets you eagerly, your hand slipping down his flat stomach, feeling each rippling muscle over his soft tee shirt, the windshield wipers flicking rain side to side with quick clicks.
โFuck,โ he murmurs then, looking up at you, pink cheeked and big blue eyes blown out. You see it then.
The boy he was.
Your first kiss, your first love.
Your kisses move down his neck, hearing his hitches of breath, a hand gripping your little black sweater as his head falls to the side for you. At this moment heโs not cocky Satoru Gojo โ all star, no heโs soft and sweet, cock tenting his jeans when you rub him over it.
โKeep doinโ that and Iโll die, sweetheart,โ he mumbles, you canโt help but giggle, the sound making him leak more. โIโm serious.โ
โYou mean youโll cum?โ You tease now, pulling back and turning so youโre on your knees in the passenger.
Satoruโs heart pounds in his chest, heโs experienced of course but thinking of you sucking him is like some insane dream that he canโt believe exists. He tries to keep it together, brushing your hair back when it falls to the side like a curtain hiding your pretty face, your movements firmer over his thickness.
โYeah, Iโll cum,โ he manages to breathe out.
โGood.โ Satoruโs lips part when you undo his belt buckle, his own chest rising and falling with his quick breaths.
โThought you said only once?โ He taunts, when you eagerly unzip him, pressing your thighs together with need. You scoff, rolling your eyes and then swallowing nervously when you see his cock.
โI never said that. You just thought it.โ
You had it inside of you, but you didnโt really see it, pink tip leaking so much pre, itโs fat and thick, so big you know itโll choke you. You spit down on it, earning his surprised gasp, swirling the stream of spit around his cockhead then ever so slowly, feeling his hand entangle in your silky locks.
โMmm!โ His little moan makes you ache.
โHavenโt had a good blow job I bet,โ you taunt him like he did. Satoru snorts then, but once your lips wrap his tip, heโs whining out. You giggle as you pull back, and he grips your hair harder, tugging you up. โYou just whimpered.โ
โFuck off,โ he grumbles, cock already pushing more milky drops out of that little hole. โThought you hated me?โ
You donโt, not really.
โDonโt you hate me?โ You ask, he lowers his gaze.
No.
โYouโre just a mean ass brat, thatโs all,โ he says softly, touching your bottom lip and feeling the plush of it. His hands are rough from years of football, slipping across your skin. โThe emo girl, so edgy.โ
โEdgy?โ Itโs too intimate, making you swallow nervously. โDo you want me to suck you, Satoru?โ
His answer is a little nod, before he says something fucking dumb, and you lavish his tip with your tongue, swirling it around and sucking hard enough to make him cry out before he can control it, arching his hips up for more of your mouth. You push your mouth down deeper, taking as much of his thick cock as you can, gagging yourself a little and making that drool spill.
โOh f-fuckkk,โ heโs moaning now, feeling you sucking him up and down deeper into your throat as the rain pummels the windshield out side. You feel tears pricking your eyes when he hits the back of your throat โ heโs thick and long and you canโt fit him all at this angle, but you make sure to fucking try. โJust like that.โ
Your spit coats him and makes him glossy as your hand moves in time with every messy stroke, filthy suctioned pops and the gagging in your throat mixing with that thrumming rain in the background and Satoruโs breathy cries. Those fingers tighten in your hair, forcing you down even harder as you work him, hearing every hitched breath escaping his lips.
โThatโs it, g-god youโre sโgood,โ heโs babbling, every time he hits your throat your core clenches, cunt dripping, soaking through your panties. He senses it or something, reaching around to rub his fingers over them, cursing softly. โYa this wet suckinโ me off, soakedโฆโ
You want to tell him to fuck off โ thatโs sort of your love language โ but you are that needy, that desperate, every glide of his cock in your throat making you choke on him. You breathe through your nose, letting him fuck up into it, stroking your clit with his impossibly long arm reached around your arched ass.
Your throat flutters around his cock, heโs so sensitive then, feeling your little throat stretch, forcing your head down even deeper. Your long nails dig into the denim, pressing against his thighs, ass working up and down, dying for more when he just teases your slit instead.
โMnhโฆโ Youโre moaning, your eyes watering with the stretch, with the need building for the boy you loved.
Love.
You still love him, you know it even as you act so casually, when itโs intimate, all of it โ Satoruโs ragged groans, the drumming rain, your slick sounds as you choke on his length. His salty pre pulsing against your tongue as you drag him closer, your own drool slipping down your hand, feeling him thicken in your mouth.
Satoru arches against the leather seat, his trembling fingers of his left hand guide your head, while his right ones continue to toy with the mess your panties have become, snug on your plump pussy.ย
โTaking all of me?โ He huffs out, your answer is a whimper.ย โOh sweetheart, y-youโฆโ His voice breaks when you glance up through smudged eyelashes, your dark mascara trailing down your cheeks from where youโve gagged on him. โYouโre so goddamn pretty like this.โ
โMmmโฆโ You pull back a bit, spit collected in strings as you look up at him โ his face is flushed, pupils blown dark, lips parted, heโs utterly wrecked. โI want your cum in my mouth.โ
Youโre a demon, Satoru is sure of it.
Youโre sucking that throbbing cock again harder, taking him even deeper than you thought you could, when he yanks you up suddenly by your hair. You gasp โ thrown on his lap so quickly youโre dizzy, he drags you down for a kiss, lapping his own cock off your lips. โNo, I wanna cum inside that pretty cunt.โ
Satoru lifts your hips up so youโre on your knees and grips his sticky cock at the base, his pretty tip already spurting white when it bumps your clit, youโre clinging to him, thighs shaking.
โSatoru, what are you doingโฆโ
That cock gliding against puffy folds sends hot waves of pleasure through your mind, making you whimper against his mouth as rain drums harder on the roof. The windows are completely fogged now, the car humid, leather sticking to your thighs as you sink down on him, that gear shift pressing on your thigh when he sinks inside, stretching you out.
โToo tight,โ he murmurs, pulling back and spitting on his tip, smearing it before slipping it back to your hole, pushing in a couple more inches. โTake me, go ahead, lemme see you.โ
Your nails press into his shoulders over that jacket as you move just a bit, angling so youโre gliding easier and easier on him, ragged little gasp escaping as he shoves you down even harder, filling you to the fucking brim suddenly, both of you gasping out, your head falling back for his mouth to press kisses up it.
"Fuck โ so deep I โ ah!" You're so full, stretched around him in the cramped space, your back hitting the steering wheel as he grips your hips and guides you down further. "S'too much, I can'tโ"
"You can," he breathes out, forehead pressed to yours, blue eyes hazy and vulnerable in a way that makes your chest ache. "Take all of me, sweetheart. Please..."
That undoes you.
โPlease.โ
You're riding him now, gliding up and down on his lengthy cock, steering wheel against your ass, his hands lifting you and slamming you down. They're everywhere he can reach, almost fumbling in his eagerness to claim every part of you. Grippin' him too tight, you're not stretched enough to take him so she's strangling his cock.
His hands slip from your ass up to your tits, one gripping and squishing it while the other moves to your throat โ like he can't decide where to touch, like he needs all of you underneath his fingers then and there. Rain streaks down the windows in fat drops, the world outside completely disappearing.
It's just his cock hitting that spot inside you that makes you see stars, just his eyes, just his lips, just that tip grinding on your cervix, white soft hair over his cock grinding your neglected clit. You reach down to toy with it when he grips your wrist, leaning back and putting his thumb there instead.
"Need your cute little clit played with?" He huffs those words out, you nod eagerly, no pretense left, whining and grinding. "There you go, look at you riding me."
"Gonna cum," you gasp out, nails digging into his shoulders through his shirt, little circles working faster. "Satoru, I'mโ"
"Look at me," he demands, hand cupping your jaw, forcing your eyes to his. "Wanna see you fall apart on my cock."
You do just as he asks then, like you're obeying his soft, sweet little demand โ clenching around him as pleasure crashes through you, and he follows with a broken moan of your name, spilling inside you as he pulls you impossibly closer. His cum spills down him with that gravity, but he keeps lifting you and lowering you gently, his lips never leaving yours.
You fall into the kisses, into the aftermath thatโs so heavy, the very atmosphere so thick with tension that both of you can't breathe, the heat still blaring, bringing a slick of sweat to your skin. His palms reach underneath your top, slipping up your spine soothingly, his eyes fucked out and dilated.
What does he say?
What do you say?
You're both breathing hard, bodies still connected so intimately the lightening pattering of rain the only sound now aside from that, you hear your own racing heart just thudding in your ears. The rough pad of his thumb traces your cheekbone, wiping away a little streak of smudged mascara, and there's something in his expression that makes your heart ache.
"That wasโฆ" He starts to say something, but it wouldnโt even come close to describing what just happens. He justโฆ trails off slowly, swallowing
โJust sexโ, โjust funโ, you keep thinking, waiting for him to say it. โSuch a fun hookupโ. Justโ
"Y-yeah," you whisper, climbing off him before he can finish, before you hear words that'll shatter you, your guard is already down, youโre already too terrified of what may be the truth.
You thought you could have control, but you pounced him, you sucked him and begged for him to cum inside you again. Youโre struggling to control your racing mind then as the leather squeaks underneath your movements. You adjust your clothes with shaking hands, fumbling with your zipper, slipping over to the other side, just lost in your own fucking brain.
Does he feel anything? Or is this just another conquest, another girl in his car. Some fun with a girl of his past?
"Waitโ" His hand catches your wrist, but you're already reaching for the door handle, gathering your books in your arms.
"It's fine, Satoru. The rain... it's all lightened up now."
"Just wait a minute, fuck," he exhales, tugging you close against him, you still feel cum dripping from your cunt, so intimate - something about it, about how he just looked at you, even now, cupping your face, drowning in you. "What are you doing tonight, hmm? Drawing me as a cat in some emo ass outfit, staring out your window all sad?"
You can't help but laugh a little, the tension easing just the smallest bit. Youโre shaking your head. "No, Iโm not drawing you tonight."
"Ah," he adjusts himself, sighing, looking as the rain eases, a light drizzle now. "I have a party tonight, maybe we can redo that beer pong match?"
"You want your ass beat again?" He smirks, it's easy again, so much fucking left unsaid between you both however, tension filling his little car.
"If you think you can beat me, by all means sweetheart," he tilts your chin up, sighing now. "We didn't talk about..."
"I'm on the pill," you murmur softly, clearing your throat and seeing his eyes dart to your skirt, his thumb slipping up your inner thigh, touching the creamy drips slipping down. "And I'm clean, I've never not used protection."
"I haven't either," a faint blush decorates his cheeks.
"Really?"
"Yeah, we seem to... get caught up," he manages to say, as if he doesn't just wanna cum inside you for all kinds of reasons. Possessive, insane fucking reasons. "So I am too."
"That's good to know, like if you everโฆโ You trail off, blushing now. โYou know, hook up regularly with someone else... Will you tell me?" You ask, brushing your hair back.
"Yeah, of course," as if there's anyone but you in his fucking mind now. "Would you tell me?"
"Not much chance of that happening, I don't like people," he chuckles, then the laugh grows, throwing his head back, earning your scowl. "What is so funny, hmm?"
"You hate me but you sure have no problem cumming all over my cock," his hand entangles in the nape of your neck, tugging and making you gasp out in pleasure. "Or do you actually like me?"
"Psh, you wish," you love his ass, even now you fucking know it, but you can't let him know. That little girl deep inside you still hurts. "Do you even like me?"
"Maybe I do," he smiles too fucking cute. You roll your eyes at him. "You think I don't like you? Should I show you how much, pretty girl?"
"Pretty girl, you're so cringe Toru... I mean... Satoru," you called him that name you did as a kid, it makes his heart hammer in his chest.
"Can't call ya pretty?โ
"I mean you can," he chuckles again. "What!?"
"Your blush, it's all over your neck, even your chest," he says all husky, tugging at your top and exhaling, studying the blush your skin has taken. "Blush everywhere, you like me calling you pretty."
You do.
But fuck saying that.
"I'm just overheated," he smirks, lidded gaze penetrating through you, the soft sloshing of mist still making noise on the road around you both. "That's all."
"Mmm, sure sweets," you gather your things carefully, trying to avoid that knowing, cocky ass gaze of Satoru Gojo's. "Will you come?"
"You're actually inviting me huh?" He nods. "All right, what time?"
"Ten ish, come whenever, I'll be ready for the rematch."
*****
Seeing Satoru at that party tonight was a rude awakening.
The girls and guys around him as always, theyโd just nailed a game โ yeah, you watched it again, damn near incognito in your hoodie, the way he ran across that damn field was more than impressive, it was insane. He so clearly had fun too, seeing him after with all his friends and the entirety of the college almost cheering.
Tonight was absolutely a celebration of the team, and a celebration of Satoru himself. Bright, laughing, beautiful Gojo, catching sight of you from across that room, lips parted ever so slightly, before smiling at you. Youโre nervous suddenly, youโve worn this little red plaid skirt and another pair of fishnets.
Youโre praying heโll rip those too.
Itโs toxic of you, youโd just had him inside of you in the car earlier, but all you can think is how much more you need โ let him fill you constantly, let him touch you anywhere he wants. Yet you realize when you look around the crowded frathouse, with the music blaring and everyone hyped up from the game?
Youโll never, ever fit in, never be that cute girl by his side who is murmuring something in his ear. Youโre not peppy, youโre not โfull of school spiritโ , you're just a girl hopelessly in love with a boy you donโt know anymore. You really do want to learn more of him, you canโt help but think of how badly you do.
Can you let go of the past with no explanation?
Are you overthinking it?
Youโre so lost in thought you donโt notice a guy asking you to dance with him, heโs all sweaty and his cheeks are flushed, you straight up say โ no โ and then say that to the next guy that comes up too, as Satoru tries to make a way over to you. Youโre so uncomfortable then, you can hardly take it.
Heโs so far away, in too many ways, every motion closer heโs stopped by someone gushing over him. Satoru Gojo, the most popular boy in school, whose eyes keep locking on you. Instead of coming over to him however, you just go grab a drink hastily, downing it and feeling tears burn your eyes.
Why?
Why were you this affected? And you chose it, asking him to come inside you not once but twice, kissing him and initiating it, begging to suck him. He brings out things that are too hard to admit, too hard to let rise to the surface, making you remember the girl you were back then, when you came really far to be the woman you are now.
โSweetheart,โ his murmur touches you, his hand on your waist, you blush nervously, looking around. โYou came.โ
โUm, yeah, Satoru, they'll thinkโฆโ
โThink what?โ His words make you tremble, tilting your chin up a bit when he gets called over again. He sighs, rolling his eyes and looking back.
โSpeech, speech!โ
โTheyโre annoying,โ he grumbles. You shake your head, trembling lips curving in a weird attempt at a smile.
โGo ahead all star, give โem the speech.โ
You watch a bit of it before you canโt anymore, maybe heโs looking at you still? Youโre not sure. Every time you peek up his smile lights the entire room, people are cheering loudly, chanting his name. He owns them entirely, owns this moment.
You turn and someone bumps into you harshly, beer spills onto your skirt. โOh shit, Iโm so sorry!โ
โItโs fine,โ you mutter, grabbing paper towels and dabbing at the wet stain.
โLet me help?โ He asks, you feel like crying from something this dumb!?
Whatโs wrong with you?
โNo, itโs fine really,โ you clean yourself up, heading through the crowded room of bodies slowly, making your way, looking over your shoulder and losing sight of him.
You shouldnโt have come.
The party's too loud, too crowded, and you find yourself slipping out to the back porch, then further โ to the patch of grass behind the frat house where the noise fades to a dull thrum. You're tugging at the ripped hem of your skirt, a little nervous habit youโve grown to have, looking up at the sky, trying to find constellations through the light pollution.
You remember that night so vividly.
"Running away from my party?"
You don't even turn around, somehow you hoped he'd follow you out, feeling his warmth permeate from behind you. You lean back just a bit against him, eyes fluttering shut at how good it feels, strong hands pressing into your arms gently, slipping down and leaving goosebumps in their wake.
"Your party's giving me a headache," you mutter, not looking at him as he drops his hands, before sitting down beside you on the grass, you sit next to him, hugging yourself around your knees. "Too many people pretending to like each other."
"Grungy as ever," he teases, but there's something affectionate in his voice. He lies back on the soft bed of grass, hands behind his head, looking up. "Remember when we used to do this?"
Of course you do.
โYeah, I remember,โ you admit, resting your chin on your knees, so many feelings coming to the surface.
Itโs a quiet, comfortable silence as the breeze gently blows your hair around your face, coolness brushing against your bare skin, doing nothing to calm how overheated you are, how many words are threatening to spill. Things you have been trying to hold back, to try to compartmentalize in your head.
Youโre thinking too much about a physical connection, seeing how Satoru was and how you were? Youโre too different, how would you fit into his world? And would he even ever want you to?
"You pointed out Cassiopeia,โ he breaks the silence, you gasp, looking down at him, catching the glint of his pretty eyes in the night. โYou said you wanted to study astronomy, map the stars, and get as far away from here as possible."
Your chest tightens. "You remember that?"
"I remember everything about you," he whispers, you tremble now, feeling emotions hot and heavy in your throat. โEvery moment.โ
โHow? With your life now do youโฆ remember me?โ
โHow could I not?โ He tugs you down to lay next to him on that soft grass tickling your skin, you turn to your side and look at him. "So what happened? Why aren't you at some observatory right now, doing what you love? Or do you justโฆ enjoy drawing them instead? Thatโs okay too, you know."
You laugh softly, shaking your head. "Life happened, I didnโt get the best grades for a scholarship. Money happened. But also yes, I did end up falling in love with art.โ
Satoru brushes his fingers across your cheek, sighing. โYouโre amazing at it.โ
โYeah?โ
โYeah,โ his gaze dips to your lips. โDo you ever draw the stars anymore?โ
โNo, I guess I donโt," you finally look up at him, fingers gripping around his wrist now, thumb brushing the veins that press up. "It was more you that I loved toโฆโ
Shit.
His lips part as you trail off, shaking your head.
It was never the stars you loved, it was the boy who looked at them.
โWhat about you?โ You ask instead, not ready to say it all. โYou were supposed to go to MIT. Your family had it all planned out I think, from young even."
His jaw tightens, eyes narrowing a bit. "Yeah, well. Fuck his plans."
You blink a bit, sensing his pain. "Oh, Satoruโฆ Iโฆ"
โYou donโt know, I never told you,โ he turns back to look up at the stars, eyes fluttering shut. โAll I was supposed to do was study business, finance, and take over the โfamily companyโ. All that bullshit. And that includedโฆโ
You lean closer, a hand on his chest, your eyelashes lowering just a bit as you study the boy you love. โIncluded what?โ
Youโre so beautiful then, with the glimmery stars as your background, perhaps the prettiest thing Satoru has ever seen, the combination of the two things heโs loved for so long. Your hair falls to the side like a curtain, he brushes the silky tresses back and sighs.
โThey wouldnโt let me date you if I wanted to back then, not anyoneโฆ not from money. Because theyโre fucking shit.โ
โOh,โ you blink back tears. โAnd Iโฆโ
โI never wanted to hurt you with them,โ he takes his own breath, leaning up on an elbow, bringing his lips so close. โI should have just told you, but then I was so scared, even when I finally got free of themโฆ Well, you hated me.โ
โSatoru, I never hated you, not really,โ youโre swallowing down your tears now. โI just was hurt.โ
โFor good reason,โ he muses, sighing now. โTo answer your question, Iโm not at Ivy league because they wanted me there. I want to study what I want, Iโm playing ball because I like it, not because they ever wanted that. And I donโt regret it, despite how fucking mad they are."
โHow can they be mad? Youโre top at everything?โ
He laughs without humor. โTheyโd only be happy if I married a rich girl, gave them heirs immediately, became a stuck up upper crust fuck. No amount of good grades made them proud, or accomplishments. Iโm a Gojo, and thatโs all I am supposed to be.โ
You cup his face now, shaking your head, the warmth of his palm seeps into your bare skin at your waist, hair tickling his collar bone. โYouโre much more than that, youโreโฆ youโre Satoru, okay? Former nerd, conceited little shit, annoying ass Satoru.โ
He chuckles then, shaking his head at you, sighing. โYeah?โ You just nod, swallowing down your emotions.
โYou should have just told me.โ
โI know,โ he tilts your chin up a bit, tracing the curve of your jaw. โYou know one good thing about being here? Being where you are, getting to kiss you again."
Your breath catches. "Don't."
"Don't what?"
You back off, blinking hot tears that slip down your cheeks. "Don't say shit like that when you've got cheerleaders waiting inside for you. When you're this,โ you gesture at him, "And I'm still just..."
"Still just the girl who kissed me under the stars?โ You shake your head, heโs pulling too many emotions and you donโt know how long you can hold them back. โThe pretty artist, the mean little brat that has me fucked up over her?โ
โSatoruโฆโ
โThe girl who wanted me for me,โ his own emotions catch in his throat, swiping a tear thatโs just a little black from your mascara. His voice drops an octave, spreading through you like honey. โYouโre just the only person who ever made me want to be myself instead of what everyone else wanted?"
You're both quiet then as his words fall from his lips, the distant bass of the party thrumming and fading, the wind gently blowing his soft white hair around him. โI made you want that?โ
โYou accepted me for who I was, a nerd yeah,โ you giggle through your tears, and Satoru laughs with you. โI never regretted anything more than just running away after that kiss. I was so scared of it, of everything I felt with you.โ
โI was scared too,โ you admit, swiping tears now. โI was mad at you for a long time.โ
โYa still mad?โ He asks softly, tugging you onto his lap now, you brace yourself over him, your silhouette shaded by starlight. โI donโt want any of those girls.โ
โBut theyโre-โ
โNot you,โ he cuts you off now, hands pressing into your hips as he sits up, kissing your brow. โTheyโre not you. They want the all star, popular, rich Satoru Gojo โ they donโt want that skinny little nerd I was.โ
He kisses your nose, a sweet little peck, your arms wrap his neck, feeling his cock pressing against your heat and exhaling, eyes locking. โI liked you as the skinny nerd, with your cute little braces. With your big glasses and how you didnโt know how to kiss for shit.โ
Satoru glares now, you canโt help but laugh, shaking your head. โYou sucked back then too, you were just so pretty I didnโt say so.โ
โYouโre such an ass!โ You playfully push him down onto the ground, only for him to flip your positions, hovering over you โ and for just a moment, he's that nervous boy again, and you're that girl who loves him.
The space closes as he leans down, studying your face carefully. โYou got much better at it, but I canโt help but be so fucking mad it wasnโt me who taught you.โ
โYeah, I feel the same,โ you arch your hips, earning snowy lashes fluttering shut, his breath ghosting against your skin. โAll those girls got you first.โ
โGuess what?โ He lifts a thigh, pressing his cock against your heat โ you gasp out at it, biting down at your lip.
โW-what, manwhore fratboy,โ he smirks.
โSlutty goth girl.โ
โConceited dick,โ youโre arching for more, he pins your wrist to the soft earth below, weight pressing over you. โSay it, then.โ
โI am still in love with that girl on the rooftop,โ you take a shaky breath, breasts rising and falling then. โI never fell out of love with her. I was just fucking dumb and ran away, and Iโm hoping sheโll forgive me, and that sheโll date a conceited jock idiot.โ
โHeโs still a nerd deep down,โ you answer, lips trembling now. โYouโre gonna make me mushy, you dick.โ
โGood, I want to see mushy, I wanna see whatโs under your mean little exterior,โ he whispers, pressing again. โLike when youโre a mess underneath me.โ
โSatoruโฆโ You drag him down for a kiss, mouths clashing, tongues dancing along each other, the sound of his soft moan and the grass underneath you mixing with your little whimper. โMmm, Satoru, I fucking love you too. Okay!?โ
The words hang in the air between you both.
Satoru just stares at you for a moment, his blue eyes wide and vulnerable in a way you've never seen before. His lips part like he wants to say something, but nothing comes out, closing again, before his Adam's apple bobs up and down, taking a breath.
"Youโฆ" His voice cracks. "You still love me?"
โOf course I do dummy,โ you whisper, but your own voice is shaking, vision swimming with all of those emotions coming to the surface. His forehead presses to yours, his hands trembling where they cup your face.
"I thought I'd fucked it up so bad that you'd neverโฆ that we'd neverโฆ"
โNo, Satoru, you were just a kid,โ you sigh now, tears slipping down your cheek. โI was scared that this was just fun with the weirdo from your past.โ
โNo, sweetheart,โ he shakes his head, swiping more of your tears. โIt was never just that.โ He laughs then, shaking his head at you.ย
โWhatโs so funny?โ You shove at him, glaring as he continues to laugh.
โWhat an fucking angry love confession that was!?โ
โDonโt you complain,โ you shove playfully, sniffling tears that are a mix of love, emotions, desire. โIโm also a jealous bitch, so if I see those girls on you after weโre official? Iโll throw down.โ
โGod youโre making me even harder,โ his grin is devious, but then heโs tugging your panties to the side, fingers finding you. โGuess what, sweetheart?โ
โWhat - ngh!โ Satoruโs fingers stretch open before they scissor you, watching the mess you are underneath him, your hair spread all over like a fucking dream.
โYou wonโt be allowed to leave slutty like this,โ you gasp, shoving at him and glaring, but heโs grinning psychotically. โNot without me fucking all my cum into you first, that is.โ
โPsycho,โ you mumble it affectionately, he grins wider, curling those fingers and hearing the messy sounds of your cunt. โThat makes me wetter.โ
โYouโre toxic too,โ you arch for more, drowning in him, the soft moonlight glowing behind his form. โYouโll drip me at campus, youโll stop hiding from me when you go to all my football games,โ your eyes widened. โYeah, I see you, think youโre slick?โ
โI justโฆ fuck off and kiss me.โ
You drag him down, and his mouth moves over yours, fingers scissoring in and out, causing so much pressure youโre about too cum. โSo easy fโme, youโll let me fuck you before you go to any class, wonโt you?โ
โMmm, says you, ready to beat a bunch of cheerleaders for me?โ You drag him down again.
โShh,โ Satoruโs yanking those fingers out, slipping your own slick across your lips and then kissing you with it. You hastily slip open his jeans, gasping out when his tip presses. โIn me, please.โ
โYouโre sweet when it comes to my cock,โ he taunts, lifting your thigh even higher, blue eyes dilated almost black. โTell me you love me again.โ
โYou mushy ass,โ you grumble, shaking your head only to get his tip pressing up your slit against your clit. โMnh!โ
โYouโll fuck me right outside where anyone can see?โ
โYou talk too much,โ youโre rolling your hips, dying for him to slip inside you again, but Satoru pulls back even more, kissing up the side of your neck. โMnh, pleaseโฆ I said please, okay?โ
โWanna hear it,โ he whispers, brushing your hair off your face, cock throbbing and leaking on your puffy folds, lips hovering. โSay it.โ
โYouโre so conceited,โ he grins, making you sigh, leaning up on your elbows and brushing his hair back, feeling its silky texture through your fingers. โI love you. I have always loved you, even when I hated you. Okay?โ
He kisses you deep, messy, sliding in and filling you full in one stroke, yanking a pretty tit out and moaning, tongue lapping around it and bringing you higher. โI love your tits god.โ
โJust them!?โ
โYour pussy too.โ
โSatoru!โ He chuckles, looking down at your cute little glare.
โYour drawings of me, the way you look at me like you wanna kill me and fuck me,โ he pulls back and slams in again, fucking you right behind that party, where youโre both all alone under the stars. He exhales and touches your tummy, moaning. โLove how I fill you up here. Gonna pump so much cum inside you.โ
โMnh,โ youโre flipped on top of him in a quick motion, so Satoru can look at your silhouette again, groaning as you ride him up and down, rolling your hips.
โLove those too,โ he grips them, exhaling. โMean little goth.โ
โI love you, nerd wanna be fratboy,โ he glares and you glare right back, until Satoru presses up inside you, hugging you around the waist, capturing your lips in his.
โFuck I love you,โ he whispers, letting you slam down on him and groaning against your collarbone, teeth nipping the skin, murmuring your name as he fills you up completely.
A jock and a grungy art girl riding his cock on the outside โ but deep down youโre just two nerdy kids that loved to look at the stars, and loved each other.
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in public and in private, he's always listening to you and overall being at your beck and call. he's the type of guy who's not afraid to show vulnerability.
and sometimes, he'd hear other men whispering about his alleged "pussy behavior", gossiping like a bunch of old ladies with nothing to do. he's never bothered by itโbecause as long as he's making you happy who cares about what others say.
back at home, he makes sure to pamper you with whatever you want. cheesy rom-coms? sure. food? he'll make it. bath? with extra bubbles. and by the time you're both in bed and making out slowly, the lights dim and mood setโthat's when he slowly takes control.
he'd manhandle you into the position he wants, keeping your body under his as he rams his thick, veiny cock into your sopping wet pussy over and over again.
you're so wet that your pussy's making lewd squelching noises, sucking him in oh-so-greedily. the feeling of your warm and tight walls squeezing around him like it doesn't want him out makes him fuck you even harder.
by the time he's done with you, you're trembling on the bed, barely able to catch your breath, chest heaving and expression dazed. you're completely ruined and utterly his.
he makes sure you're comfortable when you settle in for the night, having helped you clean up the mess. his strong arms wrap loosely around you, gentle now despite how he is in bed.
oh, and he's soft by nature so imagine him whispering sweet nothings while he's destroying you in mating press :)
To all my bitches in their 20s please do not waste this time thinking you're ugly. I'm begging you not to. Try not to speak unkindly of yourself, try to do things FOR YOU that are self care. If that's nails, if that's an at home spa day, if that's the full works shower where you shave everything, if that's a hair mask, if it's walking for fifteen minutes or just doing your makeup to wear around the house I don't care what it is do it.
If you continue to fall into bad habits of speaking rudely to yourself, of not believing in yourself it's only going to get harder the older you get. Society is not kind to women, especially not aging women, which we all do. Please I implore you to look in the mirror today and compliment yourself on at least one thing. It can be physical it can be a personality trait you have, anything but you have to look yourself in the eye and you have to mean it.
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๐๐ no lube, no protection, all night, all day, from the kitchen floor to the toilet seat, from the dining table to the bedroom, from the bathroom sink to the shower, from the front porch to the balcony, vertically, horizontally, quadratic, exponent al, logarithmic, while i gasp for air, scream and see the light, missionary, cowgirl, reverse cow girl, doggy, backwards, forwards, sideways, upside down, on the floor, in the bed, on the couch, on a chair, being carried against the wall, outside, in a train, on a plane, in the car, on a motorcycle, the bed of a truck, on a trampoline, in a bounce house, in the ool, bent over, in the basement, against the window, have the most toe curling, back arching, leg shaking, dick thribbing, first clenching, ear rining, mouth drooling, ass clenching, nose sniffling, eye watering, eye rolling, hip thrusting, earthquaking, sheet gripping, knuckles cracking, jaw dropping, hair pulling. teeth jitterbug, mind blogging, soul snatching, overstimulating, vile, sloppy, moan inducing, heart wrenching, spine tingling, back breaking, atrocious, gushy, creamy, beastly, lip bitting, gravity defying, nail biting, sweaty, feet kicking, mind blowing, body shivering, orgasmic, bone breaking, world ending, black hole creating, universe destroying, devious, scrumptious, amazing, delightful, delectable, unbelievable, body numbing, bark worthy, cant walk, head nodding, soul evaporating, volcano erupting, sweat rolling, voice cracking, trembling, sheets soaked, hair drenched, flabbergasting, lip locking, skin peeling, eyelash removing, eye widening, pussy popping, nail stractching, back cuts, spectacular, brain cell desolving, hair ripping, show stopping, magnificent, unique, extraordinary, slendid, phenomenal, mouth foaming, heavenly, awakening, devils tangos, he could put a nuclear bomb inside me and i'd still ride.